The Addicts Poetry

I write all the poetry on my tumblr. In recovery-Christina💘 follow on insta @theaddictspoetry

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my poetry eBook on addiction OUT NOW!!!

Addicted by Christina Banks

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Hey have any rates for some spun fun let me know if you're interested love

Where do you see that on my page? This is a page where I write poetry on addiction, this is not "fun". I pray you finally heal one day,

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We only have one life

Only get one shot

If you're lucky-

Your past mistakes, won't haunt you.

So try your best,

Dress the best,

Live,

Regardless what people think,

Cause in the end,

We only regret

Chances we didn't take,

Do it

Before it's too late,

To save your life.

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I'm too busy

Trying to "fit in"

Pretending-

To be normal

I'm too intense

I feel extremes

Happiness like fireworks

Rage like fire

Sadness like a hurricane

Who can withstand these storms without suffocating?

Cause I'm just barely breathing as it is...

Tell me,

If no one will stay with me,

Then why would I even want to stay with myself?

(why can't I leave me too....?)

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I finally found the voice

The answer

The only one who truly understands me

Is myself

All we truly have is ourselves-

And that makes me so sad,

That I just want to die.

Crazy, isn't it?-

Just a simple, normal, statement,

Raises my emotions so high,

That I truly believe dying or getting high

Is the only way out.

THINK ABOUT IT.

I Think that should wake people up more.

A poem/ journal quote I wrote on addiction and BPD together)

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Feeling down again,

I'll try to be okay,

But it's kinda hard when I'm holding a gun to the head

I've found, I'm not the same

As others

If it counts, I've tried to be the one who doesn't need anyone,

I'll just stand here, again

Taking it all,

Just as I've always done,

Now . . .

I'm coming undone,

I'll try to be okay,

But it's kinda hard,

I'm holding a gun to my head.

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Addiction is like a test

I’m striving to do my best

I study for hours and hours

Reading the very best.

My minds like a puzzle

I’m working on

Trying to complete

But sometimes, my mind stays on repeat

Repeating the past memories

But I will never admit defeat

For this is a test I MUST pass

For now, this is life or death now.

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Do you notice how my hands shake when I'm about to break?

Or how my eyes stray away from gazing eyes? Wondering if they're judging me inside.

Do you realize how hard it is?

Each day fighting just to stay alive-

Fighting these daily mental battles,

Praying to a God,

Hoping I'll be okay, another day in this invisible war.

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I'm a prisoner of my mind the key is long gone my minds been gone for so long....

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I sold my soul, now my hearts gone cold shivering yet sweating with no where to go this beautifully disguised devil She takes it all your money your house your body it won't let you go don't let her(oin) steal your soul.

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What hurts the most the could have beens, should have beens, what's left unsaid- always replaying in my head the tears we shed when we go to bed- they come in waves, some days we're drowning but most days, we're just trying to get by, I just wait for the end cause when I sleep I no longer feel the pain when I wake it all replays all over again that you're not here.

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RIP MY LOVE.

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It's my 7 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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All this anxiety inside of me what could've been, should've been, makes it so hard to see. Cause fears are all I hear and I hold back all my tears so they don't see how hard it is to breathe.

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The past haunts me like a ghost I can't escape. The future, it gives me anxiety- shaking, as if i was left in the cold I try to stay present, but it's as if my mind travels through memories. I wish and wish to be set free of this prison of mind.

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Heroin. you took a part of my mind I can never get back I was once a girl who enjoyed things now i'm a shell of my past of what I once enjoyed i'm now an empty body just existing. if you come across HER(oin) i beg you, turn your BACK!!!

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Addiction is like being cursed. A disease without a true cure. We never asked for this. I never even asked to be born.. Everyone around me chantin' the same song, I swear I'm just trying to be strong, say the wrong phrase i'll be triggered anyway, what does everyone believe in? They say everything happens for a reason but I have my reasons for not believin' I get it though, I'm full of sin, I'm just trying to heal within...

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I don't want to feel a thing a single feeling, so I plan the destructive ways just so my tears won't sting..

(but they sting anyway)

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