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32. Eldest Kinkade. Deputy.

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esamxels:

“Sure it wasn’t.” Why did it leave her with a sinking feeling in her stomach? As if this was somehow her fault? It wasn’t what he’d meant, but he’d said it anyway and had made little move to specify what he’d meant, she wasn’t stupid, but it still hurt. All of it, the gravely sound of his voice so late at night, the constant smell of fucking waffles, all of it added up and suddenly baring herself against the weight of seeing him right then and there didn’t seem worth it anymore. As if that weren’t already enough to swallow, he sucker punched her — reached right over the abyss between them and socked her one right to the stomach as he questioned the most recent appointment with her fathers doctor. It hadn’t been good – it never was. “They’re.. I mean..” Words failed her completely and she found herself begging silently for something to form on her tongue other than a welling panic that she didn’t have time for. Instead, she simply shook her head, quicker than necessary as she stepped away from the counter. “No..– No, Silas..We’re not doing this. We’re not.. I’m not talking to you about this.” She couldn’t – because all of it would well up and in the midst of everything she was losing along with her fathers memories, of him; she’d forget why he wasn’t the person she could talk to about any of this anymore. “I’m not..” it swelled, right there in her throat. “– Tell Rosa I’ll see her tomorrow.” It would be all the explanation necessary, Erin only then, in a broken movement, almost unsure of herself, retracing her steps towards the exit, blocked momentarily by a group of drunken party goers staggering through the door.

"Maybe I fucked up along the line here, but I’m not that heartless.” And he wasn’t. As angry and hurt as he might have been with Erin’s decision to not fight for them in light of the horrible transgression committed against her, he understood it. Should the tables turn then Silas  might have responded in much the same way, but he liked to believe that forgiveness was somewhere in his nature. People took tragic news differently, something he learned on the force which translated to his personal life shockingly well. “Sorry.” The only word he could offer at how she grew more flustered from his genuine concern. Maybe it wasn’t his place anymore, but her family had been so much his own for the entirety of their relationship that it became difficult to turn off the need to know. “Then who are you going to talk to about it, Erin? Logan said she hasn’t heard from you in weeks. If you don’t open up to somebody about it, you’re bound to implode. I know you.” Hazel hues rolled towards the wood panelling above as she practically bolted for the door, only to nearly find herself trampled by a group of miscreants that he might have otherwise taken the time to escort out. Following after her, he guided the brunette by her upper arm around the sudden crowd. “Stop. Just... Stop. Before you get yourself hurt.”

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bcnniex:

                   “If you’re talking to certain people around this place, you might have to stick to a third grade level. Absolutely not, props to them, wish I had the self confidence to flaunt my goodies around and get money for it — not like they’re the one that should be embarrassed, just like prostitutes. Always thought those buying them should be the ones that are embarrassed, not the one that was opening her legs for cash at the end of possibly only 5 seconds,” she stated with a small smirk on her lips. “Damn, look at you go. Quiet but very observant. Should I even as you what you’ve managed to catch about me over the past few years?”

"Sometimes it feels like people around here never got past it anyway, hard to believe they hold down jobs half the time. Do you think we’re always gonna be this open minded or will we turn into the old biddies around here who judge everyone and everything? Guess that’s true. You have to be observant if you want to survive as a cop, it’s half the job really. Oh you don’t even want to know, I’d make your head spin.”

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lcganhastings:

                     “Its Two Thousand and Seventeen, DK, shouldn’t be seen as progressive, should just be seen as normal, you know? But, enough of that. People in this town could learn a few things from you, and don’t you let them tell you otherwise. I know, you’re very gentleman like, I see it. Thanks, but beefing up in certain areas won’t do much harm, you know? Ha, yeah, I know what you’re talking about; you’re one of the few guys that don’t know my other skills. Yes; Erin. —- Wait —- what??”

"I keep winding up in these feminist conversations. Look, you won’t see me disagreeing alright? Just saying people in Blackwater, especially the older folks, aren’t as open minded as we are. That’s... Probably not true in the least, but thanks. ---You do? Where? No, it won’t do any harm, so long as you promise not to go overboard and end up on a wild health kick.” He swallowed at her mention of other skills and deigned it not worth even attempting a natural reply. “We broke up. Well, she broke up with me, but it’s pretty much all the same in the end.” Perhaps the one sliver of decency he did for both of them was never reveal Logan’s name to Erin in his confession, it would have been an unnecessarily painful stab in an already fatal blow to their relationship. 

