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@shayvanbrn
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currently working on aperçu, there was sun, power & control, and aeolian mode, as well as unpublished WIPs echoes in your wild-dark heart (chengxian), The Heartbreak Insurance Fund (tdbktd), picket fences (vanoé, domijeanne), Amazing Grace (breznick), contre-jour (noé/johann), Seafood (vanoé)
I plan on completing all of my fics, but I am busy & may take many more years to get around to them
Can I get a snippet of your breznick WIP? the fandom is so dead and I’m starving 💔
Sure thing. Sorry, it's not as polished as I'd like it to be
Claire sighs and lifts Morgan's head off her shoulder. "Where's your stop?"
"Mm." As she rubs her eyes—clearly just tired enough that she's forgotten about the sparkly eyeshadow all over her eyelids—Morgan straightens up, stretching, rousing herself to full wakefulness. Then she lowers her hand. Just as Claire expected, there's glitter on her fingertips, but she doesn't seem bothered by it. Claire simply watches as she turns her gaze to the little monitor above the door. "Oh, shit. It's this one."
The bus stops. Morgan rises, but Claire's own syrupy mind registers the motion too late, so Morgan hauls her up with a hand and drags her off the vehicle. It's only when the balmy night air hits her that Claire realises she's no longer on the damn bus.
"Morgan, this is the way to your house," she says. Unless she wants to chase the bus barefoot or call an obscenely expensive cab, she's officially stuck here. "How am I supposed to get home?"
"I have a couch," Morgan replies, as if it's an obvious answer and Claire is the silly one for not realising that. "A perfectly good bed."
No fic updates for the forseeable future. I'm still in the BG3 trenches (starting a honour mode practice run atm). Here is an excerpt from echoes in your wild-dark heart:
In honour of 371 hours on BG3 instead of writing fic
How much soju it would take me to sleep with the BG3 cast as an extreme lightweight (measured in 500ml bottles):
Shadowheart - Act 1 Shadowheart would require two bottles, I'd sleep with DJ Shadowheart sober, and Selûnite Shadowheart... like two shots for courage
Astarion - I'd have to be proper drunk, so like, quite a bit. Three to four bottles?
Lae'zel - One shot, also for courage
Minthara - However much she makes me drink
Jaheira - Three shots because I'd need to be on the way to tipsy, she is very intimidating
Wyll - Probably a bottle, he's very sweet but I prefer women
Karlach - Two shots so I don't get overwhelmed by her... exuberance
Gale - I've never actually played through his companion quest so I'd need to be drunk too, maybe two or three bottles
Bonuses: Kagha, Viconia, Allandra, Morghal - a whole bottle each (very intimidating women)
Kar'niss: Three bottles and potentially more
Everyone else not listed is a pass. I will go back to writing now. Happy Chinese New Year
in the wake of your mercy is (finally) up!
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: ヴァ二タスの手記 - 望月淳 | Vanitas no Carte | The Case Study of Vanitas - Mochizuki Jun (Manga) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Noé Archiviste/Vanitas Characters: Noé Archiviste, Vanitas (Vanitas no Carte), Dominique de Sade, Riche (Vanitas no Carte) Additional Tags: Explicit Sexual Content, Human/Vampire Relationship, Oral Fixation, Smoking, Fluff and Angst, Trauma Recovery, Eating Disorders, Reincarnation, Modern Era Series: Part 2 of you asked for this Summary:
HI. THIS IS NOÉ, he’d sent to Vani the second he stepped foot on his balcony. Holding out for twenty-seven minutes wasn't something to be proud of—as a matter of fact, it ranged from somewhat pathetic to downright shameful depending on what activity was in question—but self control would never be a vampire’s strong suit. Then he shut the little device off and placed it on the outdoor table the apartment came with, ignoring it staunchly, pulling out the cigarettes he’d bought along with the shiny new lighter. He’d always been sensitive to smells, but he needed a vice, and this one wasn’t illegal at the very least.
or; after being haunted by Vanitas' death for over a century, Noé starts moving forward again.
aperçu ch5
are you planning on posting more fic snippets here? 🥲
Hi anon, I am 😭 life has just been crazy and I got distracted with working on original fiction, but here are some snippets for you! I'm hoping to finish in the wake of your mercy soon (I've estimated 5k words left for it), but I'm not sure yet about the others 💔
aperçu
i want a beautiful boy's despondent laughter
aeolian mode
power & control
in the wake of your mercy
constantly making airy offhand comments to my preferred younger son about how he’s next in line for the throne after his brother but he still hasn’t killed my detested firstborn for me. kids these days have no fucking initiative.
