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I write for Twisted Wonderland, Danganronpa, Steven Universe, OHSHC, Stardew Valley, and Ride The Cyclone!
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Fandoms- Twisted Wonderland, Danganronpa, Steven Universe, FRIENDS, Stardew Valley, OHSHC, and Ride The Cyclone. (More will probably be added soon ^^)
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Don't request anything too graphic or inappropriate.
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Have fun~
General info-
I do write yanderes. >:)
I don't have a limit on characters.
My posts are headcannons and short fics, though that might change in the future if I decide to make longer fics.
I am fine with writing gore and heavier topics, but I won't be too graphic on such things.
My grammar, spelling, and overall writing abilities aren't the best, but I am trying to improve! Please bear with me. ^^;
Constance try not to be the best character in RTC challenge - impossible !
Here’s some headcanons of everyone’s favorite Blackwood. :)
Even if she doesn’t like the title, she really is the sweetest girl around. She’s always checking up on you, complimenting you, and every other little thing that makes your heart melt.
Make no mistake though, while rare, she will tease you relentlessly on occasion! However, that’s only because she likes you so much and you’re the only person other than her family that she feels comfortable joking around like that with.
Every Halloween, you guys are dressing up in matching costumes, whether it be a couple costume or not. It’s honestly half the reason she loves the holiday, along with the fact that she just loves hanging out with you.
You will never go hungry around her! If she even gets the slightest inclination that you haven’t eaten yet or are in need of a snack, best believe she will either make or get you something pronto.
Anytime she’s in need of comfort or is just feeling anxious in general, she’ll squeeze your hand a little tighter, finding that it grounds her.
Constance is super supportive with anything you do really, almost to a scary degree… You can tell her you murdered somebody and she’s right with carrying some trash bags.
One of the few good habits she picked up from Ocean is that she is incredibly timely, and will make sure that you are too. She doesn’t care how long it takes, nor would she ever make you feel bad about it, but you will be getting to where ever you need to be if she has anything to say about it!
When you guys are watching a movie, she’ll often glance over at you to see if you’re enjoying yourself at all. It’s incredibly important to her that you are and that feeling is ramped up x100 when it’s a movie she loves.
You will have to stop her from taking stray cats home, which she will be incredibly upset about…
Surprisingly, Constance can get really competitive with most things even if she doesn’t necessarily realize it…
She is a professional cuddler and no, you can’t escape it.
She absolutely adores having sleepovers with you and if nobody objects, you guys would probably be having a sleepover every night. She loves playing with your hair, doing your makeup, watching movies, all of it.
Is she the best at school? No, but best believe she will try to help you with your homework in any way she can!
Constance has a really hard time asking for help…, she never wants to bother anyone, but especially you with her problems. Please tell her it’s okay to ask for help!! :’(
Her family absolutely adores you and she is both immensely grateful for that, but also constantly on guard… She just knows they are gonna start pulling out her baby photos or talk about all the embarrassing things she’s done as a kid, and that will be the day her body leaves her soul from embarrassment…
Constance try not to be the best character in RTC challenge - impossible !
Here’s some headcanons of everyone’s favorite Blackwood. :)
Even if she doesn’t like the title, she really is the sweetest girl around. She’s always checking up on you, complimenting you, and every other little thing that makes your heart melt.
Make no mistake though, while rare, she will tease you relentlessly on occasion! However, that’s only because she likes you so much and you’re the only person other than her family that she feels comfortable joking around like that with.
Every Halloween, you guys are dressing up in matching costumes, whether it be a couple costume or not. It’s honestly half the reason she loves the holiday, along with the fact that she just loves hanging out with you.
You will never go hungry around her! If she even gets the slightest inclination that you haven’t eaten yet or are in need of a snack, best believe she will either make or get you something pronto.
Anytime she’s in need of comfort or is just feeling anxious in general, she’ll squeeze your hand a little tighter, finding that it grounds her.
Constance is super supportive with anything you do really, almost to a scary degree… You can tell her you murdered somebody and she’s right with carrying some trash bags.
One of the few good habits she picked up from Ocean is that she is incredibly timely, and will make sure that you are too. She doesn’t care how long it takes, nor would she ever make you feel bad about it, but you will be getting to where ever you need to be if she has anything to say about it!
When you guys are watching a movie, she’ll often glance over at you to see if you’re enjoying yourself at all. It’s incredibly important to her that you are and that feeling is ramped up x100 when it’s a movie she loves.
You will have to stop her from taking stray cats home, which she will be incredibly upset about…
Surprisingly, Constance can get really competitive with most things even if she doesn’t necessarily realize it…
She is a professional cuddler and no, you can’t escape it.
She absolutely adores having sleepovers with you and if nobody objects, you guys would probably be having a sleepover every night. She loves playing with your hair, doing your makeup, watching movies, all of it.
Is she the best at school? No, but best believe she will try to help you with your homework in any way she can!
Constance has a really hard time asking for help…, she never wants to bother anyone, but especially you with her problems. Please tell her it’s okay to ask for help!! :’(
Her family absolutely adores you and she is both immensely grateful for that, but also constantly on guard… She just knows they are gonna start pulling out her baby photos or talk about all the embarrassing things she’s done as a kid, and that will be the day her body leaves her soul from embarrassment…
Okay RTC yandere choir with the popular male reader (sorry if this is specific request) Basically, he like by everybody and he is the captain of the football team and captain of the wrestling team im not sure that fits but something like that he plays sports and he smart most people think he is mean but his not he actually very kind except he in a bad crowd and bad friends and forced him to be bad His GIrlfriend is not so much she is actually worse and there is rumor about that she using the reader for popularity and there is lies about the reader and teacher rumor im curious ABOUT the choir react to this rumors specially the teacher and reader one (hope its make sense)
☁️Yandere Choir x Popular!Reader🌧️
⚠️WARNING: General Yandere content and geared towards a male reader!⚠️
I love me some oddly specific requests, or just like, specific requests in general. It helps me a lot to know exactly what a person is looking for in a request!
Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg:
It's no surprise to anyone that if there is any threat of competition for Ocean, the person she's competing with (most likely one-sidedly) will face the wrath of her extreme jealousy. If you ask her about it, she will, of course, just scoff and say she has nothing to be jealous about, rambling on "humbly" about her superiority, but it's from that mere action alone that everyone in a ten-mile radius can tell she is, in fact, jealous.
And with you being the epitome of everything she aspires to be (smart, popular, etc.), you have, of course, been the target of Ocean's jealousy for a long time now. Sure, you may not have noticed at the start, considering how friendly she seemed when you two interact (which doesn't happen often, as she tries to avoid you at every possible moment). Still, it quickly becomes apparent to you that she is, in fact, not your friend and that her fake niceties and compliments were teeming with jealousy.
So you both just kind of stay out of each other's way, Ocean, because of her jealousy, and you because you really didn't understand what she was jealous about...
However, this was also incredibly difficult since you both were in a lot of the same classes and, given you both were academically gifted, were forced into a lot of school projects together by your teachers and principal.
From minor projects like classroom projects to more major projects like organizing the school dance, you were lumped together pretty much 99% of the time, only being granted breaks if one of you had prior obligations.
Although this was far from the way Ocean would like for things to be, she does have to admit to herself that it's better than being stuck with any of the other kids at school; at least with you, she would have to deal with ignorant or hateful people.
You, on the other hand, were genuinely grateful for being lumped together with Ocean on so many things, despite her jealousy. Really, Ocean was leagues better than the people you are usually forced to hang around with...
So, it's only natural that you grow curious about the girl, being forced together at every opportunity the school sees fit, you had a lot of time to get to know her and who she is under her carefully crafted mask of arrogance. Underneath it all, you could see the ambitious, lonely girl Ocean was, which only made you all the more certain of one thing.
You had made up your mind that you were gonna try and befriend her, no matter how long it takes!
And boy, was this all a shock to Ocean...
To have someone she deemed a rival, who so often made her blood boil with your genuine kindness, smarts, and everything in between, be suddenly so keen on getting her to open up was certainly odd. You had tried to get her to open up before, to no avail, and she thought you would have given up by now, but nope, you were as determined as ever.
Your efforts started out small enough, continuously trying to steer the conversation in ways that would make her offer up any piece of information about herself to you, sitting with her at lunch or talking to her between classes, even finding some way for Father Markus to let you watch the choir's rehearsals just so you can find more opportunities to speak to the girl, etc.
Then came the small gifts, finding ways to hang out with her after school, even giving her a gift on her birthday, everyone could tell what your intention was by doing all these things.
And Ocean hated that it was working.
She hated that she was actually starting to consider you as a friend, that she thought about you more often, and that she was enjoying your company. Slowly but surely, she was no longer so intensely jealous of you, but rather, really appreciated your presence.
It was weird and new, but as she warmed up to you, showing you a softer, more vulnerable side to her personality, you were in no way disappointed with this result. You were glad to have a friend in Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg.
Everyone always thinks that Ocean is mean to you all the time, and sometimes she definitely is, but you know to never take any of her insults or jabs to heart, considering she really never means it and is simply falling into old habits, though she knows what lines are not meant to be crossed.
You both are definitely a power duo, literally gifted in every way, and it makes others incredibly jealous (like your girlfriend, for instance...)
There are quite a few times where Ocean gets a bit... possessive over you. You don't think it's anything to worry about, after all, she's only this way due to being pretty isolated for most of her life. You're sure that tendencies of emotional manipulation and moments of being all too quick to pull you away from others aren't a sign of anything bad to come; she's just protective!
Even Ocean herself doesn't know why she does these things..., she just feels like she has to keep you to herself or you're going to slip away from her, and despite not having been your friend for a long time, the idea of losing you makes her stomach drop, panic setting in.
You're better off with her anyway; the people at St. Cassian were just the worst.
Your popularity certainly wasn't making Ocean's anxieties any less awful, not when everyone wanted to be around you all the time, making her feel so small and insignificant in your social life.
It wasn't like Ocean herself wasn't popular, but she was not exactly popular in the ways you were popular.
In that, most people tended to hate her guts.
Your reputation wasn't anything wonderful either; it wasn't like your reputation was bad per se, but people were easily intimidated by you, and the people you often hung around with were great, too.
You two weren't doing amazing in the reputation department, let's just say that.
Ocean really likes having you come to her with your problems, a lot more than she ever thought she would... She can't exactly pinpoint why, but just having you need her, being your source of comfort, makes her far happier than it probably should.
She likes the control it gives her.
Falling in love (The Reader confesses that Ocean is the only one he really feels safe around)
And maybe she feels so happy because you didn't often come to her with your problems. When it comes to Ocean, you are a big preacher in her telling you everything she's feeling, to always be open and honest with you when she's having issues, but when it comes to yourself...
You're a hypocrite in that regard.
You hated to burden her with your problems, to worry her, but truth be told, she is far more worried when she notices something is up, but you won't tell her.
All Ocean really wants is to know what's on your mind, to be able to pick apart all the little expressions you make or your fidgets, so she can understand how you are feeling. It's tough for her; in actuality, she's never been one to really look out for others, much less dig into their psyche like this, but for you, she wants to try!
For the most part, she's able to do this without you noticing. She'll make subtle glances at you when you aren't looking, or she will try to push a bit harder when it comes to you opening up.
It's a difficult, but worthwhile task to get to understand you better.
Plus, she so often ends up staring at you anyway, it may as well be for a good reason.
But of course, her subtleties eventually started to be picked on by you. It's kind of a miracle you didn't notice sooner, since Ocean's version of "subtle" is far from the actual definition of it. It certainly freaked you out a bit before to just see Ocean staring at you from across the room, her brows knitted together like she was trying to uncover some secret of the universe, but when you put two and two together about why she's doing this, you couldn't help but feel both adoration and embarrassment due to her actions...
It was nice for her to look after you like this, but it wasn't so nice to know that she noticed something was wrong with you.
It scares you to wonder how much she's uncovered about the life you try to keep so hidden.
Has she heard the rumors? Did she notice the way you always grow nervous around your so-called friends? It was these questions and so many more that kept you up at night for days on end. How could they not after all? You hold Ocean in a really high regard, and to have her know what kind of people you surround yourself with...
Yeah, you needed to talk to her about this.
"It's stupid, but... you're honestly the only person I feel safe around, and I don't want to lose you."
Those words were something you had never said before, and something Ocean had never heard before either. However, they were genuine; you meant every word you said. You felt safe around Ocean; she was nothing like the people you usually hung out with, in the best way possible, and you knew that she was only ever looking out for you.
And you would have no idea how much those words meant to Ocean... Both in the way that it definitely gave her a power trip, but also, she realized something truly terrifying about herself.
She liked you.
Like, REALLY liked you.
It's that fact that whispers to the deepest darkest parts of her that she has to keep you, that you have to be hers no matter the cost.
And Ocean listens to it.
For the next few days after Ocean has this realization, girl cannot act normal around you for the life of her... It's almost like she's back to being irrevocably jealous of you, except this time it's not jealousy and there's no real malice behind her pointed words. She eventually manages to conceal her feelings better once she realizes that she's been acting off for the past couple of days, but it still leaves you with a lot of questions that you doubt you'll ever get answers to.
There's this weird thing that Ocean does when it comes to you guys spending time together outside of school, which is pretty much all the time, in that she always refuses to have you over at her house. It could be storming, or a freezing blizzard, and her house would be the closest, yet she'd still violently protest against it. She's just so embarrassed and ashamed of her home life that she'd rather die than let anyone, especially you, see it.
The plus side is, though, that she gets to be over at your house a lot more often than not, which is a big bonus for her.
When it comes to the crowd you surround yourself with, it's safe to say that Ocean is less than impressed with them...
Scratch that, she is so far from it that it makes her actually disgusted to see them.
And don't even get her started on your "girlfriend!" (It's in quotes because Ocean refuses to admit that snake ever gets to be near you.)
She doesn't understand how you could have even gotten into that situation, but don't worry, with Ocean being the boundlessly empathetic person she is, she is making sure you don't have to see those termites' faces ever again. They are gonna be staying away from you, whether she gets them expelled, arrested, or whatever she can do, she will.
Will this end up with you getting a little isolated? Sure, but all in all, this is just a win-win situation for Ocean.
Trust that Ocean is at every single game of yours that takes place and even does all she can to help out the various sports teams you're on just to see you smile.
Ocean is not the biggest fan of physical touch if it comes from anyone but you. You can touch her all you like; she is very much begging for you to just hold her hand at any opportunity, but everyone needs to stay out of her personal bubble.
If you ever did manage to go to her house, which is almost impossible considering how much she protests against it, she will have to deep clean her room with how much junk she has collected of yours over the time you've known each other. She refuses to throw any of it away, but she also would rather die than have you find out about how she kept that one apple you threw away three days ago that has your bite mark in it...
Ocean has never been one to really care about rumors; to her, they were just baseless conspiracies that were formed from others' jealousy. She had no reason to listen to them, especially the ones about her, which she was always having to adamantly deny to people.
However, when it comes to you, you're obviously a special case to her.
Ocean will not and does not tolerate any rumors about you. Maybe before she had grown so fond of you, she'd be a bit more willing to accept rumors about you due to her jealousy, but now she would never even think of committing such an act. She knows exactly where these rumors come from, too, it being from the very crowd you are always hanging around and that she loathes to her core...
Of course, they'd circulate these god-awful lies about you; you were kind, smart, athletic, and everything those "friends" of yours wish they could be. Ocean knows for a fact that all of these rumors, especially the one about you and your teacher (Which she was swift to shut down), are just a result of them realizing how beneath you they are.
Moral of the story, Ocean never believes a single rumor she hears about you and will, in fact, make sure to extinguish that fire before it starts. She definitely also uses these rumors, though, as more proof to you and herself that she is the only one who really gets you and isn't lying behind your back.
Noel Gruber:
If there was one thing in the world that Noel hates more than Ocean and Uranium, it would have to be P.E.
Now, you might think P.E. is a great opportunity to see some cute guys running around in gym shorts, but with Noel knowing how every guy in Uranium is (i.e., very homophobic), he would rather puke. Not to mention, he hates running, basketball, or literally any kind of physical activity. Sweating makes him feel disgusting, and the fatigue he gets afterwards is just not worth it in his opinion.
So with all that being said, it's not hard to imagine that his countless "doctor's notes" (notes that he got his mom to write for him) so he could skip gym weren't exactly making his grades the highest... In fact, they were plummeting by the day.
Well, to remedy this and get that bit of extra credit he needed to not miserably fail that class, he was told by the coach that he could be the water boy for the football team's next few football games... Yay.
As much as Noel dreaded it and was very quick to just skip the whole thing, Noel agreed to it, and he wasn't about to go back on his word if it meant he wouldn't have to worry about his mom scolding him for his grades.
It was on that next Friday night that Noel met a handful of awful people, but he also met you.
From the moment you introduced yourself, Noel could tell there was something different about you compared to all the other players.
Namely, the fact that you actually bothered to introduce yourself to him.
Now, Noel isn't stupid; he knew exactly who you were before you went ahead and introduced yourself. It's not like your popularity was giving you any favors in being mysterious. However, no matter some of the outlandish rumors he's heard about you, just from your first impression alone, he could tell those rumors were not all they were cracked up to be. Most popular kids in Uranium were jerks through and through, and he could just tell you weren't like that.
Now, he wasn't about to put down his guard all that quickly from your first impression alone; he's made that mistake too many times before, but it was that introduction coupled with how you consistently went to check up on him after each game he was at for the next couple of weeks that made him finally start to lower said guard. It was hard not to with how much you two got to talking after those games, getting to each other bit by bit. You were a lot kinder than those rumors had Noel believe.
Which is probably why Noel had started to grow a bit defensive over you.
It wasn't like he was being some knight in shining armor or some other cringy thing like that, but whenever Noel would pass by some people in the hallway or would hear people in his class speak badly about you, perpetuating that week's newest rumor about you..., he couldn't help but feel bad. He knows for a fact that you aren't like the disgusting things he's hearing, and it really is annoying that some people believe it all so easily, too.
Which is why, in his own way, he would try to shut down whatever rumors he was hearing about you.
It all would really depend on the situation, but his go-to method of shutting down these rumors is to either glare at the people talking or, if he's closer to the people who are talking about the rumors, then he'd try to find some way to change the subject.
Whatever way he decides to do it, he's gonna try his darnest to make sure these rumors die down at least a little bit. He wasn't expecting anything for this; he doesnt consider it some great deed in need of rewarding, but when his attempts to dispel the rumors had become noticed by you, you, of course, felt like you should pay him back in some way. He was doing it out of the kindness of his heart, you would just feel like a jerk not repaying him in any way you can!
So, in order for you to find out what it is exactly that Noel liked, you decided to hang around him more often.
And more often turned into pretty much all the time very quickly... As the days flew by, there were little to no moments when you were apart from one another. It wasn't a conscious decision on either of your parts, especially since Noel was a bit apprehensive about this change once he realized how often he was around you, but it just happened nonetheless.
You also did end up repaying him, not only just by being his friend (which Noel considers payment enough, however, you beg to differ), but by taking any and every chance to spoil him.
It was a weird change for Noel, but a needed one.
And he's definitely not letting you go now.
When it comes to nicknames, Noel's nickname for you in his phone is something poetic, leaning on the romantic side, like, "My muse." Yours, on the other hand, is more than likely something like, "Noel :)".
Noel has always had a sort of deep-seated grudge against popular kids for numerous reasons, and you wouldn't have been any exception if you hadn't proved yourself beyond their usual shallow deeds.
He's by no means a fan of your popularity, especially when it puts more of a spotlight on himself and tends to steal your attention, but he's learned to manage.