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dcrekx:

               “No offense taken, they had notified me the moment the case was closed but they thought me staying off the field was best for me and we both know how it is to fight with those above you in the force, just leads to bigger and longer breaks.” It hadn’t been something he enjoyed, the break. Of course there was the single upside – at least that was until it lasted, but that wasn’t something he was going to spill towards his boss; screwing and falling in love with his damned sister. “They’re starting me on smaller cases, theft or possibly break ins but they’re iffy about letting me into the larger case right now, a lot of people are worried how I’ll react to murder after my sister dying not long ago, which is understandable but the distraction would be nice —— and a partner that didn’t mess up my car with those damned sugared donuts every morning.”

"They call you insubordinate and not fit for duty, I get it man. Just so you know though, their crap comes at you no matter where you stand, desk officer or deputy--- we all get the same bullshit.” He shrugged casually, though it grated on him to know that someone with as level a head as Derek wasn’t be utilized to his full potential. “At least that’s something, right? If it makes you feel better, I don’t get to touch the big case with a ten foot pole unless they need somebody interrogated, but even then they’ve got my partner to do the questioning.” Personal attachment to one of the victims knocked him off a trail that could damn well use his knowledge. “Sugared donuts? Oh Christ, they put you with Barber didn’t they?”

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x--remi:

               “If I wanted him dead, he’d be dead” there was no lie within the blondes tone, no smile appearing to claim the words as a joke. Sometimes even the anger that festered within even scared her – there was no telling just how far Remi could go. “Come on, I’m alright; are you? I went and seen Erin, she doesn’t seem to keen on our friendship anymore so, thanks big brother” now she smiled while patting him on the back, this time joking with him as she did on so many occasions. “And there’s nothing wrong with looking like Dad now and again”

"Alright let’s not... Say that too loud, yeah?” Of his siblings, Remi was by far the most volatile and unpredictable, which once excited them all as children and now worried the eldest of the pack more than he could manage to hide. “I get it. I pry in your break up and you pry in mine, let’s just call it even and drop the subjects.” Perhaps the one thing that he could relate to her on was their mutual heartbreak over losing a partner so suddenly. “Guess not. You been to see his grave lately?”

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rcryx:

                “That was in kindergarten sweety, now you got the whole feminist movement and sticking up for ourselves and all that fucking shit that changes almost everyday it gives me whiplash,” she stated before shaking her head and raising her eyebrow in his direction, shocked he still hadn’t managed to turn and loose at the busted bimbo that had been flirting with him moments earlier. “Ah, so you just place the police card to get the ladies? Good idea, think if I start saying I’m a nurse without any sense of proof that I’ll manage to get more men in the end? I would never —- her tits were on point, Kinkade. Not better than mine but pretty damn close.”

"Nothing wrong with a feminist movement, I’m just a little behind the times is all. Am I still allowed to be a gentleman or will you hand me my ass for that one too?” Whatever woman there had been, if any, didn’t quite capture his attention as much as the current conversation or his company. “I don’t know about playing it, never really had to since it’s a small town. Everybody knows everybody. To be honest... Not sure if they’d want your medical knowledge so much as to have you bring home the uniform. Maybe you should go chase after her then.”

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sxkinkade:

“Don’t look at me like that, if I didn’t make sure you ate something that at least looked like a vegetable at least five times a week, you’d turn into a waffle.” She said, lent over the desk at the station, a bag full of food placed beside her. “I know you’re busy, but you’ve still gotta’ eat, Si. Preferably something that doesn’t leak so much grease the bag turns see through..” @silaskinkade

"---Like what?” The older Kinkade spared his sister yet another half-interested expression as she referenced her gift of health food that he wasn’t particularly keen on opening. “If there’s tofu in there, I’m gonna put a frog in your bed again. I am eating... There’s chips in the vending machine and they’re not greasy. They say oven baked and everything.”

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rcryx:

              “Not how it works, sweet-cheeks. If a hot as fuck woman wants your attention, you’re supposed to give it to her. Besides, she probably wanted to catch you before you started the clock, who wants to flirt with a working officer other than me? Who has absolutely no dignity left inside her body?” The brunette asked with a small chuckle falling from her lips afterwards. “And why would I mess around about an amazing rack?”

