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[sienna-writes]

completely forgot to post this here but - I am officially a published writer !!!

You can read my poems Threadbare and After the Rain at Spring Journal ! 

I am still over the moon about it and its been three weeks :)) 

tag list (this taglist is so old i forgot it existed - if you want to be removed please let me know lol i have been so inactive. A Levels suck)

@rataltouille @elaz-ivero @coffeeandcalligraphy @hanwatchingmovies @dallonm @nev-953 @justahufflepuffsstuff @writerschronicles @august-iswriting @jennawritesstories @jaydewritesfiction @avakrahn @chewingthescenery

[snakeribs]

Daisies (1966)

"We exist! We exist! We exist!"

[annlillyjose]

Dairy Whiskey – WIP Intro

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hello hello hello lovely people! it’s been a hot minute since i came on here with some wip stuff so here’s dairy whiskey (again). if you’ve been following me for some time now, you must have read my first intro for dairy whiskey (when it was supposed be a novella and the story was very different from what it is rn). if you have, i want to give you all my love for staying on my blog for so long. if you haven’t, here we go with dairy whiskey 2.0 (sorry but i had to call it that).

so, what happened? what’s going on?

well, dairy whiskey was supposed to be a novella (like i’ve already mentioned, please excuse my redundancy) with an intended word count of 30k. i started writing it last year, and well, that didn’t work out, so i started rewriting it as a novel. i took a long break from the draft and paid no attention to it the first four months of 2022 (not ideal but that’s what we have to work with so let’s just ignore my lack of attention span and call it a day). i enrolled for a writing course in may and decided to work on dairy whiskey for the programme. so now, i’ve been actively drafting this baby.

ramble over for now, i promise. let’s quickly get to the specifics. it’s a long, long post so brace yourselves. i suggest getting tea and snacks.

excerpts and taglist under the cut.

Keep reading

[jennawritesstories]

Stranger presented his own humerus to Locksmith with his remaining hand. “Please. Will you make me a key?” If the amputation had been intended, then Stranger—or the surgeon hired—had performed dism…

Publication Announcement!

Hey guys, I’ve been terrible at forgetting to come on tumblr recently but I wanted to pop in with the exciting news that I have another story out in the world! You can read Osteomancy for free online at Luna Station Quarterly, a gorgeous magazine that I’m very proud to be published in! Super excited about this! I’m adding my tag list in here - I know I’ve not been around recently and if you’d like to be removed from the tag list just let me know :) @ahowlinwolf @rataltouille @coffeeandcalligraphy @dallonswords  @disappearingmusee @sienna-writes @august-iswriting @yanittawrites @mjmnorwood @oasis-of-you @shaelinwrites

[annlillyjose]

There’s a (Dead) Wasp on My Mattress — 12 Point Font

there is a (dead) wasp on my mattress deals with the concepts of purity and sin, colouring the protagonist's moral ambiguity in deep shades

My poem there's a dead wasp on my mattress is now published and free to read online! First ever poetry publication yay!

General Taglist (ask to be +/-)

@shaonharryandpannisim @heartfullkings @bookdragonfanish @vnsmiles @dallonm @wannabeauthorzofija @sienna-writes @violetpeso @flip-phones @rowenkrahn @ambidextrousarcher @showgirlcurio @jenetmoses @writing-with-l @magic-is-something-we-create @femmeniism @frozenstillicide @wizardfromthesea @rose-bookblood @coffeeandcalligraphy

[fluoresensitivearchived]

“ganja & hess” dir. bill gunn / “cannibal trail”, nicola samori / “snow and dirty rain”, richard siken / “how to return”, diedrick brackens / “on sundays she picked flowers”, yah yah scholfield

[sweatermuppet]

reading poetry is great because there's always a well structured line followed by the most deranged thing you've ever encountered

[sevaria]

‘I Need Autonomy’ inspired by Jenny Holzer

[rataltouille]

[start id: a screenshot of dialogue that reads as follows: “When you stare at strangers through the window of a car or on a bike, making intense eye contact that could mean anything, wondering if they’re concerned, or amused, or disgusted, or an amalgam of these three. Or something else entirely. And secretly you enjoy this—this sliver of a moment when you’re captured in someone else’s mind, boldly filigreed there, before dissipating forever. You’ll never see each other again and it makes the rendezvous safe, unaccounted for. It lets me be awful when nothing else can.” “I think that's a little pretentious.” “I think it's life-changing.”/ end id]

haven't touched this story in two months because exams but suddenly i have brainrot again

[sienna-writes]

I know I haven't been about for ages but AHHH!! my poem "measurements" about a whale that i submitted last minute and 100% didn't think was going to result in anything... was longlisted for the After Sylvia competition! out of 800 entries!!

i cannot stop grinning

this is my first writing credit i am so so happy

[sweatermuppet]

when the trans masc tops by silas denver melvin (@sweatermuppet)

