𝓼𝓾𝓶𝓶𝓮𝓻 just stαrtєd

that’s why i’m 𝓷𝓸𝓽 with nobody. cause i don’t wanna 𝓱𝓾𝓻𝓽 nobody. did it over text, didn’t 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥 me. still got love for your mommy. i know you wanna be 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲, even if you gotta leave 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲.

[shcwnmcnds]

— 𝒎𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒂𝒈𝒆: 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐡𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐬 ♡

HAILEY: a ) looks like i'm in the lead, go me

HAILEY: b ) one of u is lying to me and idk who to believe bc apparently u ate it

SHAWN: a ) nothing new for ya

SHAWN: a ) GASP ?? ME ? never. i don't even like pizza :) well.. i also hate tomatoes but i choose to disregard that sometimes

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direct message.

@dacremontgomery: good. but hey, you'd tell me if you were feeling some type of way about me .. right? shawn, we're in hollywood, /everyone/ has said an issue with drugs before. everyone. lmao screw you for even having your head in the gutter. and no, mendes, not literally. i say we're overdue for a reunion, but something fucking safe. your house. doors locked. windows closed. gate locked. safety :)

@shawnmendes: yes, i can't stand you, actually. only friends with you because i love being able to say i'm hanging around selena gomez. nah, man. i swear it's all good on this side. you're a good dude. everyone.. was this a hint to you ? because if so, we might have more in common than i assumed. my head is always in the gutter. shit, man. i'm on tour again so i'm stuck in fucking portland. but.. honestly ? i'm glad. shit was a bit too tense at home.

[shcwnmcnds]

𝗱𝗶𝗿𝗲𝗰𝘁 𝗺𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗮𝗴𝗲.

@Luke5SOS: all right. i get it. we don't have to talk about it :) uhhhh idk if this is the sort've news u get over the dm's mate

@Luke5SOS: no that makes sense. god, it's so fucked up.

@shawnmendes: well tell me anyways

@shawnmendes: it is. but there isn't shit i can do about it except say everything happens for a reason and push past. and god, am i ready to push past

[shcwnmcnds]

━━  💎 ※  * ꞈ  (  txts from stass. )

STASSIE: u should'veeeee, i'm so sad that fucking happened to u guys. nothing is safe anymore ig :/

STASSIE: ditto okay let's talk about.........

STASSIE: me? i'm good, i was really stressed out for a week or so but life is back to normal so.. i wish i had an exciting story for u :/

SHAWN: happy belated my love, i hope it was amazing. i really do miss you.

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𝖎𝖓𝖈𝖔𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖊𝖝𝖙 𝖙𝖔 . . . 🐢❤️😍

SOFIA: it's something to look forward to and we really, really need that right now. tomorrow sushi goes to the vet to get all her shots and she's ready for tour too :) i love u so much. but u don't have to fix this. the only thing that can is time... three whole years, beat that :) shawn, this isn't the same thing, we're not the same people anymore. please give me some credit here... :/

SOFIA: yeah, that'll be nice... i just don't know if i'll go out with u guys after the show anymore... we'll see. maybe it'll be okay.

SOFIA: i, um... went to the doctor. i got off the pill, it's too unreliable. i think i forgot it a few times and that's why... yeah. i got the iud. we're pregnancy free until i take it out. so that makes me feel better, i guess.

SHAWN: hey, so being in portland hasn't been that bad, right ? i also know you have that awards coming up and i've been meaning to bring this up to you for a bit now, but i want you to go. like.. i know it'll be apart from me for a while, but i want to make sure you get that security back, you know ? especially since there's going to be times where the universe pulls us apart. but if it's too soon i get it.

