Roomandrebellion🦋

[silent1chaos]

Hlo! Everyone!! Lately I feel drained and something i can't decipher...I feel empty in myself. Nothing holds my interest... So, a request to anyone out there reading it can you introduce me some hobbies or some topics or subjects to learn about which offcourse could help me out in some way... I come from economics background and has interest in maths, business, languages and offcourse economics.

For hobbies I have tried cooking, reading, writing, singing( I'm bad at it), crocheting, sewing and art & craftHlo! Everyone!!

Lately, I've been feeling drained and empty in a way I can't quite decipher. Nothing holds my interest anymore...

So, a request to anyone reading this — could you introduce me to some hobbies, topics, or subjects worth learning about that might help me out in some way?

I come from an economics background and have interests in maths, business, languages, and of course, economics.

For hobbies, I have tried cooking, reading, writing, singing (I'm bad at it), crocheting, sewing, and arts & crafts.

What should I do to get rid of this feeling? I don't feel like watching anything either...

There's this thing about me — when I get into something, I immerse myself so deeply and obsessively that eventually there's nothing left in it to hold my interest anymore.

Please help!!!!

Let's see how long it takes me to discover a new interest... Thanks if you actually read this! 🦋✨

[silent1chaos]

Hey! How's you guys doing? Hey! How are you guys doing? Well, I couldn't post yesterday because there was a storm and networks weren't working well. For the last few days I haven't been enjoying anything — my studies, designing projects, learning languages, not even resting or sleeping.

Lately, the only good things I've done are revising my academics and enhancing the plot of my novel...

[silent1chaos]

Yoo! This time I'm here with a question...Have you ever had the feeling of being used? Not just by your lover but by people around you..your friends for instance. It could be anyone from friends to parents and people in between.

Coz I feel this almost every day being used to my best..I do get angry and all but they are just people who won't even apologise. The moment they have their person..I'm on the back seat like tf?

So, today I went outside after weeks coz me and my friend decided we would, but things took a drastic turn when we went to a hospital and I didn't know about this...there was his boyfriend's father admitted and I was like okay np.

And after meeting him...she didn't even meet the father, she was like let's go back. And I was enraged even though I was smiling outside...like are you serious? And I did say that weren't we supposed to go to the market and she was like I lied...I don't have anything to do with market🙂.

After that we went to a pizza corner, ate there and left. The only thing I went out for didn't happen, I just got my dress back from her which she borrowed around 2 months ago and now when I checked the dress was ruined by rats. And she was like sorry yrr I didn't put it in cupboard.

I seriously don't like it and am going to cut my conversations with her. I'm not even the one who texts someone or anything and I'm definitely not a call person.

#I felt being used.

For my academics progress, I revised some topics I studied earlier and just usual language practicing and yeah I also completed the stitching of the short peplum top I mentioned in one of my posts.

[silent1chaos]

Hello everyone! How's life lately?

Today I did nothing. I was going to take much needed rest after completing two of my academic books but unfortunately couldn't. I was irritated and cranky all day, my eyes feel like they weigh a ton and the dull ache behind my head is hitting with full force. I really want to strangle people sometimes when they are messing with my system but you can't always do what you want. I was in and out of sleep whole day, kind of in a haze. Couldn't sleep last night and in the morning...let's say people have a dire need to not let me sleep peacefully. 😑

I did practice Korean though. Also revised with 2 video lectures. That's all I did today.

It's nothing ik but I gotta be honest at least with myself.

[a-mind-in-ruins]

[silent1chaos]

Hey! Hope you find this post in a good health and mind. I'm back again with my routine. Some of you might think that ohh..she is so well organized and all the things but the truth is I'm not. I overthink everything and right now I'm doing that a lot, I don't like it when people become an irrelevant factor between me and my schedule and it's not bcz I'm ohh so punctual but I find all the pattern going in vain. Everything just messes up for me there and I end up overthinking.

There is also something i want to ask you guys...is it common to enjoy people's company yet not wanting them in your life? Like I would appreciate a good company, a friend and all that but I don't like it when they get too clingy or try to interfere in my life also I'm not a talkative person, I can't really talk and it's just bcz of not being interested in anyone. I can care about you yet go months without talking to you...so if anyone else is there like me...hey mate! Let's talk?

So, today my pattern kind of got broken so all I did is practicing languages, watching a few lectures and I completed 1.5 units today. I'm thinking i should start doing some kind of exercise like yoga or pilates.

That's my life lately, what about yours?

