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BITE YOUR TONGUE OR I WILL. [Dependent Domstuck Lord English][18+][Avatar by aqualence]

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I’M GOING TO DRUG THIS STUPID ASSHOLE MYSELF IF HE DOESN’T STOP FUCKING UP HIS CELL.

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YOU’RE ACTUALLY DEFENDING THE BOY?

AMUSING.

BUT FINE.

IF IT IS TRULY “NOT HIS FAULT”, AS YOU CLAIM, THEN WHOSE *IS* IT?

REPERCUSSIONS TO THIS GRAVE TRANSGRESSION ARE ASSURED AND UNAVOIDABLE. DO NOT ATTEMPT TO HIDE FROM THEM.

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me

its my fault

i was the one

i made him do it

so please

if youre gonna be mad at anyone

just

be mad at me

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MY, MY.

THIS MIGHT BE THE ONLY SELFLESS THING I HAVE EVER WITNESSED FROM YOU, KAHDMA.

YOU MUST REALLY *CARE* FOR THE LITTLE ATROCITY.

MY OFFICE.

NOW.

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>no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no

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please

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I WARNED HIM.

DO NOT MAKE THIS DIFFICULT, WOMAN.

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please calladir im beggin you

dont hurt him

its not his fault

please

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YOU’RE ACTUALLY DEFENDING THE BOY?

AMUSING.

BUT FINE.

IF IT IS TRULY “NOT HIS FAULT”, AS YOU CLAIM, THEN WHOSE *IS* IT?

REPERCUSSIONS TO THIS GRAVE TRANSGRESSION ARE ASSURED AND UNAVOIDABLE. DO NOT ATTEMPT TO HIDE FROM THEM.

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>no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no

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please

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I WARNED HIM.

DO NOT MAKE THIS DIFFICULT, WOMAN.

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HA.

[barakinkster]

Ah. 

Lies AND torture. The Empress was the complete package. Part of you hated her already.

Part of you wanted round two ASAP.

All of you hated the fact that at this very vulnerable time you were trapped in the stronghold of what was most likely your biggest obstacle to getting your throne back.

“Alright, message delivered. What next?” 

The withdrawal hadn’t hit yet, and you didn’t know what the symptoms were, but you’d much rather be in your concrete cell than this office when whatever was going to happen happened.

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“YOU MAY RETURN TO YOUR CELL FOR THE NIGHT. AND ATTEMPT TO WEATHER THE APPROACHING TRIALS. THOUGH I CAN NOT PROMISE THEY WILL LAST ONLY THOUGH OUT THE NIGHT.” English snorts.

“IT IS NO FUN PLAYING WITH SOMETHING THAT IS NOT AT PEAK GAME. TO SUBJECT YOU TO MY WHIMS WHILE YOU ARE HAVING A CRISIS IS UNSPORTSMANLIKE OF ME.” 

“HM... “ The Lord steeples his fingers. “NOW, I MAY BE INCORRECT ON SOME OF THIS, AS IT HAS BEEN QUITE SOME TIME SINCE I LAST HAD TO DEAL WITH THEM. BUT FROM WHAT I *REMEMBER*, IT SHOULD BE A FAIRLY STRAIGHTFORWARD PROCESS. I BELIEVE IT STARTS WITH THE WEAKNESS, AND THEN THE SHAKING, AND THEN THE HEAT. THESE GRADUALLY GET WORSE AS TIME GOES ON, TILL IT NEARLY FEELS LIKE YOU’RE ENGULFED IN FLAMES. OR AT LEAST THAT IS WHAT IT WAS LIKE FOR ME.”

“THEN COMES THE FUN ONES. THE DELIRIUM, THE PANIC. COULD BE HALLUCINATIONS IF YOU FUCKED HER MORE THAN ONCE. BUT I’M *CERTAIN* YOU HAD THE SELF CONTROL NOT TO DO THAT.” English looks at him pointedly.

“AND THEN THE HARD PART. YOU’LL CRAVE IT *CONSTANTLY*, AND IT WILL HURT. I AM NOT ONE TO EASILY BE BOTHERED BY PAIN, BUT IT MANAGED TO AFFECT EVEN I. THE WORST PART, IN MY OPINION, IS THE INSATIABILITY, THOUGH. GO AHEAD. FUCKING, JERK OFF, FUCK SOME RANDOM BITCH, WHATEVER. IT OFFERS NO RELIEF.”

English sighs fondly, reminiscing. “I REMEMBER WHEN I FIRST FOUND OUT ABOUT THAT. I AM QUITE SURE SHE DOES TOO.” English taps his claws on the desk.

