"GUNS..GODS...AND GOVT."

BLOG OF SRA, MKULTRA, MILABS, LIKE REALITY TV? WOA. PROB GONNA BE A LOT OF THOSE "3 AM THOUGHTS" psi/sanguine

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The Quiet Rise of Face-to-Face AI Companionship

A year ago, talking to an AI companion meant typing into a text box and imagining the rest. Lately the experience has shifted, and SweetDream is one of the clearest examples of where things are heading. The platform at sweetdream.ai now offers video calls with select characters, and that single feature has quietly reframed what people expect from an AI girlfriend.

What stands out, observing how users talk about it, is how naturally the video fits into the rest of the experience. SweetDream lets you design your companion from the ground up, her looks, her voice, her backstory, the little quirks that make her feel specific rather than generic. Then it layers on emotionally intelligent chat, lifelike voice calls, and remarkably good AI-generated photos and videos. A live video call becomes the obvious next step rather than a gimmick bolted on.

It's tempting to lump every AI companion service together, but the gap shows up in details like this. SweetDream treats privacy as non-negotiable and treats the video call as something to be done well, not just advertised. The result reads less like a feature checklist and more like a platform that actually understands what people want from this kind of connection.

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Punch Line tells me she adopted : Hyenas.

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Your daily dose of cat memes

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Seeing double! CUTIES. Good omen.

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Tried to get off meds. Terrible idea. Awful idea.

DaY ONE. you're on top the world. Day two. Maybe you can. Day three. PSYCHOTIC. lol. But im okay! I was just a little speedier than normal. And talking up a storm. Yes. Do not ever quit meds cold turkey. Drs are assholes, but maybe, they will taper you off. Idk.

I could go to sleep, or I could try another all nighter. This is totally normal. And it's the weekend so. Nothing coming up with anything, like Psychiatric , or anything else. UGH. I have a pain in my left side, it feels like a strained muscle. My brain has turned to mush. I don't know. It feels sore and annoying, like I tore the muscle or something, in my upper inner leg, or lower left abdomen. i took a preggers test.

It said: No, but I swear to god i felt it straining trying to put a second line.

Pain in Lower Left Abdomen: 10 Possible Causes (health.com)

Great all of that sounds bad.

.. I stay up a lot, and sleep for a day or so, and my sleep schedule is slowly being rehabilitated to a regular human. But..ive always been more alert and productive at night time. Dunno. Guess I'm evil. Anyway. He is being total d bag. Saying he has as much right over the apartment that I do. These are my couches and tables and plates and chairs and cats and everything else, >_> I wanted to just flail. and Beat the crap out of him. Stupid asshole.

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Your daily dose of cat memes

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Your daily dose of cat memes

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Quick mothiva drawing

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Ugh, another Obstacle, : "vampirism and secondhand bad mood."

I really love my friend, but I txt her, and get huge energy drains, and second hand bad mood, but I know she suffers a lot, so, I'm still here for her anyway.

What I do about it instead of "letting it happen":

...I demand them to stop, -- , I have no energy to give to anyone else, but me, in Jesus name, under the power of the Holy Spirit, and they have got to return what they've taken me. [energy from vampirism]

I live fucking tired, and I'm sick of it. Is this like a Louisiana thing? Idk, I'm starting to think so. Once heard energy vampires are how vampires exist in modern. I'm glad I [finally] got the memo!

I know they're trying to get me to abandon her, to "outgrow her" and everything of that sort, to put her down in insult, but I won't leave her alone to die, or become even more handicapped.

She's also schizophrenic, again, fake diagnosis, with the V2K (voice to skull) and targeted, and has issues with praying, too, but, IDK, IT WORK! And the DEW, Paralyzing us, so they can search our thoughts, for ??? It's really goddamn irritating. Or to get information out of us via writing, thinking, hobbies, etc.. I'm damn sick of living this way, and it's turning sort of, into aggression, but I aint one for physical violence, some of these bastards aren't worth the herbs!

For awhile, I was uncomfortable with prayer, especially like this, but these names have power.. These entities obey. I did not like how I woke up, people studying me and everything, I'm just a normal person. My mind feel so searched and annoyed, and aggravated, like my head, you know, it's irritating asf.

