It’s always been a tiny bit difficult reading Harper; that’s no real surprise considering well, he literally wears a mask. It’s not just that though– maybe it’s because they’d never had a proper conversation before. Off and on they’d talked, had a few run-ins but none lasting longer than an hour. He’d never had any doubts or suspicions about Harper though – it was just like, how to put it… they were in different circles. That was true in real life but it was surprising to know it could be possible here in an enclosed space, too.
He actually isn’t sure how this is going to go in the first place. Since they’re not on shining glowing terms it’s possible Harper IS suspicious of him or at the very least, doesn’t think much of him. It’s not like he hid his meltdowns in the beginning particularly well. Actually remembering this makes him a little embarrassed… geez. But as Kiyoyuki’s gaze goes to the floor and he begins to worry about it, about rushing into asking but then he hears the reply.
Warm words. Maybe he’d been stupid to fuss over it so much.
“Ahhh– oh– heh, thanks, I guess. It feels a lot lighter. I think I expected it to feel special but it really just uhh– feels lighter. Cause it is. Lighter.”
He makes a cutting gesture vainly and then realizes this too, is a little embarrassing before rubbing the back of his neck with one hand as the weak chuckles subside.
“It’s good finally talking to you though. I want… to know everyone as best as I can. Because memories will never die… something like that I guess.”
He shakes his head before going on.
“Sorry! I didn’t mean to say that, I don’t want anyone else to suffer honestly! I guess I didn’t have much of an idea of what to do though, just talk, really… though maybe there’s something we can do to lift the spirits of the others? I-I’m not sure, really. I tried to surprise people with a party a while back but then… someone died…”
Awkward. He shakes his head, disappointed with his own words. If he’s trying to make a fresh new good impression on Harper he’s already bungled it. That probably shouldn’t surprised anyone at this point.
“Sorry, that’s a really bad subject. Uh, let’s start with how are you… I mean, are you holding up okay?”
Harper smiles at Kiyoyuki’s obvious distress, trying to help put him at ease a little. “Yeah, I feel that. It was pretty similar when I cut most of mine off, y’know? Well, except that was more of a self-expression thing than anything else, so it felt kinda good looking at myself in the mirror and seeing someone who actually looked a bit more like how I, uh... how I felt on the inside. Yeah.” He nods solidly, satisfied this is something they can connect over.
The seiyuu seems determined to drive the conversation in to more morbid territory, however - small talk never quite does seem to be enough in this place, even though it’s the only talk Harper is any good at. But time spent with Akihito has left him in a really pleasant mood, and one he’s quite determined to transfer to Kiyoyuki if he possibly can.
“It’s okay, man. You don’t have to worry about putting your foot in your mouth around me.” Gently, he claps the other boy on the shoulder, much as he had been clapped just moments before - it’s an odd feeling, but touching people on his own terms is a lot easier than being touched in return. Still, he doesn’t leave his hand there for long, just in case it does get weird.
“As for me, I’m okay. A lot better than okay, actually, which is probably pretty bad given the circumstances. I dunno.” Harper averts his eyes, just for a second. “Chalk it up to the feeling of a moment. It’s nothing. I hope you’re okay too.”
He comes back to what Kiyoyuki said about lifting the spirits of the others, though. It’s not a bad idea - it’s actually something Harper would like to do. Of the remaining students, there’s really only one he’s not too keen on... and even to exclude her seems petty and pointless now.
“I guess a party would feel under-attended now, huh? But I bet there’s something we could do.” He shoves his hands in his pockets, chewing it over. “... I’m not sure, though. I was never good at planning stuff. There’s a club? Or we could just all have dinner together or something. I can kinda cook. What about you?” Secretly he hopes somebody else can; he doesn’t want to get stuck doing all the work. “I don’t know a lot about Japanese food, I’d probably need some advice.”