𝙽𝙾𝚂𝚃𝙰𝙻𝙶𝙸𝙰 𝙻𝙸𝚅𝙴𝚂 𝙸𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙺𝙸𝚃𝙲𝙷𝙴𝙽, & the mood is mellow. it’s aura in every chipped mug & stain in the crevices of 70s floor tile. she wishes she could remember her as she is here forever, late august sun seeping through what light ziggy allows past the blinds, deena sitting in front of her in the way deena does: pretzeled in her mom’s dining chair, her hair a curled waterfall perfect around the shape of her face & shoulders as youngest berman chews on grapes until they’re soft & warm. she’s admired in an elder sister kind way, the sentiment wanting to press past her teeth, spoken earnestly. but they don’t. ❝ you don’t mean that. ❞ an immediate response, one without much thought. she means it, too, unable to fathom anyone caring about her beyond furled fists & drunken confessions. ❝ 𝙳𝙾𝙽'𝚃 𝙻𝙸𝙴 𝚃𝙾 𝙼𝙴. it’s rude. ❞