au jemma written by ele

rules about verses

[shewassoferal]

pinning this post for anyone looking for me, I’m writing two au versions of Jemma, @sosadandyetsoamazing and @monsterinamusicbox

which are sideblogs for @thecharmingknightemma (and the most active one right now is the first one, which is alien Jemma, from s1 to s4 and then going au) 

[monsterinamusicbox]

back at it again with two - two dark versions of Jemma: -one that snaps in season 2 and start giving up on herself and the team until the resentment is too strong and she leaves. The music box is broken, and her angrier, violent self is out. -one who after living everything that happened in aos up to season 6 (but the box started breaking eventually, and led her to step away from her marriage as well) ended up in a parallel reality, in what seems to be an exact replica of her planet but a few years in the past, and even if it won’t change what happened in her world she starts doing anything she needs to do to prevent the next tragedies. Anything. 

two verses, two different kind of angst to play with.  Please read the bio and the guidelines to understand why she became a different person (and how this is not a blog written to hate on the team but to explore what ifs).  Sideblog, very open to crossovers, to aus, and to ships!

[whydoyouthinkileft]

self promo with a reminder for any old rp partners who may check my blog and see this that I’m still the same person who is pro-team making up therefore this isn’t an attempt to hate on your characters, it’s just me angsting.

[shewassoferal]

here and not here at the same time, ghost-like but 

while I haven’t seen the episode, obviously, having stopped a season ago, there is something so funny in giving a quick look at the tag and hearing Jemma answer vaguely to how long have they been apart after I’ve been writing since season 3 this long-ass au blog that is about a Maveth-hellish planet where time moved differently and at first she kept telling people super vague things like ‘a while’ when asked how long had it been for her

also did I see right and she upgraded the Zephyr? did they remember she’s a genius capable of working side by side with Fitz and therefore to understand engineering too and let her to science right AFTER I left? 

[shewassoferal]

I'm thinking I might lowkey come back - if I even find rp partners after a year of being gone lol maybe keep this blog this way or make it into a sideblog, though that would make even harder to find rpers?

because the 100 recently inspired me to write my version of Jemma again; watching a character claim she was fine while obviously over-traumatized and to be called out on it and still repress, only to FINALLY snap at the end because she's human and will break reminded me that that's the arc I wrote for Jemma and that I miss it. And also that I want to write some Dark(er) Jemma aus.  It's NOT an excuse to hate on other characters (and there are some I absolutely adore, seriously, yet Jemma would have problems with them), it's just very entertaining to write different aus and see how things could have gone. Jemma snapping in season 2 when ptsd-driven and feeling isolated and unable to explain herself? Hating herself, Hydra, and either accepting the perceived hate from the team or resenting them for assuming she'd abandon people or hurt them? Maybe leaving once it was clear they didn’t even trust her not to hurt Skye because of her crime of ‘leaving Fitz’ and ‘wanting enhanced weapons to fight because scared of people with powers’ (like, you know, Raina who literally cut her teammates’ throats in front of her at the temple), being both DONE with most of the team while desperately wanting Skye to know that she’d have never hurt her or abandoned her, while still having May’s back because May always had hers?   Interacting with people outside of the team while being so bitter and having lost hope in herself and others, knowing that everything she did with good intentions hurt people, so she might as well use her other skills, like not caring about killing bad guys, to do what other ‘good’ guys can’t?

or s2 still happening but s3 having my own hell-version of Maveth, who learned to fight and live like a monster and after will just try to be a human again? s4 having Jemma leave because of the obvious breakdown she was having?

Jemma breaking earlier instead of becoming the support/therapist/nurse/nice character with social skills and no real personal plots, and instead still being the 'socially inept but trying, biochemistry-loving' genius who will claim to follow the rules but break them whenever she disagrees, who schemes and is petty and vengeful and surprisingly okay with murder, over-blames herself and is sarcastic and TRIES to help her friends whom she loves so much but can come off pretty creepy at times, and yet loving, and is growing more traumatized and done and broken by season?

