september 12th, 2018: first day of school.
it will be my 2nd first day of high school, my 2nd chance, and I canāt wait any longer.
the last three years have been the worst of my life. iāve been meeting toxic people all time long and i spent my days studying subjects I used to hate or doing nothing because of my mood. i spent most of my time alone: i used to stay alone in my bedroom, but I realized that it wasnāt worth it becoming a laptop addicted, so i started to get around in my city, in the little streets and alleys, in the parks, in the woods. i visited my beautiful milan, too, with its squares and its museums and everything. i got to know what loneliness was.
i started my adventure as a concert addicted as well, i met so many people on the internet and also in real life, i got to know my best friends and my boyfriend and i feel so damn blessed for them. i found out how music can be important in someoneās life and its amazing power to give back hope and happiness.
three years ago i had to give up on my biggest passion besides music. horse riding was that thing that fills a personās life, and it couldnāt be harder to leave it forever. this caused me so many dark times because it wasnāt just a sport to practice, it wasnāt just an activity to pass my time. being steadily in touch with an animal just like the horse is one of the most wonderful feelings ever, and it gave me such great satisfactions that are impossible to explain in words. my horse became my best friend and i miss it like crazy. three years ago i also lost the most important person of my life, but iām kinda okay with it now: heās in a better place.
the past three years have been hard, dark and even sad sometimes. the past three years taught me that nothing is obvious, that many things are overrated and many others are even underrated. i learnt that love is the most important thing in life and that we need to live every single feeling inside us. I learnt to feel the pain and i got to know myself, because i spent so much time with me, myself and i. i realized that being alone is okay, but staying alone is worse than anything.
someone gave us this life to live it, and i canāt wait to live my new life with new people in a new place. i have a second chance to express myself without filters and a second chance to see how many beauties this world hides.
the next three years will be different. i hope to find better people, to study what i really want to study, to find out many other passions of mine and i hope the future will give me something worth it.
i canāt wait to see whatās next!
i hope youāre living your life to the fullest, with people who love you for who you really are, maybe travelling all around the world, discovering new places and cultures.
iām so proud of you, of how you got through everything and how you dreamed big.
always remember that life is full of surprises!
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