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silver boy am i more than you bargained for yet? --------------------- indie crime oc penned by devin est. 10/12 remade. 02/17 --------------------- drafts: 000 inbox: 002 starters: 000

[shinessilver-blog]

unfortunateone.

          fingers move with ease through the other’s hair, a comforting gesture he’s reserved only for the one he loves. he leans quietly against the headboard, in bed later than usual on a hazy sunday morning; he’s focused on his love, and that’s it. nuka’s lips press a gentle kiss to the top of meeko’s head, arm moving to wrap around him almost protectively. ❝ we could stay in bed all day, y’know, ❞ nuka lets his head fall back, eyes closing as he thinks. ❝ leon could take care of the babies, right ? like.. i mean, i’ll pay him to take ‘em outta the house for the day if i have to. ❞

               @shinessilver // sc.

          moments like this, between meeko and his husband are rare but he clings to them with everything he’s got. it’s no one’s fault, with four kids in the house and a demanding job, he’s stopped worrying when he wakes up in bed alone but today, resting softly on nuka’s chest, meeko’s smile comes easily. ❝ we could. ❞ he agrees, taking nuka’s hand and pressing a kiss to his knuckles. ❝ i think you might have to, because i don’t plan on moving any time soon. ❞ he laughs softly, wrapping his arms around nuka even tighter and letting his eyes close for a minute.

[shinessilver-blog]

unfortunateone.

          nuka’s fingers continue to move carefully through meeko’s hair, eyes focused primarily on him. to him, nothing else matters; truthfully, it’s always that way. ❝ hey, listen, i – i do alright, yeah ? i do alright. it’s fine. ❞

          meeko leans into the touch some more, eyes almost closing at the sense of familiarity and warmth. he’s missed this and, most importantly, he missed nuka. ❝ yeah, but you mess me up, you asshole. ❞

[shinessilver-blog]

unfortunateone.

          nuka’s arms move to rest carefully on meeko’s shoulders, fingers moving carefully through his hair for a moment. he takes this time to simply look at the other, a small smile playing at his lips. ❝ it’s true ! s’real hard to concentrate ‘round here, ‘specially ‘cause of you. ❞

          meeko holds the other tightly, scared that he might disappear if he lets him go. he leans into every touch, pressing another kiss to nuka’s forehead before pressing one to each of his cheeks. ❝ hey ! you’re a bigger distraction than i am. i actually try to study, you just pretend. ❞

[shinessilver-blog]

unfortunateone.

          he HATES leaving; before, it was easy. it was easy when he was nicki, but meeko isn’t a part of this life. everything is new between them, like the fact hnuka disappears for a few weeks at a time. ❝ uh-huh, that’s exactly what i was doin’. had to get away to just study, y’know ? ❞

          he knows why nuka leaves -- he’s never liked it, but he has no problem with it, it’s just how things are. meeko accepts this part of nuka, even if he’s not a fan of it. ❝ yeah, just had to block the world away to study. ❞ he laughs softly, moving down to press a kiss to nuka’s forehead.

[shinessilver-blog]

unfortunateone.

          it’s been too long ( at least, by nuka’s standards ) and a formal greeting was not the first thing on his mind. arms tighten carefully around meeko, lips pressing a gentle kiss to his cheek. ❝ oh ! i have also been studyin’, of course. ❞ nuka hums, moving to turn meeko around, looking up at him. ❝ y’know me, i care immensely ‘bout my education. ❞ a wicked grin crosses nuka’s lips, hands resting on meeko’s waist.

          he doesn’t like when nuka’s away, but it makes each time he comes back so much better. ❝ yeah, i believe that for a while five seconds. ❞ he rolls his eyes, still grinning as he turns around and wraps his arms around the shorter boy. ❝ uh huh, is that where you’ve been for the past two weeks ? studyin’ away ? ❞

[shinessilver-blog]

unfortunateone.

          ❝ hey ! ❞ nuka’s arms wrap tight around the other’s waist, face buried between shoulder blades. he takes a deep breath, pressed flush against the other, refusing to have any space between them; after all, he’s had no contact with other for the last two weeks. it happens, just another problem when it comes to nuka’s lifestyle. ❝ hey, i missed you. ❞ nuka smiles, standing on his tip toes to rest his chin on meeko’s shoulder. ❝ what’cha been up to, huh ? ❞

               @shinessilver // I LOVE U.

          he jumps at the feeling of someone touching, but grins widely at the sound of nuka’s voice. it’s been a while but he’s not mad, made obvious by the way one hand rests over nuka’s and the other reaches behind him to run his fingers through the other’s hair. ❝ i missed you too. ❞ meeko giggles softly, fixing his glasses. ❝ it’s finals -- i’ve been studyin’, nerd. what about you, huh ? where have you been ? ❞

[itskristaaaa]

[shinessilver-blog]

unfortunateone.

          ❝ i have to, ❞ he speaks through clenched teeth, fingers digging carefully into the palm of his hand. nuka’s trying his DAMNEDEST to get out the door, biting the inside of his cheek until that familiar copper taste fills his mouth. ❝ yeah, ‘cause you’re not fuckin’ supposed to. i can’t stay, meeko, i gotta go. what fuckin’ part of that is so hard to understand ? ❞ his voice may be stern, but he tries to see where meeko’s coming from, tries to LISTEN. ❝ don’t. what’s the problem ? ❞ he takes his hands away, arms crossing.

