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[vexheart]

[bloombound]

[junkie-girls-guide-2-life]

“Isn’t it terrifying to realize this is going to be your life forever. Sober one minute high the next. The saddest part is when you embrace it with all you are. This is me. This is as good as it gets.”

— experience

[theinternetarchive]

2pac's 'all eyez on me' cd packaging, 1996.

[beautifulyhorrific]

[welcometoaddiction]

“When you’re using drugs, you’re driven by this mystical black energy, a force inside you that just won’t quit. And the weaker you get, the more you feed into that energy, and the more it fucks with you. When your spirit becomes dark and your lifestyle becomes dark, your existence is susceptible to infiltration by dark spirits. I’ve seen it so many times with addicts. You can see that they’re controlled by dark energy, the way they look, their appearance, their voice, their behavior, it’s not them.”

— Anthony Kiedis

[longlived0pe]

[words-cutdeep]

Pills & addiction

I take 8 16

Sometimes more

Every once in a while i take as many as i can

My feet and hands tingle

And then its all numb

My mind goes quiet

As if they fix my mental pain too

I take as many as i can

Listen to music

And try to fade away

Into the empty space

Its dark there

Yet not scary

I forget everything

I forget i live

Some nights i hope it never ends

I hope i never wake up

Its a scary heaven

Its a mess

Yet its so calming

Its like being manipulated

Its wrong

But it doesnt feel wrong

Not untill after

After you relise how horrible it was for you

But then you want more

You want the same dark silence

You wish you never took them at the start

But its too late

The desicion was made

Addiction has no sympathy

It doesnt care who you are or how hurt you are

It makes false promises

It makes the pain go away

But after it all comes back

You chase it to feel better

And before you relise it

You need it to feel okay

The heart and mind are gifts

Thoughts and feels can be amazing

But the same thoughts and feelings can break you they can ruin you till theres nothing left

Even when i feel empty and numb

I crave pills

It gets worse

To the point i cant not

I try

I really do

But truth is

Im addicted

I cant just quit

They make me feel okay

They make it easier

I close my eyes and instead of trauma

I get greeted with a cold yet warm emptiness

The emptiness i always feel

Yet somehow this one is different

This one is softer

Its more loving

Its like a safe place

It feels like a hug

You know its fake

You know its not good for you

But just like cutting it feels amazing

Even though you know its horrible for you

It doesnt matter

For a second it feels like the pains gone

It makes you forget all the wrong

Sometimes you just sleep

Other times its energy

Like waking up from a good nap

Sometimes i feel untouchable on them

But its all fake

At the time it feels real

But its not

Im chasing happiness

Happiness i wont get

Happiness that was never there

But it felt like it was

[bsch0tmess]

[methampheromone]

Or several

[sadly-happyy]

[theaddictspoetry]

I've lived I've loved I've been on the run, for so long- from the past, from myself, I try to escape my own mind which ends in destruction of my own design there's no where to hide, no way outside my mind. @theaddictspoetry

[hannahkeller969]

Self Inflicted(TW*)

With a needle in hand and ice in her veins,

She carves her pain onto her skin with no restrain.

Blood drips like tears from her broken heart,

The addiction consumes her, tearing her apart.

Each prick of the needle brings temporary relief,

But the scars on her skin are a cruel thief.

She's trapped in a cycle of self-inflicted pain,

Unable to break free from the addiction's chain.

She longs to escape the torment within,

But the only escape she knows is through sin.

The needle and ice are her only solace,

A twisted form of self-inflicted malice.

She's a prisoner of her own twisted mind,

Trapped in a world where pain is all she finds.

But deep down she knows, she can never be free,

For the addiction has taken her soul, with no key.

[nicolethedopefiendqueen]

Why is everyone so quick to judge drug addicts ? Do you have any idea how depressed or sad you have to be to rely on drugs everyday to take away your pain?

[oooopsydaisies]

“Addiction is like a stray dog on your doorstep; once you feed it, it will hound you until it’s convinced there’s no one’s home.”

— Haile Simms (via haiafterrehab)

[oooopsydaisies]

““Once you tried drugs, there’s no going back. Just like once you fall in love, you can’t just let them go. Or like your first time having sex, you can’t just stop having sex. Drugs are apart of Nature’s earthly cycle. Addiction is natural. Drugs are natural.””

— @medicatednfaded (via medicatednfaded)

[junkie-girls-guide-2-life]

“We’re often asked, “Why dope?” This question is not easily answered, most of the time we don’t have any idea but we can’t stop. After a while its just life, you can’t live with the drugs… but you can’t live without them even more. We get high because the world’s uncomfortable, uninteresting and unbearable. Always.”

— When You’re a Junkie Anything Can Be Justified. (via missoracle)