I keep sending them off on “boar hunts” together and wouldn’t you know? they keep coming back after with big smiles and boar heads and the unmistakable stench of brotherly camaraderie. what sick sad days are these!
Hi, am I insane or did Lifeline (game) have a free alpha version that involved freeing Taylor from the trunk of a car in Berlin? I remember needing to open Google Maps to provide landmarks. I also remember Taylor being stuck in a bathroom at some point and needing to get out from a window, after which they fell into a dumpster. I played it when I was very young and rediscovered the game only recently, except now it's set in space for some reason??
stupid idea for a MDZS fanmade visual novel:
you play as jin zixuan. after a long series of various events and misunderstandings, you come to understand that your acquaintance jiang yanli, who you once wrote off as average, is in fact a perfect soul who you desperately want to marry. the only problem now is that she 1. is still convinced that you hate her, 2. probably hates your loser ass too, and 3. is surrounded by men and women who are far more qualified to date her than you are. #1 and #2 can hopefully be resolved eventually with enough time, effort, and apologies.....but #3 seems to render that impossible, since if you're not careful any one of these "more qualified" bachelor/ettes might snap her up first!!!!!
you immediately identifies wei wuxian as your biggest threat, because from your (jin zixuan's) pov, wei wuxian is jiang yanli's male childhood friend who she super dotes on. after seeing how close they are, you are initially almost ready to give up - except then you find out that lan wangji is gay and in love with wei wuxian, and thus realize that you can eliminate wei wuxian as a threat if wangxian get together.
you then realize that this also applies to everyone else you see as a romantic threat. so, because you are a problem solver, you come up with a solution: before any of jiang yanli's friends can make a move on her, you will find a way to pair them all off with each other. that way, they will all be too busy dating each other and your path to yanli's heart will be (relatively) clear.
so instead of being a dating sim, the objective of the visual novel is to help all the various side couples involving yanli's friends get together, so none of them can threaten xuanli.
ideally, the game will let you freely choose which couples to push together, so there will be a wide variety of routes and endings.
("jiang yanli's friends" in this game is just the set that includes all the mdzs characters more commonly shipped with each other. jiang cheng is there, but he's yanli's brother so he's not a threat. so zixuan's strategy for him is just to keep him available on the side, so he can be paired up with whoever's left over after all the other matches have been made but is still a high enough threat.)
jin zixuan's threat assessments (accuracy not guaranteed):
extremely high:
wei wuxian
high:
nie mingjue (bc of his muscles)
lan xichen (bc he's popular)
wen qing (bc even straight girls would go lesbian for her)
medium:
wen ning (he seems too timid for dating)
nie huaisang (he seems more interested in hookups than dating)
jin guangyao (my own half-brother wouldnt betray me....right?)
low:
mianmian (she's my friend so she wouldn't betray me. also she seems interested in someone else (mr. mianmian))
lan wangji (gay, uninterested in women)
su minshan (too much of a hater)
jiang cheng (brother)
conditions for victory:
wei wuxian must be paired with someone.
everyone from the high-risk group is paired off.
a maximum of 1 person from the medium-risk group is left unpaired; everyone else from the medium-risk group is paired off.
yanli approval score (explained below) is above a certain threshold.
you do not need to pair up anyone from the low-risk group in order to win; the low-risk group is there purely to help you. pairing off people in the high- and medium-risk group is necessary not because they are actually a threat to xuanli, but rather because jin zixuan will only feel secure enough to confess once almost all of his perceived romantic rivals have been removed.
some game notes:
throuples are allowed.
while wangxian is the most straightforward way to eliminate wei wuxian as a threat, the game also allows for other wei wuxian pairings. in other words, you as the player can betray lan wangji by pairing wei wuxian up with someone else instead - in which case the game is still winnable (ie. jin zixuan can still get together with jiang yanli, which is the victory condition), but you also unlock a special CG of lan wangji crying.
the achievement of the victory condition is decided not just by whether or not you successfully pair everyone else up, but also by a hidden metric called the yanli approval score. this is calculated by your interactions with wei wuxian, jiang cheng, and jiang yanli herself as the game continues: if you are kind to them, then the score goes up, and if you are rude to them, then the score goes down. if your yanli approval score is low enough upon the game's end, then yanli will still refuse to date zixuan even if you've successfully paired everyone else off.
