Taylor

21, they/them, Gender = non-binary, pansexual, British, confused abomination, very horny and sad, please message me I’m so lonely and desperate MDNI

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I’m Taylor now and I’m settling on the non-binary label for now :3

Happy Pride Month everyone ❤️

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I don’t really come here anymore because it feels like everyone’s saying “You’re a girl! You’re a girl!”, being surrounded by it all feels like a hindrance to me figuring out my gender.

I’m definitely not a man but I don’t think I’m a woman either, I’d like to be feminine and I’d rather throw myself into a woodchipper than grow a beard, but I just don’t think I’m a woman the same way everyone here is.

I’ve been considering non-binary or maybe gender fluid but I still don’t know, maybe I’ll change from Tilly to a more gender neutral name. I do like the name Tilly though so I’ll miss it.

The idea of being androgynous really appeals to me and it’s my goal at the moment but idk how to achieve it.

Blehhhhhhh

Edit: if anyone has any gender advice I’d love to hear it

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RIP Uk

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Bleh

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I’ve decided to grow my hair out, my dad books my haircuts (that I never ask for) and last time I told him I didn’t want my haircut he said I was gonna look hideous, ugly and other shit I’ve tried to forget, so hopefully this next time will be over text so I don’t have to be shouted at again

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Welp growing my hair out has come to an end, my hair is slightly long and my dads already beginning to insult how I look, he’s refusing to let me grow my hair out. It’s easier to shut up, deal with him and be miserable in private rather than snapping back and having him shout at me and insult my appearance until I change my mind

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I haven’t posted in a while, I don’t have much to say, idk why I’m here

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Asked my friends if they wanted to call too often, too soon and now I feel embarrassed cuz I’ve been too annoying and pestering :(

[bvvnnnyy]

thinking about drooly, messy blowjobs

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Just learnt that laser hair removal is a lot cheaper in the Uk compared to the US, so I’m glad the Uk has at least ONE advantage

It won’t be soon but when I have money and a car and more freedom I’m definitely going to laser blast my face into oblivion, then after that my chest, then after that who knows :3

Also how many sessions is like “enough”? I don’t know much about laser hair removal so if anyone has any advice I’d love to hear it :)

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Id love to have a therapist that I can genuinely talk to about my mental health, but If I want hrt I need to lie to them and be dishonest, that sucks

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I’ve decided to grow my hair out, my dad books my haircuts (that I never ask for) and last time I told him I didn’t want my haircut he said I was gonna look hideous, ugly and other shit I’ve tried to forget, so hopefully this next time will be over text so I don’t have to be shouted at again

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Also does HRT help with voice training? I know estrogen won’t give you a fem voice but does it help in anyway?

If not then I can just start voice training now when I’m home alone and I don’t have to wait >:3

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How do some people manage to even begin boymoding? Like there’s no way for me to even begin talking to a therapist without my family questioning where I’ve been for the past 2 hours, plus they’d definitely be tracking my location.

I (kinda) have freedom it’s just that everyone’s going to question what I’ve been up too and will be SUPER suspicious and nosey

Plus I can’t drive and don’t have a car so I can’t drive myself to a therapist/gender clinic/whatever

Agh

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Is being “transfem” even possible in the Uk? From what I’ve heard and what Google is telling me unless you aren’t 110% sure you’re a girl they won’t let you get anywhere near oestrogen, so I can’t even be like “I want the body I just still need to figure out the identity part”, I was considering the non binary label + hrt but I guess they wouldn’t let me.

Meh

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This whole “gender thing” sucks ass

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Since joining Tumblr a few days ago, my craving for gock has skyrocketed

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I wanna be clicker trained so bad >~<