Why can I take energy and not them? (voices are being bitchy)

Uhm, I feed off psi vampire stuff, not saying what that is ^.^ aaand, also, uh, I am sanguine, it's an annoying baby vampire habit to feed off people, ain't nobody gonna wanna be around you. They can learn to stop; most don't know they do that. I have a bad habit of draining my cous, inadvertently, that is before I learned to pray. I would be energy vamped so bad in my room. And so much worse, else, I thought she could handle it. Idk. MY BAD, MY DUDE, I THOUGHT I WAS DIE. I guess not, though, literally dreaming I'm a Reaper [the Grim Reaper.] Lol. I do enjoy some blood letting, with permission of course, and it's been a minute, it's so nice, I feel little stars swirl around my head! That is uh, how I got into the psychiatric LOL...It started so so young, I was just a kid, and we was all Goths or Emos and cutting and shit. LOL. THE FUCKING HELL, IDK EITHER. And like, they know as I keep saying Im a vampire and thats "mental illness." and whatever, fuck them, Im starting not to like either stereotypical gender, man or woman. IM REALLY NOT. The man Drs think they can boss you and be your superior, the women hoard things you say and use them against you.

Such an odd thing, to go to someone else about your health. IMO.

I believe, it was, IN some weird, getting to know somebody in a different way, to be tied to them.. For "a long time". Yes, it was like that, not liek fecking, weirdos >_> .. Like people find out and wanna know, like we weren't evil, shiatt... lol. Doing that to the other without the permission, no, we were offered, or had permission. A pact? No. Nothing of the sort, not me, anyway.

Voices said they are proud that I prayed (to MPD aspect Saturn.) IDK- I don't think I'll EVER be 100% certain it's right, Idk >_> I'm bitter and damaged and hurt by now, by incomprehensible things, that happened, too much for my mind, HAH, YES. Sometimes, I'll get so upset I even start yelling at God, and that's just the beginning, we don't always see eye-to-eye, not on everything, regardless of "who i might be" in a fecking dying out death cult. For all I know. IDK, mum tells me we're in a cult in my dreams.

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Sun is rising, just had my breakfast, sigh, runnin' low on cigarettes, but oh well, I'll live, no money in the bank yet, YES-- they call me a Yuppie, or Beatknik, or something LOL... I guess I don't belong to them, either, they steal my shit, ugh ._. I just, want to be with MY PEOPLE, people that GET ME, there are vampires that have known they are vampires their whole entire lives, know all the lore, and everything else about it, and haven't been in severe accidents, don't have Dementia (Invega, I believe, caused whatever variant of the disorder) .. Im just, stuck, here, alone, no car, no money, just food, and people that want me to be their family. Its as though people want me to forget, its MY LIFE, like combichrist: my life , my rules, they treat my thoughts as nonsensical, it's very irritating, I KNOW I THINK THESE THINGS FOR A REASON. Starting to believe I really am not at all human, just, a reincarnated, monster or sea beast, or siren, not a "friendly" mermaid, like Ariel, but.. a siren, from the deep waters, or did I imagine it? Did I make all that up, and/or does it matter under different circumstances? Maybe I just like seafood because I'm from the south, LOL, Idk,

voice: No its you Bro.

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Pizza for breakfast on a FRI-YAY.

Pizza for breakfast on a FRI-YAY.

(im the party line guy)

now, the cheap store brand or something , cheesy one, or the gross DIGORNIO ONE... LOLOLOL. I think they taaste gross and I dont care for 'em, never did, I get Red Baron. Cardboard pizza.

SUCH A FUN JOKE. (Not that one)

HE WOULDNT KNOW IF ITS DELIVERY OR DIGORNIO, BECAUSE HE'S OBLIVIOUSLY WITH A TRANNY. OMG. LOL.

TRANSEXUAL. GUISE.

I AM a crossdresser (woman as man, sorta, uh, its unique, and visa versa) and I think it's funny... I love bisexuals anyway! Uh tourettes, kinda, laughs, umm whoops... Oh, shit, these sort of .. things.. happen after too much meditation, it's totally norm. Yes. It was just for fun, then some gay shit happened, lmfao.

I don't belong here :'( yES i JUST HAD A FIT, um, similiar, to convulsions, i use to get em in one persona, yes ur DID, personas , can have dif disabilities...., trauma, unwinding... I guess.

