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“I'm not like you anymore” 14 previously @sicklytenshi

[sickenedbitter]

Overview, Life update, whatever else

hello beautiful tumblr... I'm not really new to jirablr but I got completely logged out of my old account (@sicklytenshi) after breaking my phone, and had a bad night so I felt an idiotic need to return to these parts (/affectionate)

I'm from germany, 14, I like anime, fashion, studying, stargazing & baking

I'm “recovered” from my eating disorder, but if I feel it I might reblog triggering content untagged

oversharing about the past months since I've left jiraiblr vvv

I've gone back to school beginning in spring last year, and I've climbed to the top of my grade with perfect As, so all the validation & attention was the primary reason I stayed off here and felt better

being in a relationship proved much more difficult, and I'm honestly unsure whether my boyfriend is even kind enough to me anymore & if he's worth staying with (though, my opinion on him changes like the weather, yk how it is), but all my friends are his friends, so I'll just stay

I've stopped cutting myself, but it's ben tempting,,,

[pienprince]

[beauty1sempty]

“finally summer break!!!”

[pienkawaii]

a landmine girl... sweet at first, like a delicate dessert!~ as you take the sugar, it leaves a bittersweet aftertaste. . . ♡

[menherafetamine]

tbh being on jirai kei tumblr after being on jirai kei tiktok feels like a breath of fresh air. like wow these people are so kind

[sickenedbitter]

I hate how he doesn't allow me my own life, I hate how I've led this on, I hate it, give me space

[sickenedbitter]

why the fuck is he allowed everything? he's allowed to ghost me for days, but when I ask for a break from talking to him for one or two days it “hurts his feelings”, he's allowed to never fucking text first but when I forget to do so for twelve hours he becomes insecure

I hate it so fucking much, who the fuck does he think he is? it doesn't matter how much I reassure him, because I apparently always do it wrong and always leave him feeling unwanted

he wants me to set boundaries, but when I do, he goes off venting on his twitter

fuck this shit