"And here I thought you were supposed to be mean to the girls you liked so they would want you more, shows how much I know.” He kidded of course, but it did take everything in his will power not to swivel on the bar stool to catch a glimpse of this mystery person. “You’d be shocked, some women really get off on knowing you could be called in at any moment for a life or death situation. Sounds like you’re already cutting yourself short, Rory. Dunno... To mess with a poor, off-duty cop just trying to enjoy his waffles probably.”

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bcnniex:

                “It was technical enough, Sir. Kinakde! Well of course, it seems more reasonable then swinging around on a pole, I mean if I’m gonna be a damn cat and human all in one, I better be paid more if I’m swinging around a pole, correct? Well then, I know Jamie Monroe wouldn’t be affected, nor would half the police squad or Zeke! Scott — well no, no that’s a lie, Scott would be amused with a stick.”

"I guess I should go back to my habit of keeping everything at a third grade level. Are you saying you judge the ladies who take their tops off to put themselves through school? Jamie Monroe isn’t affected by anything that doesn’t come in a glass bottle, if memory serves. Zeke’s only affected by a bad situation that he can make worse. Yeah I’m sure Scott would... Sorry, not the biggest champion for old blue eyes these days.”

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lcganhastings:

                  “I’d pay —- twenty-first century and all that and you know what they say about working at a record store; all that money for food. Yep, that’s exactly what I’m trying to do, put on some more pounds for lacrosse because why not, not doing much else right now. – Have you spoken with Erin lately? She’s — um, she’s not really talking to me and I don’t know why.”

"That’s very progressive of you, though I think some people in this town might judge me anyway. My dad didn’t teach me a whole lot, but he did say to be a gentleman on occasion. You don’t need extra pounds for lacrosse, Lo. You’re fine the way you are--- skills wise, like... On the field. You know what I mean. Who? Erin right. I, um, no not really. Not since she moved back with her folks and very succinctly instructed me to stay out of her life.”

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bishcpdanes:

                        “And still; we’re talking.” he added as he continued to dig into the pie, offering Silas a smile to indicate he wasn’t being rude; it wasn’t really in his nature, even if he didn’t like someone. “Sounds rough. Things must be pretty — tense out there. Uh, yeah, no, I’ve become a vigilante because why not.” 

"Alright, alright. I can take a hint.” Broad shoulders lifted a moment in response. “Not as rough as it could be, I’d reckon. Yeah I could believe that... Anybody ever tell you that you look a bit like Spiderman?”

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scxtthastings:

“And you’re a judgemental prick, Kinkade. Never say no to a woman with experience. He might be alive but the prick can barely walk, why do you think that is? Jury’s still out.”

"Okay that’s not true at all. I think it’s safe to say no to a woman who’s got dentures, I like to stick to my own age bracket thank you. Oh you didn’t just--- no. Great, now I’ve got that in my head for the rest of the afternoon.”

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dcrekx:

               “They think that cutting us off from the job is going to help, and I get it, we’re gonna be thinking personal and want to look into files that we shouldn’t be looking into, but my job was my only distraction so it was a long two months,” he muttered; although it was half a lie, he had a new distraction while he was away fro two months, but it wasn’t a distraction that he could say towards the male who’s sister was ringing in his mind. “Mostly, yes. They’re slowly allowing me to make my way back into field work since Beck’s death wasn’t associated with the rest.”

"Suppose for normal people it does help. Not for guys like us who need the distraction almost as bad as we need answers. Your sister’s case was open and shut, no offense. They got no reason to keep you off the streets this long.” Silas knew about the vast majority of going ons at the department, especially when a fellow officer lost a family member. Rose Becker’s death had been fairly straightforward all things considered, though he knew damn well it didn’t ease Derek’s pain. “As they should. Let me know if they keep dragging their feet and I’ll see what I can do about lighting a fire, alright?”

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zxcallahxn:

“I knew you weren’t completely useless, Kinkade. If you don’t order my shit, you’re completely deserving of my grubby hands all over your damn waffles.” He cast a knowing smirk up at Rosa and nodded his thanks once the plate was placed down in front of him. “I know that’s not you telling me you missed me. When duty calls, it calls.” Never mind the fact that he’d gone to find his younger sister. “Sounds like every rookies wet dream.”

