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[silverwilled-archive]

alright it’s a wip bc i’m not gonna be able to do anything until the 10th but i wanted to make the new blog this week.  i’ll be getting pages up slowly & my twin is making me a theme bless. feel free to follow me over there but i’ll probably do a following spree sometime in the upcoming days. 

[silverwilled-archive]

alright it’s a wip bc i’m not gonna be able to do anything until the 10th but i wanted to make the new blog this week.  i’ll be getting pages up slowly & my twin is making me a theme bless. feel free to follow me over there but i’ll probably do a following spree sometime in the upcoming days. 

[silverwilled-archive]

@urulxce replied to your post “your girl is working on icons….  idk if i like them lmao but anyways i...”

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my ass, after being gone for six months: wow hey i should make like 10 blogs

[silverwilled-archive]

your girl is working on icons....  idk if i like them lmao but anyways i  think i am going to come back for real.  my college classes will be over with after the tenth.  so i’ll probably just be working on icons  & a theme until then  ( unless, anyone wants to do the theme for me  bc i’m not looking forward to doing it rip  )  but i’ll let you know when i make the new private blog.  not sure if i want to give it out here or  just follow people i want to follow.  i’ll decide when i get to it i guess.  

[silverwilled-archive]

wow it’s been awhile.  i hope you’ve all been well  !!  the other day i was trying to  get on to my personal but i signed into this one on accident  !!  i started going through my blog  & it kind of made me miss being here.  i definitely missed you all.  i’m thinking about returning...  possibly but i don’t know if it’s something  i actually want to do yet.  anyways just wanted to pop in & say hi  & that i’m still alive lmao  !!

[silverwilled-archive]

wow it’s been awhile since i last logged on.  anyways i’m sorry for disappearing out of nowhere AGAIN even tho i said i would be coming back w/ a new blog. however, i’ve come to the decision that i feel like i no longer want to roleplay. if you guys want to keep in contact you can find me on my personal tumblr here, my twitter here and/or message me for my number/instagram/snapchat etc. 

below is more of an explanation for me leaving & why i’ve been so absent. 

i really did think about coming back. i had truly meant to about a month ago tbh. i mean i have the free time again since college has actually slowed down a bit but life in general has been extremely rough the past couple of months & i just don’t have the energy to put into roleplaying like i used to. basically it’s not fun for me anymore & i’ve lowkey been feeling that for months now but i always kept trying to come back bc i didn’t want to leave all the wonderful friends & writing partners i’ve made. 

the biggest reason for me changing my mind is well idk if you guys remember but my grandpa had been suffering w/ numerous health problems since last december. from a severe heart attack & his triple bypass surgery to a massive tumor that was supposedly inoperable but they managed to get it out & then finally last month on the 5th when he had a massive stroke. unfortunately there was too much swelling in the brain & there was nothing the doctors could do so we took him back home where he passed away on the 7th. it was way too sudden & unexpected bc he had actually been doing really well after having the tumor removed & even his doctors were surprised & yeah. it was rough. i was and still am in a pretty bad place mentally. it’s taken some time to be ok with it & h onestly i’m still not lmao but i’m getting better each day. 

the rest of the family was able to be there thankfully when he passed but i wasn’t able to bc he passed away exactly five minutes after i had gotten out of class & was on the way home to get there after my sister texted me telling me to hurry.... which was my main fear & the reason i almost didn’t go to class in the first place but if i missed i would’ve been dropped from the class & my parents convinced me to go bc it’s something he would’ve wanted me to do. anyways it’s been really difficult for the whole family, especially my grandma when they had just celebrated their 58th anniversary the day before his stroke & he was a huge part of my life & i’ve been trying to deal with his loss as best as i can so that’s ultimately why i haven’t had the desire or strength to log on here to let you guys know until now.

anyways i just don’t feel like roleplaying is a priority for me nor is it a fun way for me to relax & enjoy myself anymore. it put too much stress on me & so although i really do miss you guys i think after about four years of roleplaying on tumblr ( or five years now idek anymore lmao it’s been too long ) i’m ready to move onto other things in my life. i truly do hope you are all doing well & life is good to you. i do love you guys a lot & i’m grateful to have had such an amazing experience and memories w/ you all. roleplaying alec was such a blast & even with the stress he was by far my favorite muse i’ve had the privilege of writing for. 

