Samantha Paxton

MDNI | Mod born '97 | Shadow Company's 5-09

[shadow-5-09]

"What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?" -Vincent Van Gogh

Boundaries & Rules

1.) Do Not Interacts - Minors (18+ welcome to interact) - Accounts without an age or birth year listed - Racists - Homophobes & Transphobes - Terfs - Literally anyone trying to shove any of their beliefs (no matter the topic) down another's throat

2.) Bigotry, bullying, etc will immediately be deleted and the user will be blocked.

3.) Be kind to all - others, the mod, and yourself.

4.) I welcome you to use me and my content as inspiration, but do not repost and/or claim it as your own.

5.) I do not consent to, nor condone, the use of my works for any form of AI.

6.) Moodboards, playlists, human-made art work, etc are welcome! Please credit @lilbardrhi (me, hello!) when posting.

7.) Asks are OPEN! Keep it reasonable with NSFW content. I'm a stragner on the internet, don't make it weird. Moots, go crazy! I really don't mind what you put in my ask box if we are moots. <3

8.) Heed content warnings and tags! I will do my best to tag appropriately and content warnings will always be listed at the top of the chapter and/or in the masterlist for the fic, but it is ultimately up to you to police your content consumption.

About the Mod

Hey there! I'm Rhi.~ Now that we're through the technical things, let me tell you a bit about me!

I am a single mother to 1 human boy and 1 dog boy.

I am a demisexual, panromantic demiwoman... that feels like a mouthful LOL

"Rhi" is pronounced "Ree" or "pterodactyl screech".

Any pronouns work, though I prefer she/her.

I am riddled with various mental illnesses and am willing to discuss them! I'm also working on certain diagnoses for other mental illnesses. Feel free to ask about my diagnoses as long as you intend on being respectful about it.

I am the youngest of 3 - sister, brother, me. Press 'F' in chat to pay respects to my middle-child brother.

Blog Links

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[catchameme]

Send a word and "+ HC" and I will write a headcanon for my muse based on the word(s) sent!

[thunderousmemes]

𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐄 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒 

(starters inspired by too many drinks, city lights, and the kind of honesty that only comes after midnight)

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐀𝐑 𝐈𝐒 𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐃 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐈𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐆

“You look like you could use another drink… or a bad decision.”

“Don’t tell me you came here alone.”

“I’m not drunk, I’m just—emotionally flexible right now.”

“One more round, and I might actually tell you what I’m thinking.”

“I didn’t plan on running into you here.”

“You’ve got that look—like you’re either about to confess something or start a fight.”

“You’re staring again. Should I take that as an invitation?”

“You ever think about how many bad ideas start with a shot glass?”

“You dance like you’re trying to forget something.”

“It’s way past decent hours—what are you still doing out?”

𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐒𝐊𝐄𝐘 𝐓𝐎𝐎 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐆, 𝐄𝐘𝐄𝐒 𝐓𝐎𝐎 𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓

“You can stop pretending you’re fine. Nobody believes it after their third drink.”

“I thought you didn’t drink anymore.”

“It’s funny—liquor makes you honest, but you still can’t say what you really want, can you?”

“You shouldn’t walk home alone. I’ll come with you.”

“You always talk like this when you’ve had too much.”

“You smell like smoke and regret. It suits you.”

“Let’s make a pact—we don’t talk about this in the morning.”

“You shouldn’t have kissed me. But I’m not asking you to stop.”

“You ever get drunk enough to think the world might love you back?”

“We’re both going to regret this tomorrow, aren’t we?”

𝐋𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒 𝐅𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐄𝐑, 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐒 𝐒𝐋𝐈𝐏

“What’s the worst thing you’ve ever done? I’ll go first.”

“Tell me a truth—just one. The kind you’d never say sober.”

“You’re going to forget this conversation in the morning, right?”

“If I told you I missed you, would you blame the alcohol?”

“You keep drinking like you’re trying to forget something. Or someone.”

“I didn’t mean to call you. My hands just remembered your number.”

“Why are you crying? Don’t tell me it’s just the gin.”

“You said you don’t love me anymore, but you’re still here.”

“Do you ever wonder how we got this lost?”

“Sometimes, I think the night listens better than people do.”

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐀𝐅𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐆𝐋𝐎𝐖 — quiet streets, unspoken things

“I’ll walk you home. You can pretend you don’t need me to.”

“It’s too late for goodbyes, isn’t it?”