Noel hates going to any kind of school event, but he'll start going to them more often for you.
It's actually the most embarrassing thing in the world for him, but anytime you get too close to Noel, he lowkey starts to hyperventilate... (He wishes he could keep you like that all the time.)
I've already mentioned how he is not a fan of your popularity, but by far, the biggest reason for that, other than the reasons previously provided, is the friends you hang out with. He is not an avid shit talker, but he isn't afraid to shit talk your supposed "friends" right in front of your face, constantly going on about how much better you deserve. Trust him, if it were up to him, you would never be around those filthy individuals ever again... One day, he'll make that dream a reality.
Flat out, Noel would never believe any rumor about you, at least, not now after finding out what a sweetheart you actually are.
He may have been inclined to believe them before he actually met you, but now all he wants to do, and has been doing, is to take whoever is spouting such vile stuff about you and figuratively (sometimes literally) drill them into the ground. This is especially true when he happens to catch a few whispers about your "involvement" with a strict teacher at St. Cassian, the rumor disgusting him in ways he never knew possible.
(He did, however, make sure to investigate the rumor just in case the teacher was pressuring you into doing things you didn't want. He was beyond relieved when that wasn't the case.)
Noel really enjoys being able to put makeup on you. It's fun to experiment with what looks good on another person's face, other than his, and he gets to be close to you.
When he's done, and you've left the room to wash it off, he brushes his thumb against the bristles of the brush, languishing in knowing that he gets to share that very brush with you and that its bristles will, too, get to brush against his face later... It makes him disproportionately giddy.
Noel falling in love with you is less of an if and more of a when.
He was already so close to you in a number of ways, and the fluttering of his heart whenever he is near you is much too strong and everlasting to be coincidental.
No, he is very aware of what was about to come, and as scared of it as he was, the mere idea of being the one to be held in your arms was a thought he would never be able to describe in the countless poems he writes. Never will he be able to write the feeling it invokes in him, to somehow verbalize the way he feels his heart lights up like a Christmas tree whenever you are around.
It was like the more scared he was, the more terrified, the more tantalizing your love was to him.
However, it was not these thoughts that pushed him over the edge; it was not this revelation that had caused him to fall so deeply as he did. What had caused was something far cheesier than Noel likes to admit, something straight out of a romcom movie.
You are a smart guy, far smarter than a lot of people first assume when catching a glimpse at your physique and the numerous sports you play, and being the caring friend you were, you were more than happy to help out Noel when it came to studying, no matter the hour.
And you meant that.
Noel has never been the smartest in terms of math, English being more so his forte, and this, coupled with getting just an awful teacher in general this year, made him very lost on his multitude of missing assignments. He really had been trying for hours to complete the assignments that were scattered across his bedroom floor, all of which felt as if written in some foreign language that Noel couldn't, and didn't care, to understand. He really was just on the verge of giving up, resigning to fail the class and never deal with it again; however, in a last-ditch effort, he had made the decision to call you...
At one in the morning.
It was definitely a confusing call to be woken up to, mainly because being half-asleep deprived you of a lot of understanding of the situation, but Noel didn't even have to ask for you to mumble a tired, "I'll be right over."
You had gotten there, notebooks in hand, and you both had spent the next few hours dealing with equation after word problem. Nearing the end, it was about five in the morning, and you both were thoroughly worn out... practically on the edge of sleep, you gripped the last page of math problems.
Being as sleep-deprived as you both were at this point, it was hard to stay completely aware of your surroundings and still have the energy to care, which is what led to you leaning your head against Noel's shoulder, muttering out the steps to the problems of the worksheet in your hand, unaware of the wake-up call that had been to Noel.
Sure, you had been kind of touchy before, but this just felt different for the male. Suddenly feeling his heart start pounding, body stiffening as he wills every bone in his body not to move at this specific moment, Noel can feel the tips of his ears grow redder than roses... Can you blame him? He already was pretty fond of you, but to have you come over to help him with homework in the middle of the night while fighting off sleep with such an adorable expression was giving him heart palpitations. The closeness you shared was just the cherry on top!
So, as corny as it is and as much as Noel wished it could've been anything else, this was the moment Noel had fallen for you.
And it only spirals into something monstrously different from there.
Noel always overthinks every interaction you two have, wondering if the simple touches you share or the acts of kindness you show him mean as much to you as they do to him.
By extension, he also overthinks every interaction you have with OTHER people, to the point it either makes him extremely jealous or depressed...
He will literally get into any sports or activities you are in, even if he hates them, just so you guys have stuff you can do together. He would, of course, love it if you got into some of his hobbies too, but he would absolutely hate it if you hated any of them, so he kind of rather just not find out.
You guys go on a lot of late-night gas station or Taco Bell runs. (The Taco Bell one's in particular, you only go to because Noel has an employee discount.)
Noel was very hesitant to share anything about Monique with you, considering he had no idea how you'd take the risque character he so often loves to immerse himself in, but upon your having a rather neutral or positive reaction to her, he is way more open about her. If you ever ask, he would be ecstatic to share any updates on her, whether it be changes or additions to her tragic life.
Though lately he hasn't been too keen on hiding away in her life, for his reality was, for the first time ever, way more interesting...
He would never dream of hurting you..., but he also can't help himself from guilt-tripping you to drive you away from your "friends" and your "girlfriend."
Oh, how he absolutely LOATHES your "girlfriend."
He has written creepy, obsessive poems about you written in his own blood on more than one occasion...
Noel, for a fact, has picked it up from Ocean, but he is strangely good at deflection and making things seem like other people's (sometimes yours if need be) fault. He just knows that everyone around you is constantly manipulating you. Why would you ever want to spend time with them when you have him if that wasn't the case? It's disgusting, and it's a shame your naive kindness blinds you from seeing the truth.
Perhaps the most tragic thing of all is to love someone so deeply that it wrecks your being in every way imaginable, rooting that person into your soul so deeply that it's no longer your own, but rather theirs.
And fuck, if Noel isn't simply all yours, for loving you is the closest to tragedy he has ever felt.
Mischa Bachinski:
Something that people do not give Mischa a lot, or any, credit for is the fact that he is very aware of the people who go to St. Cassian and the kinds of activities that roam the supposedly "holy" halls.
And with you being with a more popular, infamous group of people, it's no surprise that Mischa had known of you since the moment he got there. The minute he hears of you and your "friends," he is fully aware of what assholes they are, and even if you aren't one, he has gotten into his fair share of fights with your "friends" and would rather just not associate with you.
He ignores your presence at every possible moment, no matter the situation, and despite your potential curiosity about the Ukrainian man, he really gives you nothing to work with... He'll leave the room if you happen to be in the same one as him (unless he is forced to be there), refuse to be in any group with you, block you on any social media platform he can find, etc., all in an attempt to stay away from you.
He was so sure that for however long he lived, he would at the very least never interact with you.
And then that statement came back like a boomerang to bite him in the ass.
Becoming Friends (He was forced near the reader because of Noel)
It all started with Noel making casual mentions of you, which definitely surprised Mischa at first, but he let it slide. He did tell Noel to be careful around you, but he also isn't the guy's mom; he knew that Noel was gonna do whatever he wanted to, and there was nothing Mischa could do to change that.
He did still try to change the topic when you were brought up, though, until that started not working with Noel practically talking about you all the time, much to the Ukrainian's dismay. From what he understood, the two of you were friends now and close ones at that.
It was like every conversation they had was about you, and that's not even the worst part!
Noel had even suggested he bring you along to their hangouts, something about how alike he and you were, which Mischa respectfully disagrees with. However, even with Mischa's constant refusal and downright disgust at the mere notion of it, Noel still somehow managed to convince him to go to the park with the two of you...
Look, he's only going because he really treasures Noel as a friend and wants to make sure he's safe with the likes of you!
And because Talia told him it would be a good idea for him to get out and make some friends.
Which he obviously doesn't plan to do.
...
That was the plan at least...
You and Noel had gotten to the park first, with Mischa showing up a little while later. He pretty much hadn't looked up from his phone the whole walk there, texting Talia about his worries and chastising himself for even going through with it in the first place. However, the moment he hears Noel's voice, snapping himself out of whatever doom spiral his mind was going down, his caramel eyes immediately lock into yours.
And maybe it's because he's never gotten a good look at you or something, but...
He doesn't think he's ever felt so speechless in his life.
Noel literally had to drag him over with Mischa's feet buried in the ground, his eyes still remaining on yours as conflicting feelings arose within him. Yet, even with this more than awkward first impression, you just smiled and introduced yourself like nothing was wrong, like this wasn't so wildly out of character for him.
Mischa swiftly had gotten his act together, finally severing eye contact as he stumbled out an introduction that Noel could only silently roll his eyes at. Although you initially did take him off guard, his walls were immediately built back up as his preconceived notions of you took hold again.
This was the most you two had ever spoken, and yet he'd still tried to minimize conversation with you to the best of his abilities, even with the side effect of that meaning just you and Noel were talking for most of the hangout. He spoke when spoken to, of course, but he'd never go out of his way to initiate it.
Until he was pretty much forced to walk you home.
By the end of the hangout, it had already gotten pretty late into the evening, and Noel, as much as he likes to pride himself on nonconforming or whatever, knew his mom would be pissed at him for staying out even later than he already had. This is all to say that he managed to rope Mischa into walking you home before promptly making his own way home (Why they all couldn't have gone together was beyond Mischa).
And you weren't planning on making this easy for him either. This was finally your chance to speak to the seemingly mysterious Ukrainian, and you were gonna take it! He couldn't get away from it either, not with it just being you two. So Mischa, despite what he believes are his best interests, starts to open up to you, which allows you to open up as well.
It was surprisingly nice. At first, the questions were just small things, like how Mischa knew Noel and what kinds of music he listened to (which did, in fact, send him on a whole passionate rant about rap music and his love for the genre), but it quickly evolved into you asking him about Ukraine and how Uranium had been treating him so far.
By the time he got you home, it was well past dark, and you've both found out a lot more than you've ever thought about each other. Mischa isn't afraid to admit when he's wrong, and that applies here as well. You really aren't all bad, and he kind of sees a part of himself in you, the fact that people are so quick to judge without knowing the real you.
He's ashamed to admit he's fallen into that same trap, judging you without really getting to know you. He can say he was just trying to protect himself all he wants, but he knows you had never shown him real harm and he shouldn't have been so adversed to you.
He makes sure to apologize for that and his behavior towards you, which you, of course, take in stride.
Exchanging numbers after that took no time, and soon you were off to your home, another friend made.
Mischa supposes he was speechless for a reason after all, huh?
With Mischa being your friend now and you two growing more comfortable with one another, Mischa isn't afraid at all to tease you relentlessly. Whether it be from your music to fashion taste, he is diabolical with it. It's all in good fun, though.
Yes, you will be forced to listen to his song drafts, and yes, you will like it.
Being your friend also means that Mischa is a lot more involved with your crowd than he used to be, or likes to be. He never interacts with them, of course, but he is for sure now even more on their radar than he used to be. (Which is saying a lot considering out of everyone at St. Cassian, he was the one they looked out for the most).
He really can't stand being near any of those people and is quick to tell you that you can do better than those losers. It really hurts to see you being forced into their gross schemes, especially with that awful girlfriend of yours.
He really fucking hates her.
Literally, don't be surprised at all if your old friends are picked off one by one by Mischa, dwindling their count down until none of them are messing with you anymore. He protects his friends, and even if some people may find it extreme, he isn't gonna let any of their greasy hands lay a finger on you, and that's a promise.
It, of course, disturbs you how fast all the problematic people in your life just... stop being around you, but with Mishca there to constantly fill that void, it's like you don't even have a second to breathe and think about them...
Well, all's well that ends well.
For a reason he doesn't understand, or refuses to, he always feels the constant, almost suffocating need to have physical contact with you, especially in front of other people.
Mischa is always at your house, like... always.
Being the good friend he is, he at least tries to get into a lot of your interests, even if they aren't necessarily appealing to him.
He's always down to help you practice for football or wrestling, no questions asked. He may not particularly enjoy it, but it's just another reason to hang out with you, and who's he to say no to that?
During those rare moments, one of your old friends tries to talk to you, or someone in general is stealing your attention away from him, Mischa tends to get a bit...
Well, a lot annoyed.
To the point that under his breath, he'll murmur some concerning things in Ukrainian that you, nor the person bothering you, can understand. This happens a lot more than you might think, and if you ever ask about it, he'll just brush it off or say he was just thinking aloud to himself.
When it comes to Talia and Mischa's involvement with her, you are quick to find out that they've been friends for a while now. They used to be involved romantically, but in the end, they decided it was better for them to just stay friends.
Talia, as Mischa's best friend, is ecstatic to have any chance to talk to you over the phone. She helps you learn some words in Ukrainian, tells you embarrassing stories of Mischa, etc.
Genuinely, she is super sweet to you and is glad that Mischa has made another friend in Uranium. (She can also see the interest he has in you from even beyond the screen, and she is loving it.)
Rumors aren't necessarily something Mischa pays a lot of attention to. He knows a few that are circulating around school, but it's pretty much impossible not to with how many are flung out into the air daily...
It had to take a lot of convincing for him to believe a rumor or two, and usually, it just goes in one ear and out the other. However, upon hearing any rumor about you, Mischa is quick to squash them. They're always just lies anyway, just spread by people who don't have anything better to do than hate on people who are different than them, so he has no reason to believe any of the filth that floods their mouths. If anything was happening, you'd tell him!
...
That's what he says to himself after making some Freshmen run off after trying to circulate some new rumor, a rumor that troubles him so.
Look, he knows you would never do what they are spouting about you; you wouldn't dare think about doing anything inappropriate with a teacher, much less actually do it. But Mischa cannot say the same about the teachers in St. Cassian; he has much less faith in them than he does in you.
He knows he shouldn't entertain the idea, he shouldn't give it a second thought, but it worries him. A lot.
And Mischa, not being one to keep quiet about something like this, decides the best thing to do is just... ask you. He doesn't make it a big deal; in fact, you might have missed the question if it were anything else, considering how out of the blue it was in your usual conversations.
You were walking home with Mischa, with you blabbering on like usual about whatever, and Mischa being uncharacteristically quiet. You'd try to engage him every once in a while, but even after he went back to his usual self, it would just die down again after a while.
The question was heavy on his tongue; it had been since you met up after school. Mischa had been trying to find an in to ask you about the rumor since you've started walking, but when would it ever be an appropriate time to ask something like that?
Feeling frustration boil up inside him, Mischa sighs internally at his hesitation and finally makes out the words, "If... a teacher was pushing you to do something bad, you would tell me, right?" It came out a little more jumbled than that, of course, pauses melting in between words as he tries to best translate what he's asking you in English without it sounding off.
You almost just said, "Of course I would tell you," before moving on to some other topic, but upon thinking about the odd question for a split second, you realize how not normal that is to ask someone... You worriedly ask where he heard that, to which he doesn't specify, but you know for a fact it's some rumor that your old friends are spreading about you. That really hasn't changed, even after you left their group, huh?
That aside, you make sure he knows for certain that you would never do that, nor let anyone do that kind of vile thing to you, much to Mischa's relief. Inwardly, he is pretty angry at himself for believing something like that. Really, how could someone as amazing as you do anything close to that? But what has his attention more so is just how worried he was for you when he heard that rumor, how this inexplicable dread just rose up inside him...
You were his friend, obviously, he would be worried because he cares about you, but that worry was far past the point of just a friendship. It was like the mere idea of you doing anything like that with someone else was soul-crushing, some world-ending event that sent him through a whirlwind of emotions.
Thankfully, the rumor wasn't true, but those feelings certainly were. For a while, he just let it stew in his head as you both made your way to your house, Mischa saying his goodbyes before turning and walking back to his foster parents' house.
Feeling the snow fall on his shoulders, a jacket you'd have given him upon realizing that Mischa didn't own any, resting on his form, a thought had made Mischa stop in his tracks...
He likes you.
He was so worried about you, because he likes you.
...
"блять"
It's truly ridiculous how much you are able to make him smile. You don't even have to do anything, and he'll just be grinning at you like you hung the stars in the sky just for him.
Mischa has a lot of private notes written about how much he loves you, all in Ukrainian, of course.
You're the only person he's able to get really vulnerable to, even more so than Talia, which is saying a lot.
You're his good luck charm!
He'd do anything for you, like, literally ANYTHING. Just name the thing, and he'll be more than happy to oblige. (Though he already goes out of his way to help you with everything, as well as getting rid of some less-than-pleasant people who try to stand in your way.)
He is always trying to coerce you to quit one of your various after-school activities so you can spend more time with him. It's not like he doesn't want you to be happy, but... thinking of you spending so much time with other guys just aggravates him to the extreme.
It's so cliche, but he genuinely stays awake at night thinking about you in some of the most obsessive and possessive ways possible...
He does not get any sleep, bro.
Mischa couldn't care less about that when it comes to you, though.
Ricky Potts:
Now, normally, you had very little reason to be going into the special education room at St. Cassian. At most, you occasionally bring papers there if a teacher had their hands full, but that was the full extent of your trips to the room. So, imagine your surprise being called down there one day, only to come face to face with some secretary and Ricky Potts of all people.
After the secretary gives you a quick, fleeting introduction to Ricky, she isn't shy about getting to the point of this impromptu meeting. She explains to you that, due to the nature of Ricky's disability and some other undisclosed reasons, the school was putting you in charge of "taking care" of Ricky, which immediately put a bad taste in your mouth...
Ricky was equally embarrassed with this outcome, as this was something he was fighting the school on for all the years he's been at St. Cassian, yet they always failed to actually listen to him. He wasn't even a year from being an adult, yet here the school staff is, treating him like he was a child. It was so unbelievably frustrating that it made his ears burn red.
Without much room to refuse or even question the woman about anything, she leaves the two of you in the room to talk before the last period of the day begins. There was an awkward silence for a moment, neither of you really wanting to acknowledge what had just happened, but being who you are, you eventually spoke up first. "...This wasn't your decision, was it?" Maybe that was an obvious statement; it was clear as day in the way his cheeks were red, and his brows furrowed, but there wasn't harm in asking.
Ricky merely gave a silent sigh, shaking his head; all he wanted to do right now was crawl into a hole and die. Defeatedly, he reaches for his AAC device and types out, "They never listen to me... I would say you can just leave, but the last time I ditched someone who was supposed to 'help me,' the staff got really mad, and I don't want to deal with another talk from my parents." He's been through this before, and as much as he wants to just go about his day, both of you had to keep up this charade for a while before the staff end up forgetting about it and leave him alone.
To that, you couldn't help but feel a bit more guilty. "Sorry, I would've tried harder to explain if I knew." Although you did try in the first place to get anything out of the woman who had just unleashed this upon you, you're sure that if you weren't in such visceral confusion, you could've done more. Ricky shrugs, "It's whatever, she wasn't gonna listen either way."
As Ricky was typing something else out, the bell rang out, signaling for everyone to start moving to their last period of the day. Not bothering to type anything out, rather, putting his AAC device away into the bag on his wheelchair, Ricky makes a gesture that reads as him saying, 'Let's go,' snapping you out of your thoughts and to the door.
Thus began your odd friendship with Ricky Potts and marks the day when he couldn't take his mind off of you...
After being introduced, your schedule had shifted to be far more accommodating to Ricky. You would walk with him to his classes, sit with him at lunch, and sit with him in any class you two shared. It was definitely somewhat awkward for the first couple of weeks, especially having to explain to your friends why you were suddenly spending so much time with Ricky in the first place, but that was only a fleeting feeling as you both became more and more acquainted. Really, once he got comfortable, Ricky was pretty funny and a nice person to be around. He got so passionate about space and this planet called Zolar that you couldn't help but grow invested in his interests, finding yourself delving into them as well.
