shingan suai 🪩

miss eternal love on your screens ✶ 20, she/they, eng lover & muke enthusiast

[rhettroblues]

I keep thinking about deathbed thoughts. I don’t know why this has been on my mind lately. What the fuck am I going to be thinking when I’m dying? I don’t want to look back on my memories, and just see slates and hotel rooms and press junkets. So I’m trying to figure out a way to make that all not just something that I sleepwalk through, you know?

[imheaveninhiding]

”you’re so funny” thanks im still waiting for 5sos and halsey to collab

[honeyedlashton]

Luke Hemmings for Euphoria BTS and How I Live Now (2013) / Maud, and Other Poems Alfred Tennyson / Jacob Wrestling With The Angel Alexander Louis Leloir / “Good Grief” Hayley Williams / Ashton Irwin’s Instagram Superbloom Release Chat

[poncho-0123]

🥃You Don't Go To Parties🥃

[steaming-compost-tea]

don’t 🙅 get me wrong ❌ I know it’s hard to ➡️ love me ❤️ round and around 🔄 an emotional junkie 🚬 chill baby chill ✋🙄 I’m just late 🤪 to the party 🪩 I know you can make me a man 🧍‍♂️from a monkey 🐒

[scamguy]

the few minutes between the moment u yap in someones dms and they dont answer and you feel like you should get painfully dismembered for the crime of talking to someone vs the instant relief of normalcy you get when they text back and no ones killed you yet

[filmgifs]

The Testament of Ann Lee (2025) dir. Mona Fastvold

[shinsuswishfuldreaming]

hey, alexa, play challengers: match point.

[shinsuswishfuldreaming]

and what if i say human! tikki & plugg?

[5ummit]

May thy knife chip and shatter

[shinsuswishfuldreaming]

literally them now

[shinsuswishfuldreaming]

since a lot of people liked my 5sos x yellowjackets thing, let’s discuss. who do you think would die first in the wilderness? i’m thinking that one of them would sacrifice themselves for the sake of others.

[shinsuswishfuldreaming]

5sos x yellowjackets

[tordenvejr]

art will save you, being unreasonably passionate about something niche will save you, letting past sources of joy show you the way back to yourself will save you, earnestness over composure will save you, the natural world will save you, caring for something bigger than yourself will save you, daring to be seen will save you, kindness not as a whim but a principle will save you, appreciation as a practice will save you, daring to try something new will save you, grounding will save you, love will save you, one good nights sleep will save you

[shinsuswishfuldreaming]

fem!5sos thoughts 𐙚

fem!luke is the kind of girl you see on the street and just sigh in awe. she is walking past you quickly with wide runaway-like strides; straight from the 80s blowout with barely visible strands of silver tinsel; glitter on her eyelids and fingertips; chunky platform shoes & that weirdly attractive modern cowboy style; toothpick or a cigarette between her teeth (just because she needs to chew on something all the time). she might flash you a smile as she walks by or a cheeky wink from under her sunglasses if you’re lucky enough. but you won’t forget her, that’s for sure.

fem!calum is walking right after. cheerfully talking everyone’s ear off. her dark curls, soft and short with lighter streaks bleached by the sun itself, are hidden under a baseball cap. she tried to tame them under the fabric, but they just won’t let her. she is softer than luke: loose washed out jeans and some cheeky t-shirt a bit tighter than it should be around her toned arms (did you get the sensation today?). her fingers clench and unclench the beer can instinctively, like some sort of stress toy as she talks on and on, sometimes looking back at two other girls with a giggle.

fem!michael makes noise. you hear her before you see her slightly behind fem!luke and fem!calum. from the jingle of dozens of keychains hanging on her bag and carabiner to the soft clink of her rings and chains as they touch. her mind is somewhere else, eyes fixed on bright red psp in her hands, thumbs pressing at the buttons with impressive speed. yet she nods along to whatever fem!calum is saying; maroon hair, a bit dry from constant change of colour, fall over her eyes every time she does. she might glance up, dark eyeliner standing out from the red mess of her hair, as she stumbles, the ends of jeans caught clumsily against her own shoes.

fem!ashton is a hand at first, long dainty fingers catching the back of fem!michael longsleeve, like a kitten by its scruff, before her face could meet the ground. brown eyes, flickering with green through the orange lenses of her sunglasses, crease at the ends as she laughs, dimple showing on her right cheek. ringed fingers slap fem!michael’s shoulder playfully as her cowboy boots catch up with the steps of others in two quick strides. she drums absentmindedly across black case of her phone while trying to tell fem!luke they needed to turn left ages ago. cowboy hat, black and heavy-looking, slips slightly off a curled mess of her dark blonde hair.

they finally make a turn & eventually disappear from sight.

[shinsuswishfuldreaming]

tall, blonde & absolutely evil

[inaloversquarrel]