𝙿𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙲𝙾𝚂𝙼 a paracosm is a detailed imaginary world created inside one ' s mind . this fantasy world may involve humans , animals , and things that exist in reality ; or it may also contain entities that are entirely imaginary , alien , and otherwordly .
my name is esmé , edithe , honoka , or alice . i ' m as if a pathetic lamb turned into a queer woman . dollfaced lolita angel . i am a teenaged girl stuck in a twenty years old body trying to shift back to her original vessel . obviously , i am a reality shifter . controversial realities are my guilty pleasure . all shifters welcome . send anonymous confessions to my asks if your dr is too strange for the average person , i love hearing about them .
my beloved anons ; 💭 🎀
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updated dni below the cut !
𝙳𝙾 𝙽𝙾𝚃 𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙴𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃
🕊️ while i believe shifting is the key to freedom and that people can do whatever they want in their realities , i do have personal " no - no ' s " and will not entertain certain subjects . just because i have problematic themes in my own drs , it does not mean i condone any of these things irl in this reality as they can cause real harm that cannot simply be scripted away . i am generally open minded , but i do have limits .
dni if you fall into the following
• condone any sexualization of real children in this reality , such as a child actor or a character portrayed by a child actor . if they ' re fictional here ( as in drawn or digital ) , it won ' t bother me as much .
• nazis , magas , racists , bigots of any kind .
• pro - contact paraphiliacs. , specifically harmful ones that do not involve consenting human adults , or creatures that cannot give consent ( in the harkness scale we trust ! )
• engage in the big three ( pedos / " maps " , zoos , necros ) specifically if you are the abuser or take it outside of fantasy between consenting adults . honestly , i feel very conflicted about this due to past experiences . . . it requires a lot of discussion . if you consider yourself the " victim " in your fantasy , you are welcome here .
• racist realities , but i may hear someone out if they have an interest in it for the historical aspect . being curious is fine , but if it ' s just for a power trip , do not interact .
• transphobes , homophobes , terfs , transmeds , etc. not tolerated in any form , as i am queer and i have a transgender dr s / o .
• those who harass shifters for different beliefs . my blog is a cozy place for everyone , but i will not tolerate any petty drama .
• shifters who believe that just because they are one race in another reality , they can speak on racial issues in this reality . ex. a white woman shifting to be a black girl and acting as if she can speak for all black women . do not interact . i ' m not against race changing , i just won ' t tolerate any active racism .
i won ' t harass you or attack you for having any realities that have the former , but these are personally not things i can stomach . i am just not comfortable with them . you will be ignored or blocked . 🎀
Another anon mentioned a yandere and I immediately thought of my DR S/Os. I got multiple S/Os who are VERY possessive and obsessive so they definitely have yandere traits for sure and I love them so much. There's just something about someone being utterly devoted to you 😮💨. -🎀
exactly ! me too ! like what ' s even the point of someone being in love with me if they ' re not at least a little off their rocker ? i need my partner to be obsessed with me .
shifting allows me to indulge , i will indulge in having the most rotten and possessive lovers !
Re-watchibg JJK and realising that I'll have to make a separate DR just to be a hoe because everyone is so fine man. Honestly I'm going crazy especially from the edits. Originally in my main JJK Dr i was gonna be in a throuple with Satosugu but now a WLW relationship with Shoko speaks to me, I also have another JJK DR to be with Higuruma and Nanami but I also want to make ine for Choso. Being a hoe is hardwork 😮💨 (😝) . I think I'll make a Uni alternate reality without powers and stuff and script in the JJK people into it and that will act as my hoe DR. Thanks for coming to my tedtalk once again Esmé.