This friendship you shared wasn't any different from any other one; you weren't his caretaker or anything, but someone who actually listened to Ricky and bantered with him, which he loved about you. Ricky's favorite part of the day quickly became just goofing off with you, especially since no one else really pays him any mind.
Even when you had spent a long enough period of time to where you could get away with ditching Ricky if you wanted to, you still stayed despite that.
You just enjoyed his company, and he did yours.
He doodles in your notebooks all the time, mostly without you knowing. It's mostly innocent doodles of cats and planets, but Ricky isn't immune to being a teenage boy and drawing some obscene things in there in spots he knows won't get you in trouble.
When it comes to the people you hang out with, Ricky can't ever really bring it in himself to tell you to ditch those losers. They are awful people, and he doesn't want you near them, but the way you are always defending them or blaming yourself for problems they caused makes it impossible to do so.
So, whenever possible, he does what's the next best thing in his mind and just tries to steer you away from them. After all, you spend so much time with him anyway now, surely you wouldn't mind Ricky taking up even more of your time. Plus, deep down, he enjoys knowing that you're picking him over them...
It just makes some dark part of him incredibly ecstatic.
Ricky rambles a lot to you about comic books and sci-fi movies, always coming up with theories or concepts for them. He's been pushing for you to get into it as well, but he also understands that it isn't for everyone.
But if you do get into those things, best believe you will be spending a lot of time at Ricky's house for movie nights and the like.
Ricky doesn't consider himself a very pushy person; he feels comfortable in that you will tell him your problems and whatnot when the time comes, but when there is a secret you're keeping from him, he can't help but grow a little very worried... Which tends to come out as him being pushy. However, he manages to do it in such a subtle way that you can't even tell he's being pushy until your secrets are already flooding out of your mouth without so much as a second thought.
He isn't one to be jealous, but can you blame him when he sees that awful girl hanging on your arm? How she grins with such a saccharine smile when you kiss her, or the way her voice rings out uncomfortably in the air like she's simply not made to be here... There are very few people who get on Ricky's nerves, but that girl is certainly one of them.
Something Ricky's always wanted to do, and would be immensely excited if you wanted to help him out with it, is to decorate his crutches. Whether it be with stickers or rinestones, he just thinks it would be a really fun activity for you two to do together, and he likes the idea of walking around with something you decorated for him!
Ricky can get really worried when you aren't with him, and he isn't exactly sure why. Maybe it's because of the crowd you hang out with, or because of some weird insecurity he has, but every time he's alone, he can't help but wonder and worry about what you might be doing in that moment.
And let's just say, he worries far more than he probably should...
As mentioned earlier, there is this small part of Ricky that really adores being your number one person. To have you pick him in a crowd of people, especially those you deem your "friends," gets him feeling disproportionately giddy. However, those moments of reassurance that you would pick him over your friends were few and far between, so Ricky never really got to dwell on the topic of why he felt this way, and he certainly didn't care to when not prompted.
But there was one moment that prompted him to do so, one moment that forever changed how Ricky viewed your relationship and by extension everything you were/did from there on out.
Now, at this point in your relationship with Ricky, your friends had gotten pretty fed up with you hanging around him all the time. Your girlfriend, in particular, would never stop whining about the fact that she feels like she barely sees you anymore. Being the people pleaser you were, you would try to cater to their needs by apologizing and saying that you would try to make more time for all of them. Ricky, on the other hand, was not a people pleaser and was certain that he would not let go of you without some kind of a fight. He was doing this for your own good after all, he couldn't have you hanging out with people who just step all over you all the time! You just... needed to see that he was clearly the better option.
Days went by of you trying to find some time to be away from Ricky, and with Ricky somehow managing to pull you back in. Whether it be from him asking for help with something or guilt-tripping (which he hated doing, but isn't above it), at the end of the day, you were still spending all your time with Ricky.
And that heavily aggravated your friends.
Eventually, they all decided that enough was enough, and during lunch, when you and Ricky were sitting together as had become normal these past couple of months, your girlfriend and friends had strolled right on up to you with glares and furrowed brows etched into their faces. Their verbal assault was almost immediate. The second you turned around, from questions, insults, and some slurs, you didn't get a moment to breathe as you were practically interrogated in the crowded cafeteria. Of course, they chose here, of all places, to do it; they knew how you hated confrontation and were sure that the shame of being verbally berated by the popular kids would be enough to reel you back to their side.
However, they also did not account for just how close you and Ricky had gotten these past couple of months. At this point, he was your closest friend and had made it clear as day that you deserve better than how they mistreat you.
And as any good friend would do, you stand up for him! As your ex-friends laugh and make fun of Ricky right to your face, you stand up and make sure to make it clear that their behavior is not gonna be tolerated anymore. It was definitely a scene out of some corny romcom movie, but a sweet one that had Ricky quite literally flabbergasted.
It's not that you disagreeing with them had been surprising, but the fact that you went out of your way to denounce these people who had been your friends forever and had been manipulating you to put up with their horrible treatment wasn't what Ricky had expected, not in the slightest. Maybe behind their backs, you would privately tell them off, but to say it to their faces...
Well, it just made Ricky feel really cared for in a way no one else has.
No one ever stands up for him, no one ever even acknowledges his existence, and he's so used to putting up a fight alone. But this just proves he doesn't have to do that anymore, you are right there with him like he's always longed for someone to be! Watching as your ex-friends walk away, Ricky can't stop his cheeks from warming up or a dopey grin from spreading on his lips... In need of a distraction, he quickly types out on his AAC device, "Wow, genuinely did not think you had it in you to be mean like that."
It was a light tease, but one that swept up your attention long enough for Ricky to not worry about you noticing just how fast his heart was racing, a thought planting itself in his mind like a virus he didn't want to stop...
He really likes you.
Ricky's favorite thing about you is by far is your smile; he finds it utterly captivating.
Literally anything you do means the world to him; he likes you that much. You could run him over a million times, and that would still be the highlight of his month.
Although he isn't particularly interested in sports, he'll let you ramble as much as you want about them to him. Best believe he will be going to all your games, too! He will literally not miss a single one, no matter how unimportant it is.
He'll never admit it because he finds it incredibly embarrassing, but he blushes a lot when you're around...
When it comes to any kind of rumor about you, Ricky ends up hearing a lot of them (especially after your breakup with your ex-friend group) due to people not realizing he's in earshot of whatever tea they're trying to spill.
He never once believes it and doesn't feel the need to get all worked up on it; however, he does try to do whatever he can to make whoever is gossiping near him notice his presence subtly so that he doesn't have to deal with hearing people badmouth you.
Ricky listens a lot more than you think he does, to the point he's acutely aware of everything that's going on in your life, even if you hadn't directly told him...
He's also literally somehow everywhere you go. No matter where you turn, Ricky is right around the corner and will rope you into being near him. The first few times this occurs, you chalk it up to pure coincidence, but after a while, it gets really concerning and suffocating...
He's well aware that he appears delusional when he thinks this (which he is), but in his mind, you are both basically together already. He treats your relationship like you both are a couple, shamelessly flirting with you (which you take as simple light-hearted teasing), wearing your sweatshirts he's stolen from you, making frequent physical contact, etc.
He tends to put you on a very high pedestal, as in, in his eyes, you can do no wrong.
Penny Lamb:
Knowing Ocean, of course there would be a point in time where she would ask you to come and see the choir practice. Well..., more like force you to since she was not taking no for an answer.
And you being the sweet (kind of a pushover) guy you were, you obviously agreed to go watch. That's what leads you to be in the choir room some rainy Tuesday, everyone but Ocean and Mischa were a little uncomfortable with your presence, but no one said a word of that to you directly. It wasn't like you were all too comfortable being there either considering you were just watching the group sing and Ocean talk over Father Marcus the entire... It wasn't all bad though, despite their mistakes, the choir wasn't unbearable to listen to.
In fact, there was one voice in particular that really stood out to you whilst listening. The voice was clearly a soprano, able to hit the higher notes that others would struggle with, but was stifled in the position of Soprano two. You may have not been all that musically trained, but even you could tell that wasn't exactly a comfortable range for it...
As the group starts to once again sing the song they have been stuck on for the past hour, you finally took the time to scan the crowd of them, trying to discern voices and find out just who exactly caught your ears.
You glance over Ocean, Noel, Mischa... It wasn't until you got onto the far corner of the bleachers that you saw her, the one who the voice you had been fixated on these past few minutes, standing off to the side, like she didn't quite fit in with the rest of the group.
Penny Lamb.
You didn't instantly recognize her, most people wouldn't, but her name did seem a bit familiar, ringing in your ears like a persistent bug as someone called out to her for a note. (The only time they've acknowledged her existence this entire rehearsal...) Besides that though, once your interest was caught on her, you just kind of had the urge to introduce yourself to her... Maybe that was the extrovert in you or the fact that you kind of just felt a little bad for her, but once rehearsals were over and everyone was chattering amongst themselves, you went up to the girl in the corner.
Penny silently packed up her bag, her foot subtly tapping on the ground in the rhythm of the song they just preformed. Slowly, as if trying not scare off a frightened deer, you walk up to her and clear you throat, announcing your presence.
"...Hello?"
"Hey, you're... Penny, right?"
"Yeah, uhm... that's my name."
A moment of silence passes between the two of you, the awkward air palpable, causing you to quickly apologize. "Sorry, I don't mean to drag this out or anything, I just wanted to say I think your voice is really pretty... Uh, which you already know and is probably the reason you're in choir, but still, I wanted to say it."
"Oh- Thank you, uhm..., I didn't know that?" It had taken her a minute to respond from the sheer shock of your compliment... She rarely was spoken to, much less said anything pleasant to, so this was the last she had expected to hear from you of all people. She was used to your friend group flat out ignoring her or bullying the hell out of her, so she wasn't sure how to take this...
Penny was almost sure this was some kind of joke that would backfire on her later, but there was this earnest look in your eyes that made her heavily doubt that. So really, what was the harm in letting you continue to speak to her?
Eventually, a routine between the two of you is formed. Before and after every rehearsal you're invited to, you make it a point to speak with Penny. It started off with just small talk before escalating into you walking her home and talking with her outside of rehearsals.
Of course though, as per Penny's biggest fears, your friend group weren't fans of how close you two were becoming. However, you were sure they wouldn't be happy with anything that has you thinking for yourself.
But did that stop you from finding any and every opportunity to talk to her? Definitely not, you may have a hard time so no to your friends, but you could also be as stubborn as a mule.
Before school, between classes, lunch, etc. You guys became friends in no time, her whimsical attitude about life always managing to bring a smile to your face. Penny was also beyond ecstatic at the development, finally being able to talk to someone who wasn't her brother... Plus, it certainly helped that you were quite cute.
You both 100% have friendship bracelets that you both wear all the time. Yours is green, like her eyes, and hers is the color of your eyes, beads of both your initials on the front.
When it comes to the rumors that surrounded you, Penny was never one to particularly care about them. She had always thought it would've been quite hypocritical if she did considering the rumors that had once surrounded her... Of course, they all worry her greatly, but she doesn't let that affect her friendship with you aside from her asking you every now and then if something someone said was true.
Now that you guys are close, Penny often begs you to come to her choir recitals and rehearsals with the reasoning that it was boring without you there. She will be, not so subtly, pouting if you have something on that day or simply can't make it.
Penny has a lot of intrusive thoughts and is often scared you'll leave her even if you convince her time and time again that you won't... She's just so used to being alone that she's truly convinced that one day you'll up and leave her.
She stares at you a lot, observing you as if you were an animal.
Ezra initially wasn't a fan of you, you both are pretty different and he was pretty on guard in the instance you try and hurt Penny. However, when he inevitably warms up to you, Ezra is basically as attached to your side as Penny is, acting like a younger brother to you, which Penny adores.
And of course, you end up meeting Tammy as well. You had already known Tammy due to your friend group, and she knew you as well, though you both weren't that well affiliated with each other since your friends found Tammy annoying. She, like Ezra, was a bit hesitant upon being introduced to you, but she was good at pushing that aside to be nice to you.
More than others, your popularity does actually bother Penny for the mere fact that she has some pretty heavy prejudice against popular people...
She isn't exactly wrong in her worries either, she knows how your friend group is, and she never wants you to be the receiving end of their torment. So, was it really that wrong of her to try and take up as much of your time as she could? She was just trying to protect you from not only them, but everyone else.
She gets incredibly jealous and insecure rather quickly, it just being part of her nature, though it always seemed to flare up at its worst when it was related to you.
It isn't all that hard to imagine then that it was your openness with her that made her fall for you. (Like she hadn't all already...)
It was nearing the end of the evening, you had gone over to her home like usual to just hang out and get some homework done. It wasn't supposed to be anything stressful or eventful, just a normal evening with one of your favorite friends, but that desire was quickly destroyed when you started to get some texts from your "friends."
You had been hanging out with Penny so much lately that they had felt you start to slip from their grasp little by little...
Of course they couldn't have that.
Not when you clearly "needed" them.
Hence why that evening, while you were trying to enjoy yourself and your time with Penny, text after text, call after call kept coming up on your phone from them.
The moment you dismissed the message or try to decline the call, another message or call would pop up even faster. It was really getting overwhelming for you, and despite your attempt to not let it show, Penny could tell almost immediately that something was wrong...
(She was also trying to ignore the burning jealousy in her gut that arose every time you looked at your phone.)
It wasn't until the end of the evening, about time you were gonna walk home, that you finally picked up the phone; they had successfully worn you down.
Their wasn't any silence at the start like one would suspect when first picking up the phone, that silence of recognition as the other person realizes you picked up the phone, no, instead, your ears were immediately inundated with yelling and accusations that caused you to flinch and pull your phone away from your ear in shock.
Penny was in the bathroom while you picked up the call, something you've waited for on purpose in hopes she wouldn't have to deal with the worry you know she would feel for you.
However, that of course didn't last very long as the call dragged on, you were unable to get a word in, and Penny eventually came back from the bathroom... As she walked through the door, a puzzled look morphing on her face as she looks to you and the phone, you couldn't keep listening to them without feeling even more humiliated than you already did.
You end the call, letting your phone carelessly land on the side of the bed you sat on while you stare the floor, determined to not look at Penny. You don't think you could do so without breaking down...
There was nothing but silence as Penny, unsure of what to do, slowly makes her way over to the bed, sitting on the edge of it next to you. She didn't say anything, she didn't have the words for it, but she move her hand to take in yours, giving it a small, comforting squeeze.
That was all it took for the words to start flooding out of your mouth like a waterfall, rushing as they almost blend together in your rant. You went on and on about how embarrassed you were, about all the horrible things they've done to you, questioning what to even do with yourself at this point... You got a lot of stuff off your chest.
Penny remained silent throughout it, just nodding along as she listened to every word. It may have been a bit crappy of her to think so, but she was incredibly relieved that you felt safe enough to talk to her about this stuff.
In fact, she loved it.
After you were done, it was Penny's turn to comfort you and share some her own struggles. Her past and the horrific bullying she endured, all of it.
You guys had bonded in a way you never had before, becoming somehow even closer. It really lifted a weight off your shoulders to just have someone there for you, someone who was you for the sole reason that she liked your company.
Penny wasn't like you, now, ex-friends, she genuinely cared for you.
She did, she knew it better than anyone.
After you went home, it had gotten way later than both of you had anticipated, Penny laid in her bed and stared at the ceiling unable to fall asleep. Her thoughts raced, all filled in with you like it usual was, except this time it was different...
She really wouldn't mind being more than a friend to you.
She wants to be more than a friend to you.
Penny has stolen a multitude of your hoodies and secretly is waiting for you to give her your letterman or jersey, like in corny romcom movie.
Penny is constantly writing about you in her diary, whether it be how much she loves you or just something funny she saw you do that day. It gets the point where she has a whole separate journal exclusive for her thoughts about you.
She isn't the biggest fan of physical contact, but for you, she'll make an effort!
Literally, any song she is listening to, she'll make up a music video in her head that star you two. It's a hobby she's kind of embarrassed of, but not enough to stop...
Penny has always been known as a very anxious, socially awkward girl. However, as time goes on she finds herself growing more and more confident, mainly in the way that she is in no way, shape, or form scared to threaten people when it comes to you.
Penny has this habit of trying to isolate you, both intentionally and unintentionally. Why would you go talk to other people when you have her? They're only going to hurt you.
She thinks about you a lot more than she likes to admit...
As in all the time.
Everywhere.
24/7.
Those journals that were mentioned earlier aren't just filled with writing either, no, Penny eventually picked up photography for obviously completely innocent reasons! She totally isn't following you around without your knowledge and taking tons of pictures of you, no!
Constance Blackwood:
Sometimes your friend group would have their moments of fun that distracted you from the glaring issues it had. Moments that made you question for the longest time if you were the problem and if you had just been imagining all of the horrific things they've done to not only you, but others...
Which is exactly what they wanted.
The wind softly breezes through your hair, snapping you away from your thoughts. It was a rather nice fall Sunday, around 3 in the afternoon, and you currently lagged a bit behind of your friend group as you all walked through the park. Laughing filled your ears, a warm feeling settling inside of you as things have been going oddly smooth this afternoon... No fighting, no pressure, nothing.
Which should've been the first sign that something was going to go wrong.
A bench comes into your view, one typical for your group to stop and hang out at every time you came to this park. Making your way over, a smile gracing your features as you joke back with your friends. A few teasing words were said here and there, rambling, banter, all of that good stuff. Then, as it starts to near around 5 PM, a bottle of alcohol gets taken out...
It was clear that everyone immediately was on board with this except you. You honestly didn't even think any of them were heavy enough drinkers to just do it on some random Sunday, especially in broad daylight! Your eyes flicker around as cups are passed around, one half-hazardly placed near you, and this pit in your gut starts to form. Taking the cup, you anxiously pushed it back into the middle of the picnic table, your smile turning unsure. "Nah, uh, I'm good..." You decline the drink, much to the immediate dissatisfaction of your friends. Questions were thrown towards you, some derogatory words, but most of all, the pressuring that always seemed to get to you for some reason, they just kept pushing...
"Come on, I'll be fun!"
"Yeah, just a few sips, it's not like you're gonna get wasted."
"Don't be such a letdown."
Those words and so many more kept getting pushed onto you despite your constant rejections. You may be persistent, but they were just as, if not worse, than you in that regard.
It got the point that you almost broke, like you always did, however, a voice rings out that stops you...
"H-Hey, can you give me some directions, please?"
You turn to look at the voice, sweet, yet anxious in nature, only to see it belongs to a girl in space buns. She was smiling, though it was one where you couldn't quite tell if she was actually happy or not. Glancing back between her and your friends, pausing, you nod and make your way over there, saying to your friends, "I'll be back!"
She was on the path a little ways away from the table, a basket in her hold. Once you got closer, her smile drops to a much smaller one, worried. "...Uhm, I figured you wanted to get out of there." You hadn't responded immediately, surprised she had even took notice, much less actually cared enough to help. However, that quickly made her apologize, "Sorry, I shouldn't have assumed anything, but I overheard them keep pressuring you, and I wasn't sure..."
Snapping out of your stupor, you shook your head vehemently. "No, no! You're fine, I just... didn't expect it? Thank you, really..." That calms her down a little, enough for her to introduce herself and you to do with her. You both stand there for a moment, silence taking over as you think over your next course of action. With your friends not-so-subtly staring you both down though, Constance asks, "Do you want to just walk me out of the park? I doubt they'd come after you if you looked like you were just showing me out." That was a good idea, one you readily agreed to as you both started to walk down the path and away from your, very confused, group of friends.
