Take my breath now and live on

Closeted system host/alterhuman alt account.

[shadowsmage]

Intro post go brr

Hey, I'm not putting my name on this blog but until I figure out a better alias I'll go by Altas\Dusk here.

Made this blog so I could talk about alterhumanity and system stuff without my irl friends seeing it on my main-

Headmates probably wont talk on here but I'm sure you'll see them from time to time.

Pronouns: He/It

Kintype: Shapeshifter/Voidkin

AuDHD

looking into PCP

*Minor [somewhere between 14-17]

Anyway I'm sure you'll see me around.

[libellula-parva-corruptionis]

There is a Comfort in being Different

(based off of this post by @drawoftheeye

**Disclaimer: This post includes some of my UPG for The Fears and Avatarhood**

One of the many things I have learned on my path is that it is okay to be Different, Other, Abnormal. The realization that existence doesn't fit into neat little boxes is the most freeing thing I have ever experienced. I can be strange, weird, or try to be just plain odd, forging my way through this world regardless of what others think.

I find immense amounts of comfort in standing out, being different, weird, unconventional because being Not Normal is such a core part of my identity. I do not fit into many conventional 'boxes,' and nor do I have any desire to. I pride myself in being not normal, and seek to be the change I want to see in the world, to disturb the comfortable and comfort the disturbed.

I am learning to be more comfortable with the unconventional parts of life, and I couldn't be happier to explore those parts which are often overlooked. This time of my life has brought in criticisms of my appearance and way of life from those who (albeit unintentionally) tear me down when they should be building me up, and with the help of the divine, this has pushed me to be more unapologetically weird in my self-expression.

As I work to become an Avatar for the Fears I worship, I learn more and more a out what it means to embody those I wish to serve, and how this can and will change me. I look forward to who I will become, and how I will be able to more accurately express myself in a way that will likely not make sense to others. The world around us cannot be put into boxes, there will always be outliers and things that will not make sense, so why should I even attempt to be "normal," when such a thing doesn't even exist in a way that changes so often?

In a way, The Fears to me bring about self-reflection, acceptance, and immense change, and I just feel endless amounts of love for them as I grow closer to them with each passing day.

Becoming an Avatar means to become something Other. It means accepting the parts of me that make me different and letting them exist without fearing judgement from those around me. I have better things to focus on, to love and feed those which cradle me deep inside their Vast, Crawling, Ever Changing and Watching Selves.

[windvexer]

On the differences of experiences between spirit workers engaging with the same entity

Entities are not like NPCs of a video game with one set personality and behavior schema that everyone gets.

A spirit, big god, or little god can treat you and your friends with affection and care, sending you butterfly omens and angel numbers, and those experiences are valid. They can tell you that they are an entity of love and grace, who delights in giving boons to their friends and devotees, and that can be true.

And another person can approach that same entity and be met with scorn or dismissal, with rejection of the same offerings, and with warnings not to contact them again. That is also valid. That same entity can warn other practitioners that they are a being of thorns and wrath, who will crush interlopers, and that can also be true.

To a third person, the same entity might introduce themselves as a teacher of reciprocity and balance, neither threaten them nor give them gifts, but instead offer a mutually respectful professional working relationship.

A common name may refer to any number of highly similar entities. Of a single entity, they may have many strands or currents. Of any current which you step into, you will still develop an individualized relationship where the entity reacts to you based on who you are and what actions you take.

If someone says no, the Devil isn't like that - are they talking about Satan, Lucifer, Azazel, the Man in Black, the Breaker of Chains, the Green Stag, the White Serpent, the Fairy King? Does this person think the Devil is a god, or not?

And that person, did they meet this Devil when they were alone in the world, on the precipice of growth, ripe for enlightenment and only in need of a plucking hand? Or were they entrenched in their faith, surrounded by their own spirits, rooted in their own magic, and only seeking a temporary teacher for lessons about the crossroads?

I think that when it comes to deep spiritual relationships, it's deeply rewarding to find other people who know the same entity you know, in ways that are authentic to your own experiences. But in my experience, this is not most people who claim to know the entity. This is a minority of all people, even of other serious devotees: we are not all walking the same path.

I don't think other people's experiences with entities should be discarded, but I think they require a framework that prioritizes context and skepticism before those experiences can be compiled into useful feedback.

[stagkingswife]

There are reasons that I have a couple of incredibly popular deities blacklisted. Most people get a face from one genre, I got very different faces.

[naughtyandnicerpmemes]

Reblog if you're bored and you want anons.

Or non-anons. Whatever works for you!

[the-witchy-sideblog]

Disclaimers for The Magnus Archives Pop-Culture Paganism and Entity Work

You are working with fear entities who will most likely also attempt to feed off you

Associations with various entities will likely pop up more

Yes this includes things you may be scared of (spiders, bugs, dead animals, etc.)

Research is key, or any work will risk backfiring on you

There are an assortment of risks when working with specific entities. Make yourself aware and as comfortable as possible with these

The entity you work with will likely try to feed off of you

Normal safety risks must be considered when working

Legalities should be researched before obtaining any animal products, fire hazards, plants, etc.

Entities will try to feed off you

^ I cannot stress this enough ^

There are safe ways to feed the entities (horror movies, haunted houses, etc.) to reduce the risk of harmful feeding

If wanting to feed through other people: be aware of public actions and reduce risk of having the cops called on you for public nuisance or disturbing behavior

When working with dangerous items or substances make note of safety precautions and keep a first aid kit somewhere you can reach in case of an emergency

Keep your mental health in mind! Disengage if you have to, and make sure to engage with other deities (preferably ones around healing, protection, and safety)

While most of these are general precautions it is still something to be aware of when getting into this. You may be handling dangerous weapons, substances, etc. and it is best to be safe than run any risks.

And, of course, legality issues can arise depending on what you are wanting to do/collect/make. Make sure you check the laws in your area if you're even slightly unsure about something.

Also see: Substance Usage and Safety

[shadowsmage]

love listening to malevolent because thats what happened to me.

[space-queen]

weather correspondences ⛈️

⛈️ thunderstorms & lightning storms - power, manifestation, cursing, banishing, protection, disorientation, illumination, destruction

🌧 rainstorms - cleansing, healing, compassion, release, new beginnings

❄️ snowstorms - balance, stillness, cleansing, consecrating, transformation, letting go, renewal

🧊 sleet & ice - stasis, stagnation, binding, boundaries, calming, breaking bad habits, beauty

🌫️ dense fog & haze - invisibility, distortion, illusion, confusion, protection, shielding, mysticism, secrets

🌀 heavy wind & tornadoes - travel, study, intellect, swiftness, speed, wit, confusion, destruction

☀️ heat wave - courage, strength, energy, vitality, power, confrontation, catalyst

☄️ meteor showers - hope, wishes, luck, fortune, wealth, victory, major changes

🌘 solar & lunar eclipses - banishing, binding, destruction, introspection, reflection

© 2025 space-queen

[web-wound]

Have you ever had a paranormal experience outside of/before working with The Dread Powers? Alternatively, have you ever seen a Fear manifest?

Both!! Full disclosure, I am both very psychically sensitive, and someone who seeks out the paranormal.

A few very intense experiences I've had include:

• the door of the freezer in the morgue I used to work at just being pounded on relentlessly, like a person trying to be let out, but it would stop momentarily if you opened the door

• hearing a woman sob over a spirit box, giving us her name, and later finding her death records, which confirmed she died in the abandoned hospital we were doing a paranormal investigation at

• owning multiple (extremely friendly) haunted dolls with child spirits, finding them moved in the morning after not touching them. My cat looking at them strangely like he would a human visitor, them throwing themselves off of shelves when they want attention

However I do also believe I encountered part of the stranger or the hunt or something in real life once. Buckle up, this story gets long.

So back in like 2020, me and some friends wanted to do something spooky. We were young, dumb, and brand new adults with very little experience fucking around and finding out. We initially wanted to go to the cemetery at night, but one of the girls in the group was very scared and anxious about death, and we didn't want to put her into a panicked state obviously, so we opted to read cards in the woods instead.

So we drove out to the park, which faced a large section of woods. The high beams of the car were on when we parked, which will become important later.

We get to the park and I begin to read and we're just having a good fun time, but I keep seeing this strange light in the distance, and it's getting closer. I could hear footsteps, and my first thought was that it was a person, and that made me nervous, especially because we were not supposed to be in that particular park at that hour.