and seriously season 2? Someone incredibly traumatized from watching her best friend drown in front of her after giving her the last breath of oxygen, who dragged his body out of the water and almost died in the ocean after their other friend turned out to be a traitor, who clearly blamed herself and who didn't know how to connect with her friend anymore, how to read him, and felt she was making him worse, so she went undercover, alone, in the middle of freaking hydra, unable to contact the team, to break, to process, to heal, doing horrible things for them without any training, and came back to the base just to find out everyone knew her private business with her friend and that everyone thought she either 'abandoned' him because she didn't love him or because he was brain damaged (also as if she wasn't free to go and instead had to watch over Fitz, whether hurting or not, 24/7, to be a good friend, as if that wouldn't give anyone a nervous breakdown by itself), got told she made him worse which confirmed her thoughts, and got told that by Mack who was informed by Coulson that she thought her leaving would make Fitz better, couldn't communicate all this pain to her friend Fitz or he'd blame himself for that too since he was already struggling to needlessly show her he was still capable, was still alone, we hear in s3 that Fitz was 'cranky' and we know him from s2 too enough to know it meant he was in an understandable bad mood but that also meant taking it on Jemma who was already blaming herself for it, had another friend die, was ALONE for days after that while the team came home together, watched the bad guy(woman) with superpowers slaughter her team at the temple where she still was, was framed as scary for wanting to enhance weapons to specifically stop that superpowered enemy, had her friends fear her enough to hide Skye's superpowers from her even though they could have actually been side-effects of a disease that could kill her much like it happened to Jemma in season 1, was told they hid it because she 'left' Fitz once again and that she went on and on about enhanced bad guys, and therefore couldn't be trusted not to leave or hurt Skye, was asked by Coulson to work on something to help Skye while ordered to keep it secret which made people even more wary of her, felt the need to remind Skye that she cared for her because at this point she knew she was seen as a dangerous and not trustworthy person, and never, ever, ever, got to vent, explain or deal with any of this, it was all swept under the rug

[shewassoferal]

big psa

this feels awful to say, but I think I might go on a more permanent semi-hiatus? I have been writing Jemma Simmons since 2014, and this version of her in another blog since 2015 so it’s like giving up on such a big part of me that gave me so many great threads and led to new friends, a character whose potential I truly love… and I don’t want to say a full goodbye, I do have threads I’m still interested in, and I do love all my rp partners here, but at the same time I’m not active here and I know it.

There are several reasons for it if you are interested:

1) of course I’m not blaming my partners for this because I’m gone all the time (lol can you imagine) but usually I need lots of back and forth action to keep myself interested, and since the fandom became much smaller, I went on many health-related hiatuses, my rp friends also were gone a lot, I ended up having threads only every now and then and the energy for writing her therefore kinda went away. It’s like destiny: everybody is online? I’m gone. I come back and start new threads? everybody else has to go for weeks. 

2) every time I see anything aos related I’m in a bad mood because I despise what the show did with her, and writing such an AU blog makes harder to make it work with aos rpers because obviously they have to follow the show a bit more closely (again, not your fault! I hate that I ask people to adapt to it). Aos did become a smaller fandom too so I’m not even sure how much people are interested in interacting with her, being so au and with a big backstory page.

3) my own health and life issues keep me away a lot and when they don’t, the energy to come up with new threads for a character I already wrote for five years is little, especially since most of the time they have to be angsty due to her traumas and it’s not great for me. 

4) it’s really, really hard to write someone so au unless we rewrite early seasons together, and do you know how much time that would take my rp partners too, we’d need to have so many threads just to make our own story and as much as I love it, that’s just not happening in rp world anymore

so I think I have to let it go. I’ll probably just be at @thecharmingknightemma, low-medium activity, maybe move it to its own blog or maybe leaving it as sideblog, and see how things go there. that’s a goldmine for plots and not restricted by any tvshow since it’s either an au that has little to do with canon ouat or basically an oc in other fandoms. This isn’t a goodbye, most people are on discord too and I can come here when I feel the energy, or if I find other solutions (more au threads, people who might be really invested in writing with me here so we can both be active if the stars align, so that I don’t lose the push to write and so on) but I wanted to at least warn all of you that even if it weirdly hurts, I do feel that it’s time to admit I need a break from Jemma, and that I’ll just focus on Emma with no pressure on writing fast. (You never put pressure on me, I do)

I do love all of you and all my threads, obviously, this is about me and my lack of love for aos and the many years spent writing that ask me to try to take a break! you are all welcomed to rp with me on Emma, it has plenty au and crossover verses!

[shewassoferal]

big psa

this feels awful to say, but I think I might go on a more permanent semi-hiatus? I have been writing Jemma Simmons since 2014, and this version of her in another blog since 2015 so it’s like giving up on such a big part of me that gave me so many great threads and led to new friends, a character whose potential I truly love… and I don’t want to say a full goodbye, I do have threads I’m still interested in, and I do love all my rp partners here, but at the same time I’m not active here and I know it.

There are several reasons for it if you are interested:

1) of course I’m not blaming my partners for this because I’m gone all the time (lol can you imagine) but usually I need lots of back and forth action to keep myself interested, and since the fandom became much smaller, I went on many health-related hiatuses, my rp friends also were gone a lot, I ended up having threads only every now and then and the energy for writing her therefore kinda went away. It’s like destiny: everybody is online? I’m gone. I come back and start new threads? everybody else has to go for weeks. 

2) every time I see anything aos related I’m in a bad mood because I despise what the show did with her, and writing such an AU blog makes harder to make it work with aos rpers because obviously they have to follow the show a bit more closely (again, not your fault! I hate that I ask people to adapt to it). Aos did become a smaller fandom too so I’m not even sure how much people are interested in interacting with her, being so au and with a big backstory page.