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i ' m currently screaming because toji is my father in a few drs ! so i ' m actually so excited you mentioned jjk ( i ' m a massive poser though — ignore the fact that i haven ' t even had the chance to finish season 2 shh ! ! i just love that man and how horrendous he is (╥﹏╥) )
having several drs for the same place just with different s/os . . . honestly , is that not just a common shifter experience ? i feel like we ' ve all done this at some point and i think it ' s so cute . ꉂ(˵˃ ᗜ ˂˵)
for example , i ' ve been sitting on a dad/son dr between a male version of myself and joel miller from the last of us . meanwhile , in another tlou - inspired dr , i ' m with abby and getting manhandled by her everyday . (˶>⩊<˶) yet i ' m also tempted swap places with ellie when she gets swooped up in that cannibal cult , which yes . . . that ' s sick and twisted , but admittedly i am a horrible person who is attracted to the worst kind of men .
Anon is not wrong i know i was the on that brought it up but I should've mentioned that it could be quite extreme at times so my bad. I still find most of the asks on there entertaining but there can be some extreme stuff on there too. I just like to go off my philosophy of 'ignore what makes you uncomfortable or what you disagree with' especially navigating nsfw spaces like that blog I mean everyone has their limits. But yeah hope it didn't make you too uncomfortable Esmé and if it did I apologise ♡.
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oh , no ! it ' s not your fault at all . after sleeping on it and letting the initial shock wear off , i ' m kind of in the same boat .
my thoughts went from "this makes me greatly uncomfortable" to "wait— i ' ve definitely already seen far worse fantasies in kink spaces , and drs like this are going to exist beyond my control anyway ." so i think i ' m going to allow myself operate under a similar mindset . a " dead dove do not eat" or "don ' t like , don ' t read" sort of thought process .
so don ' t worry ! you couldn ' t control another shifter ' s actions if you wanted to , anyway . i just had to remind myself that i ' m also a twisted shifter and i can ' t judge too harshly what people are confessing . it sort of goes against my whole philosophy . it ' s not like they ' re doing horrible things in this reality , anyway . at least i hope !
Yaaaa would not recommend shiftblrtaboo. I mean, lives up to the username, but they straight admitted to having a dr for s/a... sounds like that eternalshifts guy that got banned though I think that was already pointed out to them and they went "na not me bro" or some vague shit which ion believe, the way they type is too similar and the blog popped up like two days after eternalshifts got banned 💀
yeah , i know what you mean . i don ' t want to gossip about someone so openly , but i personally have my own limits so i ' m unsure how i feel interacting with him . i ' m sort of stuck on the fence . . .
i ' m open minded , i have drs that contain some sort of s/a , murder , exploitation , etc . but some of the things he ' s said make me squirm . am i being hypocritical ? most likely ! i can admit that haha .
as for his speech pattern . . . well , it reminds me of someone that was in my dms that i had to block . i ' m not confident if this is the same person , so i ' m not going to say it ' s them 100% . it could just be a coincidence !
i won ' t make a big fuss about it just yet . i ' m probably the last person i would think of to police what people script into their drs , as mine might even be worse than the confessions he has on his blog .
Omgg Wait I wanna do a camgirl job for my better dr how would I do it and also do a ph job without people knowing what I look like and staying anonymous 24/7.
hmm . . . good question . ｢( • ﾍ •) i think you would have to channel the energy of hannah montana and start wearing wigs and makeup to completely disguise yourself . you could also script that you look completely off camera , like the lens warps your appearance so much that you become unrecognizable . or simply decide that you ' re a shapeshifter ! get creative with it . 🤍
I NEED TO BE SPOILED BY A HOT YANDERE WAAAAAAHH!!! T-T
YES YES YES !
a beautiful yandere that is so gentle her with her manipulation that it almost seems like genuine care and love . a yandere that will tie me up in her basement as punishment for trying to run away and treats me like her little angel as an apology . a yandere that leaves love letters in my locker threatening to kill me and the boy i have a crush on if i look at him .
but at the end of the day , she gives me absolutely everything i want . she practically babies me . she knows every single little thing about me , and knows how to pamper me just right . dreamy sigh .
