I Begin Again

" You can never forget it, what it's like to be human. It haunts me, it's the only thing that's kept me going" Learning what it is to stop running. Forgetting a past that was not her own and taking hold of her future. Finding out what it means to find "home". Please read the guidlines. Tracking : SheBelongsToSunlight

[shebelongstosunlight]

Moving Rose from this blog to a multimuse. @awickeddesign, if you wish to keep following. 

[southerncomfortoutlaw-a-blog]

“I was. Wolves can live just as long as ya’ll can. Well us wolves mostly live in packs, though I sort of don’t have one right now.   Wolves have their own rules and most even packless wolves    tend to live by our own set of rules.” 

Nothing more that he hated was that of the politics in and out of the   Supernatural community. “I don’t do the politics and I don’t deal with the almighty Originals. I kind of live off radar and away from shit that   causes my neck to be stuck out a lil’ too far.”

“Not sure if I got the connection do tell me what the joke is ‘bout  vampires and tea, but ya might need to fill me in.” 

Nodding his head he glanced around the bar, taking a sip of beer.  “I guess on the beautiful part but tragic not sure if I can agree on.”

[shebelongstosunlight]

“ I am doing my very best to stay away from them myself. We have a history, me and the originals. One I’d rather not talk about. There were no best of times, only worst of times. Past is past. And it seems that they are no longer after my backside.  Small miracles, I suppose.”  Covering her mouth Rose simply shook her head. “ No, that’s  one I’m going to leave you to find out on your own, that’s a joke I’d rather not repeat for the rest of my unnatural life. “ 

[shebelongstosunlight]

Even though I’m not on her as much as others, Rose is still one of my favorite muses to have. She’s calm and quiet. I just feel she doesn’t get a lot of attention for not only my absence on here often, but other reasons I won’t go into because it’d be like I’m throwing shade. And I probably would be.

[soliitudo]

‘ he’s — definitely got an attitude. wha’s it from? sabrina the teenage witch? ‘cause i think i saw that a few months back… sometimes i get bored and forget t’sleep… ‘cause the tv’s on.. ‘

   he was horrible at excuses, but he was trying. truth be told he frequently simply left the tv on a channel and watched entire schedules simply because night was something he couldn’t bear to face. but then again — night time was less the struggle… but he’d eventually accept the actual problem and stop making excuses.

       ‘ i used’ta have a merlin, but he left when vivien moved in. i think they had’a history. ‘

[shebelongstosunlight]

         “ Yes, exactly right. Sabrina the Teenage Witch. And Binx is from that Halloween movie, Hocus Pocus. ... Hm, I could have named them that instead.. “ Though it was too late now, middle names were still something to consider.             “ Your cats seem to lead interesting , narrative lives. What about you ? “ 

[southerncomfortoutlaw-a-blog]

“No,. I can’t give ya a reason behind his actions but he didn’t tell us   we became man eating beasts on the full moon. He wanted warriors for sons and a daughter. he was going to teach my lil’ sister how to be  a shield maiden like her mother.” Cerberus shrugged slightly, he held no anger about the past with his family. 

“ Hey, look I ain’t gonna be all like vampire kill it. Ya are a person too.  We both got our own sort of humanity we want to grasp a hold of and keep. “ 

Cerberus chuckled in amusement nodding his head. “I would appreciate  that really. Don’t like dog jokes all that much. I promise Dracula ones  will not fly off my mouth unless you can really manage to get me drunk.”

Dark blue eyes drifted from the vamprie to take a really good look around the bar. Nodding his head slowly. “It really dose. Ever take the time to sit  and look at a place ya been too many of times and just see how much it grew and changed while ya re frozen forever in time?” 

[shebelongstosunlight]

“ I do hope you were born in a time when warriors and shield maidens were a thing, though I have no idea how wolf politics  work. Not sure I want to know, but I won’t pretend that vampire politics are any bett’ah.  Spoiler alert, they are not. “ Says the vampire on the run for so many years due to one mix up. Though if pissing off an original is just a ‘mix up’ , she’d hate to see what anything on a massive scale could look like.  “ Just no jokes about vampires and tea, I beg you. “  A faint chuckle as she glanced at the table, not so much interested in the beating hearts of the bar.  “It’s like watching a phenomenon of sorts. It’s as beautiful as it is tragic.”