3) my own health and life issues keep me away a lot and when they don’t, the energy to come up with new threads for a character I already wrote for five years is little, especially since most of the time they have to be angsty due to her traumas and it’s not great for me. 

4) it’s really, really hard to write someone so au unless we rewrite early seasons together, and do you know how much time that would take my rp partners too, we’d need to have so many threads just to make our own story and as much as I love it, that’s just not happening in rp world anymore

so I think I have to let it go. I’ll probably just be at @thecharmingknightemma, low-medium activity, maybe move it to its own blog or maybe leaving it as sideblog, and see how things go there. that’s a goldmine for plots and not restricted by any tvshow since it’s either an au that has little to do with canon ouat or basically an oc in other fandoms. This isn’t a goodbye, most people are on discord too and I can come here when I feel the energy, or if I find other solutions (more au threads, people who might be really invested in writing with me here so we can both be active if the stars align, so that I don’t lose the push to write and so on) but I wanted to at least warn all of you that even if it weirdly hurts, I do feel that it’s time to admit I need a break from Jemma, and that I’ll just focus on Emma with no pressure on writing fast. (You never put pressure on me, I do)

I do love all of you and all my threads, obviously, this is about me and my lack of love for aos and the many years spent writing that ask me to try to take a break! you are all welcomed to rp with me on Emma, it has plenty au and crossover verses!

[shewassoferal]

big psa

this feels awful to say, but I think I might go on a more permanent semi-hiatus? I have been writing Jemma Simmons since 2014, and this version of her in another blog since 2015 so it’s like giving up on such a big part of me that gave me so many great threads and led to new friends, a character whose potential I truly love… and I don’t want to say a full goodbye, I do have threads I’m still interested in, and I do love all my rp partners here, but at the same time I’m not active here and I know it.

There are several reasons for it if you are interested:

1) of course I’m not blaming my partners for this because I’m gone all the time (lol can you imagine) but usually I need lots of back and forth action to keep myself interested, and since the fandom became much smaller, I went on many health-related hiatuses, my rp friends also were gone a lot, I ended up having threads only every now and then and the energy for writing her therefore kinda went away. It’s like destiny: everybody is online? I’m gone. I come back and start new threads? everybody else has to go for weeks. 

2) every time I see anything aos related I’m in a bad mood because I despise what the show did with her, and writing such an AU blog makes harder to make it work with aos rpers because obviously they have to follow the show a bit more closely (again, not your fault! I hate that I ask people to adapt to it). Aos did become a smaller fandom too so I’m not even sure how much people are interested in interacting with her, being so au and with a big backstory page.

3) my own health and life issues keep me away a lot and when they don’t, the energy to come up with new threads for a character I already wrote for five years is little, especially since most of the time they have to be angsty due to her traumas and it’s not great for me. 

4) it’s really, really hard to write someone so au unless we rewrite early seasons together, and do you know how much time that would take my rp partners too, we’d need to have so many threads just to make our own story and as much as I love it, that’s just not happening in rp world anymore

so I think I have to let it go. I’ll probably just be at @thecharmingknightemma, low-medium activity, maybe move it to its own blog or maybe leaving it as sideblog, and see how things go there. that’s a goldmine for plots and not restricted by any tvshow since it’s either an au that has little to do with canon ouat or basically an oc in other fandoms. This isn’t a goodbye, most people are on discord too and I can come here when I feel the energy, or if I find other solutions (more au threads, people who might be really invested in writing with me here so we can both be active if the stars align, so that I don’t lose the push to write and so on) but I wanted to at least warn all of you that even if it weirdly hurts, I do feel that it’s time to admit I need a break from Jemma, and that I’ll just focus on Emma with no pressure on writing fast. (You never put pressure on me, I do)

I do love all of you and all my threads, obviously, this is about me and my lack of love for aos and the many years spent writing that ask me to try to take a break! you are all welcomed to rp with me on Emma, it has plenty au and crossover verses!

[shewassoferal]

big psa

this feels awful to say, but I think I might go on a more permanent semi-hiatus? I have been writing Jemma Simmons since 2014, and this version of her in another blog since 2015 so it’s like giving up on such a big part of me that gave me so many great threads and led to new friends, a character whose potential I truly love… and I don’t want to say a full goodbye, I do have threads I’m still interested in, and I do love all my rp partners here, but at the same time I’m not active here and I know it.

There are several reasons for it if you are interested:

1) of course I’m not blaming my partners for this because I’m gone all the time (lol can you imagine) but usually I need lots of back and forth action to keep myself interested, and since the fandom became much smaller, I went on many health-related hiatuses, my rp friends also were gone a lot, I ended up having threads only every now and then and the energy for writing her therefore kinda went away. It’s like destiny: everybody is online? I’m gone. I come back and start new threads? everybody else has to go for weeks. 

2) every time I see anything aos related I’m in a bad mood because I despise what the show did with her, and writing such an AU blog makes harder to make it work with aos rpers because obviously they have to follow the show a bit more closely (again, not your fault! I hate that I ask people to adapt to it). Aos did become a smaller fandom too so I’m not even sure how much people are interested in interacting with her, being so au and with a big backstory page.