ACTUALLY- its a spirtual exp---

They are very spiritual, BUT, Im okay, Im on medicine for it, (not exactly, but they are ALSO for that, plus idiots, might've given me PAWS, valium withdrawal syndrome, can last 7 years, its l ike, year 3 OFF OF THEM, ugh, sooo irritating, these people are so competent, i can do their jobs, and actually advance, ugh, im like, better at their jobs than they are ._. they intentionally hire kinda uh dumb ppl to do the jobs.. of taking care of the mentally ill , its so gross, i mean, the charming, intelligent, and attractive! they want to be like us. but we are poor, and they are rich, and it's only monetary, and can be ignored, or taken away, )

The "noon" dose, should probably take it. idk, stress. I dont care anyway, fuck it, like, I was trying to put myself in the ground for way too l ong because I was AFAB, must be doing Earthian things well enough to be above the ground, though, Im afraid, this place is a correctional fascility.

LOL WOW THE IRONY. I GOT WHAT I DESERVED? DIGIORNO FREAKING SUCKS. AND I WAS LAUGHING AT MY DUDE. JK! JK! bUT, ITS THE FOOD US IMPOVERISHED PEOPLE HAVE, I WILL EAT MY CUBIT HUMBLY *SNEERS KINDA*

*wrinkles nose at the Digornio*

[put the no-name store brand in the oven]

*steals a few (frozen) pepperonis* IM FREAKING STARVING... anorex1a, kinda, yes. "lack of appetite" is what it means, not being unhealthy underweight. 600 lb person can be anna.

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i DONT HAVE ANYTHING TO HIDE, MAYYYBE, I take that ,umm, too far.. being too open and vulnerable.. I like to make others aware they aren't "the only one" and tell my story , so they can get through, another dya, another week, their entire life, idk.... My story could be their survival guide, for all I know. People have told me, that I changed thier life... Just by lil Fb pages and posts and everything. YOU DO MATTER. PEOPLE DO CARE. There seems to be some sort of emenating darkness... and idk what it is.. it grabs peoples minds, makes them think negative stuff, idk, they claim that's where mental patients come from, the ones it has taken, IDK.

I wish I didn't see this stuff. lolololol.

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El's Relationship Status: ?

He... is amazing, and irresistible, in that, he keeps the house up, takes care of his kid, works, and has a car, just, multiple sorts of income, ssdi, child support, maybe ssi, foodstamps, etc.. We hate the fecking govt, i dont get why we sit in houses and dont go after them with torches and pitch forks,, but I said, TAKE THE HELP, its money!!! They let me live on a lousy $22, a day. Currently, he only gets child support and money from packages that weren't destroyed. I'll give him a few months, Idk, I want it to work, but .. waht if.. what if... he's a handler??? At least making sure I have a place that's kept up, and some sort of items/cash, uhm, he helps with bills, seems he wants to pay 'em, fully, >_> we was splittin it, but Im old fashioned.. PLUS THE EFFING PINK TAX. Ladies things. I would still need. Or desire. I had a binder, it's gone,wtf?? lol. Weirdos, in my stuff.

SYMPATHIZING VOICE: What the Fuck!! That's poverty.

if he doesn't let his mood (stressed bc of the attack of the usps people on our merchandises, uhm) and no car, and his mum and everything, she's borrowing the vehicle til she gets her own, uhm, she drinks her money, i hear but i feel sort of bad for her , like she is a nurse and she's on her feet alot, i know from listening to 'em when I was in hospitals, um, that it's a lot of work..We could actually have something substancial, I just want security. "Its about love, mandy" So many boyfriends were like, enemies going after me even though Im afab, mum would often say that, uh, the says keep enemies close, idek, something odd, awful, was happening. A demise. But I'm in favour with god, at least for my purity towards other people, and I aint talking about what most people think of, but how I ACT WITH GOOD WILL TOWARDS OTHERS. Maybe men think they need to discipline me for "not acting lady-like"...

WANT TO SEE ME DO AGAIN?? i'm so fed up lolololol.

I WANT TO FULLY COMMIT TO THIS,,, BUTTT,,,, NO , MY BRAIN IS LAUGHING !! ITS LAUGHING AT ME, OMG, LIKE CAN WE EVER JUST STAY SETTLED, I AM THE TYPE TO GET A WILD HARE AND GO.. OFF TO VEGAS OR SOMETHING LOL JK ITS NOT THAT BAD.