#day9

[silent1chaos]

Heyoo! I'm back again and really sorry to myself and others who might be reading my post for not posting yesterday. Here was a storm bcz of which network issues happened and I also fell asleep earlier yet I did my regular task yesterday as well.

Coming to today, I completed 2 units of my academics, learned a little about sales, practiced both Korean and English. Watched around 4-5 videos on my academic's topics. Apart from that I reread my favorite mm novel and worked on my own novel.

I write poems too..no fancy name for them though, and short form content, I just don't know what to name them but they are just my raw emotions in words. Hereby sharing one of them with you.

Anyone here who is also into writing? If there let's connect I would definitely love to see your creative way of presenting words. Would be sharing them on a regular basis, let me know if you want me to improve me on some points or you got any suggestions for me, I'm open to them unless it's unnecessary hate🫠.

#day7&8

[silent1chaos]

Hey! Not sure if anyone is out there reading all these blogs of mine or not, nevermind I'm gonna post anyway. So, today was kind of a boring day or more like I didn't know where my whole day went.. I didn't wake up early but started my earlier study session and it was so frustrating and nerve - wracking. I had to study the same topic for almost 3 to 4 times from different sources and yet I couldn't get it. I tried it again in the evening after a power nap and well, I can say finally I know something about that topic.

Did the basics as always like practicing the languages. Lately I've come to a realisation that it is quite easy to form a habit for me but to be consistent is where I suck🙂. I can do everything fine for 2 to 3 weeks and after that it feels like a chore to me.

I reread my favorite novel coz I was in a bad mood and I've also read around 35 pages of Thinking Fast and Slow so far.

It rained here and I love the rain and storms except the gusty wind but they are also part of it and I enjoy it.

#day6

[silent1chaos]

Yoo! I'm back! Yesterday there was some connection error bcz of which I couldn't update but I did atleast basic of what i have been doing from last some days.

Today i covered around 6 lectures of my academics, read 1 chapter, took a morning walk, did face yoga and yeah practiced the languages.

Recently I disconnected with some of my friends bcz of distance or bcz of personal matters. Sometimes you want space even from people who are never meant to be put at arms length. Do you guys have someone you would regret losing except your parents and siblings or did you lost someone already?

Even if you did...it's all part of life, things change, people move on but memories are always there.

[silent1chaos]

It's me again reporting for #day 4. Let's keep it short and not be boring. I again covered three units of my academics book, did cut one dress for my mom, read 15 pages of the book Thinking fast and slow, practiced English and Korean. Took 2 lectures for my academics, listened to songs, organized my things and yeah added around 200-300 words to my novel. That was it for today, I'm trying to manage my time in a much better way. If you could provide me any guide on it, please do so. And I would love to communicate with other's who shares my interest or is in similar position whatever it is.

Sometimes all you have to do is move forward even if it feels that you are back to square one. Eventually you will thank yourself that you kept moving rather than staying constant.

[silent1chaos]

It's day 3 and i have learned quite a few things today. I studied 3 units of my academics, practiced Korean, did face yoga, practiced my speaking skills and also tried to overcome my writer's block. It's still less from what I can actually do and I am trying to do more the next day from what I do today.

I was thinking about learning sign language. I don't really have a person to communicate with using it, neither it connects me to my line of work directly at least. I just had a thought that's it.

I'm looking forward to learn some new skills or adapt a few hobbies which are not cooking, sewing, crocheting, writing, reading or remotely singing. I have tried all of the above and I'm good at all of these except singing. Journaling is not for me...so anything else you guys can recommend me I would appreciate it.

[silent1chaos]

This is me, showing up for another day. Today I came to know that the quote " Better late than never" means so much when you don't know where to go or if it is already too late? I had an emergency bcz of which things got messed up a little. Learning is a journey after all..not a stop, right?

#day2

Anyone else learning Korean ( Hangeul)?✨️

[silent1chaos]

Hey! To all the people out there who are struggling to change them, to all the people who know that they need to change but are not sure about how? I'm also one of you at the point of losing my sanity...I feel like I know almost nothing compared to people my age...there is a lot more potential in me which I'm not utilising properly. I want to learn, I yearn to learn...languages, psychology, criminology, numbers, economics all this attracts me but I'm not sure how to navigate through all of them in my life. I love to read and also write from writing small poetries to the detailed ones, from a single scenarion in my mind to a whole plot. I'm a jumbled mess and to get myself out of it..I'm starting with this 30 day challenge where i would be learning about my interest...I would let my thoughts run rampant rather than caging them and see how much I can change myself in these 30 days.

If you wish to do the same...or want to talk about it or ask me anything, feel free to do so.

"#Day 1. Let's see who i become in 30."