3) my own health and life issues keep me away a lot and when they don’t, the energy to come up with new threads for a character I already wrote for five years is little, especially since most of the time they have to be angsty due to her traumas and it’s not great for me. 

4) it’s really, really hard to write someone so au unless we rewrite early seasons together, and do you know how much time that would take my rp partners too, we’d need to have so many threads just to make our own story and as much as I love it, that’s just not happening in rp world anymore

so I think I have to let it go. I’ll probably just be at @thecharmingknightemma, low-medium activity, maybe move it to its own blog or maybe leaving it as sideblog, and see how things go there. that’s a goldmine for plots and not restricted by any tvshow since it’s either an au that has little to do with canon ouat or basically an oc in other fandoms. This isn’t a goodbye, most people are on discord too and I can come here when I feel the energy, or if I find other solutions (more au threads, people who might be really invested in writing with me here so we can both be active if the stars align, so that I don’t lose the push to write and so on) but I wanted to at least warn all of you that even if it weirdly hurts, I do feel that it’s time to admit I need a break from Jemma, and that I’ll just focus on Emma with no pressure on writing fast. (You never put pressure on me, I do)

I do love all of you and all my threads, obviously, this is about me and my lack of love for aos and the many years spent writing that ask me to try to take a break! you are all welcomed to rp with me on Emma, it has plenty au and crossover verses!

[shewassoferal]

big psa

this feels awful to say, but I think I might go on a more permanent semi-hiatus? I have been writing Jemma Simmons since 2014, and this version of her in another blog since 2015 so it’s like giving up on such a big part of me that gave me so many great threads and led to new friends, a character whose potential I truly love… and I don’t want to say a full goodbye, I do have threads I’m still interested in, and I do love all my rp partners here, but at the same time I’m not active here and I know it.

There are several reasons for it if you are interested:

1) of course I’m not blaming my partners for this because I’m gone all the time (lol can you imagine) but usually I need lots of back and forth action to keep myself interested, and since the fandom became much smaller, I went on many health-related hiatuses, my rp friends also were gone a lot, I ended up having threads only every now and then and the energy for writing her therefore kinda went away. It’s like destiny: everybody is online? I’m gone. I come back and start new threads? everybody else has to go for weeks. 

2) every time I see anything aos related I’m in a bad mood because I despise what the show did with her, and writing such an AU blog makes harder to make it work with aos rpers because obviously they have to follow the show a bit more closely (again, not your fault! I hate that I ask people to adapt to it). Aos did become a smaller fandom too so I’m not even sure how much people are interested in interacting with her, being so au and with a big backstory page.

3) my own health and life issues keep me away a lot and when they don’t, the energy to come up with new threads for a character I already wrote for five years is little, especially since most of the time they have to be angsty due to her traumas and it’s not great for me. 

4) it’s really, really hard to write someone so au unless we rewrite early seasons together, and do you know how much time that would take my rp partners too, we’d need to have so many threads just to make our own story and as much as I love it, that’s just not happening in rp world anymore

so I think I have to let it go. I’ll probably just be at @thecharmingknightemma, low-medium activity, maybe move it to its own blog or maybe leaving it as sideblog, and see how things go there. that’s a goldmine for plots and not restricted by any tvshow since it’s either an au that has little to do with canon ouat or basically an oc in other fandoms. This isn’t a goodbye, most people are on discord too and I can come here when I feel the energy, or if I find other solutions (more au threads, people who might be really invested in writing with me here so we can both be active if the stars align, so that I don’t lose the push to write and so on) but I wanted to at least warn all of you that even if it weirdly hurts, I do feel that it’s time to admit I need a break from Jemma, and that I’ll just focus on Emma with no pressure on writing fast. (You never put pressure on me, I do)

I do love all of you and all my threads, obviously, this is about me and my lack of love for aos and the many years spent writing that ask me to try to take a break! you are all welcomed to rp with me on Emma, it has plenty au and crossover verses!

[shewassoferal]

big psa

this feels awful to say, but I think I might go on a more permanent semi-hiatus? I have been writing Jemma Simmons since 2014, and this version of her in another blog since 2015 so it’s like giving up on such a big part of me that gave me so many great threads and led to new friends, a character whose potential I truly love… and I don’t want to say a full goodbye, I do have threads I’m still interested in, and I do love all my rp partners here, but at the same time I’m not active here and I know it.

There are several reasons for it if you are interested:

1) of course I’m not blaming my partners for this because I’m gone all the time (lol can you imagine) but usually I need lots of back and forth action to keep myself interested, and since the fandom became much smaller, I went on many health-related hiatuses, my rp friends also were gone a lot, I ended up having threads only every now and then and the energy for writing her therefore kinda went away. It’s like destiny: everybody is online? I’m gone. I come back and start new threads? everybody else has to go for weeks. 