[soliitudo]

‘ most of mine are named after old movie stars.. though jack sparrow just kinda seemed a good fit since he’s got th’ handy little piratey patch. barbosa was ‘cause that one showed up missing a back leg, which he now seems to totally not care at all about… ‘ 

    there was a grin as he watched the cats inspect the others. john wayne watched from a stately distance. observing all those who dared to frolick in his kingdom.

[shebelongstosunlight]

        “ I’d be nearly too tempted to name a cat something utterly  ridiculous. I thought about getting myself a Sphinx just to name her Cleocatra. Bartholomew isn't’ so bad , though I think there has to be a shame limit in owning a cat. Binx and Salem fell right below the shame line.”        The two black balls of fluff were sniffing around the other felines, only Salem certainly seemed..Hissy.         She felt she named him accordingly.

[youcantroofyme]

“Hardly, a gift is a gift regardless of its packaging. Besides, nudity is a gift in and of itself. It doesn’t need to be all dolled up. Just … spread out.

And why the hell not? No one else is here and even if they are, if they’re  not a vampire you can just compel them to forget. Or join.”

[shebelongstosunlight]

“ But the bows are half of the fun. I’m not sure what kind of girl you mistook me for to think I’d consider letting anyone join , though I  suppose it would depend on the person. I may be open to consideration.  Besides, I don’t just let anyone see me without clothes on. Though for a reasonable fee I may reconsid'ah.”  ( She was failing miserably at maintaining her straight face. )  

[shebelongstosunlight]

I am making a gifset but then I remember how hard TVD is to color. Why this ?

[southerncomfortoutlaw-a-blog]

“The act in which made me a wolf. Though if my father would have   just been up front and tell his boys that if ya kill someone on a raid  ya gonna be a wolf. I never really worried much on my sister ‘cause she was five and what five year old is gonna kill that early. My lil’  brother was ten and he would be goin’ on raids soon. I turned at twelve.”

They were vikings and that was part of life. The raids were monstrous.

“Though now that I am a wolf I can prevent killin’ more on full moon nights. Got easier with time ya know, figurin’ out where to hide in the  mountains or go places normal people just don’t go. “

“Hell this town has changed much from what it once was when I lived here and I am pretty sure that unknown town we grew up in is gone.”  

[shebelongstosunlight]

“ ... Your father never told you about how you become a wolf?”  That certainly sounded like some grade A parenting right there, but Rose was not about to pass judgement. She didn’t understand anything that werewolves did. Hell, she didn’t understand a lot of the vampires  either and yet here she was one of them.  “ Seems that you and I have a lot to learn about one another.  Though I promise - cross my heart - I will nev’ah make a single dog joke at your expense.                         .. While sob’ah.”  The faintest chuckle followed and she smiled at Cerberus.  “ It’s amazing isn’t it? Watching the world change before your eyes.” 

[helpersofindie-archive]

Lauren Cohan and Sebastian Stan manips by Melanie | HELPERSOFINDIE.

[shebelongstosunlight]

@soliitudo

[leurlumiere-blog]

      ‘ well when you are talking about the salvatore brothers … loathe you less is actually a substantial difference. we’re different ends of the loathing spectrum. and – while she is a remarkable witch.. and maybe i’m just being a little – we’ll call it chauvinistic. but i feel like.. maybe vampires have asked enough of her for right now. ‘

[shebelongstosunlight]

       “ ...I can believe that explanation. “  noted with a slow nod of her head and a knowing expression. From what she has come to realize about the brothers and the endless list of information given to her by Lexi she understood that.         “ Hm. “ Rose didn’t know Bonnie the way Stefan did, so she again would nod her head in understanding. “ So the Salvatore’s do know big words. You are impressing me by the minute.” It was all in good, playful fun so she hoped he would take no offense to her humor.

