Goodbye, tumblr.
Hey, everyone!
It's been a while since I've updated โ and, I'll have you know, that this will be the last time that I'll be updating.
From 20th August 2023 to 9th November 2024 I've been posting fanfictions: first, with Kรถnig; then, once with Ghost; finally, with Nikto. As of right now, I have 770 followers. At some point, I even had over 850.
First of all, thank you for these last seventeen months. Initially, I was a lurker here on tumblr. Aside from a single short, obscure fanfiction with Kรถnig, I didn't post much else โ that is, until @puff0o0 inspired me with her self-aware Kรถnig au.
My self-aware Kรถnig fanfiction exploded, and it remains my most popular post to this day. My other successes have been "Kรถnig mistakenly shooting you on the battlefield" and "Intimate Kรถnig headcanons". Another of my all-time most popular posts was "Zombie Apocalypse AU with Ghost" โ that one made a lot of you cry. I am not sorry. Thank you for sharing your emotions with me, because seeing your comments made me smile, and satisfied that my work was poignant enough to invoke so many tears in many of you.
Finally, for Nikto, my "General headcanons", "Flirtatious Reader x ...Dense? Nikto", "Obsessed! Nikto", "Fem! Reader Asking Nikto To Clasp Her Bra", and "Reader fussing over Nikto's injury" all were popular, and these posts in particular received a lot of feedback, comments, reblogs, and asks afterwards, which I am thankful for.
My decision to quit tumblr isn't impulsive โ I've been considering this ever since the AI craze was trending and the several times that COD drama was prevalent. Other reasons include the fact that I am bombarded with goddamn porn and NSFW content as soon as I open the app, wasting time scrolling absentmindedly when I could be more productive and accomplish something more, loss of interest in COD, loss of interest in posting publicly, a phobia of having my work copied and/or stolen, as well as my envy of other creators, which can write two paragraphs and receive thousands of notes, while I can pour my heart and soul into my stories, and receive a few hundred โ the last point in particular was the most discouraging.
While all of these are factors contributing to my choice to leave, there's one that's far simpler than any of them: I just don't feel like it anymore.
Truth be told, writing has been and always will be a hobby. This blog was initially a hobby which I indulged in, yet it overtime became a chore. Nowadays, posting has been less for pleasure and more to satisfy you guys, because I hate to deprive you of content when you follow me and have been loyal for so long.
That's not to say that I'm quitting writing! Not at all. I'll still be writing! Writing stories is still my passion, as is reading. I just won't be posting publicly anymore.
Thank you all for supporting me during my teen years. 16 was โ contrary to what pop culture would lead you to believe โ not sweet. I'll be 18 soon, and the interactions that I've had with you all have shaped my view of people, and I have received so many kind comments, personal messages, asks, and reblogs. And no, I am not 18. I was 15 when I made this blog. Writing has been my passion since I was 12, or so? Since I have nothing to lose, I might as well be honest with everyone now.
Now, the thank yous to my mutuals:
@puff0o0 โ was life a celebrity to me when I first started writing. ๐ฑ When you followed me back, I was so so happy! You were my best friend, and even if we've drifted apart, I still wish you all the best. ๐ซ๐๐ฉท๐โค๏ธ๐โจ
@m-carriaga2021 โ my first ever follower! ๐ฅณ๐๐
@best-soup โ someone who was kind when I first started out, which meant a lot to me. โค๏ธ๐๐ฉท
@lvl3r-002 โ my own No.1 fan?!! What an honour!!! ๐ฅน๐ฅน๐ฅน Thanks for your unconditional support and encouragement, Azzy. โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ
@muffinscoffee, @allaboutirem0, @simpforkonig, @dustycrusty09, @thestirringpot, @god-o-bees โ left comments which made me smile. โบ๏ธ๐๐๐
@nevadancitizen โ wrote a self-aware au fanfiction inspired by me?!! ๐ญ๐๐ Your reblogs were wonderful, too. The notes, comments, and even analysis that you added in the tags were really meaningful, and such feedback was so, so kind. ๐ฅน๐โจ
@aethelwyneleigh27 โ also like a celebrity to me. I was SHOOK when I found out that you were following me?!! ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐ Will forever remember our boop wars. ๐คญ๐ฉท๐ฝ๐ป๐พ
@dobbie-doo โ randomly started messaging me out of the blue on tumblr, and over-time, we became good friends. Thank you. ๐คโค๏ธ๐
@tomurderornottomurder โ I couldn't stop thinking about your reblog of my Zombie Apocalypse AU with Ghost for a week straight. I'd open tumblr just to reread the tags. ๐ฅน๐๐๐ฉท
@zoloftwithdrawalnausea โ an amazing artist. How I received the privilege of being mutuals with such a talented individual as yourself boggles the mind, honestly. ๐คฏ๐ฅ Wishing you all the best with all your studies, and maybe you'll one day meet your 100 Niktos goal! ๐ฅฐโค๏ธ๐๐๐ฉทโ๏ธ
@willthegrouch โ another exceptional artist. I have no fucking clue how I managed to become mutuals with someone who's painting digital masterpieces. ๐คฏ๐ฅ Good luck in your future, and all the best in your art. ๐ฉท๐
@dom-lly โ Again?!! Another brilliant artist?!! ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ When I got followed back I right about DIED. ๐ชฆ Your art for Jujutsu Kaisen is SO fucking GOOD (and that isn't selling it enough). I have never watched JJK but seeing your art occasionally pop up was wonderful. Your work is awesome. ๐๐๐๐
@unhingedpolycule โ amazing artist and witty writer. Love Love LOVEEE all of your content about Krueger x Nikto. Not only is your art stupendous, but your writing and ideas are clever, too. It was an honour to be your mutual. ๐ฉท๐ฉท๐ฉท
@goarristars โ you produce stunning artworks and I consider your rendition of Nikto's face as canon, full-stop. No one can tell me otherwise. ๐ฃ๏ธโผ๏ธ Your work is awesome, and I hope that you continue to pursue art, as you're really talented. ๐จโค๏ธ๐๐
Quiet lurkers include @marigoldpollen, @eevee-of-eternity, @miss-multi45, @bellaluvsmakarov, and @shroompette โ I noticed you, and thank you for being here! โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ
Thank you to @revnatheshadow for your support and kind words, @kawaiiexpertcowboy for sending me a message and telling me how much you liked the Ghost faction, and @honeyandbiscuitandtea-cafe for your spam โ unexpected, but extremely nice to see after having been absent for so long! โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ
@itsagrimm โ we've drifted apart, but it's for the best, since I was never sincere about my age to anyone, and not to you, either. Still, I will never forget our exchanges about Nikto and Metro that made us good friends for a while. Without meaning to, you taught me a lot about life, opened my eyes and made me less close-minded, offered me a ton of information I hadn't previously known, been strong support for me when things were rough with my parents, and have been kind, witty, clever, patient, interesting, and inspiring. Sure, you could say that you're ordinary and not extraordinary enough to be an inspiration, but you are to me. I'm actually studying Law now in college, and it's super interesting! I'm predicted to have an A*, and it's achievable! My dream is to study Russian alongside Spanish at university, and get a Modern Languages Degree. Thank you for everything โ I wish you all the best.
And thank you to all of my followers โ those that have been following me from the start, are still following me, were followers but unfollowed, and the recent ones.
Thank you everyone. For everything.
And goodbye.