“We shouldn’t have let it get this far.”

“You can hold my hand. Just for tonight.”

“Do you ever wish you’d met me sober?”

“Don’t fall asleep yet. The world feels softer when it’s still spinning.”

“Stay until the city forgets our names.”

“You look different under the streetlights.”

“Promise me you won’t vanish when morning comes.”

“I don’t know what I’ll remember most — the taste of the drink, or you.”

[spunsugarmusings]

Anonymous Letters!

Send my muse an anonymous letter, from and to anyone and everyone you can imagine, and my muse will respond as if they found it. It can be anything, from an admission of love to a poison pen, as long as the mun's rules are respected.

Alternately, send a 💌 to find an anonymous unsent letter from my muse to an unknown recipient.

[crownmemes]

Send 🍽️ for my muse to make your muse a meal!

(Add "+ 🔄" or "+ reverse" to reverse the scenario, where your muse makes mine a meal. Remember to specify character and/or verse if relevant)

[the-rubber-band]

Reblog if you're okay with people coming into your dms or ask box with storylines and rp ideas!

[forgottenstarlightwishes]

Send a 🎁 📬 + an item your muse ordered:

For a drabble of my muse delivering it to them!

[rpm3mes]

Send "I care about you." For my muses reaction!

[collective-not-found]

SILLY BILLY ASK GAME ! ⭐️

🐛 ~ what's your favorite bug?

🎨 ~ what's your favorite color?

🪼 ~ what's your favorite sea animal?

🐾 ~ what's your favorite domestic animal?

🎧 ~ what was the last song you listened to?

🎸 ~ what's your favorite band?

🎤 ~ who's your favorite music artist?

🌿 ~ what's your favorite plant?

🌼 ~ what's your favorite flower?

🧸 ~ do you have stuffed animals? if so, how many?

🎀 ~ what accessories do you wear most often? (eg. bracelets, necklaces)

🎉 ~ what's your favorite holiday?

☁️ ~ what's your favorite season?

🪐 ~ what's your favorite planet?

🏳️‍🌈 ~ what are your pronouns (EXTENSIVE list!)?

🏷️ ~ how many nicknames do you go by?

📒 ~ what's your favorite genre of book?

💤 ~ what time do you go to bed?

🍭 ~ what's your favorite candy?

🤍 ~ who's your favorite mutual?

🖇️ ~ how many mutuals do you have?

🧷 ~ how many followers do you have?

🎻 ~ do you like classical music? who's your favorite composer?

🥯 ~ what's your favorite breakfast food?

🖍️ ~ do you do art? if so, what media? (eg. digital, painting, sculpting)

📌 ~ have you ever traveled out of your birth country?

🛩️ ~ have you ever been on a flight?

🛸 ~ do you believe in aliens?

🎹 ~ do you play any instruments? if so, which one(s)?

[busyw0man]

⋆｡‧˚ʚ💋ɞ˚‧｡⋆  𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝  𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫  𝐭𝐞𝐱𝐭 (pt. 2)

[  TXT  ]  :  i’m  outside.  don’t  look  out  the  window.

[  TXT  ]  :  hypothetical.  if  i  stole  a  horse.  would  you  help.

[  TXT  ]  :  emergency.  answer  immediately.  do  you  trust  me?

[  TXT  ]  :  say  you’re  home  alone  right  now.

[  TXT  ]  :  don’t  panic.  but  where  did  you  put  the  spare  key.

[  TXT  ]  :  are  you  awake?  this  cannot  wait  until  morning.

[  TXT  ]  :  quick  question.  how  attached  are  you  to  your  car?

[  TXT  ]  :  okay  listen.  this  is  going  to  sound  bad.  but  hear  me  out.

[  TXT  ]  :  don’t  ask  why.  just  wear  black.

[  TXT  ]  :  i  need  you  to  lie  for  me.

[  TXT  ]  :  be  honest.  are  you  flirting  with  me  or  am  i  delusional?

[  TXT  ]  :  i  can’t  sleep.  tell  me  something  interesting.

[  TXT  ]  :  stop  looking  at  me  like  that.

[  TXT  ]  :  remind  me  why  we’re  pretending  this  is  nothing.

[  TXT  ]  :  i  almost  texted  you.  deleted  it.  this  is  attempt  two.

[  TXT  ]  :  are  you  trying  to  ruin  my  life  or  just  my  self  control?

