Falling in love with Magneto as a student would include...
...your eyes always following him when he'd visit the school, once or twice getting you in trouble with the professors for being distracted during class.
...you thinking nothing of your fascination at first, so not bothering to hide it - you never even realized how often you'd stare - and it quickly made him pick up on it.
...hin calling you out on it with his casual, strong voice, and the realization hitting you at that precise moment thanks to him, nearly disorienting you.
...lying and saying it's fascination from all the stories the Xmen had told you and the rest of your peers, tales he was a part of, but quickly clarifying that you never thought of him as a villain in them when you see a significant look cross his face - that wasn't a lie, because you could always understand his reasoning.
...it honestly making your heart flutter when you see his old face give a grateful smile, also stinging you with a disgusted guilt towards yourself.
...that same shame constantly eating away at you as the memory of his face kept haunting you, keeping you awake at night sometimes.
...always leaving yourself sobbing when you'd pleasure yourself with him in mind and not being able to look him in the eyes whenever you'd see him again.
...never daring to tell your friends, too afraid that they'll be as disgusted with you as you were, for falling for someone so old.
...having a soaring heart for weeks after he'd willfully approach you as soon as he'd arrive at the institute and open conversation.
...worrying that you seem too enthusiastic about talking to him, no idea that he finds you to be the cutest thing when you'd grin up at him so happily.
...eventually admitting your worry to him but your heart just cracking when he'd assure you by saying it's like having a sweet niece.
...going out with and getting intimate with any guy as soon as they'd show interest in you, trying to distract yourself from your feelings from him.
...Charles not needing to use his abilities to notice your feelings towards the metal bender, though it certainly helped, since his own attention always followed the man, too, to make sure he was taking care of himself.
...Charles noticing your unhealthy behavior and crumbling psyche and eventually, albeit gently, asking you about it.
...you finally breaking and admitting to Charles what was going on, desperate to just talk to someone about it, while he hugged you consolingly as you cried.
...always defending Erik when someone would assume he was behind something bad that happened. Even when it was him, you'd beg everyone involved not to hurt him - he was your friend, so they thought nothing about it.
...slowly growing stronger with Charles' support and accepting your feelings for Magneto, agreeing with yourself that nothing can come from it, but you will do your best to be there for him.
...Charles trying to convince you otherwise, but you assuring him you'll be okay as you leave to join the brotherhood. Him also trying to get you to simply tell Erik about you feelings, saying he sees a change from the man, too, but you stay convinced that you'll be fine like this.
...Erik's look of shock when you'd show up at the Brotherhood, but eventually accepting it when you'd insist you're in your right mind, though you weren't even quite sure that was true.
...always being honest about disagreeing with some of their methods and ideas, but never leaving and always sticking to Erik's side, from where he'd happily protect you every chance he got.
...his level of protectiveness sometimes leaving you with hope that it wasn't just in the platonic way he said he cared for you.
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