“I CAN OFFER YOU MEDICATIONS, THOUGH IT WILL DO VERY LITTLE. STILL, SOME ASSISTANCE IS BETTER THAN NONE, HM?”

English smiles smugly. “I AM NOTHING IF NOT ALTRUISTIC.”

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@barakinkster

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OTHER MATTERS HAVE PULLED MY ATTENTION AWAY FOR LONG ENOUGH. WE WILL MEET NOW. COME TO MY OFFICE.

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English nods his approval. “GOOD. THEN YOU’RE NOT AS STUPID AS YOU LOOK.” He ashes the cigar inside a tray, leaning forward again.

“I’LL LEVEL WITH YOU, BOY; I AM QUICKLY GROWING TIRED OF HAVING TO DO THIS. THIS IS ALREADY THE *SECOND* TIME IN THE PAST WEEK I’VE HAD TO WARN PEOPLE AWAY. FRANKLY, IT BOTH EXHAUSTS AND INFURIATES ME. THE NOVELTY IN FRIGHTENING AWAY HER DUMB FUCKING FLINGS GREW OLD WHEN SHE INSISTED ON COLLECTING THEM DAMN NEAR DAILY.”

“I’LL CUT TO THE CHASE THEN, KARDOS. *SHE* OFFERED YOU SOMETHING. I WANT YOU TO GET THE NOTION OF THAT EVER COMING TO FRUITION OUT OF YOUR HEAD.” “I AM NOT A MAN FOND OF *SHARING*, I AM AFRAID. HAVING HER GETTING ATTACHED TO ANY IN A TIMELINE DESTINED TO BE ERADICATED IS NEITHER PRODUCTIVE NOR AN INTELLIGENT DECISION ON MY PART.” “AND IT’S OKAY: YOU CAN TELL ME NO. IT DOES NOT MATTER, BECAUSE *SHE* WILL NOT. UNDER MY COMMAND, THIS RIDICULOUS MESS WILL THANKFULLY NEVER HAVE TO SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY. THERE IS NO WAY SHE WOULD EVER DARE DEFY ME. NOT ANYMORE.”

With another sigh, English rubs at his neck. “THOUGH, SHE ASSUMEDLY KNEW I WOULD NEVER ALLOW THIS. I CAN ONLY IMAGINE SHE OFFERED IT OUT TO YOU AS SOME SORT OF POWER PLAY.”

He pauses for a moment, studying Bardrick with interest, before smirking. “HAVE THE WITHDRAWALS HIT YOU YET?”

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You wracked your brain for a reply that wouldn’t make this giant green thing try and rip you in half. Sure you were a mountain of a man, but English was a bigger mountain, and you were unarmed.

Still, it was a blow to hear that the Empress had lied to you just for more sex, but if you were being completely honest with yourself, it wasn’t that big of a shock. You’d have to be braindead to believe it would really be as easy as fucking one woman and bam, re-crowned.

It was fun to pretend though.

As you considered a reply, among them being things like ‘Oh so you mean your wife fucks more men than just me?’ and such gems as ‘Not anymore? How hard did you have to beat her to change that?’ you tuned back in to what he was saying.

“Withdrawals?”

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English lets out a room shaking laugh. "SHE DIDN'T TELL YOU? HAHAHA!" "WHAT A FUCKING *BITCH*. GOD, I LOVE HER." He sighs, grinning.

"YES, WITHDRAWALS. APPARENTLY MY DEAREST MATESPRIT FORGOT TO MENTION SOMETHING ABOUT HERSELF TO YOU. THAT NOOK? IT'S A FUCKING TRAP."

"HER FLUIDS HAVE... ADDICTIVE PROPERTIES TO THEM, I'M AFRAID. MORE THAN A FEW DAYS WITHOUT MORE SENDS YOU INTO WITHDRAWAL." English drawls on, clearly amused.

"YOU ARE LUCKY. THIS IS YOUR FIRST TIME. THE LONGER YOU GO ABOUT FUCKING HER, THE WORSE THE SYMPTOMS ARE WHEN YOU DO NOT."

"THEY'RE STILL HELLISH AND ALL-CONSUMING EVEN EARLY ON THOUGH, I WON'T LIE."

He lets out a chuckle. "WHAT? YOU DIDN'T THINK FUCKING *THE EMPRESS* CAME WITHOUT A PRICE TAG, DID YOU? HAHAHA!!"

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@barakinkster

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OTHER MATTERS HAVE PULLED MY ATTENTION AWAY FOR LONG ENOUGH. WE WILL MEET NOW. COME TO MY OFFICE.