After her help, you felt at least a little indebted to Constance... After all, you know most people in Uranium would see a scene like that and simply ignore it.
So, after having exchanged numbers the previous Sunday, you had made it your mission to help her out in whatever ways you could! You carry her things to class, walk her home, and even help out at her bakery from time to time! Constance had initially tried to deny your help, hating to inconvenience you as she tried to explain that you were in no way indebted to her for something that was just the right thing to do. However, you were not taking any of that and continued to help her, even when it would've naturally came time for you to stop.
Over time, you started to learn more and more about one another. She learned about your after school activities and the things you like, you were introduced to her family and found about her love for romcoms. Before you both even knew it, you had become fast friends. Constance was your safe place away from your friends, and she really found herself enjoying your company as you saw her as more than just nice.
You guys always have movie nights and exclusively watch bad movies, no matter the occasion.
Constance rants a lot to you about Ocean, and is immensely glad she has another friend to do that with since Ocean really puts her through the wringer sometimes...
Everyone is pretty much an afterthought after you, you are always on the forefront of her mind.
If she can help it, you'll practically never see your friends again. Which was also almost everyone you knew...
It's not like it's not for good reason though—at least, that's what she tells herself—They are awful people who don't deserve to be around someone as great as you!
The exact same goes for your girlfriend as well. (She totally doesn't envy her at all-) Constance is not above subtly trying to push you to break up with her, it's for your own good after all.
One night you guys dyed strands of both of your hair together, you each choosing each others colors. Constance of course chose purple, and you did a color of your choosing. She ended up really loving it, even if her parents don't, lol.
Speaking of which, her family absolutely adores you. They treat you like another son and are always super accommodating to you.
Constance always tries to keep you at her house longer than you maybe should.
Constance doesn't consider herself to be a hopeless romantic by any means. She doesn't fall in love easily, her thoughts aren't filled with love, and she knows she can get by life just fine without being in a relationship...
All of that gets thrown out the window when it comes to you.
There was no reason for her to fall in love with you as quickly and easily as she did, in fact, she finds it quite embarrassing that you just managed to make her fall without even doing anything at all...
The only reason that really comes to mind is simple, something she never realized she craved so much in her life until you did it. You just..., understood her? That was the best way to describe it.
Constance has a hard time being true to herself and others about her emotions, having a habit of masking any kind of negative emotion into something positive, but even when she does that with you, you manage to see past her facade. You don't make her feel bad or cause a scene when she gets upset, you just do these little things to ground her. You'll hold her hand, try to distract her, whisper words of comfort in her ears...
And it works, it works to calm her down and help her through whatever struggle she's currently going through.
She hates it.
She hates that you know her so well, she hates that she finds herself vulnerable around you in a way she can't be with her family or best friend.
She hates that she loves you.
...
And she hates that she knows she's lying when she thinks that.
Constance almost gets nauseous at the thought of you..., in the best ways of course! She just can't handle the butterflies that ravage her stomach any time she even does so much as breathe near you.
Anytime she reads or watches anything in the romance genre she imagines both of you in the place of the main characters.
Constance rarely hears any rumors about you, mainly because she's friends with Ocean, but when she does, she can't help but feel awful...
She doesn't believe any of them—especially the teacher one which just makes her more concerned than anything that the teacher is doing something to you—but she does feel immensely bad that you have to deal with people spreading such lies about you...
She is constantly making sweets for you, all of which with lots of love to make them perfect and into what she knows you'd love. However, she will beat herself up over if they turn out badly.
Anytime you are close to her, her heart flutters rather violently.
Constance can't help but feel replaced when you're near someone else, no matter who that person is.
She is rather clingy, so much so that it's suffocating...
Constance uses her connection to Ocean to get rid of people who bother you (and of course your girlfriend.) It's not like she wants to do it, but she's pretty good at manipulating Ocean into believing that the person she wants gone deserves to be punished in some way, shape, or form.
She hates how intense her obsession is, but she also can't (won't) stop it.
A/N: Have you guys noticed that the "reader" part of the title is colored towards the gender I'm making them? Like, I always still put in the warning who it's geared to, but if you ever just wanna know without reading what audience it's geared to, it'll either be pink, blue, or purple, depending on what the request states. (I'll leave it alone, though, if there isn't any direct gender stated.)
You would think when these two happen to fall into a relationship that it would be a quick, heat of the moment thing, but their confession to one another was actually far from it... In actuality, it took them several years to admit their feelings for one another, even after everyone had moved on to do bigger things (i.e, after the show ended).
Joey and Phoebe, despite having been very fickle with relationships in the past, are very passionate lovers and fiercely loyal to one another.
Being friends before getting into a relationship definitely helped with that; they just get along so well already and have such a deep bond that labels transcend it.
Despite neither ever doing things in a conventional way and often disregarding tradition, they do have a pretty spectacular wedding and some kids; it's what really grounds them in their future.
However, it did take a while for them to marry or even decide if they wanted kids; they are both the type to just let things happen when they happen rather than plan their whole futures out. Joey wanted to advance his acting career, and Phoebe wanted the same with music, so they just ended up waiting a while.
Phoebe's favorite thing is to tease Joey at every opportunity, and I mean every opportunity. He's so easy to trick as well, constantly falling for her almost kisses and whatnot.
For what it's worth, Phoebe has always been the odd one out in almost every situation. Even in her own friend group, there are moments when she just isn't understood by everyone, but believe me when I say that Joey definitely does. They share the same brain cell, and as time passes, he understands her more and more, giving Phoebe a sense of comfort and belonging, something she hasn't had in a long time.
Joey really is the sweetest father and husband. Growing up around a lot of women helped prepare him for it. He is a girl dad, 100%!
Speaking of his sisters, at first, they weren't totally sold on Phoebe, but they were quick to learn to accept her. Phoebe manages to make quick friends of them all and honestly hangs out with them more than Joey does-
He is used to feeling like he has to be more than he is with most of the girls he used to date, but with Phoebe, it's so much different. He can just be himself around her, and she sticks with him through the best and worst parts of it.
Their home is incredibly mismatched in terms of style, but it also just manages to come together so nicely.
Yes, they have 3 cats, yes, they also want a dog, and yes, they will probably keep adopting more until they physically can't handle it.
They take turns cooking, usually alternating based on who's doing lunch or dinner. Joey is a much better cook than Phoebe is, but he will gladly eat the three meals she can cook any day of the week.
They do so much PDA, it's honestly kind of sickening-
Joey's favorite thing about Phoebe is her smile, and Phoebe's favorite thing about Joey is his eyes.
A/N: I miss FRIENDS, it's such a good show, and I just don't see people talk about it anymore. :'(
Also, when I first watched the series, I totally thought these two were gonna end up together, and I was shocked when Phoebe married Mike- I guess it would've too stereotypical or obvious, but they lowkey match each other's freak.
It's not her favorite holiday, but Sayaka does really like how easy it is to scare people on Halloween.
It's a really nice treat to see all the elaborate costumes people put so much time into. It's one of her favorite things to just look down at the city in her hotel room in awe at everyone's creativity.
Halloween is pretty much the one night a year she and her managers let her eat a few pieces of candy. She tries not to overdo it, though.
Leon Kuwata:
Costume- Ghostface
Halloween is 100% Leon's favorite holiday. He gets to go out and party, meet cute girls, and even has an excuse to drink a little. What more could he ask for?
He's a bit of a tryhard when it comes to Halloween costumes, but more so in that he refuses to wear something that isn't scary or has come from some kind of Halloween movie and will silently judge anyone who isn't doing those two things.
His favorite candy is definitely licorice.
Chihiro Fujisaki:
Costume- Tails
Chihiro doesn't really celebrate Halloween; it's not really for any particular reason, he's just never felt especially compelled to do so.
He also hates how most Halloween costumes look on him, which definitely doesn't help.
The only thing that really gets him in the spirit is horror movies, which he secretly loves.
Mondo Owada:
Costume- Luigi
He and Kiyotaka had discussed matching costumes for months before completely forgetting about it and having to find some at the last minute. Safe to say, he is not really a fan.
He absolutely hates the crowds during Halloween, it makes it hell to get anywhere in the city...
He absolutely loves Halloween decor, mainly the giant animatronics.
Kiyotaka Ishimaru:
Costume- Mario
He actually does not care about what costume he wears at all, just as long as he is matching with his bro.
Kiyotaka doesn't really care for holidays in general, but Halloween is definitely one of the worst in terms of that he is policing everyone about safe drinking practices and whatnot all day.
He can not handle horror at all... He will try and play it cool when it comes to watching horror movies and stuff, but underneath that, he is shaking in his boots.
Hifumi Yamada:
Costume- Princess Piggles
Did you really think he'd dress up as anything other than his beloved Princess Piggles? He literally does it every year.
Hifumi has a love-hate relationship with Halloween, because on one hand, he loves the Halloween candy and the whole aesthetic of it all, on the other, he is also the type to ask any person who's wearing an anime costume to name 5 facts about the character.
Hifumi likes pretty much all kinds of candy, but his favorites tend to be chocolate.
Celeste Ludenberg:
Costume- Elvira
Celeste loves the aesthetic of Halloween way more than the actual holiday. It perfectly aligns with her style, and even if she's always found horror to be boring and predictable, she does enjoy the general stories of it.
Her favorite show to watch during this time is The Twilight Zone.
Best believe she's using her costume as an advantage in gambling; she knows she's pretty, and she will use it to win big.
Sakura Ogami:
Costume- Luisa Madrigal
Sakura hates flashy costumes, like, they are the bane of her existence... She'd much rather be comfortable than deal with itchy fabrics or tight-fitted clothing.
Pretty much the only thing she likes to do for Halloween is to give candy to the local kids in her area. It's a more Western thing to do, but she likes to see their faces light up.
Yes, she will hold your drink at a Halloween party, and no, you do not have to worry in the slightest. The drink will stay protected without a single drop spilling out of it, and honestly, she'd probably get you a refill too.
Makoto Naegi:
Costume- John Watson
The matching costumes with Kyoko were his sister's idea and required a lot of convincing for Kyoko to even consider it.
He's actually so indecisive when it comes to Halloween costumes, he cannot pick one for the life of him...
Some of his fondest memories are actually ones of him and his sister watching the little parades that his town would throw during Halloween.
Kyoko Kirigiri:
Costume- Sherlock Holmes
She was forced into this costume by Makoto, but she also isn't complaining.
Literally, nothing scares her at all. It's incredibly hard to catch her off her guard, and even if you did, she doesn't give much of a response to it.
She's very much a sour candy fan.
Byakuya Togami:
Costume- Vampire
Rest assured, if he had the choice, he wouldn't have dressed up at all. He, in fact, did choose one of the most basic costumes on purpose.
Byakuya actually despises Halloween, legitimately thinks it's the worst holiday out of the bunch. The aesthetic isn't appealing to him, he's not a fan of candy, and he just sees the whole thing as another holiday for corporations to profit off of.
It's really hard to tell, but if he does manage to get roped into watching a horror movie, he actually flinches a little during the jump scares.
Aoi Asahina:
Costume- Moana
Purely chose this costume because she thought it was ironic.
She both despises and understands people who give out healthy Halloween candy; however, she will not be doing that.
She was always a part of the parades in her town and would pretty much run them with how much she took excitedly took over.
Yasuhiro Hagakure:
Costume- Shaggy Rogers
He somehow accidentally mixed up the date of Halloween and dressed up the day before and after before being told he was wrong...
He's really into the more Western traditions of Halloween and loves to give out candy to kids while also scaring the hell out of them.
Yasuhiro would host a horror marathon with some of the guys, but would also manage to be the most freaked out of all of them.
Toko Fukawa:
Costume- Velma Dinkley
She was trying to match with Byakuya, but he absolutely refused to let that happen, so she ended up just trying to pick something similar. Once she found out that she was matched with Yasuhiro, though, she took off the costume almost immediately-
Toko hates Halloween, like, capital H hates. She cannot stand the blood, the gore, or pretty much any of the scary stuff; not so much because it terrifies her, but because it's literally just bait for Syo to come out...
She does adore dressing up, though, it's pretty much the only part she participates in and likes.
Junko Enoshima:
Costume- Harley Quinn
Oh, Halloween is prime time for Junko to fuck with everybody, both lethally and non-lethally.
She cannot choose one costume for the life of her; she changes to a different one pretty much every 15 minutes.
Junko is, in fact, at every single Halloween party, and she is, in fact, getting wasted at all of them.
Mukuro Ikusba:
Costume- Mary Poppins
She really just picked a random costume and called it a day, something that was mostly practical, but also something Junko would wear.
Mukuro doesn't really participate in Halloween... There's nothing wrong with it, but none of the scary stuff actually gets to her, and she just isn't the biggest fan of dressing up or eating candy.
However, out of every candy, Spree's are probably her favorite.
A/N: I'm not even gonna lie, Halloween posts or posts of this type are probably my favorite things to make. I love making these kinds of random headcannons that I probably won't ever think about again, lmao.
Started as a one-sided rivalry on Renge's side before slowly, but surely, dipping into lovers. (So technically Tamaki's plan didn't fail, it just... went a little too well.)
Renge is always very eager to learn about the commoner lifestyle, which means she tags around Haruhi a lot while also asking a ton of stupid questions.
Haruhi doesn't totally mind, though; in fact, she finds it kind of cute. (Though, there are a lot of times Renge's questions just receive a deadpan stare from Haruhi-)
In return for Renge learning such information, Renge has taken up teaching Haruhi about her own wealthy lifestyle. Does Haruhi learn anything useful from this? Nope. Does she have a lot of fun goofing around and acting like a pompous rich lady? Yep.
Renge always goes above and beyond for Haruhi, even if Haruhi really couldn't care less about whatever expensive gifts Renge gets her.
It takes a while for Renge to chill on her extremeities, and she still does it from time to time, but once she manages to settle down, she's learned to appreciate simple handmade gifts a lot more.
Haruhi really enjoys Renge's company, which may be because she's the only other girl in the host club, but also because she finds the girl's personality to be truly enthralling.
Renge is just so honestly charming compared to the rest of the host club that it was only natural for Haruhi to take special notice of her.
And of course, eventually fall for her!
Haruhi fell first, Renge fell harder.
100%, either Renge confesses her feelings first, or someone else in the host club ruins it and accidentally reveals that either Renge or Haruhi has feelings for the other. It's a canon event, I fear.
(It would probably be Tamaki too, since I just know he was both flabbergasted by their feelings for one another and also slightly jealous.)
(He got over it, don't worry.)
They have very Nana x Hachi energy, if you know, you know.
Renge will be making Haruhi play Uki Doki Memorial and will, in fact, be commenting on everything. Considering she is no longer completely obsessed with Miyabi as well, she will be sprinkling a few insults about him here and there.
They both have a ton of sleepovers that are usually at Haruhi's place, mainly because Renge wants to "experience" the commoner lifestyle and also because she just finds Haruhi's home cozier than her own.
Ranka absolutely adores Renge once he's warmed up to her extravagant personality.
Bro is, in fact, thrilled to have two daughters.
Surprisingly or maybe not so surprisingly, they share pretty similar music tastes.
Renge definitely cosplays, like, no doubt about it, and I can totally see her dragging Haruhi along with her to cons and even getting her to cosplay as well. Renge thinks she's being sneaky by making them cosplay lots of couple characters, but Haruhi sees right through her.
Haruhi wouldn't say anything, though, because she actually really enjoys it.
Renge may be more of the jealous type, but when Haruhi gets truly jealous, it's very noticeable (especially since it's so rare.) Look, she can only take so much when people flirt with her girlfriend, and all she wants is to get away from that situation as quickly as possible, which might make her a bit snappy...
A/N: They're so silly! :D
Also, my requests are back open! I can't guarantee I'll be able to finish all of them quickly, but I will do my best. (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ‹𝟹
Sorry if im bothering, but can i request yan choir with the most forgettable girl in town reader? She is best friends with Penny and they became friends and bonded over being the school pushing bag and just being forgettable? And Penny is basically the reason Reader joined the choir? (And the rest doesn't really like this cause reader just clingies and follows Penny, and sometimes Tammy and Ezra around)
Thanks in advance, i really like your writing! <33
☁️Yandere Choir x Forgettable!Reader🌧️
⚠️WARNING: General Yandere content, geared towards a fem reader, and has references to self-harm at the end of Mischa's part (But like, in a yandere way if that makes any sense)!⚠️
Btw, before this post starts, just know that you guys are never bothering me with requests or anything of the like. I enjoy writing them, and I wouldn't do it if I didn't! I know I'm kind of slow when it comes to finishing these up, but I promise I adore every single request I get. :)
Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg:
Have you ever met Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg? Of course, you have; it's hard to forget such a meeting with how unique the girl is. However, if you asked Ocean if she's ever met you before, her answer would be... no.
Even though you have introduced yourself to her on multiple occasions.
Some of those introductions should've left a lasting impression on her.
But they didn't...
For some reason, no matter how many times you introduce yourself to Ocean or try to jog her memory of your previous meetings, she can never seem to remember that she had met you before. Like, she remembers what events led up to it and what happened after, but the part where you come in is a blur for her, which did admittedly suck, but you got used to it rather quickly.
Seriously, the only people who seemed not to actively forget you existed were Penny, Ezra, and Tammy, and you can still tell when it takes them a few minutes to remember who you are. It was quite literally a cure, but one you had to deal with your whole life.
At least it gave you the choice to skip out on things you didn't want to do, like tests and your more boring classes, and you would skip out on choir if it weren't for the fact that Penny eventually would notice your absence, commencing her nagging. She's the only reason you go, despite being practically invisible to everyone else there.
Well, it seemed to be everyone else except Father Markus.
Usually, Father Markus was no exception to the "people always forget about you" rule, as he would often forget about you and leave your part out of the choir. That's not to say he forgets about you all the time; believe it or not, he does try to make an effort to include the best he can. That's why he made sure to remind himself plenty of times that day to give you your first-ever solo! Much to Ocean's dismay.
You honestly weren't too sure how good you would be at this, especially considering how you rarely get a chance to sing in the first place, but Father Markus was not having it and insisted that you keep the role. That didn't exactly fix your concerns, but it did mean one thing... that you would actually need to start practicing.
So, you started getting up a lot earlier than you usually do, walking to school, going to the choir room, and singing your heart out with the comfort of knowing no one was there yet to hear you. It was definitely rough at the start, mainly because having to get up so much earlier was actually hell on Earth for you, but it eventually started becoming routine, and dare you say that you were actually improving a bit! Sure, maybe this was going a bit overboard, but considering how often you were left out of the choir, you were pretty rusty... Not to mention you didn't want to let Father Markus down, the one time he gave you a big role!
Plus, you think you might die if you go up there and start sounding like a dying cat as you sing...
Following along with your routine that has become so natural to you, you walk into the cold, empty choir room, ready to start some vocal warm-ups. The next choir performance was in about a week from now, meaning that it had been officially 3 weeks since you'd started this routine of yours, and little did you know that it didn't go unnoticed.
Ocean has started to notice that someone's been in the choir room before even she or Father Markus gets there... It started small, with just some things moved around, but then she found pieces of sheet music with markings that she knew weren't hers or anyone she was familiar with. Then she found a few other miscellaneous objects like pencils, hair ties, etc. It was starting to get really weird. She was always the first one to get there, aside from occasionally Father Markus, but none of the writing on the sheet music matched him, so that couldn't be it. Constance didn't come to school till later, same with Ricky, Penny usually was later than that, and she could forget about Mischa and Noel coming in early for a change, so who was it?