[skywalkerlesbian-archive]

you are tired, my love, of saving the whole world and forgetting to save yourself.

take care // s.m.b. (via shemystery)

[silverwilled-archive]

so i started watching the shannara chronicles finally & i’m almost done w/ it & i've been trying so hard not to want to make a new muse lmao.... i’m so busy right now with life tho & college is my biggest priority so i don’t think i really have time for roleplaying still but i hope you’re all doing well !! feel free to follow me on twitter as i’m usually there. 

[silverwilled-archive]

unholiiest replied to your post:little heads up i’ll most likely be remaking this...

i would make you a theme twin but you just dont love me enough

[silverwilled-archive]

little heads up i’ll most likely be remaking this blog sometime in the next couple of weeks.  not sure when precisely as i’m still pretty busy but yeah  !  i miss alec & writing here but the new blog will definitely be more private & selective just because i’m so busy with my personal life & won’t have nearly as much time to do a ton of threads as i used to.  anyways i do hope you’ve all been doing well  !!  you can still find me @ my twitter or personal if you need to get a hold of me until i finish the new blog  !!

[noblehell]

❛   you could’ve tried harder than that.   ❜   //   silverwilled ♥′d.

[silverwilled-archive]

❛  it’s not as easy as it looks,  you know.  ❜ 

[pencap]

warrior child, you carry such coldness in your veins war-torn child, you carry such loneliness in your bones war-born child, you carry such horror in your heart warrior child, you were born with legends breathing inside your name and history books waiting to trace your footsteps war-torn child, you know better than anyone how to cry in silence for things gone by and how to kill and kill without seeing their eyes war-born child, you were made to hold brawls between your knuckles and bury old friends and old memories between your ribs warrior child, I was once a warrior too I was born with bones made of gunmetal     and eyes made of muzzle flares     and a voice made of hissing bullets war-torn child, you and I are much the same I am older than you     but not by much     but not by enough you will soon be as old as I and we will both still be warrior children war-born child, you and I know too well     how this story will end     how this story always ends     how this story must forever end warrior child, do not fear it is they who should be afraid war-torn child, fear is what beats inside your heart in the place where life used to be  war-born child, there is nothing more frightening than a man who has torn his own self apart so burn your bridges, warrior child,     before someone else lights them up so freeze your heart, war-torn child,     before someone else leaves it cold so dig your grave, war-born child,     before someone else buries you

and if they ask—call it peace ( j.p. )

[silverwilled-archive]

alright i’m feeling super duper drained so i probably  won’t be on the dash a ton but go ahead  & consider this a new starter call.  i’ve dropped a good majority  of the things in my drafts/cleaned out  my inbox & really want to get back into the swing of things here  !!

[silverwilled-archive]

sorry i disappeared again.  internet has been a little wonky with storms passing us a few times this week.  so i’ve mostly been on twitter.  will try to work on drafts again this weekend  !!

[tranquilihty]

neck kissing is honestly the hottest, most seductive thing anybody could ever do to me. if you kiss my neck, if you playfully bite my neck, if your tongue touches my neck i will melt in your fingertips.

[unseenmockingjay]

i’ve hit a new milestone today so, like normal, heres another theme giveaway!  i’m still completely take back by how many of you put up with me and support me here on katniss, you all mean the world to me.  ❤ 2 people will win a new theme; including any extras like pop ups or w/e. likes and reblogs count. must be a roleplay blog. ends 13th august  ❤

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