Woke up craving the comfort of an older woman's bossom so ofcourse I'm back in your inbox＼(^-^)／. You know how girls often change around eachother and stuff and are comfortable being half naked around eachother because 'we're both girls' I was thinking about it in the context of this DR. Like imagine I'm over at my dad's and he's not home obviously and I'm just walking around in no bra a baby tee and a pair of panties just teasing her and GOD I imagine my step mother in one of those sexy silk pyjamas set and we're both teasing eachother. I imagine her making every excuse to touch me or me laying around in ways she can see just how soaked my panties are and she runs her fingers over my thigh...OH MY GAHHD!!! (///∇///).
Or we go on a 'girls trip' and shower together because we're both girls so obviously its ok it'll save time, we have a packed itinerary we need to make haste...sure we end up making out and her fingers are inside me and she's mutrering praises but it's ok we're just having some mommy-daughter bonding time before we go out 🤭.
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every time you enter my inbox is such a treat because ohh my goosshh i ' m literally screaming into my pillow with how hot that all sounds .
imagine she doesn ' t even bother buttoning her pajama top all the way . or it ' s a little chilly in the room so you can see her nipples poking through .
AAAAH and you two are in the shower together and she offers to wash your back . but her soapy hands start to wander all over your body , you can feel her chest pressed against your back , and before you know it she ' s got you pinned up against the shower tile with her hand between your thighs . but it ' s okay because she ' s just making sure her baby girl is all clean for her trip ! what a considerate mommy !
i ' m frothing at the mouth . spay me ! SPAY ME ! !
ESMÉ!!! You always add the extra cherry on top to my scenarios OMG. I'm glad you love the idea feel free to steal this one too sharing is caring after all 🧘🏾♀️. I'm so excited for this DR maybe I'll drop more scenarios in your inbox later. But YES secretly touching under the table, the thrill of getting caught, girls trips??? Esmé I want to kiss your brain 🫶🏾.
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aaah oh my gosh , you ' re too sweet ! your drs are literally so inspiring , i can ' t help but let my mind wander to new scenarios ! i ' m so excited to hear what else you have brewing in that gorgeous head of yours ! ( ⸝⸝´ ᵕ `⸝⸝)♡
i love the other anon(🎀) dr scenarios glups,, i just recently created a dr where i am a actress and i have my own label and all ， fans love me and obsess over me like damn yall love me that much because of my adorable face Σ（・□・；）
i don't know if that too niche but i thought either being a twitter sweetheart (like i post regularly previews or little parts of my videos ，i'll be a streamer) or being in japanese adult videos (being a JAV idol practically and im half japanese nobody panics please) and im a little favorite of my company !! the themes surrounding my videos involve a lot of yuri ， best friends tropes ， those comfy houses one (please get what i'm talking about for this one uwaaa) .. ε-(´∀｀; )
— 💭anon typing !!
oh my gosh wait ! ( ˶°ㅁ°) !! being a jav idol sounds like so much fun . i don ' t watch a lot of japanese porn , but the few that i have seen are full productions are sooo well done . i ' ve heard adult actresses have dedicated fandoms over in japan , right ? omg , imagine mixing something like a kpop idol convention and the avn expo ! a streamy awards but for adult content !
i ' ve definitely had thoughts of scripting a camgirl dr , but the added idol aspect sounds way more interesting . and maybe being an actress or a streamer on the side ? i just might have to be a little thief for you too , 💭nonnie . (¬⩊¬ )⊹
Esmé...how did you manage to make it sound even hotter??? at this point write my script for me oh my god??? Groping? Praises? EVEN MORE BUTTERFLIES!!! (///∇///).
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being a dirty minded is my specialty ! ! (⸝⸝>•̀⸝⸝)✧
Esmé I don't know if you've heard but there is a new confession blogged called Shiftblrtaboo, I've been lurking and they actually post REAL freaky anons. I was worried it would be like the others but it seems not too bad and the anons are so entertaining especially for controversial DRs. I recommend you check it out. -🎀
i think i ' ve gotten a few of their posts on my dash before ! but it was at the peak of when those blogs were around , so i guess i ignored it . (｡ᵕ ◞ _◟)
they seem less messy than those other confession blogs , so i ' m definitely going to follow ! i want to see other shiftblr freaks sooo bad . maybe i ' ll even send in my own confession if i can think of a juicy one !