notably, attempting to pair jiang cheng up with someone and then failing nets you a severe yanli approval score demerit, while successfully pairing up jiang cheng with someone nets you a high yanli approval score increase. interestingly, pairing chengxian together nets you the highest increase in yanli approval score.
if you get nielan together and then do not pair up jin guangyao with anyone, then the game gives you the option of putting in the hard work to help him network. it is highly recommended that you take this option, as if you do not, jin guangyao will expose to jiang yanli everything you as jin zixuan have done in the least flattering terms possible, which will make yanli unwilling to date zixuan and will net you a game over.
if you get xiyao together and then do not pair up nie mingjue with anyone, then the game gives you the option of putting in the hard work to find him a hobby. it is highly recommended that you take this option, as if you do not, nie huaisang will push jin zixuan into the traffic and you will get a game over.
if you intend on pairing up jiang cheng with anyone other than wei wuxian himself, then wei wuxian will run interference against you; a successful strategy therefore must include anti-wei-wuxian measures. this remains true even if you previously helped wangxian get together, because wei wuxian is an ungrateful bastard.
if you intend on pairing up jiang cheng with lan xichen, then both wei wuxian and lan wangji will run interference. because of this, the xicheng route is probably the hardest route involving jiang cheng in the entire game; to compensate for this, the xicheng route also has the second-most CGs (after wangxian).
if you get jin guangyao together with someone, then he will offer his assistance to you for the rest of the game. this translates into additional stats, intel, and information on who likes who the most, which will make the rest of your run easier.
if you get nie mingjue together with someone, then nie huaisang will offer his assistance to you for the rest of the game as well. nie huaisang offers the same assistance as jin guangyao above, but he also includes his own commentary and opinions.
you (as jin zixuan) cannot date anyone else. sorry zixuan x other shippers, this is a xuanli game.
aperçu has been updated!
Haha. I've burnt out. Hoping this gets resolved by July, I'd like to post a fic this year.
[Video description: A classical musician in hanfu absolutely shredding while on a small boat floating down a river. End description.]
#craving a wuxia type story of a travelling bard that has a reputation of being cursed or working with demons#but shes just nosy and pisses people off on purpose to make them drop their guards so she can upend their whole world n find rot underneath#and she does this while being sloppy and poorly mannered on purpose#but also extremely badass and elegant when she needs to get shit done#and she ALWAYS makes a fucking Entrance wherever she goes#shes the bad guy#most people know if you let her into your village she'll bring destruction in her wake#but the people who REALLY know know that the change she brings is usually for the better#like the death tarot card#.........HEY SOMEBODY WITH MORE TALENT THAN ME- (via @spookymodernjazz)
HELP I NEED THIS TOO
"absolutely shredding" does not at all convey that she is playing "Bad Guy" by billie eilish on her electric sanxian
He’d always been second-rate. Even when it came to silly indulgences like fruits Wei Wuxian had charmed off of the sellers and the naïve belief that perhaps his father would spare him a glance, it was always Wei Wuxian who Jiang Fengmian would see first. Perhaps this pull is hereditary. Jiang Cheng can't help but snap his attentions to Wei Wuxian first, like that night he’d stepped in to defend Jin Ling from the ways of the world. And he’d realised that while Jin Ling had people to defend him—and was therefore moving forwards in the world—he had only managed to get that sharp grey gaze to land on him again.
I've finished most of my personal & paid projects, including an original novella. The rest of the year should be freed up for me to post in the wake of your mercy, The Heartbreak Insurance Fund, and finish aeolian mode.
Also planning an update for there was sun.
Not sure if I'll be able to continue aperçu this year.
I have some projects on the backburner:
the big bang theory (Wei Wuxian, Wen Ning, Jiang Cheng, Lan Wangji, Nie Huaisang, and ghost!Mo Xuanyu accidentally become roommates)
the curse of having a brother (Return of the Mount Hua Sect, Baek Cheon & Jin Geumryong centric)
i want a beautiful boy's despondent laughter (sequel to i'm tattered like these levi's jeans)
Posting in case a reader of mine finds this blog and wants to know whether or not I'm alive
I've finished most of my personal & paid projects, including an original novella. The rest of the year should be freed up for me to post in the wake of your mercy, The Heartbreak Insurance Fund, and finish aeolian mode.
Also planning an update for there was sun.
Not sure if I'll be able to continue aperçu this year.