He claims he's that sort of guy, A ONE WOMAN TYPE... I'm sorry, ladies , mostly, they would LOVE to have a guy that does the dishes, and everything---Lol people are saying they want him, til they here how destitute we are. LOLOLOL. its gonna get better, im putting faith and hope into this.. Ive been praying, he didn't get the job, I think he needs to save up for his smile, like dentistry.. I do too tbh.. :/

I was so, so damaged from so many people, I started dating in my young teens, physical, mental, verbal, abuse, infidelity, you name it, relationship issues, it was done. Yes. Sort of. Almost. I am FUCKED UP, from other people, and their cruelty. Now I hear people are being mean to my girl.. at least in her dreams, okay this was years ago, I will obliterate fuckers. Lol. She has such a kind, generous soul, she sees the beauty in everything, like I do. Even if it's dark....

I think I'm so damaged rn >_> I can't put all my hopes on one person, plus I have DID/SCHIZ (FAKE FAKE FAKE) From SRA, and Mkultra, and "hijacked astral " visits in Milabs. IDK, I trust no one, my own flesh and blood seems in on this, there even seemed to be some kind of "identity check" and just, wrong, relationships that were damaging, umm..

I really want it to fucking end.

Maybe, it is, that I'm a guy, and we dont need a fucking plastic surgery to be one, -- i still, am the gender I claim, and I just, don't want that, the results look terrible... It costs so so much, and Mum insulted me for wanted any kind of (life saving?!) gender affirming surgey, or HrT or anything.

VOICE: "You are starting to look like your bro, he's kind of cute,"

SIGH, we are GERMAN, so german, omggg. LOL. tHNX, I know im a cute lil dude, hahaha. ^.^ But looks are just something you get from someone else? That saying stays in my mind. But. No. NAH, its YOU, BRO.

...but I want, another, also, a guy umm, I had a woman, invested a lot into it, and she hurt herself and ended her life [we were very much not dating but still "friends"], and didn't seem like she wanted me, they always think Guys are more fun in the end,"the guys always win" IDK, IDK, maybe she's more lesbian than I thought, but who Fucking knows, it wouldn't be that anyway! I'm a guy, okay, for the most part, sometimes, NB, but I'm gradually starting to clear out: dresses, and skirts, and blouses, and becoming more and more, my actual self, umm >_> I want to colour my hair, some other colour, we been purple, green, red, black... >_> Blondish, with like, it was sooo cool, it was like PHOENIX colours... around her bday, Im tryna help my (you only get one, men, Im serious) become ... whatever she wants! I like letting women do what they want. Not controlling em and stuff.

Guy name? :( IDK, EL, I like it. <33

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MR TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES vs merc retrograde. . .

I DONT WANNA PLAY DIABLO IMMORTAL. RN.

Lol i made a Barbarian Woman. She is awesome. Spinning, gracefully, TWIRLING DEATH!!, both hands with axes. Love her. Tho a rare, gem, she is. hahaha. I just. do stuff to fuck with people/make em laugh.. Umm anyway. My diablo handle? Scarletrayven, I think.

I dont feel like sawing through undead, corpses. Rn. Kinda, yuck.

Vampire the Masquerade. (Thor could eat rats, he didn't want to hurt people, me? Impending doom awaits the rat eater!!!...) I JUST WANTED TO SEE WHAT HAPPENED!! OKUR???

ugh. lol. I want to, explore, and collect, and Yeah im a sap, take care of things... "a feeder" Yes.Mkultra calls me somtehing that rhymes with that, so gross...

So.. SIMS! (hah) Imma try that in a minute. FECKING NEOPETS UGH. so so much security. lol. Its not uh, actually for kids, I read. Got a bank and stocks on there, LOLOLOL. It was a good place to learn. My computer is like, on drugs and won't run anything, "cool" or "modern" shall I say... so I had to play those, >_>

UGH! WHY IS EVERYTHING BROKEN.

FECKING MERCURY RETROGRADE!

I AM MR. TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES.

YES. STEMMING FROM A TEEN (STOLEN) SCREEN NAME: TECHGOTH. I LIVE!!!

INTERNET PEOPLE. YES. kinda took a break there...for a few years.

Might download WoW... I would still play.. First achievement?

Falling 2458937245987235894 feet without death. Yes. Wow. Amazing.

Lol mens finding out I like this stuff.

Yassss. Im a dude too. Kinda. Ish. Trans...guy... anyway!

We really are, real! Yes. The sex we say we are. Lololololol.