exploring humanity through fictional pain

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Blue's Writing: The Complete Masterlist

This is a masterlist with all of my works. Current or complete series are above the cut, and all my writing can additionally be found under the tag #blue writes. TWs are included in masterlists for generalized series tws, and at the top of a post for individual chapter tws.

Collector's Bounty: Jackson Hawthorne is the eldest son of a millionaire, and due to this, he’s the perfect target for Aris to kidnap— after a hit job gone wrong, he needs enough cash to clean up the mess. But when Jackson’s family refuses to pay the ransom, Aris decides on an even more lucrative idea: harvesting Jackson’s spare organs. And while he intended on returning his captive after reaping his profits, Aris changes his mind after discovering a secret that reveals an opportunity too great to pass up.

Low Profile: Hale Ellison, the disgraced son of a wealthy politician, finds himself in the hands of a mafia mercenary known as Viper. Tasked with gleaning information regarding one of Hale’s father’s associates, Viper seizes the opportunity to torment his new target. As Hale's captivity goes on, memories of his former life begin to resurface, unlocking more questions than answers with each passing moment.

Rock Bottom, A Moneymakers AU: A fanfiction of the Moneymakers series by @coldresolve. Renee Vaughn has hit rock bottom. He’s out of money, out of drugs, and out of luck. And with the law close behind him for what he did to Conrad DeWitt, he only has one option left: sell himself as a willing victim to another red room.

Unhinged Torture: A collection of standalone unhinged torture drabbles! These are more gorey and intense than my other writing so heed the content warnings.

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No Escape

BTHB: Impaled Palm

Alec and Raina (Complete): Alec, an artist and a masochist, is snatched off the streets by Raina, a possessive captor who will do almost anything to force Alec into becoming what she wants. But how long can Alec keep his complicated feelings around pain hidden from someone who wants nothing more to exploit them?

Series on Hiatus, Standalone Drabbles, and Trope Talks are under the cut

Series On Hiatus:

Betrayed: A hero, Dante, is betrayed by their team and left to the mercy of a villain, Ridley, who decides the hero could be useful. Inspired by a prompt from @some-messed-up-writing-for-you.

Left Behind: Zhen Veraldi is abandoned by their allies on the battlefield and captured by the enemy, damned to whatever fate awaits them at their hands. They fall into the custody of Major Sierra Castro, who is much too willing to break them how she sees fit. Merciless: Mateo is taken prisoner on an enemy ship after catching the attention of its captain. Pirate whump, intimate whump, enemies to lovers.

Betrayed: A hero, Dante, is betrayed by their team and left to the mercy of a villain, Ridley, who decides the hero could be useful. Inspired by a prompt from @some-messed-up-writing-for-you.

Standalones:

Yandere Whumper

BTHB: I'll Punish Your Friend for Your Failure

BTHB: Mind Control

BTHB: Forced to Hurt Someone (an Alec and Raina short)

BTHB: The Collector

A Whumpy Hero x Villain Request

Hero/Villain: Surrender

Surrender part 2

Hero x Villain: "Just be good for me"

Hero x Villain: "Bow Down in the Presence of Lethal"

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Trope Talks:

Intimate whumpers Trope Talk

Gagging Trope Talk

Kind restraints Trope Talk

Manhandling and Touch Starvation Trope Talk

Forced Affection Trope Talk

Trypanophobia (Fear of Needles) Trope Talk

[mini-wrants]

The thing that’s always missing from the “women didn’t fight for the right to work they were already working they fought to get paid” is that many women also very much wanted to work.

Women wanted to be lawyers and engineers and chemists. They wanted to use their brains in challenging and interesting ways. They wanted to get the satisfaction from solving problems and inventing new shit and getting attention for it.

I know not everyone is born with intellectual curiosity or drive or determination but some people are and many of those people are women.

[mini-wrants]

[mini-wrants]

Literally.

[lostinhistory]

Wake up babe, new octopus just dropped

He's such a little guy!

[raccoonmilf]

When I was in grade school I used to send emails to biologists and zoologists asking them questions to get answers to include in school projects I was working on, and would cry when they did not respond because I thought I was stupid for thinking that some random kid would ever be deserving of a response from someone who does something as smart and cool and important as *checks notes* studies frog fungus.