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English nods his approval. "GOOD. THEN YOU'RE NOT AS STUPID AS YOU LOOK." He ashes the cigar inside a tray, leaning forward again.

"I'LL LEVEL WITH YOU, BOY; I AM QUICKLY GROWING TIRED OF HAVING TO DO THIS. THIS IS ALREADY THE *SECOND* TIME IN THE PAST WEEK I'VE HAD TO WARN PEOPLE AWAY. FRANKLY, IT BOTH EXHAUSTS AND INFURIATES ME. THE NOVELTY IN FRIGHTENING AWAY HER DUMB FUCKING FLINGS GREW OLD WHEN SHE INSISTED ON COLLECTING THEM DAMN NEAR DAILY."

"I'LL CUT TO THE CHASE THEN, KARDOS. *SHE* OFFERED YOU SOMETHING. I WANT YOU TO GET THE NOTION OF THAT EVER COMING TO FRUITION OUT OF YOUR HEAD." "I AM NOT A MAN FOND OF *SHARING*, I AM AFRAID. HAVING HER GETTING ATTACHED TO ANY IN A TIMELINE DESTINED TO BE ERADICATED IS NEITHER PRODUCTIVE NOR AN INTELLIGENT DECISION ON MY PART." "AND IT'S OKAY: YOU CAN TELL ME NO. IT DOES NOT MATTER, BECAUSE *SHE* WILL NOT. UNDER MY COMMAND, THIS RIDICULOUS MESS WILL THANKFULLY NEVER HAVE TO SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY. THERE IS NO WAY SHE WOULD EVER DARE DEFY ME. NOT ANYMORE."

With another sigh, English rubs at his neck. "THOUGH, SHE ASSUMEDLY KNEW I WOULD NEVER ALLOW THIS. I CAN ONLY IMAGINE SHE OFFERED IT OUT TO YOU AS SOME SORT OF POWER PLAY."

He pauses for a moment, studying Bardrick with interest, before smirking. "HAVE THE WITHDRAWALS HIT YOU YET?"

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OTHER MATTERS HAVE PULLED MY ATTENTION AWAY FOR LONG ENOUGH. WE WILL MEET NOW. COME TO MY OFFICE.

[barakinkster]

You approach the transportalizer with frustration writ across your broad features. The last two weeks were fun, but here you were, handed off to someone else, reminded of your current station in life. 

Lovely.

You’re back in those hideously plain clothes as you appear at that hideously green mansion and stroll through the halls.

He may have owned you for now, but you would be quite happy to arrive at your own pace, and arrive you did.

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When Bardrick arrives, English is sitting behind a truly massive desk, pen in hand, looking over a document. He ignores Bardrick’s entry for the most part, waiting till a couple of awkward, silent moments passed before turning his gaze to the carapace.

“SIT.” He instructs, pointing towards the seat in front of the desk. He places his pen away from him, folding enormous, clawed hands together as he waits for Bardrick.

“I WILL SKIP THE PLEASANTRIES. YOU KNOW WHO I AM AND I KNOW WHO YOU ARE. NO NEED FOR TIRESOME INTRODUCTIONS.”

English leans back in his chair.

“I APOLOGIZE FOR MY LONG ABSENCE. I WOULD HAVE ADDRESSED THIS MATTER SOONER, WERE IT MY CHOICE.”

English pauses, looking Bardrick up and down with flashing orbs. “BUT HERE WE ARE, NOW.” He clicks his tongue against emerald fangs.

“I WILL ADMIT SOMETHING TO YOU, KARDOS. I AM TIRED.” He sighs. “NORMALLY, I WOULD TAKE DELIGHT IN BEATING YOU INTO A SHINY BLACK PULP. PURELY FOR MY OWN ENTERTAINMENT.” Another pause.

“HOWEVER, I WILL NOT. NOT YET, ANYWAYS. AND IF I HAVE NO INTEREST IN DESTROYING YOU, YOU HAVE VERY LITTLE TO OFFER ME.”

“I DID NOT RENT YOU TO SLICE YOUR SHELL OR STRING YOU UP OR FORCE MYSELF UPON YOU. I WANTED TO GIVE YOU A WARNING.” English reaches into a box on his desk and produces a cigar. Somehow, it lights itself, and he sets it between his teeth, taking a few short puffs before continuing.

“AND AGAIN, UNDER NORMAL CIRCUMSTANCES, I WOULD OFFER NO SUCH LENIENCY. YOU WOULD BE SHATTERED BENEATH MY HEEL BY NOW. BUT. WITH THIS... *PARTICULAR* SUBJECT. I MUST ACT WITH CAUTION. I AM UNABLE TO DEVOLVE INTO SENSELESS VIOLENCE AS I SO OFT DO. FOR RISK OF, *UPSETTING* HER.” He rolls his eyes.

