Why in the world did I dream of someone I never even think of in such a long time, confuses me.
We were in a cliff by the sea, he was holding my hand and was telling me to not be afraid. He knew I had fear of the water so he convinced me to jump with him. I was still hesitant. He jumped first, stayed where he landed, waited and urged me to jump after. But I just stared at him unsure if I want to. In the end, I stayed. And to think he is a person I looked up to in my life, makes it even more baffling why I did not listen to him, because in reality, I could entrust him my life. That’s how much respect and trust I have with this person. Of all the people whom I know personally, he is the one I want to emulate and still trying to emulate with regards to being a positive rippler. He graduated just three or four years ahead of me and eventually became our professor in that same university, and then later on, the Chair of our IE department. I looked up to him as my personal Greta-Thunberg-Elon-Musk-Mahatma-Gandhi kind of mentor. Without him knowing, he had always inspired me and many others to become a positive agent in this world, in our own little way and to always embrace and honor our true potential.
He was the University’s King of Engineers and the Summa Cum Laude when he graduated. But never in any circumstance, did I feel or witness that he purposely bragged about his honors or his achievements. He was vastly admired because as a King, he was modest and kind.
I remember Sir A always loved Zig Ziglar.
“The only hindrance to achieving your true potential is your denial of it” and “If you can’t stand for something, then you will fall for anything”, were just two infamous quotes that he often mentioned in class, which had stayed with me all through these years.
Since I graduated from the university thirteen years ago, I only bumped at him once or twice in public, and never got to see him again in person after that. But the only and possibly last exchange of messages we had in IG was him telling me to never wait to be ready to chase after a dream, because I won’t ever be ready to do it.
It’s so strange why of all people, he would come visit me in my dream, at this particular moment. It must be telling something because of the big decision I made last week and how it could have possibly change the course of my life. Somehow this dream assures me that I am being guided and led in my journey.
I’ve made that decision and was ready to face it regardless if I could live up to the circumstances or not. I was scared but for days, I readied myself. However, the letter never got to serve its purpose in the end.
Whatever change will befall me in the coming year is something that I look forward with excitement. Until then, I have to savor this moment, this now that is given to me because this is the only time there is to live. Everything else is just an illusion, until the moment becomes the present.
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