Tired

they/them cw: 185 :( ugw: 80 🩸21🩸

[sinandb0nes]

how to not be depressed as shit and live a normal life

[rott1ingbonep1le]

[sinandb0nes]

nothing more humbling and devastating than hearing from your doctor you have an "elevated bmi" and should consider exercising

[drowningggg]

i need to just rip out my whole stomach ive lost stomach privledges

[sinandb0nes]

hey, I haven't been on here in a long time.

I think I just need to scream into the void of the internet for a minute.

I hate how helpless I am. I hate feeling my stomach grow, the fat suffocating my bones, my entire essence being equated to how much I weigh. I want to hurt myself, to cvt, to drink myself into a coma. Why do I still feel this way? I'm almost 21 and yet I still feel the same way I felt about my body at 16. When will it go away? When will I finally be enough for myself? I fear I'm doomed to live my life constantly fighting myself.

I'm so tired.

[ana-fangirl]

No I dont have an ed, yes i bodycheck all the time, yes i restrict, yes i fast, yes i hate the feeling of food in my stomach, yes i feel the fat, yes i check the bmi of my gws even tho i already know it, yes i check the calories of stuff that arent even food, yes i think that if i smell or touch food the cals will seep into my body, yes I used laxatives, yes i made myself throw up, yes i sometimes do 20k-30k steps a day on purpose, yes I am afraid yet impatient of weighing myself next day, yes my body disgust me and i blame hating myself on being fat, yes I think all my problems will be solved when ill lose the weight, yes I isolate to focus on wl, yes I cried bc I had to eat, yet I also ate the whole fucking house in one sitting, yes I fake dirty plate or throw food to make it seem like I ate, yes I am mad when my parents tell me i need to eat cus i didnt eat today, yes I despise the "what did u eat today" question, yes I say no to any snacks my friends offer me, yes I omad, yes I have had these behavior for a couple of years, yes my parents tell me "You're gonna get obese if you don't pay attention to your weight" or makes comments on my body, yes im on edtwt, yes im on edblr BUT I DONT HAVE AN ED because I must fake it cus idk it just doesnt feel like I have one

[skynnilegend]

F@tspo❌❌❌❌❌❌

Looking at old pics of myself that trigger the crap out of me✅✅✅🤗😍😍🤭

[sinandb0nes]

while I do enjoy the rumble in my stomach coming back, I don't enjoy that I was financially forced to relapse 💀

[sinandb0nes]

I hate how my body has changed over the past year. Stretch marks where there used to be hip bones, fat where there used to be a silhouette. If I could turn back time, I'd never stop counting. Never stop caring so goddamn much because now I'm a whale and I can hardly look in the mirror.

Fuck.

[1riszer0cal]

It’s truly a wake up call when your baggy clothes aren’t baggy anymore

[alterlaura]

movies about ed not ed sheeren to watch to feel more motivated

[oroscake]

Repost to save a life

[annnapolis]

the hungry, hard working student

[sinandb0nes]

getting back on my shit because I canNOT look like this when summer rolls around

[yerimwl]

Even if you b1nged a hundred times, gained weight and your clothes no longer fit. DONT GIVE UP YOU CAN DO IT!!

[iriszeroc4l]

Who’s ready to lock in for 2025?! We’re gonna be unrecognizable.

[sinandb0nes]

Going feral bc I just registered for classes and I know this is what I need to get back on my ed shit. I'm practically giddy, I can't wait to see what I look like this summer 🤭

[sinandb0nes]

a moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips