all at once I must
realize that those scars are
still open wounds
forever never
knowing whether I am right
or just triggered
over something so
miniscule, I tell myself
but isn't that it?
if it was such a
small thing why insist so hard
unless it matters
and if it matters
what's he really hiding
under the small lie
all at once I am
back in that car as my dad
hurls his offensives
another word and
I'm hearing her say again
that it's all my fault
I snap to today
and I ask myself again
whether it matters
but I made myself
a promise that no one would
ever convince me
never again will
I allow myself to be
blinded to the truth
no matter how small,
I can never again be
at peace with a lie













