Lexi's Thots

Hi! I am Lexi. I'm a transgender woman and I use she/her pronouns. I like a lot of things ranging from tabletop games to politics. On this blog I'm just gonna share my random thoughts on whatever catches my interest.

[silaxandra]

Selfcare?

What even is self care? The only knowledge I have on the matter is "treat yourself like a friend" and "go to the spa and then a shopping spree".

I lack money so obviously the second option is out unless I learn how to make a spa day with my instant pot and a pound of rice.

Treating myself like a friend also doesn't make sense to me? I know I had a pretty rough childhood growing up and also was too scared to make connections so most of my friends are just friends of the person people thought I was.

My current best friend is great and I love him, he has done a lot for me, but things I did for him I realize now was not the best advice. I essentially tried to get him to ignore any current struggles because I thought getting a job would help. I did that because that is what I did in high school when I was stressed out.

If I wanted to treat myself to something nice, I am not sure what I would do. My favorite things require me to think and put in effort to be "productive" in a way weather that be playing Minecraft, Animal Crossing or Hearthstone.

I struggle to lose myself in movies, shows or books because my head is constantly buzzing with my ADHD. I dont live with people I can just hang out with.

This doesn't really have a conclusive ending, I am not sure what I can do that will help. I wrote this in hopes that it will help? Maybe it is helping? Idk.

[silaxandra]

A more productive kind of day

Today I felt a lot more in touch with myself, a lot more than I have been in the last couple of weeks. I took a very nice shower last night, had a good dinner and then today I had a healthy breakfast and a yummy but unhealthy lunch. Im cleaning my room but am also not holding my self to it too much. Trying to avoid “i should be cleaning my room” and just letting myself do what i want to do. I want to have clean laundry and I want to have my bed made. I want to have most of the trash cleared from my room and I want to take a break and talk to my friends. Its been hard to just relax because of my list of mental issues but today is a true self care day. Gonna do my nails in a little and then make myself some healthy and yummy dinner later. 

[silaxandra]

An Argument for Monuments from Amonkhet in Commander (EDH)

The monuments from Amonkhet might be super underrated in commander, they provide a form of ramp (sometimes better than +1 mana) and do things that those colors usually wanna do. Of course there are always gonna be cases where that’s not true. But in the cases where it is, the only bad one i would consider is Bontu's and maybe Kefnet's (they simply don’t provide as much tempo or value) but the others are like pretty decent especially when considering they trigger off EVERY creature you cast, not just the ones in that color.

When does white not want a 1/1 body. like of course there are times but sometimes you need one to sac it, or put an equipment on it to get card draw or something, or even just having a little blocker could be a difference between lethal or not. 

Blue tapping down creatures could really disrupt the plans of other decks, tapping down even a mana dork slows down the rate of some decks, not to mention shutting down decks that go tall and go into combat. 

Black is the most lack luster as it just drains the table for 1 and gives you 1, BUT in a deck that cares about incremental life gain that’s crazy: those vampires that said *whenever you gain life, your opponents lose 1" can really start ticking away at your opponents.  

Green could snowball with +2/+2 and trample on 1 creature every turn, and start creating board pressure fast. 

Red has rummaging on every creature, that’s amazing selection. 

I do think that they wouldn't be run in most high tuned/powerful decks but when aiming for the not as powerful deck archetypes or mono/2 color commanders, i think they can slot in fairly well and deserve to be looked at.