SHAWN: oh... well, i don't know a shit load about birth control but you really didn't have to do that if you didn't want to ? i could always use a condom and shit like that

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jstiin‌:

you don’t have to thank me, shawn. that’s what i’m here for. everythin’ you do pretty much has a good reason, so, i trust you. anyway, uh, the situation would’ve been way worse if the girls just decided to go by themselves. n’ i can’t believe i’m about to say this, but i’m thankful that other guy tagged along cause … you know, i would’ve been even more worried about you carryin’ all that on your shoulders. i know i usually get all happy n’ stuck in her world, but this is different. she’s in a REALLY good space n’ i don’t wanna disturb that. so, mendes, i’m actually takin’ your advice this time. say it n’ back away. that easy. you have absolutely nothin’ to worry about, shawn. nothing.

i don’t think i deserve all that credit, but thanks.. regardless, i can remember a FEW times i didn’t have the best intentions but whatever, i’m twenty. thanks, though. for the trust and all that. ha, well... the other guy and i are having a hard time even thinking we did anything to help so that means a lot.. i’ll uh.. pass on the message. YEAH. i just would rather my brother focus on himself than her out of all people. not to be rude. i’ve met her, she’s cool. but i finally snapped you out of it, i’d like to keep it that way. good. so how’s the music shit going ?

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▐  𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞﹔brother mendes 🎧

C: i know, man, i know. but it’s been a couple of days … how are you and sofia? canada is cool, yeah, so i’m always down. just make sure your little lap dog behaves lol

SHAWN: we're... good together but separate i wouldn't be able to give you a solid answer. WHEW... not the lap dog. damn. why do all my friends hate each other ? wait.. it's an obvious answer nvm.

[shawn-does-stuff]

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━━  💎 ※  * ꞈ  (  txts from stass. )

STASSIE: don't tell me what to do :/

STASSIE: being a greek girl mysellllf i have to represent :/

SHAWN: ahh well i should of asked you where the good places are because i promise you that was not it.

SHAWN: but uh.. this topic isn't one i want to dwell on for long. so how are you ?

[shcwnmcnds]

direct message.

@dacremontgomery: they did, i'm sorry. i thought no one wanted to talk to me today lol. but that's totally understandable, man. especially in this day and age. it's super easy to succumb to temptation, which must explain why i've been keeping a close eye on sel. i think we just need to cram into one room and watch each other. not like /that/, but like that. maybe we would gain an inch of our sanity back.

@shawnmendes: lmaoo very unlikely my friend. yeah, i just need to get my ass out of the house and back on the stage. oh.. has she had an issue before ? like.. you know, with giving into ... drugs ? i was about to say. i don't think this is the time to shoot a porn :/ but yeah, you're right.

[shcwnmcnds]

▐  𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞﹔brother mendes 🎧

CHARLIE: then that's how long it'll take, man. you can't rush recovery. figured that. are you in the mood to have a five foot eleven guy, with all his pizza rolls, breathe the same air as you?

SHAWN: you're right.. but dammit i wish you could. it would make my life ten times easier. yes, yes i am. ae you in the mood to be in toronto ?

[shcwnmcnds]

𝖎𝖓𝖈𝖔𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖊𝖝𝖙 𝖙𝖔 . . . 🐢❤️😍

SOFIA: i just feel like... hopefully things will be better when ur back on tour. we'll all have something to focus on, something happy. i know u feel bad, baby. it might not fix it, but it helps. i promise. excuse me? i've been the real winner here for three years :) shawn... u honestly think i could ever leave ur side? that i'd ever want to? we love each other too much to make the same mistakes we did before.

SOFIA: i don't care if it is or isn't... it's going to take me time to blindly trust other people again. if i ever can. i really... really don't want to cry tonight. so can we take sushi on a walk and just... try to find a reason to smile at the little stuff :// please?

SHAWN: yeah, we got six days to go and then i'm doing my first show again. it's funny how time passes, man. i know.. i wish i could fix it, trust me. i pray about it every single day. at rehearsals... before i go to bed. everything. three whole years, huh ? well excuse me then. i mean.. yeah. but sofia we said this two years ago. so.. i just want to make sure things continue.