Seeing the door swing closed right as she turned the corner, Ocean knew that this mystery person had just entered the choir room. She had gotten here a bit earlier than normal in hopes of catching them because she swears if some random person was using the room without Father Markus's permission, she's gonna have to give them a stern talking-to! Ocean hurriedly runs up to the choir room door, hand already on the handle as she gets ready to interrogate the poor person in there before pausing...
Beyond the door, she hears something... well, someone. Her ears are inundated with a rather pretty voice she swears she's heard before, but can't quite place. They are even singing a part she knows very well, the solo Father Markus had given to- ...Someone, she can't seem to remember, but it wasn't her.
The situation just kept getting weirder... Who has their sheet music, and why is this voice so familiar to her? That question stayed ripe on her mind as she just stood there, ear to the door, listening to the voice. She didn't stop until she was made to by the door quickly opening, making the ginger let out a squeak as her eyes latch on to your form peering at her from behind the door, eyes wide.
...
Was she listening to you?
You didn't get a lot of time to question it before Ocean awkwardly started to scold you, "So you were the one leaving things in the choir room! W-Well, uh...." Ocean's words come to a stop, like she's trying to remember something but just can't seem to think of it. Luckily for her, though, you knew exactly what was missing from that sentence, "Y/n. It's Y/n."
"Of course, I knew that. As I was saying, you can't just leave things in there for others to pick up, especially when you aren't even in the choir yourself-"
"I am in the choir..."
"...T-That's still no excuse."
If Ocean wasn't busy scolding you, she's sure the embarrassment from totally forgetting you and basically telling you right to your face would creep in faster than she could count. She was never this awkward, but she supposed that was because she was literally making a fool out of herself here.
Or because she can't believe she's never noticed how pretty your voice was before, even when you are just speaking to her.
Eventually, Father Markus got there, and Ocean stopped scolding you, but that wasn't the most important thing here. See, Ocean, for whatever reason, actually now remembers you. Whether it was because of your voice or because she's actively trying to remember you for the sake of not being embarrassed again, Ocean doesn't even know, but god, was it jarring for her to actually acknowledge your presence during rehearsals...
Ocean was actually going to remember you whether you liked it or not.
The more the redhead actually notices you, the more she also realizes that no one else does. It's almost uncanny how everyone always manages to skip over you for everything..., so much so that you have to go out of your way for everything to make your presence actively known.
Ocean trying to befriend you is a lot less like her talking to you gradually and building up a friendship, and more like her forcefully putting herself into your life without you realizing. Suddenly, she sits next to you in every class you share. She's making you eat lunch with her and the rest of the choir, and she's helping you with homework, etc. It was so quick and absurd that you couldn't even catch how quickly she became a part of your newly made friend group. You guess you don't mind since it is nice to actually have someone see you for a change, but it was just so quick.
Because you're so often forgotten, you will likely end up missing a lot of the classwork teachers give out since..., you know, they forgot you. With Ocean around, trust that this will not be an issue anymore because she will make sure you get your classwork handed to you and will make sure you're included in everything, which is sweet but also a little awkward since now you have to deal with actually being included in activities and things.
This also goes for being the school's punching bag, except Ocean doesn't even really have to threaten anyone here because they know the kind of hell they'll be put through by messing with you since you and Ocean are friends now. And trust me, no one wants to deal with the kind of punishment Ocean has intended.
So, you know how clingy you can be with Penny? Well, Ocean is a lot like that with you, but also so much worse! I already mentioned how she is pretty much around you all the time in school, but slowly but surely, she starts to intrude on your home life too... You cannot get rid of her.
Ocean has a notebook where she writes down everything she knows about you, like your favorite foods, movies you hate, what your birthstone is- all of it. (A good chunk of things in there you haven't even told her...)
She has this habit of always having a hand on you, either hand-holding or having a hand on your shoulder, whatever it is, she usually is touching you in some form or fashion. The reason for this is that it kind of acts like a safety net in case she does somehow forget you're there, which she does sometimes because, as much as she tries to deny it, Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg is not perfect. Once she remembers you're there, though, she'll give you a small squeeze and will probably give herself hell inside her own head for forgetting.
She will be pushing your comfort zone; no ifs, ands, or buts about it, it's happening. She is literally always bringing you with her to do "enrichment activities," which is just her taking you everywhere with her while she does errands her parents won't do.
Ocean's life has always been about grades; it's honestly all she's ever known. Her life has been a constant spiral of studying and trying to be the best in every possible way, almost like some kind of game where she just keeps grinding and grinding to get to the top, to be the best, to be better than the small, crappy town she's grown up in. She's never had many friends; the only person she's ever considered a friend was Constance, but she knows she's never treated Constance the way friends should. In a way, then, she guesses she's never had any friends.
Until she decided to thrust herself into your life, it was only then that she found herself one little oasis in the desert that is her life.
You weren't much different than anyone she'd met in Uranium; in fact, you were a lot like Penny, utterly average. She shouldn't feel such adoration and love towards you; she believes she's better than this, she knows she is, yet Ocean also knows that her world would end if you were ever cut out of her life. You could be the most average, awful, or best person in the universe, and that wouldn't change the fact that you're everything she could ever need in life.
You are the one sliver of hope she feels in a sea of emptiness. She doesn't need to be Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg, the most successful girl in town, around you. Around you, she can just be Ocean.
It's so strange how she used to keep forgetting who you were, how she couldn't remember a person she now treasures so dearly before. She can't believe she was so naive as not to literally see the angel right in front of her.
She's not surprised at all that she fell in love with you; anyone would be stupid not to when you are just so... well, you. You make her feel things she's never thought were possible; hell, you made her feel something real, not the false happiness and pride all those meaningless accomplishments she's spent years getting gave her.
Seriously, she'd have to be a fool to not love you.
Look, Ocean rarely, if ever, gets nervous, but when it comes to you... girl is a nervous wreck. She is sweating, nervous, laughing, fidgety, and so much more.
She gets so upset whenever people forget about you, even though she also used to do it too- How dare they forget her beautiful, awesome, smart, kind, lovely girlfriend friend!
You give her cuteness aggression, which is not all that cute, considering it makes her want to squeeze you till you pass out from the lack of oxygen.
The ocean will be showing off to you pretty much all the time. She'll show you all the trophies she's earned, the straight As she's gotten, the community service hours she's racked up, all of it. She is nonverbally begging for your attention and will be sobbing later if you don't give it.
Out of anyone in the choir, Ocean by far loathes the way you cling to Penny, Tammy, and Ezra the most. What do they have that she doesn't? She's so clearly superior to them, why would you ever want to waste your time with anyone else, huh?? She gets so defensive about it and will make you spend more time with her.
Ocean can be surprisingly scary when she wants to be..., especially when she feels particularly possessive.
She may or may not have trouble sleeping at night because she's thinking about you... like a lot. (Totally not thinking about ways to trap you in her house and keep you with her forever, whatttt, nooo.)
You may not have known it, but she has kissed you before. Whenever you two have sleepovers, Ocean will always end up staying up later than you, so she can just watch you... She also sometimes gets a little needy, which she solves by giving you a quick peck on the cheek or forehead. It may not be the real thing, but it certainly makes her feel overwhelmingly giddy.
Noel Gruber:
You had been friends with Penny for a while. You two met when you both coincidentally moved here at the same time, and also endured the harsh reality that was your life in Uranium together. You both had gotten really close, and you know practically everything about each other, which means yes, you do know about her involvement in the choir.
And yes, she did end up convincing you to join said choir.
Really, you have no clue how she ended up convincing you, but she for sure owes you one for making you step out of your comfort zone like this. You thankfully didn't hate singing, but it definitely wasn't something you did often enough to consider joining the choir on your own accord.
To this point of all of this, though, joining the choir meant you were gonna meet some new faces, and those new faces, as Penny very much knows, are not always the most welcoming bunch. But worry not, because Penny has a plan! A genius one, if you will. :)
She was gonna help you ease into the choir and its shenanigans by introducing you to one of the more tame choir members; that way, you won't only have her to cling to and feel comfortable around. Who's the tame choir member, you may be asking?
Compared to Ocean and Mischa's extremities, Ricky's love for cat women, and Constance's tendency to be a pushover, Noel was just the right balance of snarky and tolerant to ease you into Penny's crowd.
Noel honestly wasn't too sure about all of this, but he did owe Penny a favor after she'd gotten Ocean off his back a couple of times, so he relented to her schemes. He supposed it wouldn't be too awful. Penny is a good person who would only surround herself willingly with other like-minded people, meaning if anything, the only bad thing might be that you're too anxious to continue the conversation, but he digresses.
And to no one's surprise, you both had a great time! You found Noel easy to talk to, and Noel could not stop smiling the whole time, as weird as that was for him. He wasn't shocked that it went well, but more so shocked that it went as well as it did. He was so sure something was gonna go wrong, yet nothing ever did... Noel was really glad to meet a potential new friend.
However, there was a small issue... that being the weird curse of everyone miraculously forgetting you the moment you aren't actively making yourself known in their presence. You eventually did join the choir, and you went up to Noel to go ahead and talk to him, happy to meet again, but he literally had no clue who you were... It took a good 5 minutes to jog his memory, and even then, there were still gaps.
Believe him when he says he actually does feel extremely bad about this as well! It's so weird because he remembers meeting someone and feeling quite fond of them, but for the life of him, he could not remember that the person was you. It honestly made him feel like a douchebag and that he needs to make it up to you.
Noel hates feeling like a prick, but he hates being in debt to people so much more.
He was gonna make it up to you and actually continuously remember you, no matter how much work it's gonna take, and the first step to that is getting closer to you, which wasn't all that hard considering you were already going up to him on your own.
Pretty much any time that wasn't being taken up by Penny, Tammy, Ezra, or Ocean, Noel was now taking it. He would walk you to classes, sit with you in the one class you have together, hang out with you before school, etc. It was pretty clear at the start that he was kind of just doing this to get the weight of feeling bad off his chest, since he wasn't being his totally usual snarky self and instead was being weirdly nice and awkward. The more you hung out, though, the more he started gradually becoming like the boy you once knew him as.
You did try to tell him that he shouldn't be hanging out with you because he pitied you, but Noel's response was, "Trust me, I have way better things to do than hang out with someone just because I pity them. Not to mention, I pity a lot of people here. Do you know how much time that would take up out of my day?" He's not gonna deny that this rapidly growing friendship started off as pity, but he definitely was sticking around just because he pitied you. His thoughts didn't change on you from the first time he met you; you really are fun and interesting to talk to.
Although there are definitely still moments where you walk up to talk to him and his face is as blank as ever while he sorts through all the people he knows, trying to remember you-
It's progress.
Noel will hit you. It's never in a mean way, but if you ever say something that is slightly stupid, he's gonna lightly backhand you or flick your forehead. He says it's out of affection, but sometimes you aren't so sure...
He will be stealing your clothes because Monique is dying for a new wardrobe, and Taco Bell does not pay enough for him to get even a scrap of new clothing for her.
Despite Noel working at Taco Bell, he truly is just an awful cook... Either you are gonna be making him food when you go over to his house, or you're gonna have to scavenge because he knows he will burn the house down if he goes anywhere near the stove.
Noel couldn't care less if he's being overprotective, but you will be having your location tracked at all times. He doesn't know what he would do if something bad happened to you, and it really gets him paranoid.
Honestly, he is always paranoid when it comes to you; you are quite literally always on his mind to an unhealthy degree.
He wins every competition you two have against each other; it doesn't matter what it is, he'll somehow win it, and yes, he will gloat about it.
If it wasn't clear already, you are nowhere near forgettable to him anymore.
He's sure, even if he did forget, he isn't gonna be afraid to beat your name into himself so that he remembers.
There's gonna be a time when Noel will finally come out to you; in fact, there were several instances where he was going to! But of course, being the coward he knows he is, he always ends up chickening out at the end and just pushes it farther and farther back. It's not like you care; he knows you don't, so why does his brain make it always feel like it's such a big deal? He hates that; he just wants to tell you and get it over with so that he's not hiding things from you.
So why can't he just say it?? He still has no clue, even when he's sitting across from you at his dining room table, so ready to just blurt it out and say it, but some stupid, imaginary force prevents him from doing so. He wishes he knew, but he just doesn't. hell, it wasn't even until you said, "Noel?" That he could actually look you in the eyes.
You're not a shitty person.
You won't care that he's gay.
He just needs to hurry up and say it before he actually explodes...
Feeling so many emotions boiling inside of him, long already boiling over as he unconsciously fidgets in his seat, Noel takes a long, deep breath and finally gets it out into the open. "I'm gay- ...Sorry for not telling you sooner."
He didn't even have a moment to think about anything else to say, nor did the regret and dread of telling you get the chance to spread across his body before he felt you practically tackle him into a hug. Hesitantly, his arms wrap around your torso, and for once in the tense situation, he allows himself to relax as he hears you mutter, "You scared me so badly... Of course I accept you, you weirdo."
You make him feel so incredibly happy.
One of the few ways Noel shows affection towards you is by calling you things like nerd, weirdo, geek, etc. Of course, it's all fun in games, though.
Noel isn't a popular kid at St. Cassian, but he definitely isn't unnoticeable to others either, so whether you like it or not, you are getting roped into his drama and are bound to be a little less forgettable now.
100%, Noel knows he can get on people's nerves, and as you're not biologically related but definitely chosen siblings, he will be annoying you pretty much any time he can. You will not escape from him telling the choir about your harmless, embarrassing secrets or him lightly punching you randomly.
Don't worry, though; he'll do his fair share of movie nights, worrying over you and being overly protective, too. He can't be just annoying after all; the responsible sibling does both.
Oh yeah, and forget about being the school's punching bag. He is not physically strong and doesn't have much influence, but he will for sure get the jerks off your back one way or another.
You've known about Monique for a while, since it's kind of hard to hide her when Noel is actively stealing your clothes and makes various references to her throughout the day. He will be so thrilled if you like her too and will let you in on all the drama that happens in her life.
What do you mean it's not normal to have him try and slowly start taking control of every aspect of your life so you'll always stay with him? You're so delusional; this is just what good siblings do!
Boys..., yeah, that's not happening. This doesn't go for just you either; Noel would rather die than have you date anyone, and that goes for him, too. No one should be taking his time away from you, especially not someone who's so easily replaceable.
Noel is so grateful Penny introduced you to him, he really is, but... He can't deny the jealousy he feels watching you cling to her or seeing you frolicking around with Tammy and Ezra. He doesn't really get why it gets him so upset, but it does.
Do you really need those pieces of garbage in your life? Surely you wouldn't notice if one of them just so happened to disappear, would you?
Mischa Bachinski:
Mischa Bachinski, the angriest boy in the town, a guy no one wanted to willingly provoke, blah, blah, blah. Mischa was, in all honesty, ridiculously tired of this reputation he's garnered for himself right now.
He's not gonna deny the fact that he has broken more than a few noses and has gotten into his fair share of arguments with classmates and teachers alike. That would just be hypocritical, but it's not like he was doing all of this unprovoked; he had reasons! But did anyone try to look past whatever his latest "victim" was saying and see the situation for what it really is? Of course not, because this was Uranium.
Really, the only thing good to come out of the situation he's found himself in was the fact that people were finally starting to leave him alone. No more mean-spirited teasing or petty arguments; there was finally some peace and quiet in his life, which was something he wasn't quite used to... He was thankful for it, sure, but all the mundanity and quietness in his life were starting to bore him.
That definitely didn't help when it came to trying to focus in an already dull, lackluster class.
Aka math.
Mischa so badly wanted to groan as the teacher dragged him to get class started, calling out names for attendance like always. Being as bored as he was, Mischa absentmindedly observed his fellow classmates as they raised their hands and asserted themselves, counting down the number of people left in his head before the teacher finally finished. However, Mischa was quick to take notice of the fact that there was one person left who hadn't been called on, that person being you. Mischa, of course, found it strange considering the teacher had a whole list of names to shout out so it'd be hard to miss someone, but he didn't pay too much mind to it at first.
At first.
Maybe it was because he found it so odd the first time, but every day after that, he found himself doing the same thing he did in that previous class of counting down the students. Yet, every time he did this, your name would always be somehow forgotten and never called. The more it kept happening, the weirder it felt for Mischa...
He's never really noticed you before, and it wasn't like he was actively looking at you when he did this, but it really started to stick the more it kept happening. Like..., at some point, it gets concerning, right?
After weeks of it happening, Mischa felt himself getting more curious by the day. Nothing interesting ever happens in Uranium, so to have something like this right in front of him made him feel a lot more intrigued to understand your situation than he might have been anywhere else. Mischa isn't really one to wait either, so he did end up making the first move and started to sit next to you during class.
It was kind of startling for you at first since..., you know, no one has ever actually noticed you there, nor has tried to talk to you. It was safe to say you were definitely a bit awkward and even a little defensive due to your questioning his reasoning for going up to you. Too bad for you though, because Mischa is not easily deterred when he finds something worth investigating! (And he would rather die than keep listening to the teacher explain polynomials.)
He wasn't too invasive of your privacy or anything and would only speak a few words to you here and there during class as he was basically just waiting for you to feel comfortable and start talking to him. He would talk about how easy the homework was that you had gotten the other day, complain about having choir practice after school, rant about how some people just couldn't understand the symbolism behind his lyrics, basically, whatever was on his mind, he would tell you in bits and pieces.
Despite his reputation, it wasn't hard to find yourself becoming comfortable with having Mischa around. He was the only person, other than Penny, Ezra, and Tammy, to have noticed you and tried to have a conversation with you. It was nice, and soon you also started to speak with him, telling him about your day or what book you were currently reading, just bits and pieces like he would do.
Your conversations started getting longer and longer, and being as forgotten as you were, the teacher rarely ever noticed you both chitchatting in the corner of the room. Mischa actually found himself enjoying your presence, and even if he still didn't get why you were as forgotten as you were, it didn't really matter when he started to consider you a friend, which you did as well.
In a way, Mischa kind of likes that others find you forgettable; it makes him feel special that he's one of the few people who seem to actively remember you.
He will be telling you all about his YouTube channel and the story of how he and Talia met.
In turn, he will also be telling Talia all about you! She's very supportive of your friendship and is glad that Mischa found a friend in Uranium. :)
Mischa might not pay attention in class, but he also somehow knows all the information taught like it's on the back of his hand... He'd definitely tease you if you needed some help with homework or just classwork, but he'd help you if you agreed to stay over a few hours more than usual.
Having been friends with you for a while, Mischa can't help but start to get some darker thoughts about you...
It's totally not a problem; he just can't stand being away from you for extended periods of time, and he gets agitated with the way Ocean and Ricky look at you is all.
It's nothing to worry about.
I'm gonna be so honest, sometimes he ends up forgetting you are in the same room as him when he's not looking at you, so you end up spooking him a lot when you remind him you're there- It's so embarrassing for him, he literally just wants to crawl in a hole and die....
He will ask you a lot of questions about this weird curse of being forgettable that has been placed upon you, 99% of which are not legal.
Do you know how easy it would be to steal things? Does he need to showcase to you the power you hold??
It's so stupid, and he will deny it if you or anyone else dares ask, but he has a big habit of looking over you and kind of acting like your mom. It's not really intentional, but he knows how others forget you, and he doesn't want you to feel left out or unable to get something you need, so he's always trying to make sure you're okay.
It might have been when he started to feel like that that his feelings around you started to change in ways he can't fully comprehend... It was never Mischa's intention to fall in love with you, especially when he thought he was already so in love and loyal to Talia, but it just... happened.
He isn't sure if he started feeling this sooner than he realized, but the day he noticed it, his mind just went blank like his heart felt too much for his brain to process.