[kendaspntwd]

Lauren Cohan in The Mindy Project   

[shebelongstosunlight]

⚜ @soliitudo didn’t ask for this

            “ That one, the black one with the fleur de li charm on it’s collar, that is               Salem And the other with the skull collar, that is Binx. No, I did not               adopt two black kittens for the purpose of naming them after fictional               black cats.                 Or maybe I did. “ 

[southerncomfortoutlaw-a-blog]

“ I am a monster, darlin’. I was born a wolf. Ya aren’t born and  bred into bein’ a monster. One kill is all it takes is us to be a   monster. Accidental or choice. So really no there isn’t an option.” Cerberus sighed, shoving his hands in his pockets.

“ I raided since I was a teen that is how I got the curse. We fled Sweden winding up in modern day Virginia, this town and that is when we came across a pack here, them bring us into the fold.”  He remembered his old life like it was yesterday. “Where were ya from exactly?”  

[shebelongstosunlight]

“ ... Actually if there are two possibilities on how one is turned then there are options - I never said that you are the one who gets to choose. Fate may do that for you, given certain circumstances I would imagine. With vamprims you only die. There’s no ‘bett’ah’ way to go about it. And I use that word as loosely as possible. It’s not to say I would have chosen this life for myself even if another way was presented.”  She shook her head slowly.  “ What makes you a monst’ah ? The wolf, or what you did to become it? “ She was probably going to be overstepping , but it wasn’t like Rose to not voice her questions or opinions.  “ St. Austell, England. That’s where I am originally from. Probably nothin’ like it used to be.“ 

[shebelongstosunlight]

[leurlumiere-blog]

     her voice was a balm to the worn and wearied edges of his frayed psyche, sometimes he hated her for that. because he could lie to bishop, he could lie to the man who made him. but not to the woman who had raised him. she saw the fragility within him, she saw the humanity that glinted around the edges of his monstrosities. 

       she saw the parts of him that made living with himself all that much harder. and those parts, those parts of himself were so much easier to hide around anyone else. but with her it was all impossible to veil. his hands moved to rub his temples, his body wearied not with age but with the weight of who he was. 

                  ‘ ——— how am i supposed to be? because that… that would be better than this. ‘

[shebelongstosunlight]

                 She had some idea of the power she held over Aidan, it came with being the one to teach him. Bishop and Rose didn’t see eye to eye on much, but there was some kind of mutual respect between them. She never wanted Aidan to be exactly like her, but she had hoped that throughout the years he’d hold on to some of his humanity. No vampire truly loses it no matter what they try to sell you.  And she cared for him deeply. More than she probably should.

              “ You know, the more you rube your temples the more I’m going to be convinced you’re not happ’eh to see me." Her humor had the worst timing of showing it’s head , but she stepped to Aidan and placed her hands gentle against his shoulders.                 “Though is your heart broken due to cut off of vampire interactions, or is your heart broken because you’re cut off from Suren?”  Oh, she knew. And she hated that she knew. 

[leurlumiere-blog]

     fingers brushed his temples as he heard the familiar voice.       she was a reminder of a past he’d been running from, a past      he should have probably just accepted — but instead there       was a trail of bodies behind him. all on the way to this…

                  ‘   believe it or not —– i am banished from all vampire                       kind? i guess you managed to miss that memo during                       the whole leave me on my phase? did a great job with                       that… i know. spare me the lecture. ‘ 

        there were times he wondered how she had been the one to           guide him along. the bond with bishop was undeniable, but the         problem was always.. his conscience and hers had always been         far more in line than his with bishops. 

[shebelongstosunlight]

   She knew better than to assume he’d welcome her with    open arms. As helpful as she tried to be to him when he first    became a vampire there were still several drawbacks in what    could be defined as their relationship. 

           “ That was a memo that passed my way -- I just didn’t                want to believe it. Same goes for the memo that involves               you shacking up with a werewolf.               I always knew you had strange tastes, Aidan, but this is              surprising.  I leave you for a decade and it seems chaos              and disaster are quick to befriend you. “  Though as he wished he not be lectured, Rose Marie kept her smile on her face. Not to his misfortune - but to how the years certainly have changed Aidan and yet how he still remained the same. 

                      “ How are you, reall’eh?”