A Whisper to the Wind

I am a hoarder of awesome things such as Doctor Who, Sherlock, Firefly, Ghibli, Adventure Time, Community, Vampire Diaries and video games. I am a female, 23 years old, a psych major , and I occasionally enjoy ranting "to the wind". Oooo crafty!

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EXO’s Baekhyun X SISTAR’s Soyou collab for “Rain” MV!

Are you loving this beautiful duet and accompany music video?

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Katniss became a human symbol in the Hunger Games trilogy, her very existence was a symbol of hope. Trump is also a symbol, but one that gives power to the darkest and most grotesque sides of humanity. I don’t know if the tragedy in Quebec is a result of the symbol that Trump has become, but I don’t deny that his symbol has made sweeping changes to the world I know. I am scared of this world. For now I choose the Mockingjay as my personal symbol to follow. I choose hope.

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What's Next? featuring Lin-Manuel Miranda

An ode to The West Wing, presented by The West Wing Weekly podcast. Lyrics and vocals by Lin-Manuel Miranda. Music by Hrishikesh Hirway. Download this track:...

Also this happened.

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Petition to Bring Back Russell T. Davies for Doctor Who and beg him to consider our favorite consulting detective as a side project.

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Did I miss something? Is “marrying” a code word for porn on tumblr now? I just wanted to look up cool marriage blogs and no matter what I searched if it had the word married or marriage involved I would massive quantities of porn. What the heck..

[fasella]

lisianthus

[kadywicker]

things u youngins will never understand

peter pan at disney land discourse

mishapocalypse 

“reblog if you support gay marriage xDDDD” followed by 500 glee, spn, doctor who gifs and comments like “then john and sherlock could get married” and “if you don’t reblog this i’m unfollowing you”

y’all know about superwholock but you don’t know about superwholock there were petitions to each studio to get them to do a mashup urls like “johnlock-in-the-tardis-with-castiel-221b” shitty “edits” which were just stolen gifs mashed together with different dialogue over them

that one time someone reblogged a gif of the london eye from the sherlock opening and said “i don’t know why but this feels like home” and ended up deleting their blog bc there were so many comments the blockquotes ran off the screen of people calling them stupid and a shitton of spn gifs as always

gif memes aka “the x gif in your folder is your reaction when dean and cas kiss”

that fucking theme garden theme with the scrolls and banners. you know the one.

once-ler and subsequently shipping him with himself

rise of the guardians

“ew all these hannibal fans trying to get in on superwholock get away” 

the supreme hatred of all female characters

everyone shipping lestrade and mycroft bc idk they’re white men i guess

merlin

tom hiddleston and benedict cumberbatch were the sexiest men alive

“reblog ALL the memes” type posts you know the ones

gif wars

mutant and proud

the social network

inception

ask blogs

always reblog david karp 

gpoy

5ever

what is air?!

when you had to go to another page to reblog things

scrolling all the way back to the top to reblog a post

missing e.

“can you make that last ask rebloggable?”

2012 doomsday

+bonus of the above: posts like “it’ll be okay dean and sam are out there saving the world right now xD”

[luvbey]

i wish dogs lived longer and life wasnt so expensive and leftover fries still tasted good heated up

[glittertomb]

I simultaneously adore & abhor the new Series of Unfortunate Events show. I’m excited about the expansion of Lemony Snicket’s Universe, the music, the occasional funny and fresh dialogue, the casting for Violet, the fact that klaus is actually wearing glasses, the aesthetic, the insertion of VFD phrases, & the hope for explanations that the movie never got to… but it’s hard to shake off the fact that the casting is just not as good & they keep trying to rehash stuff from the movie. Also, who chose putrescent neon green for sunny’s dialogue color? It doesn’t fit the tone at all. I want to be stoked.

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I haven’t really posted on here for a couple years, I want you to know that your opinion on this series is what brought me out of hiding. I couldn’t agree more with you.

[postmarkedhenri]

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[rockthrowingbutch]

Patronize these kids at your own risk.

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When you make a fandom reference and your friend catches it

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Today I hurt. 

I had an argument that should have never happened. I thought that the person would see that I was trying to do good, but instead he demonized my efforts. Something I thought I would be praised for was met with anger. It wounded my already fragile ego as I really thought this quality of mine was worthy of celebration.  I have been struggling with depression and as of late and it doesn’t seem like I am winning. Bad thoughts come much more frequently and each time ever more enticing. I don’t want sympathy and I don’t want words that it will get better. I just want to freely express the pain I feel. 

On the outside it doesn’t make a great deal of sense, I am recently married, have great friends and family. But at the end of the day those things don’t outweigh the depth of nothingness and pain I feel. I pretend around everyone that I am okay, I don’t want my disease to effect them. A lot of the time I think I am good at it, and sometimes I will even feel a small escape from it for a day or so. The only person who knows a fraction of what I feel is my husband, but he is an ocean away from me and even then has no idea how to deal with me. It breaks my heart because he’s the person I want to understand me the most but when it comes to this, despite having the most information, he understands me the least.  My family has a history of suicides now. One of my favourite cousins went down that route two years ago and my aunt attempted just a few short weeks ago (maybe even a week, who keeps track of time now a days). The effect on my family was catastrophic-- that is for everyone but me. I don’t mean I don’t miss them, I do (in my Aunts sake she was rescued, which I am happy about). But I understand why they went down the route they did and maybe because of that I don’t feel as sad for them. Its like realizing you chose the wrong class in a video game half way through. You could just keep going but you know it’s going to be a lot harder than just starting the game over from scratch and trying again. I suppose that analogy only works in the case of an afterlife, but even if I am a skeptic I am hopeful. 

The reality for me is that I can’t picture a future for myself. Maybe everyone is this way to some level. But when I sit down I can’t picture a life for myself past the next couple years. My daily existance is the pendulum that swings between anxiety and depression. If I am not experiencing the one you bet I am experincing the other. On really lucky days my generalized anxiety and depression double team me with the obsessive thoughts and I just can’t imagine dealing with that for the next 50+ years.  I don’t even necessarily dislike myself, I just don’t feel like I fit anywhere. I am a champion at protecting others but have no champion to save me. I am brave with helping others but am weak and fragile with my own problems. I don’t know, I don’t even know why I bothered to write this. I figured that maybe letting some of the hurt go would help. At this point I am still fighting, I don’t have a plan in place and I don’t really want to be done. If a hobbit could take a ring to mordor than maybe I have a fighting chance to make it through my own hell.  I donno, sorry for being a burden. 

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I hurt. 

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Bitter, shallow, hipster! Sweater matching socks! Christmas needs more presents than a haircut in a box!

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me next year in the animation class

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