He remembers it so clearly... It was just a regular day in math. The teacher was calling out names, calling everyone's name out before inevitably missing you again. At this point, Mischa usually finds himself stepping in and pointing you out to the teacher so she doesn't mark yet another false absence on the sheet of paper she always has. He knew you wouldn't do it yourself, even if he kept trying to advise you to stand up for yourself in these situations, but it was fine; he likes being of use to you.
Yet, right as he was about to raise his hand and call out for the teacher's attention like normal, you suddenly grabbed his arm, gently putting it back to his side before calling out for the teacher on your own and making your presence known.
He guessed in some way, this was kind of a big deal in the sense that you were taking his advice and standing up for yourself, that proud smile on your face as you turned back to face him made his own smile quickly twist upon his face. But to him, it wasn't a big deal for that reason; it was for a reason that he definitely found idiotic but was way too confused to actually think about.
For god knows what reason, the fact that you listened to him and were starting to take his advice out of all people's... The fact that you cared enough about how he felt about going out of your comfort zone and doing something you would normally never do... That... That got his heart pounding, and his face flushed.
You certainly didn't take note of his sudden, awkwardly stiff movements or the way his eyes would stare at you even when you weren't looking at him, but he was taking note of everything you did, trying to fill his confused, blank brain with anything that was about you. He couldn't think of anything else until you were out of his line of sight moments later, and even then, he found that his thoughts kept reeling back to you.
Mischa Bachinski wasn't an idiot; he knew exactly what he was feeling, but it took a good minute for him to actually listen to himself on it...
He was in love with you.
...
And that thought swallowed him whole.
The question now was, what would he do with his already pre-existing relationship with Talia, the girl he once thought was the love of his life, whom he now spends days ignoring in favor of spending time with you?
The answer to that didn't even make him blink; he knew straight away that he was going to break up with her. As great a time as he's had with her, she isn't the girl he loves anymore, and he doesn't find it fair to either of them to be in a relationship that's one-sided. Plus, even if he did try to spend time with her as her fiancé, he can't help but feel disgusted... Like, he's cheating on you by even looking at her.
Some may say that breaking up over text was the worst, and in some ways, Mischa would agree, but there wasn't any way to not do just that. His text was long and thoughtful as he spoke in his native language, thanking her for pulling him out of the hole he was once in, but also ending their engagement. He might have wanted to stay friends with her, to have someone to talk to in his home country, but he knew she most likely wouldn't be so receptive to the idea... So, he just blocked his number and moved on.
In all honesty, he doesn't think he'll ever feel happier than now as he is finally free of the relationship that had burdened him and kept him from you. He can finally make you his gorgeous wife.
You will end up wearing his clothes; that is non-negotiable! Especially when it's cold out, because he will not stand for you being sick.
As if the others weren't doing enough to keep you safe from bullies and the like, there is zero way you will remain the school's punching bag with Mischa around. You can trust that he would never let anyone even dream of laying a finger on you.
As tough as Mischa likes to present himself, when he gets back to his room after school and you aren't around, he will be kicking his feet and be all red in the face as he thinks of your interactions from that day. You make him act like a flustered schoolgirl, and he kind of hates it.
Mischa is definitely the type of person to praise you to the high heavens, like, the amount of poetry flying out of his mouth when you do even the most basic thing is actually insane...
Before he fell in love with you, he never really noticed how much you clung to Penny or how close you were with her, Ezra, and Tammy, but after, he most certainly did. It wouldn't be too big of a deal for him, other than the fact that they're taking your time from him, but then he started to notice the way Penny would get all flustered when you touch her, and that just makes a deep-seated anger boil inside of him.
Mischa will be cyberbullying anyone who either bullies you or just gets close to you. He's good at it, too, as evidenced by the dramatic decline of threats and shoves you have been experiencing as of late.
(This is the self-harm part, so please skip to Ricky's section if you find this kind of thing triggering!!)
Mischa will admit that he does some stupid things when he's drunk. He's made quite a few crappy decisions when drunk, but this latest one... he doesn't quite mind it.
That decision was one made in a fit of rage after he came home from school the previous day, where he had to watch the obsessive ways the choir would cling to you, all trying to take what belonged to him rightfully. He got way drunker than he had meant to, chugging the bottle he had managed to buy off some college kid, and he staggered upstairs and into the bathroom in the dead of night.
He looks into the mirror, still feeling so incredibly angry, the feeling consuming him until he doesn't feel like himself anymore, and he takes a razor blade from a razor he found lying on the counter. He takes it to his arm...
...
He woke up the next day with your name written on his arm, a permanent scar that he is very surprised is not infected.
The things he does for love...
Ricky Potts:
"Okay, so Ricky, this is my friend Y/n! Ezra and I have known them for like... ever."
Ricky was quick to wave hello to you, picking up his AAC device to type out, "Hey, it's nice to finally meet you. Penny talks a lot about you." Being as polite as he could be when he was trying not to freak out over how pretty you are, internally sighing as you smiled back at him. "It's nice to meet you, too."
Penny had apparently been thinking about introducing you and Ricky to one another for a while now. It really started because she and Ricky had recently been getting closer, and, as Ricky mentions, she talks about you a lot. Of course, Ricky was pretty curious about who you were, never having heard your name before and having not seen you around. Whether it would lead to anything else or not, it might be nice to meet someone Penny talks so highly of.
That's where he convinced her to introduce you two.
Initially, Penny was actually pretty concerned about it (She would hate to see you getting too cozy with anyone else), but Ricky made it hard not to just give up and relent. She invited him to your usual hangouts at her and Ezra's house, and that's where you officially met!
The first time.
Ricky has no clue why or how, but every time you leave his field of vision for more than 30 minutes, he totally just forgets who you are, and it jump-scares him every time he sees you again, and his memory just half-hazardly starts flooding back. You definitely have to reintroduce yourself on multiple occasions, especially when you eventually joined the choir, and you two would be seeing each other more without Penny having initiated it.
It's not like you gave him a tough time about it since you're incredibly used to this by now, but it still wasn't exactly pleasant for either of you.
Moving past that, though, when the whole Ricky needing to remember you thing is over with and you two can just talk, Ricky thinks you are pretty interesting to talk to, and he is glad you don't get impatient or anything whenever he is typing in his AAC device, like most people tend to do. It's hard for you to not find the way Ricky rambles or his tooth-gapped smile charming, so it's no surprise you kept talking to him. He was a welcome retreat from the other kids at St. Cassian, one you hoped would stay.
Thankfully, he wanted to stay as well.
Your hangouts didn't stop after Penny introduced you two, as you, Penny, and Ricky would all walk together after school to go hang out at Penny's house. It used to just be you and Penny, but you started to invite Ricky along since you wanted to get closer to him.
Ricky honestly wasn't too sure if he wanted to go at first for a multitude of reasons, the first one being he didn't want to intrude on your time with Penny, and secondly, walking home wasn't exactly ideal with crutches... Yet, you somehow managed to convince him.
Most of the time during your hangouts, Ezra and Penny would end up doing their own thing together, which would usually leave you alone to do homework or whatever else you could find to entertain yourself that day. With Ricky there, though, you finally had someone to talk to! :D
For whatever reason, you felt it was really easy to talk to Ricky, as he did with you. You guys could literally be talking about the weather, yet he would somehow make it interesting. Ricky was smart, funny, and oh-so-endearing; that's what drew you to him, and that's why you guys started becoming friends as quickly as you did. He was a really great guy; you have no clue why people treat him the way they do.
Ricky quickly found himself becoming more and more comfortable around you, the more time you spent together. It was so easy for him to just tell you whatever was on his mind, positive and negative, and you wouldn't judge him for it. He really can't believe he could ever forget about you, even if it does still happen occasionally. You are so kind and inexplicably gorgeous... He's so glad you are willing to give him a chance at friendship.
Ricky will be making friendship bracelets for both of you! They probably have a lot of random charms and beads on them since he just grabbed whatever he could find, though-
Unfortunately, Ricky can't do much when it comes to you being the school's punching bag other than putting in complaints to the administration or telling the bullies off (which usually isn't a great solution), but believe him when he says he is willing to listen to you vent for however long you need and he'll do his very best to comfort you!
You guys borrow each other's stuff so often that you both have a majority of the other things, like clothes, accessories, books, etc. Honestly, just whatever you guys could get your grubby hands on, you borrowed.
He writes about you, like, a lot... He has a blog where he'll post random things about his life, art, Zolar, etc., and you end up taking up most of his posts on there. They aren't always normal posts either...
Ricky tries to cater to your interests a lot, and it's honestly kind of concerning how much he already knows about you- He knows your favorite restaurants, the music you like, your zodiac signs, and your shower routine; He knows a lot more than he needs to.
He has no idea why he likes it so much, but he really likes those moments when you two are in his room alone, maybe some music is playing, and he gets to be just cuddled up next to you. He finds it really calming.
Ricky wasn't always so good at remembering you, especially when you first met, but as you get closer, he is one of the few people, like Penny, who are actually really good at remembering your identity.
Now, he actually has trouble forgetting you... You take up a lot of his thoughts.
You are a very big collaborator with Ricky on Zolar, and you're one of the few people who know about that fantasy world of his. He gets his inspiration from you, so a lot of details or events end up being inspired by things you have said or done as a weird little tribute to you.
When you have been as forgotten as you have, having to remind people who you were when they simply looked away from you for more than 15 minutes, you were, of course, going to grow quite used to the behavior. What was the point in continuously getting upset over it when it was just going to keep happening anyway? There wasn't any, so you just let it be. You'll deal with having to refresh people's memories, you'll deal with the crappy feeling it brings you, you'll deal with it all because what else is there to do about it?
But while you may be willing to deal with such utter disrespect from the people around you, Ricky was not.
He knows how it feels for people to not even look your way or to just blatantly leave you out of everything, and while in his situation, those people always did those things deliberately, he felt worse about it for you because people just genuinely weren't remembering you. It wasn't anyone's fault in the situation, but it still made him feel so crummy for you because you don't deserve that. You are everything a person should be; it's not fair that the world makes you feel like you just don't exist.
It was starting to really get to him, especially watching it happen in front of his own eyes. He gets it's not the fault of most people, he understands that the world just has this weird vendetta against you, so everyone just magically forgets about you, but it still upsets him. You're just so awesome and lovely... The world should know your name like it's the back of their hand.
It was those kinds of thoughts that kept popping up in his mind as he watched the teacher skip over your name during attendance again, or watched as you would be excluded from your group project. Eventually, he started to actually think about these feelings that were in his brain. Being as curious as he was, he wondered why they were as strong as they are... You were his friend, of course, he would get somewhat upset over having people constantly forgetting you, but that doesn't explain why the feeling is so potent, why it's so intense and passionate.
Now there was a new thing bugging him... Even better, it was a thing that he had no idea how to fix. After mulling it over for a few days with no results, he decided to get it off his chest and explain it to someone who might understand, that someone being Penny.
Who happened to also not be that enthusiastic about Ricky's predicament...
"So, yeah... You've been friends with her longer, so you've dealt with this, too, right? I just don't really know what to do about it anymore, and I'm starting to feel really weird about it-"
"You like her."
"...What?"
"You... You feel like that because you like her."
"...."
"I do???"
It was so weird how everything just sort of... clicked for Ricky after hearing that, his brain going a million miles a minute as he sorted out his feelings, not realizing the way Penny bit her bottom lip or clenched her fists into balls. He likes you... Was that really what he had been feeling this whole time? Usually, he can pride himself on being pretty in tune with his emotions, but this was so out of left field that he wasn't even close to said field anymore-
He supposes it makes sense; you always did occupy his thoughts more than anyone, and the way his chest tightens up whenever Ocean clasps your hands into hers wasn't exactly a normal feeling to have for your friend.
Ricky doesn't know whether to laugh or cry at a revelation like this, but it's clear as day now... he loves you.
A lot.
Whenever he figures out he likes you, suddenly, everything you do appears extremely kissable. You could be seriously just breathing, and Ricky would still want to latch his mouth onto yours; you have no idea how attractive you are.
Don't even get him started on how everything reminds him of you... He's gone into so many rabbit holes and has bought so many random things, all because they remind him of you.
Ricky's love language is quality time, so trust that you guys will be spending an indescribable amount of time with each other, whether you like it or not. Hopefully, you do like it, though, because you will be making some killer, accessible blanket forts when you have movie nights!
Ricky is such a gentleman towards you, like, he really tries to get everything right and will bring you flowers, he will open the door for you, everything he knows makes for a gentleman, he will try to copy.
Sure, Ricky used to have you on his mind a lot, but now... you're quite literally all he thinks about and all he wants to think about. He's so fixated on you and thinks this is the one time he's glad not a lot of people pay attention to him, because that just gives him an excuse to not pay attention to those around him and to just think about you.
He craves to always be seen as someone worthy of loving you. Considering his disability, there's a deep-rooted fear inside of him that you think of him as some kind of child, and there won't be a chance for him to date you because of that, so Ricky is always trying to prove himself even when he doesn't have to.
As silly as it is, whenever a new bully pops up for you or someone is just being rude to you in general, Ricky's imagination will usually end up manifesting them into his dreams of Zolar, making them one of the many villains he faces to get his aggression out on them.
Sometimes he doesn't get why someone like you chooses to be around someone like him, but even so, he definitely isn't planning on letting you go.
Ever.
Penny Lamb:
As has been established, you and Penny have been friends for quite a while, way longer than you have been with the rest of the choir.
Honestly, with how you two met, it only made sense you would become fast friends, with you both being the new, yet somehow oh-so-forgettable, kids on the block.
You had moved in about a week after Penny had, and coincidentally, you were the house next door to her. Uranium, being as small as it is, was quick to gossip about the new neighbors, and Penny's foster parents, being as friendly as they are, were the first people to say hello to you, along with Penny and Ezra.
That's where Penny saw you.
You were just standing awkwardly off to the side as the adults talked, eyes curiously roaming around the yard of your new home before eventually settling on Penny, who had already been looking at you. She quickly averts her gaze once your eyes meet, but you still feel a few glances from the brunette here and there before she finally makes up the courage to go and talk to you.
She introduces herself, you introduce yourself, and then a very maladroit conversation commences.
However, as you both talked to each other, learning of your similarities, the conversation started to flow more naturally. You were both really happy to be able to find someone who actually understands what it's like to be so forgettable, to have people constantly overlooking you, and what that comes with. Penny found herself feeling really attached to you, as you did with her.
It really was just so easy to get attached to you when you understood her in ways no one else has.
She immediately knew at that moment that she had to stay in your life, she had to be your friend (and hopefully more), because you were special.
And what a special thing you are.
If you are being completely honest, you have no idea how people find Penny forgettable when she tends to be a very notable individual. She's pretty blunt, awkward, and tall, not just someone you can glance over, but people still manage to do it.
Penny, too, feels this way about you. In her eyes, you are a treasure trove of fascinating tics and traits, someone she can just stare at forever and still somehow find new things about. How could anyone not see it?
Penny isn't the biggest fan of physical touch when it comes to most people; you are pretty much the only person who can touch her without making her stiffen up and awkwardly move away. Honestly, she tries to encourage it with, like, having her hand linger by yours and sometimes "accidentally" bumping you in the shoulder, hoping to get you to hug her.
She'll always insist on watching some kind of animal life documentary during your movie nights, and if you say no, she'll make the biggest, saddest face that's so difficult to not fold to.
Sometimes, she has to stop herself from praising every little thing you do; something inside of her just wants to smother you with every drop of affection she can give you. It seriously is an overwhelming feeling inside of her, one that she so badly wants to act on as her heart beats so fast just by being near you, but she's afraid you'll feel as overwhelmed as she is by it.
Penny totally understands what it's like being St. Cassian's punching bag, and although she will 100% beat some ass if anyone dares step too far out of line, she's kind of glad you two can bond over it.
If you let her, Penny would be more than happy to ramble about her old love for Johnny Moon while also ranting about how awful he is now. It's very cathartic for her.
Being as forgettable as you both are, it isn't exactly difficult to sneak out of class if either one of you so wishes, and while Penny doesn't like to deviate from her set schedule, if it's a special occasion, she most definitely will go walk around the school grounds with you.
That does mean you both are gonna have to study whatever you missed religiously, though, because Ocean will somehow find out about this, and she is not lenient. (Especially since she believes Penny is influencing you to do this.)
If she has the resources, Penny loves to make your pieces of jewelry, whether it be rings, bracelets, necklaces, etc. She will be smiling so hard whenever she sees you wearing whatever she's made you that it makes her cheeks hurt.
In hindsight, maybe Penny should've always known she loved you. Really, wasn't it obvious? The way she'd always talk about you, confide in you, always goes out of her way to get you things she knew you liked...
Yet somehow, Penny was oblivious as ever, and Tammy would not stand to see it any longer!
Tammy is so serious when she says she's tried every trick in the book to get Penny to realize her feelings for you, having long grown tired of the girl's pining. She's pushed her in every direction she could possibly think of, yet nothing's worked, and it was starting to drive her mad! How oblivious can one be?? As stated, she had tried every tactic to subtly nudge Penny in the right direction, but with that not working, Tammy knew she was just gonna have to get it over with and just... spell it out directly for the brown-haired girl.
And just as revenge, she was gonna intentionally do it at the worst time possible. Because, darn it, she was over it! >:'(
What was the worst possible time Tammy had decided to spill the beans to Penny, you may be asking? Well, Penny, Tammy, and you had been planning a little girls' night for a while, and as the day finally came, Tammy had gone to Penny's house early to help the girl set up. She knew this would be the best time to unhitch her plans!
In the midst of setting up, both girls were currently baking some cookies for the occasion, and Tammy had started to steer the conversation about you. She started by asking when you'd be there and if you mentioned bringing anything, before moving on to talking about how great a friend you are.
She was well aware that by doing this, Penny would immediately start to gush about you as always, rambling on and on about this funny thing you did the other day. It was by doing this that she found her opening.
"And then when I asked why she did that, she said-"
"You guys are adorable, you talk about Y/n like you're newlyweds."
"Oh, really? ...Well, I mean, she's really great and I love being with her."
"I can tell, but... do you like her platonically or romantically? It's hard to tell with how much she seems to consume your life."
"Uhm..., platonically?"
"..."
"Penny..."
"..."
"D-Do you think she likes me too?"
Penny swears she never had any ulterior motives or anything when she was hanging out with you; she really did love your company! But hearing Tammy ask such a direct question and thinking upon it...
It was impossible to deny the flutter in her heart at the thought of a relationship with you.
Penny, although being somewhat deadpan most of the time, uses a lot of cheesy, cliche pickup lines on you as a "joke."
However, she totally means every word she says... To her, you are an angel, the light of her life, her everything. Does that mean she isn't scared of rejection? Hell no, she is terrified, which is why she so often masks her romantic feelings towards you as jokes.
...If you happened to be into them, though, she wouldn't mind.
For some reason that not even Penny knows, her gaze is always affixed on you... Like, you could be in class or something super interesting could be happening right in front of her, yet her eyes will be on you.
She has a big staring problem when it comes to you...
Ezra has almost outed her crush multiple times, all because he will make fun of her for her crush on you and will just say, "She wants to make out with you," in the most deadpan way possible.
Every Halloween, without a doubt, Penny begs you to do some kind of niche couples costume with her. To be fair, if you even do a couple's costume with her, it's a win, but she really wants to do something niche from some obscure media she loves because she thinks it's cute.
She is weirdly braggy about knowing everything about you, especially to those she perceives as her competition in winning your heart. She likes knowing that she's one of the closest people to you.