          ❝ please. ❞ he knows he shouldn’t push, knows its not his PLACE -- but he has every right to worry about his husband; what the other does with that worry is his own problem. ❝ something’s gonna go wrong tonight. and i’m not just being paranoid, alright ?? ❞ he interject before the other can, letting him move away. ❝ if you go you’re gonna get hurt, or worse -- KILLED. ❞ he hates the thought, but after speaking to a few of nuka’s associate's wives’, he’d managed to work himself up enough to stop nuka before he goes; something he’d never do. ❝ i wouldn’t tell you this if i wasn’t sure. ❞

[shinessilver-blog]

         ❝ don’t go. ❞ it comes out in a rush, hand gripping nuka’s wrist tightly, his brow furrowed with something akin to worry. he regrets the words as soon as they’re out of his mouth but, instead of trying to take them back, he presses on. ❝ please, i -- i never ask, i never question your work but tonight i’m asking you to stay here. ❞ there’s a hint of agitation in his voice, a panic that grows with every word. sitting, he brings nuka’s hands to his lip, a sorry excuse to hide his face as he presses soft kisses to each palm.

@unfortunateone // i accidentally wrote u a starter ????

[reclist]

x

[snailtattoo-deactivated20210605]

Brendon and Sarah’s new year’s kiss

[officialbrendonurie]

(✿◠‿◠)

[kamiusings]

SHORT STORIES, my favorite kind of poetry ( meme ).

SIX WORDS .

❝ i heard you were doing good. ❞ ❝ you don’t grow your horns overnight. ❞ ❝ i promise, it gets better eventually. ❞ ❝ & we never talked after that. ❞ ❝ am i really, truly, that unlovable? ❞ ❝ don’t talk like you’re coming back. ❞ ❝ my most dangerous habit is trusting. ❞ ❝ we’re made of stars & stories. ❞ ❝ you didn’t have to do that. ❞ ❝ everything is poetry when you’re drunk. ❞ ❝ did i mean anything to you? ❞ ❝ real feelings don’t just go away. ❞ ❝ you came & changed the weather. ❞ ❝ when can you just be mine? ❞ ❝ there was no love, only lust. ❞ ❝ darling, stop wishing on dead stars. ❞ ❝ art is another form of screaming. ❞ ❝ silence is the most painful goodbye. ❞ ❝ what the fuck did you do? ❞ ❝ i’m drunk, dizzy & missing you. ❞ ❝ kiss me like you’re losing me. ❞ ❝ i don’t feel like smiling today. ❞ ❝ not all good people are innocent. ❞ ❝ we’re a disaster in the making. ❞ ❝ some things are better left unsaid. ❞ ❝ we really should’ve talked about it. ❞ ❝ i’m so glad i met you. ❞ ❝ i wish i knew you earlier. ❞ ❝ i fucked (pronoun/name) to our song. ❞ ❝ i dreamed of you this night. ❞

TEN WORDS .

❝ you saw the messed up parts of me, & stayed. ❞ ❝ all i’ve ever wanted was for someone to save me. ❞ ❝ since you left, i have no one to talk to. ❞ ❝ i apologize for the nights in which i cannot breathe. ❞ ❝ everytime i look at you, i want to kiss you. ❞ ❝ we said no strings attached but now we’re in knots. ❞ ❝ there’s a difference between missing someone & missing having someone. ❞ ❝ for which f are you drinking? fuck, forget, or fun? ❞ ❝ my biggest mistake was thinking i could live without (pronoun/name). ❞ ❝ whenever (name/pronoun) rose to kiss me, i fell even more. ❞ ❝ i wish that ‘goodnight’ was followed by ‘i love you’. ❞ ❝ let’s smoke a pack of mentholds & talk about love. ❞ ❝ your deep, sleepy voice makes me feel like i’m okay. ❞ ❝ i read both of our horoscopes looking for an answer ❞ ❝ reality is the absolute last place i want to be. ❞ ❝ i didn’t expect that drunk kiss could mean this much. ❞ ❝ all i need is a late night drive with you. ❞ ❝ feeling pain is nowhere near as terrifying as feeling nothing. ❞ ❝ your eyes are the color of summer fading into autumn. ❞ ❝ you are the warmest home i will ever, ever find. ❞ ❝ the world is less scary when i am with you. ❞ ❝ i still can’t tell which of us was the victim. ❞ ❝ i just need an excuse to hang out with you. ❞ ❝ your expectations for me have been set way too high. ❞ ❝ i don’t want to feel this way about anyone else. ❞

[midsommars-deactivated20201109]

Joe Keery leaving LAX (1.27.17)

[heavenlybrendon]

Brendon Urie on national television everybody!

[snailtattoo-deactivated20210605]

If you’re putting off studying for something important, here’s Brendon Urie reminding you to get on that shit

[rippedjeanz]

throwing a line out to sea 

to see if i can catch a dream  

(inspired by @trippingeyes )