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You know how you are like stuck in a position where you literally have no more tears

Like you are sad but you are just even too mentally exhausted to cry?

Like do mothers cry?

Do they weep in silence ?

Do they keep things in and just get on with their days and routine and household chores because they just know that tears don’t really matter a lot ?

Like you can’t really tell your spouse about how you feel, because it feels invalidated even though you done so much and that you just feel too tired to talk about it, like what’s the point ?

Things are just as it is?

I just never thought I would be in this position.

I would never thought that I would keep tears to 3 and have them flowed in the shower cause that’s all I have to myself.

Like miley said,

I can buy myself flowers.

I can talk to myself for hours, and say things you don’t understand.

I can treat myself to good meal.

I can tell myself that I don’t have to wish a good holiday. But I truly just want to be happy about myself and for myself.

To know at the end of the day, I’m just enough for myself.

And I’m not responsible for others emotions

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I don’t remember what is the last time we both went to bed together.

When was the last time he hugged me.

When was the last time we talked about feelings.

Cause now I’m just trying to keep myself sane.

I stopped saying what I need because I wasn’t heard.

Every night I silently went to bed. Alone.

Crying in bed, wondering when will I ever be able to enjoy the intimacy of 2 in a relationship again.

I blamed him for being pregnant, I blamed myself for being pregnant. I hated that I can’t spend time with our firstborn.

I hated I have to worry more about finances because we have another one. I couldn’t look into the eye of my second child.

I laid in bed every night, tearing up because there was no other time and place I could do so. I could only cry in the shower.

I missed my single life so much.

Oh well, we can’t talk about feelings. I don’t want to get laughed at one day later, just because I needed love and attention.

How sad this has become.

I kept trying to shift the present to self care. But I just find myself being sad and disappointed. I just have no mood to do anything.

So I guessed this is the new normal. Going to bed alone. Daily.

Is this why I can’t fall asleep at night?

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