Penny's way of getting others to leave you alone and getting you to herself is just to interrupt them constantly and shift the conversation so that your attention is only on her. It's both unintentional and intentional.
She is hyper-aware of everyone else in the choir's feelings towards you and gets incredibly jealous about it, though she is often unaware that her actions and thoughts are being controlled by her jealousy. She's already naturally possessive of you, so this just feels like an extension of that for her.
Out of everyone in Uranium, you are by far closest to Penny as she is to you. You both were the only people each other knew in this new city for a long time, which is something that Penny finds both pride and comfort in.
She was your first, and she makes sure everyone knows it.
Not even joking, she would do some fucked up shit for you. Her childhood wasn't the most normal, and although the adults in her life did try to mold her into a good person, she did start becoming rebellious in her later years of living in Elysium, which led her to consuming some not-so-good media and start growing some really bad, obsessive tendencies. She is aware that a lot of what she thinks isn't normal thoughts to have, but she also doesn't care to stop thinking them.
Constance Blackwood:
Constance always had a hidden talent for being able to quickly memorize any person's face and match it to their name.
Maybe it was the fact that out of her and Ocean, she was the more observant of the two, or maybe it was the years of working in a cafe that got frequent regulars. Whatever it was, she was able to pick out the name and face of pretty much everyone in town.
Ask her to pick someone randomly in a crowd, and she'd be able to tell you their name and a few things about who they were with 100% accuracy!
So, why pray tell, can she not remember who you are for the life of her?
You, like many others in Uranium, were a frequent visitor to the Blackwood Cafe. You might not have been a regular, but you always made sure to stop by a few times a month. It was a calming little hideaway for you from the stressors of daily life, the cafe always having such a nice and soothing atmosphere, not to mention their food was to die for.
So most would think that, even if you weren't in there every day, with the amount you'd have gone, the Blackwood family would start to memorize your face by now...
However, you'd be sourly, sourly mistaken.
"Welcome to the Blackwood Cafe, I don't think I've seen you around before... would you like some recommendations or would you like to hear about our Friday special?"
As much as Constance meant well, hearing the same thing every time you went into this cozy cafe had definitely become a little grating after some time..., yet you also could never say no when asked. You always had a hard time saying no to her, so even as she raddled on about the special you've practically memorized at this point, all you could do was give a polite smile before ordering the same thing you always do.
And then prepare to repeat this process again for as long as you give this place the time of day...
Don't worry, though, because Constance was quick to realize, soon after the 50th time that this had happened, that something was very much wrong.
Every time she saw you, every time she scanned over your figure before making her way over to you with a friendly expression plastered on her face, she always felt that something was off...
Rambling on about her recommendations and the specials, she was starting to feel like she'd done all of this before.
...
It was an uncanny sense of deja vu, one that made her shiver and start to feel slightly nauseous. Never once had she gotten this feeling from anyone else; it was only you she felt this way towards. The curly-haired girl initially wanted to brush the feeling off, feeling far too awkward and out of place to do anything about it, but as it persisted, as this person whom she had never seen before walked through the door into the Blackwood Cafe, it started to make her anxious.
What was even more odd was, she always remembers feeling like this after it happens, this feeling of deja vu, but after the moment is over, she somehow always forgets what the cause of it was...
Maybe she was going to make a fool out of herself, maybe this whole conundrum was coming from someone else entirely, but seeing you sit down in one of the far-off booths once again and feeling that sense of dread hit her...
She couldn't keep putting it off any longer.
Constance takes a deep breath, her hands messing with the ends of her skirt, before making her way over to you. Instead of saying her usual spiel, like you had grown to expect, the words that came out of the girl made you almost choke on your spit.
"I'm sorry if I'm mistaking you for someone else, o-or if you find this offensive for one reason or another, but... but have you been here before?" Constance manages to spit out the words she should've said so long ago, looking at you with her same friendly expression as per the norm, but with her brows knitted together and her eyes ever so slightly narrowed. You would've felt like the jig was up, but..., there wasn't exactly a jig in the first place-
With a slow nod, feeling a bit awkward all of a sudden, you carefully explained to Constance that you had, in fact, been in the Blackwood Cafe before, and you both had met a plethora of times before this...
It was safe to say Constance was mortified upon hearing this.
Truly, she wasn't usually that careless, and she knows how it feels to be looked over, which is why she felt extremely bad and was ready to do anything to make it up to you. She would hammer your identity into her brain until she couldn't get you out of her head if that's what it took! (foreshadowing?)
And hammer it in she did.
It definitely took some getting used to, especially since she had to jog her memory on who you were most of the time, but after a while, she had gotten into the routine of learning your name and face. She would also put any kind of new information she found out about you into a notebook, mainly your usual order and what else from the cafe you'd be open to trying.
Not only did this mean she was actually starting to remember you, but you both started to spend a lot of time together in the cafe, during, and after school. At first, Constance was doing it to make up for her carelessness, but over time, she became really fond of you.
You weren't bossy like Ocean, judgy like Noel, and you actually took the time to look past her being "nice" to actually get to know her...
You were a nice, needed middle ground in her social circle, one she quickly grew to yearn for as the days went by.
Plus, it definitely didn't hurt that you were quite the cutie. :)
For Constance, movie nights and game nights with her family are a must. You will be made to go to every one of them, and no, she isn't sorry that she beat you in Scrabble.
She will 100% always make sure your opinions are seen and noted, considering how often people will forget to. She wants you to feel appreciated, and she'll be damned if she can't make it happen for you!
Your calls with each other can seriously last for hours, even if most of the time you both aren't even talking to one another. For Constance, at least, she just likes having your presence near her, even if it's over the phone.
Even if you were at her cafe earlier, she'd still call you with new things she wants to talk about with you.
Constance is being so honest when she says she doesn't mean to, but whenever she thinks someone is bothering you (or they are just trying to get close to you), she can be a bit snappy at whomever it is. She doesn't even realize she's done until after, and honestly...
She never feels guilty over it.
Her dread is immeasurable when it comes to the idea of anyone taking your sweet attention off of her. Like, it makes her audibly groan by even thinking of it.
Constance, being Constance, will in fact not hesitate in bending over backwards to please you; she is always making sure you have everything you could ever possibly want and is able to read you like a book. Please, for her sanity, make sure to tell her that she really doesn't need to break herself just to please you...
She always manages to bring you up in any conversation that she has and will enthusiastically explain who you are to whomever she is speaking with over and over, simply because she likes talking about you
Honestly, Constance has totally forgotten about... well, forgetting you in the first place. She feels like you both have been friends for as long as she can remember, and she loves it that way.
Don't even worry about being seen as the school's punching bag by the way, Constance will be protecting you like her life depends on it! She may not be a good fighter physically, but she does know a lot of tips and tricks on how to get out of those kinds of situations, and with her being around you all the time, she'll make sure you stay out of any bullying situation.
Now, the way Constance had swiftly fallen head over heels for you was, in her own words, silly.
It wasn't like you made some grand gesture or saved her life; hell, you didn't even do anything out of the ordinary for you to do. Yet, it was this simple act that got her to feel all sorts of different emotions that made her stomach do backflips.
You had, for no reason in particular, given her a gift.
It was a silver ring, just something you had found while shopping the day before and decided to get it for Constance without much thought, all because it reminded you of her.
Walking with her to school the next morning, both of you were almost at the gates before you stopped suddenly, a nervous smile gracing your features as Constance soon stopped as well. She asked, "Why did you stop?" but her answer was quickly thrown back at her.
Rummaging in your pocket, you pulled out the silver ring you had gotten her, its metal shining in the sun, and you held it out for her. Constance, in a fit of confusion, took a long pause before reaching out to you and taking the gift from your hands, looking to you with a million questions she couldn't voice in that moment. She didn't need to ask; you had always understood her better than even she understood herself. You spoke up, "It's a gift..., it made me think of you."
Constance doesn't ever think she's felt as breathless as she did that day. The cold winter air masks the red of her cheeks to ones not of fluster but of desperation in need of warmth.
This was no mirage, though; in full truth, she was enamoured with you...
The only words to fall out of her lips were, "Thank you."
How she wished she could've said so much more.
Romantic love was a very new thing for Constance. Yes, she's always thought the idea was sweet, but being surrounded by so much platonic love, she never thought of it as a necessity. That may be why she unintentionally shied away from you during the first few weeks of her newly realized crush on you. It was just so difficult to not throw up with the butterflies swarming inside her chest... Thankfully, she was able to muster it, but it no doubt took some time.
Believe that she will be doing that very cheesy movie thing where she is your secret admirer. She'll do the letters, the gifts, the hints, all of it in hopes you'll fall for her like she fell for you. It works in old movies, right? What's the harm in trying it here?
When it comes to your relationship with Penny, Tammy, and Ezra, Constance isn't too upset about it. She truly thinks it's important for you to have people to rely on (even if sometimes she wishes it were only her), and it's healthy for you to have friends. It definitely can sting sometimes when she has to sit back and watch the longing stares Penny gives you or watch as Tammy clings to your arm, but she really does hold herself back when it comes to them.
She has a whole playlist dedicated to songs that make her think of you, as well as tons of pictures saved in her phone that remind her of you. It is killing her phone's storage.
She'll never admit it, but she kind of likes that you are so forgettable; it makes it a lot easier to get you to herself and not have to fight for your attention.
Constance's diary that she hasn't used since primary school is now suddenly filled to the brim with pages about you... She keeps it away from people, especially you, at all costs, because it has some pretty graphic and unhinged thoughts in there.
She would hate for your perception of her to be dragged down by some harmless rants.
She has always been the nice girl, the pushover who people can walk all over and get away with whatever they want... However, when it comes to you, that label for Constance is immediately thrown in the garbage. Not only is she overall super protective of you, but she also is always feeling the need to make others see that you are hers in any way possible, mostly subtly. Maybe it's because of her insecurities, but if she isn't holding your hand or if you don't have something of hers on, she gets incredibly anxious at any other person's look thrown your way.
That also heavily applies to her friends because, as much as Constance... tolerates Ocean, she knows how Ocean looks at you, and she doesn't like it one bit.
Constance is constantly pushing you into bonding with her family as an unintentional manipulation tactic to get you attached to them. I mean, how could you leave her when her parents see you as their third child? How could you leave her when her baby brother is always asking when you'll be back 'home'?
A/N: I can't believe my hiatus and burnout kept me from finishing this for like... 7 months, I'm so sorry. :(
Hopefully it's to your liking. Considering how long it took, I'm pretty happy with how it came out.
☁️Nestingdolls Headcanons - Jane Doe/Penny Lamb x Mischa Bachinski☁️
Pre-accident:
Mischa, contrary to how he felt about everyone else in Uranium, was extremely interested in Penny once she started going to St. Cassian's. How could he not be when everyone knew the stories of her and her brother faking seizures at Walmart or how they took a trip through the USA and used money from selling drugs to do it? He never did act on such curiosity, but it always sat in the back of his mind when her name was (rarely) mentioned.
Penny is weirdly in tune with everyone in the choir's schedules (without even trying to be), which obviously includes Mischa. So anytime he's either late to practice or not in a class they share together, she gets super antsy, wondering where he might be or what could possibly have led him to not being where he should've been. This also sometimes leads her to blurt out the question, "Why weren't you at practice/in class?" whenever she does get the rare chance to talk to him.
Penny has learned quite a few curse words in Ukrainian from Mischa, which he was totally unaware of until he overheard her cursing under her breath one random evening. It both shocked and confused him, yet also made his heart jump a little since no one that was the first time since he's been in Uranium that he's heard someone speaking in his native tongue.
If she ever mispronounces something though, he will laugh at her before correcting it.
Out of all of the choir, Penny's voice is definitely Mischa's favorite to listen to. Despite his more alternative tastes when it comes to music, Mischa very much appreciates the more classical, almost operatic way her voice comes off. It reminds him of home in a way.
Post-accident:
Mischa is honestly the only person who is willing to let Jane be close to him, mainly because he's kind of desensitized when it comes to anything horror-related, so she doesn't really scare him.
Compared to everyone else's songs, Jane really found how to be like... a human during both of Mischa's songs. The complexity of his character and the way his songs embody that really drove her to him in a way it didn't for anyone else. She liked the way her heart pounded with both rage and passion, how it still kept pounding after just looking at the male.
If Jane had gone up to Mischa after TNBS, their conversation would be a mix of the one Noel and Mischa had and the one Jane and Ricky had. She'd ask him about the alcohol and more about him as a person, while Mischa would give her a name. It would be something Ukrainian, something sweet and ever so slightly romantic, like Anastasiya or Alina.
Seeing Jane leave to be revived was both the worst and best outcome for Mischa... He was immensely glad she was picked, knowing that out of everyone there, she deserved to get to be someone, but there was still a deep ache in his chest as he, for the third time, watched someone who gave him so much comfort leave him. It felt incredibly bittersweet, especially watching her get married and have kids...
But he knew that deep down, he didn't care that his source of light was once again taken from him if it meant she would be brought to life again.
He loved her so much that he let her go.
A/N: Hey... I'm back from my unplanned, unannounced hiatus. :')
I'm sorry I've been gone for a while, there were a lot of reasons for it, mainly personal ones, but I'm gonna try and start writing on this blog again! I think I might open up requests soon, but I want to make sure I really get back into the swing of things before I do that.
Anywho, take this Jane x Mischa headcannon post as some sort of compensation. I love them so much, and although I use it here, I honestly do not like the name Nestingdolls for them. It is the most popular one (other than eggdolls, which I do not care for either), but I don't love it since nestingdolls are Russian and... Mischa isn't Russian. It doesn't really matter, though. I adore them either way and desperately need more content of them together. :))
☁️The hardest part of waking up - Trishna Jiwa x Ricky Potts☁️
“Ricky…”
“…”
“Ricky.”
“…”
“I know you’re awake. Please let me out…, I need to get back home.”
Despite the threat of her parents, silence continues to fill the air as Trishna’s plea falls on deaf ears, her wiggling and pushing to get away from her oh-so-clingy boyfriend not making a difference as the fatigue just hits her sooner or later. The exhaustion quickly makes her give up as she just sighs exasperatedly into Ricky’s embrace.
As much as she loves him, Ricky Potts can be really freaking stubborn sometimes...
While Trishna feels a pout form on her lips, just knowing that this was gonna get her into a lot of trouble later, suddenly she can feel Ricky's chest start to shake a little, tightening just to release before tightening again. Knowing exactly what was happening, her warm brown eyes gaze up to find Ricky silently chuckling, his face contorted into one of glee at her misfortune. Her brows furrow, feeling tempted to use this opportunity to break out of his clutches, but instead, she asks in an unimpressed tone, "What are you laughing for? You know this is serious." That wasn't the complete truth... As strict as her parents were, Trishna honestly wasn't taking this whole thing too seriously.
It was kind of hard to when she finds a reluctant smile start creeping up on her lips as she watches Ricky finally calm down enough to sign back to her, "Sorry, sorry..." If she wasn't before, Trishna knew for sure now that she was blushing, the brunette's bright smile so lovely and pleasant to look at... He could commit so many crimes, and she just knows the world would forgive him with a grin like that.
"I'm not sorry for not letting you out though, you're are trapped here forever now." Ricky continues, his amused face turning smug as Trishna's eyes narrow. Being as logical and as unwilling to play along with his games as ever, Trishna blunty replies with, "You have to let me out at some point." Her unwillingness to play along didn't deter Ricky though, who just rolled his eyes. "Uh, yes, I can."
Trying to pull away once more, a returned sense of motivation to escape the cacoon shes trapped in filling her. "No, you can't. we both have to eat at some point."
"Nope, we'll just photosynthesize."
"We can't; we don't have Chloroplasts. We are also gonna need to go to the bathroom at some point."
"You can hold it."
"Well..., what about your cats? Who's gonna feed them, hm?"
"My parents, obviously."
"...Uhm, there's still the issue about my parents. You know how they are, and you know that they won't let me see you for at least a week once I get back home."
"Guess I gotta make the time I have with my lovely girlfriend count before she's locked away again then, huh."
As they go back and forth in this playful discourse of theirs, every reason Trishna keeps bringing up to hopefully get Ricky to finally relent and let her go only gets rebuttled by whatever silly remark the boy can come up with to keep her with him longer. Even with all the pushing and pulling away she was doing, Ricky must have been using whatever strength he could with his arms (or it could be the fact that in reality, she definitely wasn't trying too hard-), but eventually Trishna just let out a groan as she was once again stopped from leaving.
She took a moment to breathe and process what she wanted to do next, her body 100% betraying her mind as it longed to be next to Ricky's warm body once more while the logical part of herself begged to get up. It was an internal fight she really wasn't feeling up for at 8 in the morning on a Sunday... Trishna's body relaxes into the plush mattress below her, closing her eyes and having to world around her disappear.
He really wasn't gonna let go, was he?
As she feels she's done a hundred times in just the last few minutes, Trishna sighs internally with a large sense of defeat.
Gliding over to the arms of the boy she loves so very much, Trishna rests her face on his shoulder. She could feel his hands moving from her waist to her hair, his fingers quickly finding themselves entangled in it, a habit he'd picked up when they first started dating. A warm peace just as quickly takes over whatever regret or dread she was feeling in that moment, leaving only the feeling of love inside of her.
Was it the smart decision? No, her parents will be furious after she goes hours without contacting them for a boy.
Does she care? Not at the moment, no.
A small hum of satisfaction leaves her lips, and Trishna mutters, "Okay, fine... Five more minutes it is."
A/N: I love them so much actually, they are such freaking nerds. :')
Honestly, I am kind of thinking of starting a series of fics where I write short fics for each and every ship in RTC. (Obviously, excluding Noel x women and anything incestuous.) I just really love the potential of ships like Talia x Ocean and Tammy x Hank. I seriously need more rare pairs in my life!!
That's just a thought, though. I'll see how I feel later, lmao.
Since it makes some time since someone requested Yandere choir....
The choir with the most anxious girl in town?
Darling is like Penny, but just way more paranoid, anxious and shy, and most people at school find her weird and mock her social anxiety
Thanks in advance! :))
☁️Yandere Choir x Anxious!Reader🌧️
⚠️WARNING: General Yandere content and geared towards a fem reader!⚠️
Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg:
Introductions were the worst. Having everyone stare at you while you struggled to get the words, "Hello, my name is Y/N." out was not an enjoyable experience, especially when basically everyone in the classroom was snickering at your pathetic attempt to speak. As you kept stuttering through it, your anxiety peaking in you, the teacher finally let you off the hook and said, "That's enough Ms. Y/N, please go take a seat next to Ocean. Ocean, please raise your hand-" The teacher had no need to request that though as Ocean's hand shot up the moment she mentioned you would be sitting next to her.
You make your way over, where Ocean gives you a nod of acknowledgment as a greeting before turning back to the teacher. Normally she would've introduced herself already, but she needed to pay attention to the lesson, and so should you as you're gonna need to catch up! Other than that, the lesson went pretty smoothly, minus the few whispers you'd hear behind you during the beginning of it.
Thankfully, class ended quickly enough and as you got up, packing your things, Ocean comes up to your desk and holds her hand out as if she's expecting a handshake. You hesitantly shake her hand, which has a much stronger grip than yours, and she starts to speak, "I wanted to introduce myself before we have to go to our next classes. As Mrs. Jones said, I am Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg and the head of the chamber choir here at St. Cassian!" She held a prideful smile on her face as she spoke, soon continuing on as she introduced more about the school and the choir she mentioned.
You didn't get much of a word in either, even as you got up to start walking to your next class, which you two just happened to share, Ocean kept going on and on. It's not like you minded too much, though. Saves you the trouble from having to think of something to say and you were honestly just glad she wasn't making fun of you like those other kids were...