“YOU SEE, BOY, I HAVE BEEN IN THIS DISGUSTING UNIVERSE FOR FAR TOO LONG NOW. THOUGH TIME MEANS NOTHING TO ME, I FEEL IT HAS BEEN AN ETERNITY. BUT, I MUST WAIT. WAIT FOR SOMETHING. FOR *SOMEONE*.”

“MY PATH INTO A UNIVERSE IS CARVED OUT BY THE DEDICATED TOIL OF MY HANDMAID. THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE, OF COURSE, AND THEY MUST HAVE THE FORTITUDE AND CAPABILITY OF EXTENDING MY REACH. EVEN WITH THE POWERS I GRANT THEM, THEY ARE ONLY EVER AS STRONG AS THEIR SHEER FORCE OF WILL.”

“...DO YOU KNOW WHY I’M TELLING YOU THIS, YET?” He takes another puff of the cigar, smoke billowing from him like a smokestack.

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@barakinkster

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OTHER MATTERS HAVE PULLED MY ATTENTION AWAY FOR LONG ENOUGH. WE WILL MEET NOW. COME TO MY OFFICE.

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carcinokinketicist:

Karkat withstands the barrage of harsh truths with as much fortitude as he can. His eyes get a little misty, but he manages to clench his fists and stiffen his jaw to choke back the tears that threaten to pour down his cheeks. He wants to say something, to spit some sort of vitriol back into English’s face, but… well, a part of him knows that, deep down, he’s probably right. He bites his tongue and gives the hulking cherub a curt nod. Still, he can’t resist at least one little barb directed at English’s way.

“WHY, YOU WORRIED MY “WRETCHED” FILIAL FLUID JUST MIGHT BE A BIT MORE POTENT THAN… WHATEVER THE FUCK IT IS CHERUBS HAVE?” Karkat immediately regrets his snap decision to speak his mind and clamps his lips shut. Oh fuck. Oh FUCK. He shouldn’t have said that. He should have just stuck to “YES SIR, NO SIR, RIGHT AWAY SIR”. He swallows nervously and tries to puff up his chest as much as possible. In for a penny, in for a pound, right?

“SHE’S NOT YOURS. NOT BY A LONG SHOT. WE’LL SEE JUST WHO SHE CARES ABOUT MORE WITH TIME.”

English’s frown deepens as he taps his cane on the floor with thought.

“NOT MINE? *I* AM HER MATESPRIT, YOU INSOLENT WHELP. WHAT ARE YOU TO HER? A CASUAL FUCK.” His gargantuan figure looms overhead, foreboding energy radiating from his flashing orbs. 

“AS FOR YOUR “FLUID”. THE POTENCY WILL NOT MATTER IF YOU DON’T FUCKING EJACULATE INTO HER LIKE YOU’RE SOMEBODY IMPORTANT. HONESTLY. WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE *RIGHT*? I HAD BETTER START SEEING RED STAINS ON HER FLOORS FROM YOU PULLING THE FUCK OUT WHEN IT COMES TIME, VANTAS.”

“I DO NOT CARE WHAT SHE ASKS YOU TO DO. SHE IS NOT THINKING CLEARLY. WHICH IS WHY I AM HERE, TO REMEDY THE SITUATION.”

Watching Karkat attempt to be brave was amusing, but tiresome. He had to nip this in the bud before it spread into something more difficult to control.

“I KNOW KAHDMA. I KNOW WHAT SHE LIKES, I KNOW WHAT SHE NEEDS. NEITHER OF THOSE THINGS ARE YOU.” He spits the words out like verbal throwing knives.

“YOUR INSISTENCE ON BACK TALKING ME IS ADMIRABLE, IF NOT COMPLETELY IGNORANT. JUST REMEMBER: YOU’RE A DISPOSABLE TOY. A PRODUCT SHE PLUCKED FROM THE SHELF. THERE WILL BE NO *SEEING* WHO SHE ENDS UP “CARING” ABOUT.”

“SHE COULD NEVER COME TO CARE ABOUT SOMEONE LIKE YOU.” 

Irritated as he was, English attempted to come down softer. The boy WAS just that after all; a boy. English needn’t intimidate him further.

“PLEASE UNDERSTAND. IT IS NOT MY DESIRE TO HURT YOU. HOWEVER, I WILL IF I MUST. YOU MAY HOLD YOUR NOTIONS AND AFFECTIONS FOR AS LONG AS YOU LIKE. BUT YOU MAY AFFECT NEITHER HER WOMB NOR HER HEART. THOSE BELONG TO ME, AND OUR FUTURE HEIRS.”