SHAWN: of course, and we'll have lots of security and my crew around us on tour. you're safe. i promise. yeah.. sounds like a plan

[shcwnmcnds]

— 𝒎𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒂𝒈𝒆: 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐡𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐬 ♡

HAILEY: a) i've been drunk the past three weekends i hope ur on my level

HAILEY: b) i hope u let sofia eat the pizza i sent ages ago, if u ate any of it i'm gonna attack

SHAWN: a) i wish i was but my party life stopped a week or two ago

SHAWN: b) i might have taken a slice but that's only because she wouldn't allow me not to eat it

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jstiin·:

and that’s totally understandable, shawn. i’d be feelin’ the SAME exact way if i were in your position. that’s a lot of shit to carry yourself though, especially when you were there. you have your own shit too, ‘ya know ? it’s hard not to. the last thing i need is anyone resentin’ me for not being there when … uh, i’m going to be honest, i don’t know how to approach the situation. like, that shit must’ve been HELL. dude, odds are that she’s not going to want anythin’ else from me. and, for the first time, i’m okay with that. she’s finally fuckin’ happy, man. i’d be an even bigger than before to ruin that ─── ask me again in five minutes. i’m joking. but for sure, shawn. i’m clean.

thanks for understanding, man. the shit has been... a mess. but we’re here now, right ? the only thing i can do is be happy she’s safe but i’m also happy i was at least in the same country as her. i wouldn’t of been able to forgive myself if i was home and she had to take that flight by herself. yeah, no. trust me i get it. back out if you have to. well.. if you feel like you should talk to her then do it. you know your own boundaries, though. i guess i have to trust you eventually. yeah, i think she is. i actually became really cool with dacre because of sofia and.. i can assure you there’s nothing to worry about THERE. good.

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𝖎𝖓𝖈𝖔𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖊𝖝𝖙 𝖙𝖔 . . . 🐢❤️😍

SOFIA: yeah. it's good. we need all of the positivity in the world right now. i say keep it coming. i know, shawn :( i'm just... really trying to redirect my thoughts. maybe i'll feel generous and let u win, who knows. i love u. ur amazing. when i say ur my everything, u better believe me, mister :(

SOFIA: shawn, ur literally the ONLY person that i feel safe around right now. please... please don't feel guilty. no one knew that was going to happen. we were just on vacation and then... u know, we never really expect the bad things to happen to /us/. i don't want u or dacre to carry around any guilt. we can't change what happened anyways.

SHAWN: ugh well. it's like i'm pulling at strings to get to it. i know you are.. and i keep wanting to apologize but i know it won't fix what happened. lol, you mean i finally stop letting you win ? i love you too. i believe youuu i promise. just... please promise me we'll never leave each other again. like, i mean it. even if things get bad like before, it's better together than it is apart, right ?

SHAWN: i hope that's a good thing. i know you don't want me to, but can you blame me ? yeah... doesn't mean it sucks any less.

[shcwnmcnds]

𝗱𝗶𝗿𝗲𝗰𝘁 𝗺𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗮𝗴𝗲.

@Luke5SOS: no. and u wouldn't want to do that anyways. that gives the people who did this more power, u know? i'm doing pretty great lol but i feel like an asshole telling u that considering... everything.

@Luke5SOS: i thought u guys didn't want kids yet?

@shawnmendes: yeah just.. forget about it. tell me why you're so happy i wanna know

@shawnmendes: i don't. i mean.. i can't and she doesn't either. we both have careers it's terrible timing but.. i would of liked to have had the choice

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jstiin·:

don’t apologize. and don’t make it seem like i wasn’t interested cause i was. y’all looked over it, so i thought bringin’ it up would bring a whole new problem ── clearly, i mean, i’m right. dude, i appreciate that, but this is way bigger than just us. like, i want to be there for her just like i was there for you n’ sofia now. don’t you think she deserves that ? at least a second of conversation. i get it, man, i do. i probably wouldn’t have even spoken about it if i were in your shoes, so. completely understandable. again, man, i’m so fuckin’ sorry this happened.

it’s just.. i just want to keep everyone safe and sane. like is that too much to ask ? so it wasn’t me NOT wanting to tell you. it was me making the decision that not telling you was smarter. i just don’t want you worrying. about me, sofia.. any of us. look, if you feel like you want to contact her i wouldn’t blame you. in fact, for the first time i would want to do the exact same thing in your situation. but be SMART about it. and consider everything. don’t go in there blind like you do. give your condolences and go. it’s cool. just.. promise me you’ll take care of yourself too.