2) every time I see anything aos related I’m in a bad mood because I despise what the show did with her, and writing such an AU blog makes harder to make it work with aos rpers because obviously they have to follow the show a bit more closely (again, not your fault! I hate that I ask people to adapt to it). Aos did become a smaller fandom too so I’m not even sure how much people are interested in interacting with her, being so au and with a big backstory page.

3) my own health and life issues keep me away a lot and when they don’t, the energy to come up with new threads for a character I already wrote for five years is little, especially since most of the time they have to be angsty due to her traumas and it’s not great for me. 

4) it’s really, really hard to write someone so au unless we rewrite early seasons together, and do you know how much time that would take my rp partners too, we’d need to have so many threads just to make our own story and as much as I love it, that’s just not happening in rp world anymore

so I think I have to let it go. I’ll probably just be at @thecharmingknightemma, low-medium activity, maybe move it to its own blog or maybe leaving it as sideblog, and see how things go there. that’s a goldmine for plots and not restricted by any tvshow since it’s either an au that has little to do with canon ouat or basically an oc in other fandoms. This isn’t a goodbye, most people are on discord too and I can come here when I feel the energy, or if I find other solutions (more au threads, people who might be really invested in writing with me here so we can both be active if the stars align, so that I don’t lose the push to write and so on) but I wanted to at least warn all of you that even if it weirdly hurts, I do feel that it’s time to admit I need a break from Jemma, and that I’ll just focus on Emma with no pressure on writing fast. (You never put pressure on me, I do)

I do love all of you and all my threads, obviously, this is about me and my lack of love for aos and the many years spent writing that ask me to try to take a break! you are all welcomed to rp with me on Emma, it has plenty au and crossover verses!

[shewassoferal]

big psa

this feels awful to say, but I think I might go on a more permanent semi-hiatus? I have been writing Jemma Simmons since 2014, and this version of her in another blog since 2015 so it’s like giving up on such a big part of me that gave me so many great threads and led to new friends, a character whose potential I truly love… and I don’t want to say a full goodbye, I do have threads I’m still interested in, and I do love all my rp partners here, but at the same time I’m not active here and I know it.

There are several reasons for it if you are interested:

1) of course I’m not blaming my partners for this because I’m gone all the time (lol can you imagine) but usually I need lots of back and forth action to keep myself interested, and since the fandom became much smaller, I went on many health-related hiatuses, my rp friends also were gone a lot, I ended up having threads only every now and then and the energy for writing her therefore kinda went away. It’s like destiny: everybody is online? I’m gone. I come back and start new threads? everybody else has to go for weeks. 

2) every time I see anything aos related I’m in a bad mood because I despise what the show did with her, and writing such an AU blog makes harder to make it work with aos rpers because obviously they have to follow the show a bit more closely (again, not your fault! I hate that I ask people to adapt to it). Aos did become a smaller fandom too so I’m not even sure how much people are interested in interacting with her, being so au and with a big backstory page.

3) my own health and life issues keep me away a lot and when they don’t, the energy to come up with new threads for a character I already wrote for five years is little, especially since most of the time they have to be angsty due to her traumas and it’s not great for me. 

4) it’s really, really hard to write someone so au unless we rewrite early seasons together, and do you know how much time that would take my rp partners too, we’d need to have so many threads just to make our own story and as much as I love it, that’s just not happening in rp world anymore

so I think I have to let it go. I’ll probably just be at @thecharmingknightemma, low-medium activity, maybe move it to its own blog or maybe leaving it as sideblog, and see how things go there. that’s a goldmine for plots and not restricted by any tvshow since it’s either an au that has little to do with canon ouat or basically an oc in other fandoms. This isn’t a goodbye, most people are on discord too and I can come here when I feel the energy, or if I find other solutions (more au threads, people who might be really invested in writing with me here so we can both be active if the stars align, so that I don’t lose the push to write and so on) but I wanted to at least warn all of you that even if it weirdly hurts, I do feel that it’s time to admit I need a break from Jemma, and that I’ll just focus on Emma with no pressure on writing fast. (You never put pressure on me, I do)

I do love all of you and all my threads, obviously, this is about me and my lack of love for aos and the many years spent writing that ask me to try to take a break! you are all welcomed to rp with me on Emma, it has plenty au and crossover verses!

[shewassoferal]

big psa

this feels awful to say, but I think I might go on a more permanent semi-hiatus? I have been writing Jemma Simmons since 2014, and this version of her in another blog since 2015 so it’s like giving up on such a big part of me that gave me so many great threads and led to new friends, a character whose potential I truly love… and I don’t want to say a full goodbye, I do have threads I’m still interested in, and I do love all my rp partners here, but at the same time I’m not active here and I know it.

There are several reasons for it if you are interested:

1) of course I’m not blaming my partners for this because I’m gone all the time (lol can you imagine) but usually I need lots of back and forth action to keep myself interested, and since the fandom became much smaller, I went on many health-related hiatuses, my rp friends also were gone a lot, I ended up having threads only every now and then and the energy for writing her therefore kinda went away. It’s like destiny: everybody is online? I’m gone. I come back and start new threads? everybody else has to go for weeks. 