Now, at 29, I’m lowkey having a panic attack because my academic email is filled with middle schoolers wanting me to answer their questions about pygmy raccoons and I keep putting off answering them because I’m so overwhelmed with all the other raccoon stuff I have to do.

Anyway, greatest apologies to any scientist I ever emailed as a child and also an adult.

[raccoonmilf]

I know your research is really important and I appreciate all you are doing but this is so fucking funny

[rannithebitch-deactivated202312]

haha, hey you're a pretty cool person *picks up your speech patterns and non-verbal habits*

[b1rd1e]

tmi doesn't exist to me. I love information

[messedupdoggirl]

ONE OF THESE DAYS I WILL BE POSTING FROM SOMEONES BASEMENT #MANIFESTING

[messedupdoggirl]

Before you say they wouldnt let me have my phone i would be a very good captive and quickly earn the respect necessary to earn Tumblr privileges

[gentlyorbiting]

i'm the guy who writes the books that the protagonist in supernatural horror movies frantically reads somewhere in act ii. job's pretty easy. lot of "legends of vampires have recurred all throughout human history" and "demonologists agree that the quickest way to un-summon a demon is to trap it in a cursed object". no citations of course; they don't pay me citation money. i had to learn html back in the early aughts when everyone started seeking their supernatural info on websites they found via top search engines like FINDLER and WEBSIGHT but that's died down now which is great because i didn't have it in me to pick up css. currently working on a new book about horses that are evil. it's called HORSES THAT ARE EVIL in all caps so the protagonist can find it quickly to yank off the library shelf. it will be published 35 years ago.

[hansoeii]

doomed yaoi found me again

[tommeraasx]

Herman as Payton Adler in Sweetness 💖😮

[phleb0tomist]

he would not fucking say that, but with disability.. he would not fucking be able bodied. sick n tired of characters walking away from multiple life changing injuries without a scratch. let’s get some natural consequences in here.

give that knife/sword fight survivor nerve damage. give the character who was shot in the gut a stoma. give that fire survivor lung damage and an oxygen cannula. give that leg injury survivor a cane. give that starvation survivor gastroparesis. give that spinal injury survivor a manual chair or powerchair.

while we’re at it, give your characters congenital disabilities too, just because. give them intellectual and development disabilities. give them acquired and postviral illnesses. dare to make somebody bedbound. for me.

[whooooomp]

need That character absolutely delirious with fear. recoiling from everything. unable to parse what's happening around them, their mind stuck in fight or flight. shaking and hyperventilating. completely unconsolable even as they're wrapped in a crushing hug.

[throesofincreasingwonder]

Being asexual means not experiencing sexual attraction. Sex repulsion, in the context of asexuality, means being repulsed by the idea of yourself having sex. Things it's totally possible to do while being a sex-repulsed asexual:

Have a sex drive

Support other people's right to have sex

Support other people's rights to talk about and/or depict sex and sexuality

Engage with art explicitly depicting and/or discussing sex and sexuality

Create art that explicitly depicts and/or discusses sex and sexuality

Beat someone to death with your bare hands in the dead of night

Grapple with what you've done as lights flash in the distance

Dig a shallow grave

As you lay the last shovel-full of dirt, catch the glint of metal in the corner of your eye

Rush toward the gun, eyes wild and shovel forgotten

Grapple less figuratively, fighting to get the upper hand, clawing with teeth and dirt-covered bloody nails

Kill a second person with your bare hands

Experience romantic attraction

[dogpuppy]

[gayhockeyshow]

Hey…. Hey… Characters covered in blood, okay? You remember characters covered in blood?? You used to love characters covered in blood

[tj-crochets]

The quilted patchwork whale shark is complete!

I love how it turned out, it makes me want to make more patchwork plushies

The whale shark pattern is by @makeshiftwings30 and I used all 3.5” squares to make my quilted fabric if you want to make a quilted whale shark of your own

[despazito]

It's actually super unethical to keep a peeve as a pet