[shug18]

Finally going ginger

[shug18]

I think it's the prospect of being perceived in relation to someone else and in contrast with all of their past partners that renders me paralytic

I feel so free and safe when I'm interacting on my own.

[shug18]

Still bad with partners friends. Round 4.

[cosmicanger]

French Art Nouveau Grape Brooch Pin crafted around 1889

[biftabaeundead]

[shug18]

I have to rotate 45 degrees every 15 mins like a spit lamb to fall asleep

[shug18]

On the anniversary menu

[shug18]

Flashback of letting this disgusting guy have sex with me when I was wasted and clocking the detached and flapping sole of his dress shoe.

[medievalcellphone]

there’s a lot of room for interpretation

[plumslices]

Liu Yin (Chinese, 1984), Waves, 2025

Acrylic on canvas

[shug18]

Now I’m alone in the small illuminated box atop the headland and everyone can see in from miles away and all I see is endless inky black

[shug18]

In my desperation to be low maintenance I’ve become needy and alone. So I quickly switch tact and start saying yes to everything again.

[shug18]

Skipping work heading to the seaside writing down every bad thought until I’ve talked my way around and out of them eating fish turning my phone off reading long short stories taking supplements lifting weights on the threadbare mat at home being very very alone lying in the sun avoiding mirrors letting my hair recover from all the strain bringing notepads leaving cameras nothing to record except memory and pencil stretching writing yoga sequences forcing my spark to return without him releasing the worry about him not loving me when he tells me he does endlessly

[tipsy3honolulu6kiss]

men love to say "women are complicated." women have a global mind and spirit that ties in all things and when man sees its vastness he thinks complex but really there is sense to be had with some patience. i find women are quite easy to know if you simply listen. men on the other hand compartmentalize, their mind is full of a million seperate boxes they can access at will and close and stuff away all the same. and then there is always a very important box that is pushed far under and stacked upon and gets covered with dust and forgotten and you will never be able to find it.

[shug18]

I am needless. I am needless. My momentary mantra.

[shug18]

I don't believe in the distribution of emotional need fulfilment amongst friends and as a result my relationship is suffering.

[shug18]

A really fuck it attitude in the air at the moment. A real heaviness.