Spirit of my Silence

Spirit of my silence I can hear you but I'm afraid to be near you ♥ Sufjan Stevens ♥

[silent1spirit]

it’s always the same in this lose-lose game

you invent a story that allows you to feel half happy enters reality

and the carefully built construct crumbles to dust

[silent1spirit]

Just in case you wonder about my lack of posts: I’ve more or less completely moved to Instagram. Maybe see you there?

[silent1spirit]

Run

run ruN RUN

as far as you can as fast as you can while you still can

[silent1spirit]

I’d pray

maybe it’s true that I fell in love with you because you show me the person I’d like to be

but I lost all my innocence in the fights of existence when I look inside I find no trace of light

and no matter how hard I try there’s no way to purify this tainted soul of mine it has forever lost its shine

but I will not complain as long as you are spared the pain as long as life treats you kind I’m happy to sacrifice my peace of mind

if there were gods I’d pray for your smile to always stay for your soul to never ache for your heart to never break

[silent1spirit]

Ropes

I imagine cutting all the ropes I see blood emerge where the knife hit the skin instead it’s not just my own, that’s what keeps me from proceeding

- for now

[silent1spirit]

Misconception

when we come into this life we carry inside a beautiful light

we don’t need cracks for it to come in in truth, they help the darkness win

for it is black that seeps inside after we’ve bled out all the light

[silent1spirit]

Pieces

I gave pieces of me to everyone who asked (and sometimes even when they didn’t)

now I have to learn to fiercely cling to the remaining ones (and not feel guilty for it)

or there might soon be nothing left of me

[silent1spirit]

Ugly

the truth is ugly: if you’re lucky you might be able to save yourself but never anybody else

[silent1spirit]

It’s Not

it’s not make-up it’s my warpaint

it’s not fashion it’s my armor

[silent1spirit]

Lingers

nothing lingers all runs through my fingers time, money & feelings

[silent1spirit]

Call

don’t ask me how to live your life I am not qualified to give advice

you see I’ve lost my way completely so don’t turn to me for guarantees

I’m sorry but you’ll have to find your own way through

godspeed, my dear child take care to not get lost in the wild

and if by chance you happen to

find the purpose of it all please, give me a call

[silent1spirit]

Passion

more than your words it was the passion with which they were spoken

painting a world of blooming gardens and honest emotion

[silent1spirit]

Puzzle

Where my words unveil my soul I cover up my face Those who know my name mustn’t know about my pain

No-one is allowed to put the puzzle together somehow

If they can make it, they can break it

[silent1spirit]

Disregard

I don’t expect you to read my mind but why can’t you read between the lines

you won’t pay attention to the look on my face you refuse to listen to the tone of my voice

it is not like me to be flatly outspoken and each time I try your disregard leaves me broken

[silent1spirit]

Sins

in your light this sorry excuse of a life becomes unbearable I pray for a miracle

to a god I don’t believe in add it to my list of sins

[silent1spirit]

Angels

I imagine to wrap my softness around your fragile bones

but angels don’t need protection

[silent1spirit]

Moth

I long to be at your side like a moth drawn to the light

burn me