[  TXT  ]  :  tell  me  you’re  thinking  about  me.  i  need  proof.

[  TXT  ]  :  i  miss  you.  i  hate  that  i  do.

[  TXT  ]  :  don’t  come  over.

[  TXT  ]  :  i  shouldn’t  ask  this.  but  are  you  alone?

[  TXT  ]  :  every  song  sounds  like  you.  explain  yourself.

[  TXT  ]  :  i  keep  rereading  old  messages.  don’t  judge  me.

[  TXT  ]  :  say  something  that  will  make  me  stay.

[  TXT  ]  :  if  i  show  up.  will  you  let  me  in?

[  TXT  ]  :  i  don’t  know  how  to  want  you  quietly.

[  TXT  ]  :  do  you  ever  think  about  what  we  almost  were?

[  TXT  ]  :  this  is  me  being  brave.

[  TXT  ]  :  i  miss  the  way  you  used  to  look  at  me.

[  TXT  ]  :  tell  me  to  stop.

[  TXT  ]  :  i  hate  that  you  still  feel  like  home.

[hollowprompts]

🤐 𝐧𝐨𝐧-𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐛𝐚𝐥 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 : 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘵 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘴. 𝘯𝘰 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘦𝘥, 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰𝘶𝘤𝘩. 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘥 (+ 𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦) 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘰𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘦.

🕊️ 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐧𝐞: 𝐧𝐨𝐧-𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐛𝐚𝐥 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞

01. gently brushing the other's hair out of their face to tuck behind their ear. 02. wrapping a blanket around their shoulders from behind. 03. brushing tears off of their cheeks. 04. reaching out hesitantly before resting a hand on their back. 05. placing a cup of tea or coffee in front of them. 06. sitting beside them while they are asleep to watch over them. 07. sharing silence with them. 08. pulling them into a tight hug. 09. writing something quietly and passing them the note. 10. fixing a piece of their clothing carefully.

🔥 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐰𝐨: 𝐧𝐨𝐧-𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐛𝐚𝐥 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐟𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫

01. staring at them in silence for a long moment before walking away. 02. slamming a door shut without explanation. 03. packing their things up, slowly and deliberately. 04. breathing sharply through their nose and refusing to meet their eyes. 05. cleaning something obsessively in silence.

🥀 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞: 𝐧𝐨𝐧-𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐛𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐮𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐝𝐫𝐢𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧

01. running their thumb over the others bottom lip slowly. 02. standing just a little too close, enough to feel each others breath. 03. grazing their knuckles along the other's hip or thigh in passing. 04. undoing the top button of their shirt while holding eye contact. 05. leaning in like they're going to kiss and then pausing shyly. 06. sliding a hand under their chin to tilt their head up.

[zachrp]

ᝰ🚬 𝚉𝙰𝙲𝙷𝚁𝙿 .ᐟ RANDOM TEXT MESSAGE PROMPTS. CHANGE ANY PRONOUNS IF NECESSARY. SOME MATURE THEMES MAY BE PRESENT.

[TXT] : answer the question.

[TXT] : you left your jacket here.

[TXT] : ignore that last message.

[TXT] : must be my fault somehow.

[TXT] : this was a bad idea but i'm doing it anyway.

[TXT] : guess i misunderstood the vibe.

[TXT] : i'm only texting you because i'm drunk.

[TXT] : i can't stop thinking about your hands.

[TXT] : you're not gonna believe this..

[TXT] : i'm blushing shut up.

[TXT] : okay wait no don't answer that.

[TXT] : i didn't say anything because i didn't want to argue.

[TXT] : be honest with me.

[TXT] : are you free tonight?

[TXT] : i'll explain later, just call me now!

[TXT] : i like it when you looked at me like that.

[TXT] : i should stop texting before this escalates.

[TXT] : i keep rereading that message.

[TXT] : are you trying to distract me on purpose.

[TXT] : i hate that you were right.

[TXT] : you'd be so proud of me right now and also disappointed.

[TXT] : cheers to bad decisions.

[TXT] : i had a dream about you.

[TXT] : i thought you were coming?

[TXT] : wow that's crazy.

[TXT] : it's whatever honestly.

[TXT] : your stuff is still here.

[TXT] : open the door.

[TXT] : what are you doing right now?

[TXT] : don't screenshot this.

[TXT] : don't make me ask twice.

[TXT] : i'm grabbing coffee, want one?

