"Hello, and welcome to my Wonderworld Theatre! The show is about to begin, so please be seated~!" "I am your host with the most! The Magnificent Maestro himself, Balan~! And I hope you enjoy our humble little show! Now settle in for a once in a lifetime performance~!" (Indie RP blog for Balan from Balan Wonderworld, heavily headcanon based, not picky about partners)
So I guess while I’m here, I might as well say it: I’m out of the RP-ing game again. I’m just busy with working on OC stuff, commissions and other gubbins that I don’t got the energy to go anymore.
Or at least for now.
Anyhow, if we’re mutuals, let’s share Discords, Twitters, etc. Doesn’t even matter if we haven’t chatted before or anything. Let’s make this happen, yeah?
So against my better judgement, I did watch the video with the speed turned allll the way down (trust me guys, it’s no fucking joke) and by proxy I spoiled the ending for myself.
All I have to say is this regarding Balan’s ‘True’ form:
hi everyone! sorry to pop in with this after some relative silence but heads up to anyone with epilepsy, or anyone sensitive to flashing lights in general; the balan wonderworld final boss contains some very bad flashing effects as of right now. hopefully it'll be patched but if you are sensitive to flashing lights i highly reccomend steering clear as of now
So I guess while I’m here, I might as well say it: I’m out of the RP-ing game again. I’m just busy with working on OC stuff, commissions and other gubbins that I don’t got the energy to go anymore.
Or at least for now.
Anyhow, if we’re mutuals, let’s share Discords, Twitters, etc. Doesn’t even matter if we haven’t chatted before or anything. Let’s make this happen, yeah?
Hello friends, Balan-Mun here. No I’m not taking the blog out of hiatus, still cracking away at some OC stuff and the like. I’m just here to share my thoughts about the Balan demo that dropped a few days ago.
And…Look, I’m going to blunt here. Despite strong aesthetics, character designs and the like…
The game is doomed for a critical drubbing.
It pains me to say this and I’m sure you’re just as hurt as I am to see something with so much potential fumbled at the goal line, especially seeing we’re just one month out from the game’s launch proper.
(For the sake of clarity, I played the Steam demo which had little in the way of optimization bugs thankfully, but it was still a very middling experience)
But y’know? I don’t want to dwell on that.
As someone who’s had experience with games that had a much hyped launch and a less than pleasant release in the past (the less said the better), I’m hoping my words can provide some form of comfort or solace in what’s gonna be a bumpy ride.
Before we start however, I want to make it clear that while I’m massively disappointed with what I’ve played so far, I STILL want this to be some kind of success. And even if it flops, I’ll still love the world and it’s characters until death. And that’s something they can’t take away form me or you.
Hello friends, Balan-Mun here. No I’m not taking the blog out of hiatus, still cracking away at some OC stuff and the like. I’m just here to share my thoughts about the Balan demo that dropped a few days ago.
And...Look, I’m going to blunt here. Despite strong aesthetics, character designs and the like...
The game is doomed for a critical drubbing.
It pains me to say this and I’m sure you’re just as hurt as I am to see something with so much potential fumbled at the goal line, especially seeing we’re just one month out from the game’s launch proper.
(For the sake of clarity, I played the Steam demo which had little in the way of optimization bugs thankfully, but it was still a very middling experience)
But y’know? I don’t want to dwell on that.
As someone who’s had experience with games that had a much hyped launch and a less than pleasant release in the past (the less said the better), I’m hoping my words can provide some form of comfort or solace in what’s gonna be a bumpy ride.
Before we start however, I want to make it clear that while I’m massively disappointed with what I’ve played so far, I STILL want this to be some kind of success. And even if it flops, I’ll still love the world and it’s characters until death. And that’s something they can’t take away form me or you.
Let’s begin.
First thing I want to address is something that I’ve admittedly seen more of on Twitter, but I think it should be said on here as well, especially since a lot of folk in the fandom are youngin’s.
When scores for the game drop, DON’T HARASS THE REVIEWERS.
I can sympathize that you want this game to succeed. I WANT IT TO SUCCEED AS WELL. But just because someone puts the game on blast doesn’t give you the right to blast back at them. Don’t white knight for Balan, because he sure as hell wouldn’t appreciate folks being snotty in his honor.
If anything, you can still enjoy the game as a guilty pleasure. Nothing wrong with that! After all, it’s not uncommon nowadays for folks to legitimately enjoy something that was less than a critical darling. Take for example, Tommy Wiseau’s The Room.
Now admittedly that’s a bit of a stretch as that’s a movie and this is a game, which are two vastly different mediums. But my point still stands. If people can enjoy The Room and act like it’s a huge cinematic triumph despite it’s glaring amateur hour...evething, then people are allowed to say Balan is GOTY.
Hell, you can be like me and hate the gameplay, but still love the characters and aesthetic. That’s just as valid a thing to do. Hell, I do it all the time with some of my favorite games. Just to give an example, Dragon Master.