[Text ID: our gaudy trans decadence makes disco of the room your tgirl femboy body squealing beneath my caterpillar thighs sex is more about reinventing than it is about pleasure sex between us is about repurposing words from the old world how a womb can be anywhere in the body like once believed my small farmer's hands holding your head down against a silk pillowcase your hairy stomach heaving, barbie smooth legs pinned back like butterfly wings i want to possess you in all the ways i was taught i couldn't i want to excavate the teeth still lodged inside you let sex not be a competition but an act of mercy: you ask to be taken apart & i bestow you purpose /End ID]

[sweatermuppet]

grabbing people & shaking them by the shoulders & asking DO YOU KNOW HOW TO MAKE MEANINGFUL CONNECTIONS DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE TO BE REJECTED HALFWAY TO EXIST IN THE ETHER BETWEEN STRAY DOG & A EUTHANIZED BODY CAN YOU TELL ME HOW TO RETURN TO THE WARMTH OF A LOVING MOTHER DO YOU KNOW WHERE CHILDHOOD GOES WHEN I FORGET PLEASE CAN YOU TELL ME I'M NOT ALONE HALF FEATHERED & AWKWARD CAN YOU BE THE SOLACE I HAVE SPENT A DECADE SEARCHING FOR & FAILING TO ACHIEVE & they smile & tell me i should focus on a stable career

[annlillyjose]

[image description: a waxing crescent chalked to a navy blue sky behind silhouettes of confierous trees. in the left corner, a white serif font reads "writeblr introduction". / end id]

WRITEBLR REINTRO

hey there! i've been on writeblr for almost a year now (where did all the time go?). i'd made a writeblr intro back then, but have grown tremendously since and think it's the right time for an updated version that represents me more authentically.

about me

i'm ann lilly jose (they/she), an 18 year old writer from a very small locality in kerala, india

infp, enneagram type 2

i'm an english literature student

i write literary fiction and poetry

i'm a discovery writer and a proud member of the weird verbs, specificity, and flowery prose community

my taste in music is questionably vast and diverse, but shawn mendes and bts <3

i run a literary magazine called eclipse zine

my aesthetics: moon phases, tinted skies, black coffee, midnight angst, chaos theory, old books, silent corners, intense conversations, meaningful connections.

my wips

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my main wip which is currently, in all its glory, a blank document. this is a literary fiction novel about lost childhood, religious trauma, toxic relationships, and the concepts of purity and sin. even though it's never explicitly stated, this story is set in my hometown so expect a lot of kerala's landscape and culture.

[image description: a finite expanse of dark blue water, fallen leaves on its surface. in the left corner, a white serif font reads, "twinepathy". /end id]

literary fiction novella about identical twins norah and renee. central themes include grief, trauma, and guilt. told in a series of poetic vignettes.

[image description: a city captured at night - a shop lit in orange on the right, a street on the left with a parked white car, electric posts, red lights and residential buildings. towards the right, a white serif font reads, "let's be suns tonight". / end id]

this is a literary fiction novel about clueless boys noah and levi as they try to untangle their complicated lives overnight with each others' help. my first step into gay waters. central themes include survivor's guilt, effects of fame on celebrities, and of course, love. this novel is sisters with @avakrahn's every sun that ever died. wip intro here!

[image description: lily pads floating on the surface of water. towards the center, a white serif font reads, "stray ghosts sleep on lily pads". / end id]

this is my poetry collection in progress. running themes include ghosts and eating (or wanting to eat) inedible objects. i share a few of my poems on tumblr. find them here on my poetry masterlist.

general taglist (ask to be +/-)

@maxgraybooks @shaonharryandpannisim @heartfullkings @bookdragonfanish @vnsmiles @dallonm @wannabeauthorzofija @sienna-writes @violetpeso @flip-phones @avakrahn @ambidextrousarcher @showgirlcurio @jenetmoses @17nim @writing-with-l @magic-is-something-we-create @femmeniism @frozenstillicide

thank you for reading so far.

love and light, ann. <3

[shaelinwrites]

PUBLICATION ANNOUNCEMENT: “HOW YOU’LL FEEL AFTER THE WAR” IN PRISM INTERNATIONAL

Hello! I’m super excited to share that issue 60.1 “Wonder” of PRISM international has dropped, and you can find my short story “How You’ll Feel After the War” within! This magical little story is part queer love story, part soft fantasy, and part apocalyptic fiction, ft. a godly cat and a city where the sun has stopped setting (and the couple who find a secret place where night still falls).

[shaelinwrites]

taglist - @coffeeandcalligraphy @dallonswords @jennawritesstories @alicewestwater @laughtracksonata @cherylinanika @qatarcookie @if-one-of-us-falls @keira-is-writing @august-iswriting @nsanelyawkward @ghostwrit3r @feathered-inkling @shylawrites @theoldcity @berinswriting @credoallestelle @revtrelos @bookpacking @carlyiswriting @ev–writes @souliloquyyy @sunwatersun @jaydewritesfiction @froggywriter @catgirlnya @avakrahn @finch-goes-tweet @familiarvillain @isabelleespart @annlillyjose @sunstone-iolite @whymanwrites @musingsbycaitlin @charseawrites 

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

HYPE HYPE HYPE!!!