Again, he repeats, tone level.

“PLEASE UNDERSTAND.”

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carcinokinketicist:

UH. I CAN MAYBE HAZARD A GUESS. I UH, DON’T REALLY KNOW, IS IT SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE CONDESCENSION’S SOMEWHAT MORE, UH, LENIENT POLICY TOWARDS MUTANTS AS OF LATE MAYBE? Despite Karkat’s best attempt at a poker face, he is sweating goddamn bullets with eyes that scream “I AM FUCKING PANICKING AT THIS TURN OF EVENTS”.

English clicks his jaw, teeth grinding together.

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IF THAT IS WHAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO CALL IT. YES.

I UNDERSTAND SHE HAS TAKEN A LIKING TO YOU.

THAT IS FINE. SHE IS THE EMPRESS, AFTER ALL, SHE CAN BED WHOEVER SHE WISHES.

I JUST WANT TO MAKE IT CLEAR THAT THAT IS ALL IT IS GOING TO BE. MINDLESS, DETACHED FUCKING.

DO NOT MAKE THE MISTAKE OF ASSUMING YOU ARE ANYTHING BUT AN IDLE PLAYTHING FOR HER CURRENT WHIMS.

DO YOU REALLY THINK *YOU’RE* SPECIAL? 

PLEASE.

SHE’S A GODDAMN EMPRESS, KID. MOST BEAUTIFUL TROLL IN THE GALAXY. SHE’S SMART. SHE’S WEALTHY. SHE’S POWERFUL.

AND WHAT ARE *YOU* EXACTLY?

SOME ACCIDENT OF THE UNIVERSE WITH A BULGE SHE CAN GET OFF ON.

SHE FUCKING *ABHORS* MUTANTS. YOU KNOW THAT. EVERYONE DOES.

SHE KILLED YOUR FUCKING ANCESTOR. SHE’LL PROBABLY KILL YOU TOO, ONCE SHE’S DONE WITH YOU.

AGAIN. PLEASE DO NOT MISUNDERSTAND. FEEL FREE TO INDULGE HER FLIGHTS OF FANCY.

BUT UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES ARE YOU TO MAKE THEM OUT TO BE ANYTHING MORE THAN THAT.

AND UNDER *NO*- AND I DO MEAN NO- CIRCUMSTANCES ARE YOU TO *EVER* ATTEMPT PUTTING YOUR WRETCHED LITTLE SPAWN INSIDE WHAT IS MINE *EVER* AGAIN.

DO I MAKE MYSELF CLEAR, BOY?

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GREETINGS.

I HAVE SOMETHING TO DISCUSS WITH YOU.

[carcinokinketicist]

OOOOOH UH. H-HEYA. WHAT UH, WHAT CAN I DO FOR YOU LORD ENGLISH, SIR, GUY?

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CEASE YOUR SENSELESS PERTURBATION, *BOY*.

WE ARE MERELY HOLDING A CONVERSATION. ARE WE NOT?

NOW. I HAVE BECOME PRIVY TO CERTAIN RUMORS.

RUMORS ARE NORMALLY JUST THAT. CONVERSATIONAL FODDER DEVOID OF SUBSTANCE.

HOWEVER.

I FELT THESE PARTICULAR SPECULATIONS RAISED ENOUGH CONCERN TO GARNER MY ATTENTION.

I JUST WANTED TO INSURE YOU AND I ARE ON THE “SAME PAGE”, SO TO SPEAK.

TO AVOID ANY.

*UNFORTUNATE*.

INTERACTIONS IN THE FUTURE.

SO.

KARKAT VANTAS.

YOU ARE A DESCENDANT OF THE SUFFERER. CORRECT?

YOU ALSO HAVE A SIGNIFICANT GENETIC ABNORMALITY. 

A MUTATION.

ALL INTERESTING BITS OF INFORMATION IN THEIR OWN RIGHT. I SUPPOSE.

DO YOU KNOW WHY I AM BRINGING THEM UP?

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MY, MY.

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@carcinokinketicist

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GREETINGS.

I HAVE SOMETHING TO DISCUSS WITH YOU.

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I for one think you did an excellent job.

I ALWAYS DO AN EXCELLENT JOB AT EVERYTHING.

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when people find out what you did the entire empire will skin you alive

HA. A HUMOROUS THOUGHT, ANONYMOUS.

ALSO. I HAVE DONE NOTHING THAT IS NOT WITHIN MY RIGHT. SO ANY ATTACKS ON ME, FUTILE AS THEY MAY BE, ARE ALSO UNWARRANTED.