"That’s what JD says to me just about everyday, I’m starting to think you boys don’t find me capable of a lotta shit. Try it, I take them seriously; I don’t just keep my baton on me for fun.” At the other’s offhanded comment, Silas could only release a quick snort. “Missed having capable back up who isn’t gonna shoot first and ask questions later. Yeah their wet dream and my fucking nightmare, let’s just say he’s on desk duty for a long while.”

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esamxels:

“Thanks for the reminder.” Of everything that wasn’t, but should have been. Erin didn’t even want to think about how many times in their relationship she’d become almost giddy thinking about the future; a future with him, as his family; his wife. But now there was nothing, no semblance of any kind of future. Not in her mind. “I thought so — he’ll forget I said that, don’t worry. Next time you catch him wandering the streets without any idea where he is, he’s not going to freak out and think you’re a ghost or something.” Her dad always forgot; sometimes it was useful and the rest of the time it was just fucking heartbreaking, Erin waiting for the day he forgot her too. “Great, brilliant. Since you care so much, do me a favor and don’t.”

"You know that’s not what I meant.” Except that it was, a jab at every What If which littered his thoughts since the day she slammed the door on both him and their irreparably fractured relationship. His actions were inexcusable and Silas knew damn well that he deserved every ounce of ire which came from Erin, but somehow he never quite took into account that she might actually sever ties between them. “Guess that would make it easier when I bring him back home. How um... What did the doc say? The brain exercises you were doing don’t help anymore?” He remembered, of course. The flash cards and the countless hours spent at their kitchen table while she tested memory games on her old man. “Can’t tell you how much easier this would be if I didn’t.” Suddenly the deputy became overwhelmed with the desire to force more waffle into his mouth to avoid every second of their conversation. 

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x--remi:         

               “He cut the chord while I was still holding onto it” a truth she hadn’t revealed to anyone but Cait, yet it seemed she couldn’t stop the words from escaping. “It doesn’t matter anyway; I lied. I just wanted to see if you would punch him; and by the look of that frown line you got going on that could have been any minute now — flattered, always” 

“Just say the word and I got ways to make sure his body’s never found, Rem.” Not that Silas were ever capable of such a crime, but he would protect his baby sister with every atom in his body. “You shouldn’t mess with a big brother’s emotions, I hear we’re a protective bunch. Don’t be, Sammy gets the same look.”

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                          Retrieving intel on Silas Kinkade...

Older brother of Remi and Samantha Kinkade, Silas has only ever lived in Blackwater Bay and cannot imagine a life anywhere outside of the town’s borders.

Never found interest in the Crows or his father’s reputation as their leader, opting out of the family business entirely which inevitably forced the two to butt heads on multiple occasions.

The police force was his dream from a young age and despite the sideways glances he received from neighbors over the tracks, Silas pursued the academy as soon as possible and graduated with flying colors.

At the age of twenty-five, he became the youngest deputy in Blackwater Bay history and moved away from his family into a house closer to Main Street.

Regardless of their opposite paths in life, Silas always defended his father and those close to the Kinkade family from all speculation or trash talk.

Was in a lengthy, committed relationship with Erin Samuels for several years with every intention of marrying her until they broke up a couple of months ago when he came clean over his own infidelity.

His father’s brutal murder came as both a shock and incentive to begin questioning the darker corners of Blackwater Bay.

Peeks in on the investigation of the serial killer even if he isn’t technically allowed to work the case due to personal attachment.

Recently acquired a new partner named Zeke Callahan after his former one opted to retire from the force to settle down, something Silas could never imagine doing himself--- he’s always going to be a cop no matter what.

Even though his job requires him to view a lot of unpleasant aspects of the town, he still believes in the good of the people here.

Worries about Remi more than anyone else, especially with her recent behavior and antics; he doesn’t want to see her behind bars.

He can be protective, courageous, kind-hearted, and jovial, but he can also be awkward, impulsive, stubborn, and self-defeating.

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Silas suffers from a little known sex addiction, which he absolutely refuses to acknowledge or receive treatment for. Since his break up with Erin, he has continued to have wanton hook ups with various women under the radar and holds no intention of ceasing this behavior. He blames it on the newness of bachelor life, but it goes far deeper than that in his psyche.

He is the only one who remembers his one night stand with Logan Hastings and the fact that they were both too wasted to use a condom. The secret of their brief affair is something he keeps to himself to avoid burdening her with the guilt, though he has no idea whatsoever that she is most likely pregnant with his child.