2) every time I see anything aos related I’m in a bad mood because I despise what the show did with her, and writing such an AU blog makes harder to make it work with aos rpers because obviously they have to follow the show a bit more closely (again, not your fault! I hate that I ask people to adapt to it). Aos did become a smaller fandom too so I’m not even sure how much people are interested in interacting with her, being so au and with a big backstory page.

3) my own health and life issues keep me away a lot and when they don’t, the energy to come up with new threads for a character I already wrote for five years is little, especially since most of the time they have to be angsty due to her traumas and it’s not great for me. 

4) it’s really, really hard to write someone so au unless we rewrite early seasons together, and do you know how much time that would take my rp partners too, we’d need to have so many threads just to make our own story and as much as I love it, that’s just not happening in rp world anymore

so I think I have to let it go. I’ll probably just be at @thecharmingknightemma, low-medium activity, maybe move it to its own blog or maybe leaving it as sideblog, and see how things go there. that’s a goldmine for plots and not restricted by any tvshow since it’s either an au that has little to do with canon ouat or basically an oc in other fandoms. This isn’t a goodbye, most people are on discord too and I can come here when I feel the energy, or if I find other solutions (more au threads, people who might be really invested in writing with me here so we can both be active if the stars align, so that I don’t lose the push to write and so on) but I wanted to at least warn all of you that even if it weirdly hurts, I do feel that it’s time to admit I need a break from Jemma, and that I’ll just focus on Emma with no pressure on writing fast. (You never put pressure on me, I do)

I do love all of you and all my threads, obviously, this is about me and my lack of love for aos and the many years spent writing that ask me to try to take a break! you are all welcomed to rp with me on Emma, it has plenty au and crossover verses!

[shewassoferal]

big psa

this feels awful to say, but I think I might go on a more permanent semi-hiatus? I have been writing Jemma Simmons since 2014, and this version of her in another blog since 2015 so it’s like giving up on such a big part of me that gave me so many great threads and led to new friends, a character whose potential I truly love… and I don’t want to say a full goodbye, I do have threads I’m still interested in, and I do love all my rp partners here, but at the same time I’m not active here and I know it.

There are several reasons for it if you are interested:

1) of course I’m not blaming my partners for this because I’m gone all the time (lol can you imagine) but usually I need lots of back and forth action to keep myself interested, and since the fandom became much smaller, I went on many health-related hiatuses, my rp friends also were gone a lot, I ended up having threads only every now and then and the energy for writing her therefore kinda went away. It’s like destiny: everybody is online? I’m gone. I come back and start new threads? everybody else has to go for weeks. 

2) every time I see anything aos related I’m in a bad mood because I despise what the show did with her, and writing such an AU blog makes harder to make it work with aos rpers because obviously they have to follow the show a bit more closely (again, not your fault! I hate that I ask people to adapt to it). Aos did become a smaller fandom too so I’m not even sure how much people are interested in interacting with her, being so au and with a big backstory page.

3) my own health and life issues keep me away a lot and when they don’t, the energy to come up with new threads for a character I already wrote for five years is little, especially since most of the time they have to be angsty due to her traumas and it’s not great for me. 

4) it’s really, really hard to write someone so au unless we rewrite early seasons together, and do you know how much time that would take my rp partners too, we’d need to have so many threads just to make our own story and as much as I love it, that’s just not happening in rp world anymore

so I think I have to let it go. I’ll probably just be at @thecharmingknightemma, low-medium activity, maybe move it to its own blog or maybe leaving it as sideblog, and see how things go there. that’s a goldmine for plots and not restricted by any tvshow since it’s either an au that has little to do with canon ouat or basically an oc in other fandoms. This isn’t a goodbye, most people are on discord too and I can come here when I feel the energy, or if I find other solutions (more au threads, people who might be really invested in writing with me here so we can both be active if the stars align, so that I don’t lose the push to write and so on) but I wanted to at least warn all of you that even if it weirdly hurts, I do feel that it’s time to admit I need a break from Jemma, and that I’ll just focus on Emma with no pressure on writing fast. (You never put pressure on me, I do)

I do love all of you and all my threads, obviously, this is about me and my lack of love for aos and the many years spent writing that ask me to try to take a break! you are all welcomed to rp with me on Emma, it has plenty au and crossover verses!

[shewassoferal]

big psa

this feels awful to say, but I think I might go on a more permanent semi-hiatus? I have been writing Jemma Simmons since 2014, and this version of her in another blog since 2015 so it’s like giving up on such a big part of me that gave me so many great threads and led to new friends, a character whose potential I truly love… and I don’t want to say a full goodbye, I do have threads I’m still interested in, and I do love all my rp partners here, but at the same time I’m not active here and I know it.

