A broken soul

22 years old.Tunisian. "Your lord did not abondon you,nor did He forget you"-Quran

[kosmogrl]

teenage me and current me are both depressed directionless girls, the only difference is that current me started appreciating the beauty of the world and realized how good it is to be alive despite it all

[kosmogrl]

true true true

[thebluesthour]

“I have been alone with the thing itself. The depression. The defective heart. God. Inside my mind it is dawn. A wolf appears with a bird in its mouth. Blue feathers, my fate, the beautiful white throat.”

— Allison Seay, “Bathing”, To See The Queen

[thebluesthour]

“In Greece one has the desire to bathe in the sky. You want to rid yourself of your clothes, take a running leap and vault into the blue. You want to float in the air like an angel or lie in the grass rigid and enjoy the cataleptic trance. Stone and sky, they marry here. It is the perpetual dawn of man’s awakening.”

— Henry Miller, from The Colossus of Maroussi. (via xshayarsha)

[thebluesthour]

“With trembling hands she held the jar to her bosom, and sat for six hours sunk in contemplation of it. Then she said to her doctor and her lady-companion: “Now I can die. And when I am dead you will cut out my heart and lay it in the blue jar. For then everything will be as it was then. All shall be blue around me, and in the midst of the blue world my heart will be innocent and free, and will beat gently, like a wake that sings, like the drops that fall from an oar blade.””

— Isak Denisen, ‘The Blue Jar’ from “The Young Man With the Carnation”, Winter’s Tales

[blue-tulips-and-pale-hearts]

I’m in love with ocean🌊.

[lofeel]

[skewhermitian]

being on tumblr is just so cozy... you know what i mean? instagram and twitter are all flashy and loud but tumblr is as cozy as my bedroom with scented candles on a cold November night

[quotemadness]

Most people don’t grow up. It’s too damn difficult. What happens is most people get older. That’s the truth of it. They honor their credit cards, they find parking spaces, they marry, they have the nerve to have children, but they don’t grow up. Not really. They get older. But to grow up costs the earth, the earth. It means you take responsibility for the time you take up, for the space you occupy. It’s serious business. And you find out what it costs us to love and to lose, to dare and to fail. And maybe even more, to succeed. What it costs, in truth. Not superficial costs—anybody can have that—I mean in truth. That’s what I write. What it really is like. I’m just telling a very simple story.

Maya Angelou  (via quotemadness)

[i-am-obscuram]

The Darkside of Empaths that we don't want you to know

If you do a search on empaths you can find a lot of the same information, they are highly sensitive, narcissist fodder, and more; repurposed in different ways. Yet you won’t see much of anything on the science or theories behind these abilities. That’s understandable, as many people lump these abilities in with esotericism, mysticism and woo-woo. I’m going to start by taking the mysticism out of it, but I won’t leave you there. 

There are different categories of empaths, along with varying intensity of those abilities. Some who associate with being an empath can be more influenced by having physiological reactions to our innate biochemistry. What I mean by that is, the way a pet can “sense” your feelings. If you are sad they are right there by your side to comfort you. It’s likely the same with insects such as bees, ever notice when you are afraid of them they seem to go after you even if you froze in your fight or flight state? Much of this is due to changes in your scent, think pheromones.  Pheromones are a chemical that we secrete which influences the behavior of those around us. Even though pheromones themselves are undetectable, we cant see or smell them, we still react to them; they can still greatly affect us and our behaviors. Pheromones simplified are scent molecules that invade our bloodstream and then change our behavior in reaction to the chemical being detected in our body. 

“Pheromone signals affect you subconsciously. You may not be aware of them until the effects are impossible to ignore.” The way our bodies react to this may differ, and some people are going to be more sensitive to the influence of pheromones than others.

Moving forward with that in mind, we can also pick up on, and be influenced by, what we perceive through our other senses subconsciously.  As we are ocularly, audibly, tangibly and gustatorily taking in information we can be influenced by what is received.  Our brains take in and process far more stimuli than we realize, much of it gets filtered out of our conscious mind and how much much is not readily studied or revealed in the scientific field. The questions still stand of, “what happens to the rest, and what really is the extent of the data that we are taking in?” Some progress can be found by clicking here The other theory behind empathic abilities is with what powers our bodies.  Our bodies carry electricity; when someone is in cardiac arrest, a defibrillator sends an electric shock to the heart. Basically, under certain conditions you can be jump-started like a car.  There is not a whole lot of information on how our bodies electrical system works and the full extent of what it’s capable of but we are beginning to move in that direction  “The new technology appeared in a Sony patent filing that describes how engineers in the company’s Tokyo research unit developed wireless headphones that rely on electrical signals sent through the body.” - ARS Technica    

This also coincides with abilities such as mirror touch synesthesia. Given those considerations we are all biologically predisposed to being empaths on some level. Many empaths would agree that their abilities can run on proximity, however the most interesting and unexplained is with COVID even being socially distanced there are empaths that can still perceive and there are significant overlapping similarities on the effects experienced with social distancing. Nearly all had insomnia, feeling drained, hyper-sensitive, or advanced their capabilities. So that mostly rules out things of proximity such as electrical field or pheromone based concepts with certain groups of empaths. Which brings up the theory that certain empathic abilities fall within the realm of consciousness, and what that is, still remains a mystery, likely one that would address subjects like psychic abilities.

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[faronmckenzie]

Quantum Physics tells us that nothing that is observed is unaffected by the observer. That statement, from science, holds an enormous and powerful insight. It means that everyone sees a different truth, because everyone is creating what they see.

Neale Donald Walsch

[julaibib]

اللَّهُمَّ اسْتُرْنَا بِسِتْرِكَ الجَمِيْلِ ، وَاجْعَلْ تَحْتَ السِّتْرَ مَا تَرْضَى بِهِ عَنَّا

“O Allah, veil us with Your beautiful veil and place beneath that veil what will please You from us.”

[juansendizon]

“I’m a soft believer in the wisdom of loving someone in such a way that sets them free because love blossoms in appreciation. Love blossoms when it’s watered with gentleness, tenderness, and care. Love blossoms when it is given the space to be beautiful on its own.”

— Juansen Dizon

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

soft reminders:

you have value even when you can’t get out bed.

you will always have inherent worth, unaffected by your level of functioning or productivity.

you are deserving of love, kindness and time.

you are worth the ‘burden’ of getting help and recovering.

[arabishee]

I pray to The Merciful Your love remains a strand of light In a night inhabited by darkness So that in the sea of days It may remain a dock of mercy

- Ghazi AlGosaibi

[7-fs]

i wish it was easier to ask people “can i just have a little extra love today”

[stay-close]

There is a terrible emptiness in me, an indifference that hurts.

— Albert Camus, The First Man

[sosuperawesome]

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