Terrible fighting game that uses a ton of stolen Street Fighter sprites. Yet oddly, out of all bootleg fighters I’ve played (and I’ve played a fair number in my time), I still play it fairly regularly because it’s not SUPER TERRIBLE, but not great either. And that OST? Absolutely banger (give Baekun Dosa’s theme a peep, it goes HARD).
But to use a more recent example, which some of you might actually know about, No Straight Roads.
AMAZING, JAW DROPPING AESTHETICS, MUSIC AND CHARACTERS ALL WRAPPED IN AN ABSOLUTELY middling action game that could’ve been tighter wound around it’s music theming.
But did the fandom let that stop them from being one of the most creative forces? Absolutely not!
In my time away from this blog, I had a small run in the NSR fandom and those folks are just firing on all cylinders 24/7. They’ve cultivated their own ecosystem and are thriving just fine! Who’s to say the same can’t happen for us?
I think that’s what we need to do the most. We need to stick together like one big family and tough out the storm. Let the review bombs drop, we’ll still be standing, side by side, singing in harmony.
But let’s say that you’re feeling betrayed or disappointed to the point that you’re just not into Balan any more. I want you to know that your feelings are valid. You’re in the right to feel pissed off, sad, etc. Yet, I still think you should try to look at some positives from your time as a Balan fan.
I know a lot of folks met one another and became friends from their love of the game, improved as artists because of all the fanart they’ve done, writing too! So even if the game leaves you feeling burnt, at least you improved in some aspects as a person. I think that’s what Balan would’ve wanted the most.
And that’s all I can really say. I hope that my words were able to do something for y’all. Lord knows what’ll really happen when the game comes out in a month and the show really begins. I’m trying to be as optimistic as I can, but all we can do now is hope the for best...or a last minute delay...
“Hello friends, Balan here with an important message. And no it’s not that I have returned from hiatus, but in light recent events that I won’t name specifically, I feel the need to address something...political. Please, hear me out”
“Now I don’t typically engage in politics, let alone those of the Human world. But that doesn’t mean I’m ignorant or blissfully unaware of any major happenings such as last Wednesday’s ordeal. I suppose if you were to pin a political validation on me, I’d be something of a liberal.”
“I believe that gay men and women should be able to marry their partners, I believe that someone should have the choice to transition to another gender if they feel uncomfortable in their skin as is and that our marginalized friends should be treated with the same level of respect as those in power.”
“I believe in love, equality and hope.”
“I detest racism, I abhor LGBT-phobia, I despise any form of hatred against marginalized groups and people who’ll blindly follow disgusting rhetoric because they think the world is out to get them and their ‘values’.”
“I know I can’t do much about it. If I could, I’d give everyone rotten soul a damn good teaching. Alas, even I can’t help these long lost souls...But what I can do is make a promise. A promise that my stage will never be one for hatred, bigotry and unlawfulness.”
“My stage is only for those with gold in their hearts. If you come in with a blackhole that grew from your own vile…I suggest you leave and never come back.”
“And that’s all I will say. Good bye again my friends, may we meet once more in a better world.”
Hey guys, it looks like I’m being cancelled for having a Parler account (I’m Hailo C over there btw, and @haileyc on Gab!). Originally, I changed my handle to something closer to my actual name and less of a pseudonym, but apparently the mob just thinks that means I’m hiding.
Folks over on Twitter appear have a bone to pick with me, accusing me of the usual paranoid rigmarole and siccing the cancel mob accordingly. I finally deleted my Twitter because of the sheer volume of threats (and because Twitter was getting weird in general). Maybe they’re mad that I’m still having a great life despite their efforts.
I’m not gonna mention specifically who instigated this on Twitter and Tumblr because I don’t believe in terrorizing folks I don’t agree with. We’ll see what happens if the mob gets any more blood-thirsty though.
At any rate guys, y'all do your best to keep your eyes open - the cancel mob takes no prisoners and doesn’t make exceptions for its “friends.”
You got cancelled cuz you wanted white people to say the n word , said lilo ( a literal 6 year old child) was an abuser, and said immigrant kids deserved to be in cages, said bullying was good, joined parler ( a known alt-right and heavy conservative website and condoned the capitol attacks ) and you supported the capitol riots on your twitter; and last of all you are a trump supporter, dont act inoccent, you deserved to be cancelled.
I’m sorry, I’m a bit out of the loop, what happened with squigglydigg?
If I may I will link my post here as this explains probably much better than I do, better. https://shovedoffacliffbyhisbff.tumblr.com/post/639973158429081600/additional-update-squigglydigg-has-rebranded-here
Squigglydigg has made some remarks in that my post details above. On top of this, it has been shown she has been using P,arler. A social media website tired to alt-ri,ght and Q-ano/n. Since then she has deleted her twitter and has called those voicing criticisms against her a cancel mob. Additionally she has admitted on youtube to using P,arler.