There are several reasons for it if you are interested:

1) of course I’m not blaming my partners for this because I’m gone all the time (lol can you imagine) but usually I need lots of back and forth action to keep myself interested, and since the fandom became much smaller, I went on many health-related hiatuses, my rp friends also were gone a lot, I ended up having threads only every now and then and the energy for writing her therefore kinda went away. It’s like destiny: everybody is online? I’m gone. I come back and start new threads? everybody else has to go for weeks. 

2) every time I see anything aos related I’m in a bad mood because I despise what the show did with her, and writing such an AU blog makes harder to make it work with aos rpers because obviously they have to follow the show a bit more closely (again, not your fault! I hate that I ask people to adapt to it). Aos did become a smaller fandom too so I’m not even sure how much people are interested in interacting with her, being so au and with a big backstory page.

3) my own health and life issues keep me away a lot and when they don’t, the energy to come up with new threads for a character I already wrote for five years is little, especially since most of the time they have to be angsty due to her traumas and it’s not great for me. 

4) it’s really, really hard to write someone so au unless we rewrite early seasons together, and do you know how much time that would take my rp partners too, we’d need to have so many threads just to make our own story and as much as I love it, that’s just not happening in rp world anymore

so I think I have to let it go. I’ll probably just be at @thecharmingknightemma, low-medium activity, maybe move it to its own blog or maybe leaving it as sideblog, and see how things go there. that’s a goldmine for plots and not restricted by any tvshow since it’s either an au that has little to do with canon ouat or basically an oc in other fandoms. This isn’t a goodbye, most people are on discord too and I can come here when I feel the energy, or if I find other solutions (more au threads, people who might be really invested in writing with me here so we can both be active if the stars align, so that I don’t lose the push to write and so on) but I wanted to at least warn all of you that even if it weirdly hurts, I do feel that it’s time to admit I need a break from Jemma, and that I’ll just focus on Emma with no pressure on writing fast. (You never put pressure on me, I do)

I do love all of you and all my threads, obviously, this is about me and my lack of love for aos and the many years spent writing that ask me to try to take a break! you are all welcomed to rp with me on Emma, it has plenty au and crossover verses!

[shewassoferal]

big psa

this feels awful to say, but I think I might go on a more permanent semi-hiatus? I have been writing Jemma Simmons since 2014, and this version of her in another blog since 2015 so it’s like giving up on such a big part of me that gave me so many great threads and led to new friends, a character whose potential I truly love… and I don’t want to say a full goodbye, I do have threads I’m still interested in, and I do love all my rp partners here, but at the same time I’m not active here and I know it.

There are several reasons for it if you are interested:

1) of course I’m not blaming my partners for this because I’m gone all the time (lol can you imagine) but usually I need lots of back and forth action to keep myself interested, and since the fandom became much smaller, I went on many health-related hiatuses, my rp friends also were gone a lot, I ended up having threads only every now and then and the energy for writing her therefore kinda went away. It’s like destiny: everybody is online? I’m gone. I come back and start new threads? everybody else has to go for weeks. 

2) every time I see anything aos related I’m in a bad mood because I despise what the show did with her, and writing such an AU blog makes harder to make it work with aos rpers because obviously they have to follow the show a bit more closely (again, not your fault! I hate that I ask people to adapt to it). Aos did become a smaller fandom too so I’m not even sure how much people are interested in interacting with her, being so au and with a big backstory page.

3) my own health and life issues keep me away a lot and when they don’t, the energy to come up with new threads for a character I already wrote for five years is little, especially since most of the time they have to be angsty due to her traumas and it’s not great for me. 

4) it’s really, really hard to write someone so au unless we rewrite early seasons together, and do you know how much time that would take my rp partners too, we’d need to have so many threads just to make our own story and as much as I love it, that’s just not happening in rp world anymore

so I think I have to let it go. I’ll probably just be at @thecharmingknightemma, low-medium activity, maybe move it to its own blog or maybe leaving it as sideblog, and see how things go there. that’s a goldmine for plots and not restricted by any tvshow since it’s either an au that has little to do with canon ouat or basically an oc in other fandoms. This isn’t a goodbye, most people are on discord too and I can come here when I feel the energy, or if I find other solutions (more au threads, people who might be really invested in writing with me here so we can both be active if the stars align, so that I don’t lose the push to write and so on) but I wanted to at least warn all of you that even if it weirdly hurts, I do feel that it’s time to admit I need a break from Jemma, and that I’ll just focus on Emma with no pressure on writing fast. (You never put pressure on me, I do)

I do love all of you and all my threads, obviously, this is about me and my lack of love for aos and the many years spent writing that ask me to try to take a break! you are all welcomed to rp with me on Emma, it has plenty au and crossover verses!

[shewassoferal]

big psa

this feels awful to say, but I think I might go on a more permanent semi-hiatus? I have been writing Jemma Simmons since 2014, and this version of her in another blog since 2015 so it’s like giving up on such a big part of me that gave me so many great threads and led to new friends, a character whose potential I truly love… and I don’t want to say a full goodbye, I do have threads I’m still interested in, and I do love all my rp partners here, but at the same time I’m not active here and I know it.

