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[shainedepaz]

That child is still within me, But now, I know she isn't weak for remembering, The pain may still visit, not to wound me, But to be a reminder of how I was deeply loved, Which is why, I open my heart again, not out of fear, But of strength, in knowing that losing someone, Could never take my capacity to love.

[shainedepaz]

The past year has been rough. There were moments when I felt like I had already had enough, wanting to stay in the shadows, to hide until I grew tired of everything. But along the way, I realized I wasn’t alone. The people I was with showed me that. Because of them, I slowly shaped myself into someone I wasn’t before but in a good way. I learned how to trust a little more, how to open up, and how to let people in. I still struggle with all of these, but slowly and surely, I’m trying. Like what Tobey Maguire’s Spider-Man said in his own film and again in Spider-Man: No Way Home, “Trying to do better.” That’s something I want to keep learning, to be better, not because I have to, but because I genuinely want to. I also learned that I don't have to always keep everything within myself until I break, it's best to remember to also breathe. Which then led me to this question, if things were different, would I had the guts and find my voice, to open up, and tell my story? Or would I still be in the same place? But I know now, that things have changed, I'm no longer alone.