Ok new DR unlocked. I wanted to make a WLW DR with an order woman and I finally got the plot of the DR sorted:
OK so, my bio mom died when I was really young and it was just me and my dad who is quite wealthy, after she died through my teens my dad dates multiple women but nothing happens. During this time I'm in school and there is a gorgeous teacher probably in her early thirties that I'm close with and i basically have a crush on though nothing happens between us I'm basically her best student but sadly she gets a better job and leaves a few months before I graduate.
Anyways I go off to University and talking to my Dad less and he ends up getting engaged to and marries a woman. I didn't meet her before the wedding so the day of the wedding is the first time I see her and low and behold she is the teacher I had a crush on in High-school.
So obviously I'll be shocked, the wedding happens and me and my new step mother (mommy) talk and she was just as shocked as me but we're highkey ecstatic to be reunited. I start visiting my dad more just to see her and she takes her 'mom' role quite seriously...I usually would call her by first name but I eventually call her mom and then mommy and it lowkey spirals because there is so much sexual tension between us calling me pet names while she is still being nurturing touching me a little too intimately 😖 and my rich as dad is traveling and leaving this gorgeous woman home alone (why his other relationships failed) so I basically leave my university just to spend time with her often spending weekends with her and lowkey I fall for her even harder....I mean she's tall, curvy and has a sexy voice Sue meeee.
One night we're drinking and watching TV and she confesses to only marrying my dad for the money....and I was ecstatic (sorry dad) and she highkey insinuates that she is a lesbian and one thing leads to another and we fuck and that lowkey starts our whole kinky secret relationship. Clearly I have lots of thoughts and I'm so excited for this DR just something about an older feminine dominant woman that just gets me so soaked 😖.
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wait 🎀nonnie this is so hot (* ´ ﹃｀*) like this is an actual gem .
imagine you two start going on little " girls trips " to have a reason to get away from your dad , but it ' s really just an excuse to see you get naked in the dressing room without it being too obvious .
or imagine your dad walking in on when you two were just about to do something naughty . he says something like " you girls seem to be getting along well ! " none the wiser to the fact that his wife ' s hand was just up your skirt .
ah ! or eating dinner and she ' s secretly playing with you under the table , and you have to pretend like everything ' s normal .
okay okay , i ' ll stop now . clearly i ' m fascinated by this dr .
Stay back after school for 'extra' tutoring (I already get A* btw) just to sit on his lap in my short skirt and tease him for hours grinding on his bulge while we read and annotate Shakespeare. Then when he has finally had a enough bends me over on his desk 🙂↕️. -🎀
butterflies , butterflies , butterflies ! this is literally my dream (⸝⸝๑﹏๑⸝⸝)
imagine he ' s groping and touching you the whole time , playfully scolding you when you stumble over your words , mumbling praises into the back of your neck . . .
Girl you inspired me to make my own NSFW side-blog so don't mind me reblogging a bunch of your stuff right now 🫣 . I'll be 🎀 anon. I'm also the anon who sent the Private school DR anon about dating my Bisexual teachers and you can totally steal my idea for a DR in glad you like it 🙂↕️.
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oh . my . goodness . i am so honored ! i don ' t mind at all , in fact , i was sooo excited to open tumblr to see that my inbox was blowing up with reblogs . (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) we have some similar tastes !
my notes app is already primed and ready . i am 100 % stealing your private school dr idea ! ! thank you 🎀nonnie ! ! ( ˶˘ ³˘)♡
i wish i could talk about all the dirty , disgusting , and kinky stuffs that’s gonna happen in my desired realities . no one’s as nsfw as we could be around here , and it’s devastating . 💔