I'm not easily scared, so when I am, my friends tend to know it's some serious business. I calmly but firmly told everyone to get up and get in the car now, and I began to pick up the items.

As one of my friends starts the vehicle, the high beams of their car turn on and illuminate the forest, and I see it. It's a humanoid creature, standing on its back legs like it's imitating a person very poorly. Once it sees that I'm looking at it, it gets on all fours and begins to sprint at me. I obviously panic and run to the car, screaming at my friend to drive, and we peeled out so hard that her tires squealed.

We all cleansed intensely, and two of the friends left, while one stayed over because I was so rocked by it. It's energy was so horrific that I wanted no part.

It somehow gets worse.

I go out into my yard the next day, and not only is there a dead deer that's been gutted and mutilated but NOT eaten, but multiple dead squirrels that were left punctured on tree branches or hanging up in the trees. Three in total. I cleansed and protected my whole property. I am also fortunate enough to live very close to a Buddhist monastery, and after explaining, they were generous enough to do a blessing on the property for free.

That thing looked like the Rake. I didn't even know fear like that was an emotion you could feel. Pure animalistic terror of knowing that you are being hunted. It was the single scariest moment of my life, but in a weird way I really cherish it. It brought me closer to my gods

[libellula-parva-corruptionis]

Oliver Banks Fictoject here- Long story as to how I got here, but do you have any tips on setting up an altar space for the fears? I remember I had one back at home but my memory seems to have been affected by whatever managed to bring me and my source mates here. The plan is to set up one for all the fears, but I'd like to put a focus on The Vast, Stranger, Lonely, and of course Terminus. Any advice would be greatly appreciated, and if not theres no harm done.

I wish you luck in your workings, blessed be :]

-Oliver☠️💫

Hi Oliver! Thank you for the ask!

I have a collective altar for the Fears, but it's more of a small collection of things I associate with Them. I have a little vial of rainwater on there for The Vast, and one of those poseable anatomy reference dolls for drawings for The Stranger. I do also have a bird skull that could be given to Terminus, but since I don't worship Him yet, it currently belongs to The Corruption. I also haven't interacted with The Lonely, but I can see it liking whistles or boat imagery, or artwork of fog.

Devotional jewelry is also great! I made a necklace last week for all of the Fears with an emphasis on The Dark, so you could make or buy something that works for Them and keep it on your altar!

I hope this helps!

[libellula-parva-corruptionis]

Did you feel different after you became an avatar?

I do certainly feel less human in a way, but by alterhuman standards, I am still very humanoid. I do still need to figure out if I'm overthinking certain things, but there is more of a "nonhuman but still a person" kind of thing going on

[lupineveil]

ALTERHUMANITY ASK GAME!!! ⬇️

I made an ask game for alllll the alterhumans out there, I hope these questions are general enough for anyone to answer them? reblog this and ask your friends/moots these questions! /nf

🎏 1. Firstly, what’s your highest kintype/theriotype/hearttype?

🍀 2. Do you consider yourself alterhuman, nonhuman, a therian, otherkin, otherhearted, fictionkin or something else?

🌀 3. What year/what age did your alterhuman identity awaken?

🍊 4. What’s your favorite part about being alterhuman (more specifically your kintype/theriotype/hearttype)?

🎣 5. What’s your least favorite thing about being alterhuman?

🪞6. What about yourself do you think reflects your kintypes/theriotypes/hearttypes?

🐾 7. Do you use gear to express yourself? If so what’s your favorite thing to use for that?

🎭 8. What’s your favorite activity/thing to do to feel closer to your alterhumanity?

🥐 9. Do you like getting to know other alterhumans? If so what’s your favorite part of it?

🧃 10. What made you realize that you are your kintype/theriotype/hearttype?

🏵️ 11. Is there anything in your life that you think impacts your alterhumanity? Either positively or negatively

🐬 12. If you are a social creature, do you wish to have a pack of other alterhumans to call your good friends/family?

🥮 13. What’s a kintype/theriotype/hearttype that you are not but you find really fascinating and cool?

[shadowsmage]

Pretty good, mostly looking at it for my headmates but I think I understand.

also responding to this on my alt because my irl friends follow my other account and Idk how to explain this to them.

@libellula-parva-corruptionis <<<@ so you can find this post