Hey y’all, Balan-Mun here...Let’s just cut to the chase, yeah?
THIS BLOG IS ON EXTENDED HIATUS UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE
tl;dr I had super bad burnout and I didn’t even realize it because I was too busy working myself too thin on multiple projects and even fun side stuff without taking regular breaks, might return fresh after the game comes out in March.
Peace n’ love, hope to see y’all again down the line.
As the new year has come around and even before the ball made it’s midnight drop, I’ve been doing some introspecting on myself. And I’ve come to the realization that last year, I REALLY overtaxed myself in multiple ways and gave myself burnout that began to affect my writing, for both OC stuff and this blog...
I’m not gonna lie, I really spent most of the year making OCs and focusing on my original projects since, well, I had the free time to do so since I was taking time off from school. And while I legitimately enjoy working on what I like, I failed to take into account that I also need to space out my work and just take days to relax, take a breather and just slowdown for the most part.
At first I made sure to keep on top of this, taking a day or two off just play some stuff on my backlog and other fun little side distractions.
Then Yuji Naka unveiled Balan Wonderworld and I had myself a new hyper-fixation. A hyperfixation so big and strong that I thought I’d hop back onto Tumblr and make a spur of the moment RP blog. Hell, I straight up said so on one of the first posts I made, being super self-aware that I wasn’t gonna run on this blog for long.
And what do ya know? I started fighting bouts of cognitive dissonance, burnout and a hectic summer job schedule that messed me up on my blog and OC work~! But I tried my hardest to break through, especially for this blog.
My love for this character is real, I didn’t want to be the first blog for brownie points or whatever. I saw a character that I could bring to life with my love of music and performer type characters. But as I took on more and more threads, trying to play catchup with folks when I did log on and so fourth, it really began to take a toll on me to the point that my heart and mind wasn’t in it anymore. I only kept trying to come back because, honestly? I think I played Balan too well and felt like I had to keep up appearances since I made such a big first bang.
I realized this around thanksgiving and gave it more thought recently, which has lead to this decision. I know I’ve more than likely broken the trust and respect from some of you fine folks and I wouldn’t blame you at all. I came out guns ablaze and ran out of ammo fast and I am deeply sorry...Maybe my days of RP-ing should be left behind me or I should just stick to my OCs.
But hey, you never know what might happen. The game proper is only three-ish months away and I plan on getting it myself since I want to see more of this board treader, so maybe it’ll reignite my passion for the blog and I’ll take another stab on here. Life is unpredictable after all!
“So until we meet again friends, it is time to say good-bye for now...I know good-byes are never really easy, you’re looking at someone who always cries during these kind of scenes, but don’t be sad that it’s over. Be glad that it happened!”
“And like that disembodied voice said, you never know what could happen. Perhaps we’ll meet again one day beneath a beautiful blue sky, playing a tune from the heart, restoring balance to the world~!”
“But until then my friends, so long and safe travels on your journey! I hope the new year treats you well. And if anything else, know that this maestro will always be cheering for you from the sidelines, no matter how tough things may get! So...bye for now~!”
Send me a 🎶 and I’ll shuffle my playlist and give you my favorite lyrics from the song that comes up.
They Might Be Giants - Dinner Bell
I've been leaving on my things
So in the morning when the morning bird sings
There's still dinner on my dinner jacket
'Til the dinner bell rings
Experimental dog
Salivating dog
Good dog
Waiting for the dinner bell to do the bell thing (waiting for the dinner bell)
Dinner bell, dinner bell, ring!
(Ok, it’s late, I’ve got work tomorrow morning, time to call it for tonight.)
(I’ll return tomorrow afternoon and we’ll pick up there! Again I want to stress that right now I’m aiming to get my druthers back in control before I do anything big with the boy.)
(I’m also going to bust out the new OC blog I’ve been itching to kick off and trust me, you’re gonna wanna peep these characters. Years of work has gone into the world, and I hope you enjoy it as much as you enjoy my take on this mad maestro!)
Send me a 🎶 and I’ll shuffle my playlist and give you my favorite lyrics from the song that comes up.
Bid You Goodbye - Bakamitai English Cover
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For this dramatic little number, the stage is transformed into a dingy bar, with Balan playing the role of a broken man at rope’s end.
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What a fool I've been, dreaming of yesterday
Even though our life is but a cabaret
I forgot the man I used to be
Why you stayed with me, the greatest mystery
I'm loving you though we don't see eye to eye
Could it be that there's hope lest I cannot cope
"You and me", those words will fade away
Stay here in my arms, don't say it's so
Don't walk away, don't let go, please don't let me go
End of facade, shedding tears, shedding all my tears
For my dismay, serve a drink and drown all sorrow
All the memories of you and I - Bid you goodbye