There are several reasons for it if you are interested:

1) of course I’m not blaming my partners for this because I’m gone all the time (lol can you imagine) but usually I need lots of back and forth action to keep myself interested, and since the fandom became much smaller, I went on many health-related hiatuses, my rp friends also were gone a lot, I ended up having threads only every now and then and the energy for writing her therefore kinda went away. It’s like destiny: everybody is online? I’m gone. I come back and start new threads? everybody else has to go for weeks. 

2) every time I see anything aos related I’m in a bad mood because I despise what the show did with her, and writing such an AU blog makes harder to make it work with aos rpers because obviously they have to follow the show a bit more closely (again, not your fault! I hate that I ask people to adapt to it). Aos did become a smaller fandom too so I’m not even sure how much people are interested in interacting with her, being so au and with a big backstory page.

3) my own health and life issues keep me away a lot and when they don’t, the energy to come up with new threads for a character I already wrote for five years is little, especially since most of the time they have to be angsty due to her traumas and it’s not great for me. 

4) it’s really, really hard to write someone so au unless we rewrite early seasons together, and do you know how much time that would take my rp partners too, we’d need to have so many threads just to make our own story and as much as I love it, that’s just not happening in rp world anymore

so I think I have to let it go. I’ll probably just be at @thecharmingknightemma, low-medium activity, maybe move it to its own blog or maybe leaving it as sideblog, and see how things go there. that’s a goldmine for plots and not restricted by any tvshow since it’s either an au that has little to do with canon ouat or basically an oc in other fandoms. This isn’t a goodbye, most people are on discord too and I can come here when I feel the energy, or if I find other solutions (more au threads, people who might be really invested in writing with me here so we can both be active if the stars align, so that I don’t lose the push to write and so on) but I wanted to at least warn all of you that even if it weirdly hurts, I do feel that it’s time to admit I need a break from Jemma, and that I’ll just focus on Emma with no pressure on writing fast. (You never put pressure on me, I do)

I do love all of you and all my threads, obviously, this is about me and my lack of love for aos and the many years spent writing that ask me to try to take a break! you are all welcomed to rp with me on Emma, it has plenty au and crossover verses!

[shewassoferal]

big psa

this feels awful to say, but I think I might go on a more permanent semi-hiatus? I have been writing Jemma Simmons since 2014, and this version of her in another blog since 2015 so it’s like giving up on such a big part of me that gave me so many great threads and led to new friends, a character whose potential I truly love… and I don’t want to say a full goodbye, I do have threads I’m still interested in, and I do love all my rp partners here, but at the same time I’m not active here and I know it.

There are several reasons for it if you are interested:

1) of course I’m not blaming my partners for this because I’m gone all the time (lol can you imagine) but usually I need lots of back and forth action to keep myself interested, and since the fandom became much smaller, I went on many health-related hiatuses, my rp friends also were gone a lot, I ended up having threads only every now and then and the energy for writing her therefore kinda went away. It’s like destiny: everybody is online? I’m gone. I come back and start new threads? everybody else has to go for weeks. 

2) every time I see anything aos related I’m in a bad mood because I despise what the show did with her, and writing such an AU blog makes harder to make it work with aos rpers because obviously they have to follow the show a bit more closely (again, not your fault! I hate that I ask people to adapt to it). Aos did become a smaller fandom too so I’m not even sure how much people are interested in interacting with her, being so au and with a big backstory page.

3) my own health and life issues keep me away a lot and when they don’t, the energy to come up with new threads for a character I already wrote for five years is little, especially since most of the time they have to be angsty due to her traumas and it’s not great for me. 

4) it’s really, really hard to write someone so au unless we rewrite early seasons together, and do you know how much time that would take my rp partners too, we’d need to have so many threads just to make our own story and as much as I love it, that’s just not happening in rp world anymore

so I think I have to let it go. I’ll probably just be at @thecharmingknightemma, low-medium activity, maybe move it to its own blog or maybe leaving it as sideblog, and see how things go there. that’s a goldmine for plots and not restricted by any tvshow since it’s either an au that has little to do with canon ouat or basically an oc in other fandoms. This isn’t a goodbye, most people are on discord too and I can come here when I feel the energy, or if I find other solutions (more au threads, people who might be really invested in writing with me here so we can both be active if the stars align, so that I don’t lose the push to write and so on) but I wanted to at least warn all of you that even if it weirdly hurts, I do feel that it’s time to admit I need a break from Jemma, and that I’ll just focus on Emma with no pressure on writing fast. (You never put pressure on me, I do)

I do love all of you and all my threads, obviously, this is about me and my lack of love for aos and the many years spent writing that ask me to try to take a break! you are all welcomed to rp with me on Emma, it has plenty au and crossover verses!