[mrspider-deactivated20221213]

imposter syndrome in autism is so..... im rotating it in my mind

[mrspider-deactivated20221213]

part of the reason people go years without knowing theyre autistic because they dont “act” autistic in front of other people is because theyve been so conditioned to repress their symptoms that they become unobservable, sometimes even to themselves. this is masking. its not a light switch that can be turned on and off again. its the gradual repression and punishment for acting anything but neurotypical and the construction of a new, more socially acceptable identity.

as time goes on and your most ‘offensive’ symptoms are ‘under control’ the only things that remain are the ones that only hurt you and the exhaustion. you cant even unwind fully in private because of the fear of being ‘wrong’. the reason so many autistic people struggle with identity is because we’ve literally been forced to abandon who we are at a core level and make one to appease the world. forced to act completely against our nature in order to... act more ‘natural’.

[mrspider-deactivated20221213]

the worst part of this is that theres no winning. you either show your symptoms/get diagnosed and face belittlement, infantilization, restrictions of freedom, or you mask, you hide away, and receive no support because no one believes you. no one understands how, when externally you SEEM so ‘competant’, you could be suffering so constantly. you either set yourself ablaze for the world to observe or spend the rest of your life tending burns no one else can see.

[dallonm-archive]

[image description: a dark yellow moon against a dark blue-grey sky, with dark foliage on either side. the shadows of the foliage cover the right-hand side of the moon. to the left, in a bold orange font reads "@dallonm." to the right, in the same font reads "navigation" / end id]

Hi best friends! It's been a hot minute so you know what that means!

Writeblr Re-Intro / Navigation

my name is dallon. i'm 21, use he/him pronouns and live in the uk

autistic and trans :)

my url used to be dallonswords

i'm a final year english lit student who only just realised how much work a dissertation is </3

i write literary/adult fiction and sometimes poetry. if i was going to write any other genre tho it'd be post apocalypse (and i will one day)

i love messy characters, messy character relationships and messy writing processes. and anything that's a Little Bit Weird

i love queer, trans and autistic characters

i'm a little bit pretentious lol!

Active WIPs:

[image: a photo of a person underwater with their eyes closed and right arm extending up. they are wearing a thin white shirt and a black vest. the photo is cropped just below their collarbone. the water is tinted a dark green. to the left, in a bold serif font reads "revelations, revelations." / end id]

revelations, revelations.

A literary adult novel set in 1980s San Francisco, following twins Felix and Dorothy as they try to navigate their trauma and identities after escaping the conservative Christian cult they grew up in - and realising they are not the good people they thought they were. Features religious trauma, queer history and lots and lots of water imagery.

[image description: shadows of pine trees against a dark purple/pink sky. the shadows in the right corner are darker. to the left, in a bold serif font reads "life cycle of massive stars" / end id]

life cycle of massive stars

A literary/contemporary/??? new adult novel set in 2018 UK, following three autistic housemates - Kristen, Tomas and Junie - trying to survive their final year of University and all the massive life changes out of their control. Features second person POV, some experimental form, flowery prose and my proof that litfic protagonists can be funny <3

I also have two other novels I'm not actively writing: I Am Made of Indigo and Eulogy For Our Burnings

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how to swallow matchsticks

Collective title for my short fiction! I like to write about relationships, breaking points, self destruction and impulsive decisions. Highlights include a teenager taking her little sister to the aquarium after killing their father, ace lesbians teaming up against the commune they spend their summers on, sneaking out to visit your brother who faked his death, setting a laundromat on fire to impress a girl and a cat that might be God.

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this is where i buried my baby teeth

Collective title for my poetry! I like to write weird little narratives and long, freeform monologues. Themes include reckoning with your body, reckoning with your past self, perception of others in relation to yourself, fragmented identity and being transgender <3

[dallonm-archive]

dropping the tag list to delightfully announce that i am Alive again! @childhoodlovers @svpphicwrites @abiandwriting @kowlazovdi @avi-why @ryns-ramblings @kitblogsthings @bijouxs @bookphobe @moonhungers @alicewestwater @bookpacking @shaelinwrites @onlyganymede @theelectricfactory @write-like-babs @oceancold @sidhewrites @wolf-oak @oasis-of-you @coffeeandcalligraphy @cecilsstorycorner @howdywrites @keira-is-writing @flip-phones @stormharbors @avakrahn @goose-books @ziyin @aphaimaniis @isherwoodj @laughtracksonata

[sienna-writes]

slowly but surely starting to write again. It's been a lovely and simultaneously very difficult summer. I feel it "should" have been harder, but I am being kind to myself and value my life more than I ever have. It really, really does make all the difference.

anyway.

this is essentially a long winded reminder to keep holding on. <3