[TXT] : what are we?

[TXT] : no really it's fine.

[TXT] : you don't have to lie.

[TXT] : i don't feel great.

[TXT] : don't rush i've only been waiting.

[TXT] : i forgot the grocery list.

[TXT] : don't do this over text.

[TXT] : did i do something wrong?

[TXT] : i don't trust myself around you.

[TXT] : running late sorry.

[TXT] : you make it hard to be good.

[TXT] : i told myself i wouldn't text you tonight.

[TXT] : are you mad at me.

[TXT] : please answer me.

[TXT] : i told you not to do that.

[TXT] : can i come over?

[TXT] : i'm outside.

[TXT] : you're being unfair.

[TXT] : that's not an excuse.

[TXT] : can you stay on the phone with me?

[TXT] : are you busy?

[TXT] : please tell me you're okay.

[TXT] : i think i fucked up.

[TXT] : i need to vent.

[TXT] : do you want food?

[TXT] : this is messing with my head.

[TXT] : i should not be imagining this right now.

[TXT] : are you mad at me?

[TXT] : please say something.

[TXT] : can you lie for me?

[TXT] : i found your keys!

[TXT] : i just thought you'd let me know.

[TXT] : i know you're awake.

[TXT] : stay the night.

[TXT] : you look good and you know it.

[TXT] : this reminded me of you!

[TXT] : this conversation is not helping my self control.

[TXT] : i love how you only respond when it's convenient.

[TXT] : i love you and i hate that i love you.

[TXT] : you left me on read.

[TXT] : i cleared my schedule.

[TXT] : i can't keep doing this.

[TXT] : are you alone?

[TXT] : stuck in traffic.

[TXT] : you could've just said no.

[TXT] : i don't want to be alone.

[TXT] : who are you with?

[TXT] : something has to change.

[TXT] : if you were here right now i'd be in serious trouble.

[TXT] : i'm done.

[TXT] : don't tease me.

[TXT] : i'm getting worried.

[TXT] : oh okay i guess we're not talking anymore.

[TXT] : where are you??

[TXT] : i'm thinking about you.

[TXT] : i hate nights like this without you.

[TXT] : can you come get me?

[TXT] : look up.

[TXT] : i trust you.

[TXT] : i need help.

[TXT] : this is flirting right?

[TXT] : i changed my mind about earlier.

[TXT] : it's fine do whatever you want.

[TXT] : it's not what it looked like, okay?

[TXT] : my brain won't shut up about last night.

[TXT] : please come get me before i make worse choices.

[TXT] : that was not funny.

[TXT] : i'm proud of you.

[TXT] : i don't know why i'm telling you this.

[TXT] : i'm sorry, i should've said something sooner

[TXT] : please don't be mad..

[TXT] : are you coming over or just teasing me?

[TXT] : i won't bother you again.

[TXT] : i almost sent this three times.

[TXT] : did you get home safe?

[TXT] : you don't owe me anything clearly.

[TXT] : i miss you.

[TXT] : guess who i just ran into..

[TXT] : i can't sleep.

[TXT] : i need clarity.

[TXT] : tell me to behave.

[TXT] : okay fine you win.

[TXT] : hello?

[TXT] : you did good.

[TXT] : do you miss me?

[TXT] : i'm bored, entertain me.

[TXT] : are you safe??

[TXT] : you're unbelievable.

[TXT] : i shouldn't have said what i said earlier.

[TXT] : i hope you're asleep because this is embarrassing.

[TXT] : don't ever say that again.

[TXT] : are you flirting with me?

[TXT] : you owe me gas money.

[TXT] : stop avoiding me.

[TXT] : call me when you see this!

[TXT] : you still mad?

[TXT] : can we talk in person?

[TXT] : can i crash at your place?

[TXT] : you're going to get me in trouble.

[TXT] : i'm spiraling.

[TXT] : you're doing this on purpose.

[TXT] : okay i'm done texting now.

[TXT] : you look cute.

[TXT] : glad you had fun.

[TXT] : i'm exhausted.

[TXT] : i'm trying to be respectful but you're not helping.

[TXT] : why would you think that was okay??

[TXT] : i want to move on.

[TXT] : thanks for the heads up i guess.

[TXT] : you left your panties here for a reason didn't you.

[TXT] : you know exactly what you're doing.

[TXT] : please don't tell anyone.

[TXT] : remember when we said we wouldn't do this again.

[TXT] : i can't find my shoes.

[TXT] : do you always do this or just to me?

[TXT] : tell me you don't miss me so i can shut up.

[TXT] : you crossed a line.

[TXT] : you up?

[TXT] : you didn't have to do that.

[TXT] : don't get smug.

[TXT] : i'm on my way!

[TXT] : i should not be saying this.

[TXT] : remind me to tell you later.

[TXT] : come over.

[angelprompts]

send “🌿🍒” (or "mistletoe") for my muse's reaction to standing under a mistletoe with your muse  ♡

[shadow-5-09]

🤔

[cmdr-graves]

If given a second glance from anyone else on the boat dock, it'd be hard to tell he's military. From the loafers to the polo, he's a picture in suburban man.

Today, he is not the Commander with a plan. Today, he'll be sloshed with his phone off and not catch a single fish.

The truck bed opens with a thunk, old metal on metal - ready for a myriad of items to be unloaded and carried out to the boat. Unlike when he's at work, it feels good to do the labor himself, like the time he spends at the gym makes it worth this.

And finally, once Liquid Asset's been untied, his dog's safely leashed-

"Y'ready t'rock 'n roll?"

[shadow-5-09]

"What took you so long?" Sam huffs from the boat.

She's already seated in it, ready to go and sunscreen slathered all over her face... and head, considering she shaves it. There's an orange flannel shirt over her shoulders, tied at her navel, and the girl's sportin' jean shorts.

"Y'know, for someone who's been amped about this trip for over a month, you sure do move slow," she smirks, giving him hell before they're even on the water. "Gimme," she insists, reaching out for Tank's leash.

[shadow-5-09]

This is... the boss here, so it won't hurt to go with him... right? It's not like Sam needs much convincing. There's a puppy and she wants to help take care of it.

"I can help," she agrees, following happily.

[cmdr-graves]

And there Graves goes, outside to a hose hookup that their landscaper typically uses. Well, and the occasional Shadow needing to be hosed down. Standing there is another one of them, presumably the one Graves told to go get pet supplies as he's holding a PetCo bag in his hand. The poor guy doesn't even get a thanks when Graves takes the bag from him.

"Now, boy, you're gonna be good, right? Not gonna run or anythin'?" He finally turns to Sam with a dumb smile on his face. "You're gettin' your hands dirty - not me."

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"Your pup, you get to help," Sam insists with a cocky smirk.

Before Sam kneels to help with the pup, she gives the other Shadow a thankful smile.

"Let's get him clean. Not sure if we got flea shampoo in there. I'll order the good stuff once we get him his first bath, though."

Sam gently scratches the back of the pup's head, encouraging him to stay put while Graves digs for shampoo.

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Sam has to contain a snort at the flea flying off the pup, hand flying to her mouth to hide her reaction a bit.

"Maverick could work. Just don't go calling him Rooster or Ice Man," Sam insists as she soaks in the sight of Graves falling head over heels for this puppy.

[cmdr-graves]

Graves doesn't hide the way he rolls his eyes at Sam's comment. Of course she caught his reference.

"'M not sold on it. Y'gonna help me wrangle 'im for a bath or are ya too busy?" He hoists the pup up in his arms with a step toward the door, seemingly not concerned with whether Sam was following or not.

[shadow-5-09]

This is... the boss here, so it won't hurt to go with him... right? It's not like Sam needs much convincing. There's a puppy and she wants to help take care of it.

"I can help," she agrees, following happily.

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"Fair enough," I nod. "Scottie would be my suggestion. As for logos... I'll find an Etsy shop to order custom products from."

Sam glances up from her phone, taking in how he's holding the pup.

"I think they'll know he's yours, sir," she chuckles.

[cmdr-graves]

Graves tries the name out a few times, rolling it over his tongue, scratching the pup's belly to the sound of it. In a look back up at Sam, he grins. Leave it to a dog to fix his temper.

"I was thinkin' Maverick. Look how big this guy's paws are -" He moves to flop a paw, which sends a flea flying.

"Or Tank. What'd'ya think o' that, buddy? Tank?"

[shadow-5-09]

Sam has to contain a snort at the flea flying off the pup, hand flying to her mouth to hide her reaction a bit.

"Maverick could work. Just don't go calling him Rooster or Ice Man," Sam insists as she soaks in the sight of Graves falling head over heels for this puppy.