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huh?

just a dumb side blog, using it for yumeshipping and hl2 oc stuff!!! All oc and yume stuff is under #barveyposts (selective/non-sharing, it often depends)

Look here for yume details -> yumestrawpage

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yume/oc posts: #barveyposts

anything else: #hdumbrambles

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Nsfw/sfw twitter: barneylovr

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People in my apartment gotta stop fucking in their gaming chairs. Brother in Christ that chair makes so much noise. please. ITS NEARLY MIDNIGHT. STOP!!! DO IT ON A LESS NOISY OBJECT!!! i live next to a god damn INCEL!!!

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murdoch doodle bc i love him

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recent harvey stuff. specifically city 17 harvey. ALSO happy to say that I am starting to actually write oc stuff out atm. might be posting it soon to ao3, but we'll see! sorry to keep literally everyone in the dark about what my damn ocs are even about but it's a little to complicated for just one post.

Ps. ignore how my artstyle has been all over the place recently, im a busy dudeeee

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fucking FINISHED enjoy your daddy Barn subduing a brat Freeman

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Gordon and Barney sharing a beer due to @chalupaswanswarm request!! It was much fun to draw and made me practice my composition skills a little bit more

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these were going to be the actual colors of the flags but i liked the sketch a lot and when trying out the colors i didn't really like it so regular colors it is

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Beach episode Barney pinup in the makes rn. Man I loveee bears. FUCK. AUGH.

[corcjell]

Ohhh fatboy fattttt boyyyyy

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Was in the shower and I just randomly remembered a frenrey au I made forever ago but literally never talked about.

Its whole concept was based vaguely around the idea of tulpas, and that Gordon made a version of Benrey in her head that’s different from who Benrey actually is. It's a “hlvrai was a simulation of black mesa” au and its the after to everything that happened in the simulation.

Basically, Gordon gets sent off to recover from the simulation and starts having nightmares about the more gory and violent parts of black mesa. She notices that Benrey is missing in all of these nightmares, even when she dreams about the boss fight. One night she finally sees Benrey and confronts him in the dream… andddd everything turns to shit. Typical feverish gmod dream bullshit. Problem is that when she wakes up, Benrey is sitting on the end of her bed… and then he isn’t. And then he’s talking… but Gordon can’t tell if his mouth is moving. Gordon!! Is hallucinating Benrey!! This really freaks Gordon out and she decides to blame it on a nonexistent fever she totally has. Only problem is that this whole “weird and real looking benrey in my apartment” situation doesn’t go away, in fact it gets worse. A week later and Gordon is throwing plates at the motherfucker and screaming for him to fuck off. The Benrey she’s hallucinating also seems to cement himself further into reality the more she interacts with him. The nightmares don’t get any better either, Benrey is in them as well. But Gordon starts to note that there seems to be a difference between the two. The one in her apartment is cruel, catty, spiteful and uses all of its damn energy to piss Gordon off. The one in her dream is exactly the same, but dream Benrey is clumsy, idiotic, a little manic at times and most importantly really fucking funny. There's a clear difference in attitude between the two and it starts to fuck with Gordon's perception of who the "real" Benrey is.

The rest of the au starts to go into mindfuck territory, the tulpa benrey invades Gordon’s dreams and starts to shift into something entirely different. An amalgamation of Gordon’s worse thoughts, feelings and perceptions of benrey that has lost control and starts to effect both the dream and real world. Gordon literally has to retreat further back into her unconscious to escape it which results in her falling into a coma.

I don't have an idea on how this au would end,, its mostly just a collect of scenes that got stuck in head a while ago.

few notes for it:

yes this is frenyuri cuz i said so (butch he/him benrey rahhhh)

dream benrey is the real benrey. don't ask how he got there. he dont even know. (prob some gmod addon or smth lmao)

tulpa benrey is fucking weirdddddd. somehow even weirder than the real benrey. his early design was gonna be based off uncanny mannequins (like from that one youtube vid) and later on his design ends up turning into a monster thing inspired by eels, horses, lizards, and other freaky animals that all probably look like they're dying (imagine shin godzilla but like. more eel... and more legs).

would there romance in this? i actually don't know. haven't decided. too focused on the horror stuff to consider (it still be gay tho).

i really love stuff about the horror of not knowing what's real or not and it feels real damn relevant in this day n age.

if i were to draw this anytime soon it would be super based off the vibes of weird shit on gmod (i mentioned gmod like a million times but whatever.)

just wanted to dump this out so i can think about it another day when im not super fixated on my hl ocs lmao.

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Last exam today then I have a month to just grind on art and oc shit. Pleaseeeeeeeee im so done with uni already helppppp

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Godblessssss

Need to fix a bunch of stuff on this but whateverr!!

[durianskeleton]

When you work a shitass job but at least you’ll never have to work there again in a couple days (you don’t know that yet)

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Will never understand people who think transgender people who don’t want to fully transition (meaning surgery, hormones, legal name changes, the whole shabang) are not “real” transgender people.

I don’t want to fully transition simply because I AM comfortable in my own body. That may be because I have a looser definition of what gender is, but I’m as real as any other transgender person out there. I’m happy just being me, my gender is ME and I don’t have to conform to a persons perception of what being transgender is to be “real”. But there’s also people who don’t have the money of time to transition and trying to suggest that they are not transgender is insane to me.

I also find it strange that people associate being transgender with being uncomfortable, miserable or torturous. I think a lot of people get caught up in trying to adjust to society’s perception of their gender, to the point that they can’t leave the house because their worried people will “see through” them in a way. To that I say, stop giving a shit about how people perceive you!!! The minute you stop worrying about it, you’ll start to feel more confident in yourself!!! You don’t have to bend and break yourself for the eyes of strangers on the street who you will see once in your life, or for anyone actually.

One last thing I will say is that I think being transgender requires patience and empathy in some forms. Give patience and empathy to the people you love and most will begin to understand who you are, being transgender is process not a destination (in the same way art is! You are art!).

That’s my pride rant, okay bye, love urself and remember that gender, sexuality and language are all very subjective and you can label urself as whatever you want✌️

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just watched the backrooms movie. holy hell. everyone go watch that rn my lord it was GOOD. i was soooooo uncomfortable during it,,, thats how you know its good.

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say hai to harvey,, hes my main hl oc.. i don't like thr rest of this drawing but whatever.

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I really hate the uni paper im writing rn so I’ve been flaming the course in the recommendations with what should have been done so I could get some damn reliable data.