It hadn't even been a week after you met her either, where you were finally convinced by Ocean to join the choir she was always mentioning. Like, always mentioning.
You two had talked almost every day at that point and she had invited you to sit with her and the choir for lunch on multiple occasions, though you always declined because you didn't think you'd be comfortable sitting and talking with so many new people all at once... So how did she manage to get you to join the choir then? You have literally zero idea... Maybe it was Ocean praising it 24/7, or her speech about all the benefits it has and how you should join to make some new friends. Whatever it was, you walked in with Ocean that next choir rehearsal.
She introduced you to the choir and Father Markus, explaining how you are their newest member! A girl named Constance was the first to come up to you to welcome you into the choir, which she mostly did, but Ocean eventually had to cut her off so practice could move along. Now, the one thing you told Ocean you weren't gonna do by joining the choir, even though it was choir, was sing, which to your surprise, Ocean said was fine since another kid named Ricky was also in the choir and he didn't sing either.
That's how you ended up sitting next to a boy you barely know, temporarily without an instrument as they would have to borrow one from the band.
Despite how friendly most of the choir members were, save for Noel and Mischa, you pretty much clung to Ocean most of the time. As the only person you really knew there, she was like your lifeline as you didn't feel comfortable around the others quite yet... Now, if this was anyone else, they might have thought you were being annoying and too clingy, but this was Ocean and she thought the complete opposite. She reveled in the attention you gave her as not only did it feed her ego, but she also found herself enjoying your presence a lot.
You don't send annoyed eye rolls her way whenever she talks about her accomplishments and what she wants to do in the future, you don't make her feel bad that she needs to feel successful, you don't push her about her homelife and why she smells marijuana most days. You aren't like everyone else and she loves that, she can finally let her guard down around someone, something she can't even do with Constance. You're her vice.
If you ever start feeling overwhelmed with life and just need something to distract you, Ocean will 100% be your best bet for that. She will talk your ear off even if you didn't ask her to, which helps a lot when you just need to hear something in the background while you calm down.
Ocean, being the overachiever she is, knows how to do pretty much everything and she will be passing those skills down to you. She will be teaching you all kinds of different languages, instruments, crafts, everything and anything you want to learn, she will teach you.
Surprisingly, she is also a good mentor figure too.
Ocean isn't really the type to give you her things to wear, mainly because she doesn't have that many clothes to begin with, but if you ever ask, she would probably give you something like a piece of jewelry or a headband.
The more time she spends with you, the more Ocean just enjoys being in your presence... She never really thought she could like you more than she did, but getting to know you on a deeper level and having you come to her for most of your problems makes her feel so unimaginably happy. Suddenly, you aren't gonna be the only clingy one anymore and she isn't letting you out of her sight.
Whenever you guys pass notes to each other in class (which Ocean discourages as she says it's distracting but continues to do anyway because it's you,) Ocean always ends up keeping the notes you pass to her and when she isn't with you, she'll go through them, running her fingers along the words you wrote so she can feel close to you, even when you aren't with her.
You will never have to worry about people mocking you or being mean to you ever again with Ocean around because the people that do will be thoroughly run over with her words and her connection with the principal (Whom she will not stop bothering when someone is rude to you.) Word travels quick in St. Cassian and soon, people avoid you like the plague.
Ocean is lowkey either the best or worst person to be around when you have anxiety, there is no in between.
On those good days though, she'll take a break from whatever she is doing just to go find a quiet place for you to calm down in. She also has snacks that Constance gives her that she will let you eat.
As much as Ocean loves and cares about you, she will also not be letting you into her house... She would hate to have her parents' behavior affect you in any negative way, so her house is basically banned from you.
Even if you can't go to Ocean's house though, that doesn't mean she isn't allowed at yours, which believe me, she is there pretty much every day.
You and Ocean were in your bedroom, Ocean ranting about something a teacher said while finishing up her homework, while you were snuggled up on your bed, half listening and half watching a movie. It was your average afternoon, a routine that you and Ocean had grown comfortable with after doing it for so long.
And Ocean had liked it that way, she liked predictability, she liked having a routine only you and her share. She liked having things stay the same as always.
...But she supposes she doesn't mind you changing things up a bit either.
"I'm glad you're here, you know... You are like, the one person I feel comfortable around." Your words were full of adoration and were a complete shock to Ocean, who immediately stopped writing, turning to face you with wide eyes.
For some reason, even though Ocean had never thought of you that way, those words made her heart skip several beats and her face flush red. Quite frankly, her having such a visceral reaction to your words was making her feel incredibly embarrassed for herself... How come all of a sudden, when you just said something that she's sure everyone says to their friends, she starts to feel like she's the most special girl in the whole world? Why are her hands suddenly fidgeting? Why do her words have a stutter to them now as she replied with, "Y-You should, I'm a very comfortable person to be around!"
This feeling she's never felt before..., it couldn't be love could it??
...
Seeing you make a huff of amusement at her words, your smile bright as you turn back to your movie...
Well, maybe change is good. Maybe loving you isn't all bad.
So, one of the ways Ocean shows her love to you, is that even if she is an eternal yapper at heart and she knows you don't mind listening to her, she now is very adamant in listening to you and what you have to say, even if that's nothing at all.
She loves hearing your voice.
She would become so red if you did her hair, like put it into braids or just play with it, it just feels so weirdly intimate and domestic that she can't help but become so flustered.
There are a lot of moments where she's afraid of doing anything she sees as too intimate since she doesn't want you to possibly reject her and her feelings. Even then, though, she has a hard time not just being near you and showering you with praise.
Ocean has a bad habit of talking over people. Most of the time, it's unintentional, but there are moments when someone is talking to you for whatever reason and she'll just come up and crash the whole conversation. Those times, it's definitely not an accident.
Sometimes when she's writing an essay or just anything in general, her mind will wander and she'll end up writing paragraphs all about you. Some of the stuff gets a bit strange too..., like how she wrote 2 paragraphs on why she likes the way you walk.
As your friend, and hopefully potential lover, she should be helping you with your anxiety, right? Well, she does for the most part, but Ocean can't but place some fear in you sometimes when it comes to talking with strangers or going anywhere without her. It's for your own good, she doesn't want anyone to hurt you.
Noel Gruber:
Noel was having a bad day today.
Okay, so he has a bad day every day, but that fact that he's acknowledging today was really bad means a lot for how his day was going so far.
First off, some stupid douchebags were making fun of him for being openly queer, then he had to deal with his teacher pulling him out of class even though the kids behind him were making a ruckess, then he had to deal with Ocean during lunch. All of this combined made him want to bang his head against a wall.
Thankfully though, it was all almost over, all he had to do was turn the corner, walk a few paces, do choir, and he could finally go home. He just needed to get through this final stretch of the day and all would be well. So, walking down the route he usually takes to go to choir, he slowly starts to turn the corner, not at all realizing that someone was also making their way past it...
That person being you.
You both knock into each other, knocking you back and Noel onto the ground below. Noel lets out a grunt of both hurt and frustration, quickly looking up to the perpetrator so he could scold them for their carelessness, his frustration levels hitting their peak as this was kind of his last straw. However, as soon as he looks up at you, he couldn't even get a word out as you promptly apologized, anxiousness in both your voice and behavior was evident. "I'm so sorry! I really didn't mean to do that, I should've looked past the corner or something. Are you hurt? Did you break anything? Should I take you to the nurse?-" Questions flew out of your mouth at lightning speed as you nervously flailed your arms around while you tried to explain yourself.
This kind of reaction from anyone at St. Cassian was new for Noel as most people wouldn't even bother to apologize and would just insult him before walking off. It's not like it was all your fault either, so this was really strange for him... Awkwardly, he gets up from the tiled floor and adjusts himself, ignoring your rambling before speaking over you, "I'm fine, stop worrying so much." Which thankfully got you to calm down a little. Noel was honestly kind of at a loss for words in the moment, wanting to say something else to you, but he didn't know quite what to say... So, he just shrugs it off and walks past you to the choir room, muttering a, "Sorry...," as he passes by.
That was your first introduction to each other and apparently it wouldn't be the last as soon enough you joined the choir.
Becoming friends (Whenever you got into the choir, he noticed Ocean enjoying having you cling to her, which he hated, so he starts to become your friend to spite her. He soon enjoys being your friend though.)
As Ocean had done a million times before with every other member of the choir, as she was pretty much the reason they all joined in the first place save for Mischa who was forced to, Ocean introduces you to everyone before Constance goes up to you and takes up your attention. He noticed you looked just as nervous as ever, which wasn't surprising, but what was surprising was the glow on Ocean's face after the choir rehearsal had ended as you clung to her. He knows her prideful face when he sees it, and apparently having you cling to her instead of any other choir member was giving her an ego boost she so desperately craved.
Now, Noel doesn't hate Ocean, he really doesn't. Sure, she can be annoying at times and he gets onto her a lot for being an ass to people, but that doesn't mean he hates the girl. In a way, they were kind of like siblings, at least, that's how Noel saw it. But watching you stand by her side like a loyal puppy with Ocean having a power trip over it made a switch flip inside of him. It was annoyingly pathetic how much you relied on Ocean and Noel wasn't having it. He knew you needed some kind of guidance in this school by someone who's been through hell in it, so he's gonna help you.
He's convinced himself he has to, otherwise you are going to have a rough time here.
So, whenever Ocean is busy with something else and you are left to stand idly by her side, Noel makes it his mission to go and talk to you. This turned out to be a good decision on his part as well since you were surprisingly pleasant to talk to unlike most people at St. Cassian. Your anxiousness did mean he needed to do most of the talking, but he could really care less, if he had to wait an eternity for you to get out of your shell and treat him like a normal human being compared to everyone else, then so be it.
You also enjoyed this dynamic you had with Noel. You did love and appreciate Ocean taking you under her wing and becoming your friend, but having Noel there was different in a good way. He showed you which places and people to avoid, where the good hiding spots are, how to get away with taking a nap in the nurse's office, basically, he was the street smarts to Ocean's book smarts. You had to even admit, he had a way of making it actually fun to let go and talk to him, something you'd never thought you'd be able to do. It was refreshing.
Noel doesn't mind how anxious you get at all, he's kind of friends with Penny and despite how confident he is, he's had his moments too, so he's pretty good at helping you manage your anxiety.
Sometimes though, just because he thinks it's kind of funny, he'll come up behind you when you are least expecting it and spook you. If you do end up having like, a panic attack or something because of it though, he'll feel so awful and will help you out immediately.
He loves having you read to him because, as you don't talk much, he finds it nice to hear your voice.
If you're ever hungry, trust that Noel will let you eat all his Taco Bell leftovers, he could literally care less.
Noel is extremely picky on who you spend your time with and if you don't fight back somewhat, you probably wouldn't talk to anyone but him.
He will also be making you give him access to all your social media accounts and no, this is not negotiable. He wants no creeps near you and probably ends up turning on some kind of child safety features on your phone.
He will give you a screen time so you are forced to talk to him.
You can literally appear at his house in the middle of the night, and Noel will not care at all, he trusts you completely.
If your anxiety ever gets too bad, he might help you find a therapist to talk to that's not the school one since Dr. Prattle is the worst.
You're more than welcome to come to him to vent though if that's what you'd prefer.
Noel hates the idea of you keeping secrets from him, like, a lot. So, because he wants to try and lean you in the right direction so you feel comfortable sharing things with him, he shows you Monique. He was undeniably anxious when he first showed her to you, because he might literally die if his biggest obsession finds his other biggest obsession weird, but thankfully that wasn't the case and his plan actually worked! After telling you about her, you pretty much get weekly updates on Monique and her story since he changes and adds things frequently.
Now the only biggest secret being kept between you was his sexuality!
Except it wasn't because you had known for a long time...
You knew because 1. Noel wasn't exactly secret about it. 2. Anytime you are with Noel at school, someone always manages to pass by and whisper slurs at him. And lastly, 3. It was kind of obvious.
Now, this does save him the whole coming out ordeal but Noel has to admit that he hates that he never got to formally tell you... It's just so important to him, and having something like that ripped away was honestly heartbreaking.
Please give him hugs and tell him he'll be alright- He needs it.
Do people still bully you even though you are with Noel? Yeah, it's actually kind of gotten worse since you've become friends with Noel. But you at the very least have each other and even if Noel has no power to stop the bullies, if any of them lay a finger on you, he's gonna kick some ass.
His mom actually adores you so much, you are the daughter she never had and she just thinks you're so precious. (She's low-key also encourages Noel's darker thoughts, but moving on...)
You're required to hang out with him during his work shifts, he needs someone to talk to that isn't his burdensome coworkers, and you're by far the best option.
Noel sometimes paints you, but he never lets you see the final result since he's embarrassed about it.
If you look past all the awful notes and stuff that your bullies put in your locker, sometimes you'll find a note threatening you to stay away from certain people and to do certain things that make you end up isolating yourself. You have zero clue, but that's all Noel...
Noel knows it's bad, but sometimes he has fantasies of bad things happening to you. It's dark and twisted, but his whole life is romanticizing tragedy, and he just loves you so much that he can't help himself but to imagine the worst possible scenarios, even going as far as to write about it sometimes.
Noel would never hurt you under any circumstance, you're way too special for him to do that to you!
...
But if you ever did try leaving, he does know a few ingredients to knock you out for a while.
Mischa Bachinski:
Mischa has never been one to cry, sure, he may get so angry that he feels like he wants to cry out from frustration, but rarely does he ever actually cry. It's a trait he's proud of, he feels like it makes him look not as weak. It makes him not look like the sobbing little boy he was when he was ripped away from his mother.
Truthfully, he hasn't cried since then, he would never allow himself to. If this world was only ever gonna break his heart over and over with no signs of comfort or relief, then he wasn't going to give it the satisfaction of him bawling his eyes out.
...
That was until Talia, the absolute love of his life, broke up with him.
He didn't think it was possible he could cry as much as he was right now, his eyes were puffy and red, his cheeks stained with tears that just kept flowing, and his phone laid on the bed in front of him showing past texts of him and Natalia. He hated how weak he felt, but god did this hurt.
Mischa had been crying for hours at this point, skipping school entirely as he knew he couldn't handle it today. He needed some kind of comfort, something to take his mind off of the hurt in his heart. And what better way to do that than to vent to some online strangers.
Finally grabbing his phone and swiping off his past text messages with Natalia, Mischa goes to the internet, gets on some old chat room site he uses occasionally to vent out his frustrations, and he taps a button to connect him with someone. It took a minute to connect him to someone, which he can only contribute to the crappy internet in the basement, but eventually he connected with someone which was, of course, you.
The conversation was a little awkward at the start, with you trying to navigate through the conversation without triggering your anxiety and with Mischa trying to find some segway to where he could just get all of the horrible emotions he was feeling in the moment out. Mischa did find his segway at some point, and you being the kind person you are, listened to his problems. You guys actually talked for hours and eventually also traded phone numbers to talk more. (P.S. I don't know who needs to hear this, but don't give out your phone number to random people online- Learn internet safety.)
Your long conversations didn't just stop there either; it might have been the fact that you both were strangers or the fact that this was online, but you both found comfort in each other and found it easy to tell each other everything. You learned so much about each other, you learned of Mischa's Youtube channel, how he used to live in Ukraine, how he is in the choir at his school, and Mischa learned about your anxiety, where you lived, and about your bullies. With that last one, he promised you if he ever met them, he wouldn't hesitate to punch them, something you thought was a joke but he was dead serious about.
All of this was to say that you and Mischa became good friends, even if it was online. You helped him in so many different ways, especially when it came to getting over Natalia, and he helped you gain confidence in yourself, it's almost too good to be true.
But it was true.
And it was only going up from here.
On a late Sunday night, you and Mischa were chatting like usual. Nothing was totally out of the ordinary with Mischa just ranting about this one rapper he likes and you listening, but as he is mid-way through his rant, you ask him, "Hey Mischa, what school do you go to?" To which, he immediately responded with, "St. Cassian High School, it's school for whiny, privileged kids, why?" Luckily and unbeknownst to Mischa, this was exactly the information you wanted to hear as you excitedly blurt out, "Oh good, I'm moving to Uranium and I didn't know if there were more than one high school or not."
That was the news of the century for Mischa, his eyes going wide as he heard you say that over the speaker in his phone. He practically jumped out of his seat, taking his phone with him as he ecstatically started to pace around the basement. "For reals!? Do not joke with me right now, it's not funny." But you weren't joking in the slightest, you meant every word.
You were moving to Uranium and going to St. Cassian. Mischa will finally be able to see his best friend in person and not even for just a few days, but for now and the foreseeable future. If Mischa is allowed to have just one good thing in life, he's glad it's this.
Mischa made sure to be kept up to date with everything that was happening during your move, calling you every chance he got just to see how it was going as a small part of him was fearful that things wouldn't end up the way he so wished they would...
Thankfully though, they did and as soon as you were in Uranium and let out of your new house by your parents, you and Mischa immediately met at the nearest park which was pretty close to your house.
To say that Mischa was beyond excited to see you was an understatement, he seriously felt like a kid again and had to calm himself down while he waited for you so he didn't scare you off or anything... Of course, that didn't last long though because as soon as you got there he couldn't contain his feelings and immediately ran over to hug you. He couldn't help himself..., you are just so different in person in the best of ways, you're so pretty, he loves the moments of silence you have when you are trying to think of something to say, he loves the way your hands are always messing with something on your person.
He's so glad to finally have someone near him who truly loves and understands him. Trust him when he says he is never letting you go.
Okay, so, even if this was only for the first few days you were in Uranium, Mischa quickly found himself loving having you cling to him since you didn't know anyone here. He finds it so incredibly adorable.
For whatever reason, Mischa refuses to let you pay for anything- If you ever want something, trust that he's gonna get it for you one way or another, and you are not going to be the one buying it.
As chivalrous as Mischa might be, he will also 100% make fun of you (in a joking way, of course.)
He will stop immediately though if it ever hits too close to home for you, your comfort is far more important to him than a laugh ever will be.
Once you start branching out to more and more people in Uranium, most notably Noel and Ocean, Mischa, for whatever reason, can't help but feel a little jealous... He knows it's good for you to make other friends and it's nice for you to get along with the people he's close to, but whenever Ocean holds on your arm or when Noel ruffles your hair...
It just gives him such an indescribable sense of loneliness and anger.
He wants to squish your cheeks so badly. (That's it, that's the head canon.)
If you are ever feeling down or your anxiety is really getting to you, Mischa will not hesitate to make an absolute fool out of himself trying to cheer you up.
He'll do whatever it takes, whether it be making fun of himself or saying the most unhinged things out of nowhere, he will do it.
So, in order to get to Mischa's room, aka the basement, there are gonna be times where you have to go past his parents. You know all about them from Mischa, and it's safe to say you aren't fond of them in the slightest, his parents aren't that fond of you either... They don't know what you are doing with that boy, but to them, you are way better off not associating with him.
You aren't leaving him though, never in a million years would you ever even think of the prospect.
Mischa never thought he would ever get over his break up with Natalia, not since it broke him in such awful ways that it took months for him to not think about her every second of the day.
And even when he did eventually get over it, he thought it would take a while for him to fall in love again. His heart was now so heavily guarded and he was so scared of having to open up about everything to someone new.
But then, to his absolute shock and somewhat horror, he didn't have to open up to someone new, quite the opposite in fact. Because there eventually came a day when he started to get all flustered and red-faced around you. When he first realized, he almost didn't want to accept it, fearful that it would totally ruin the great relationship you both have so carefully formed, one that he doesn't think he can handle losing.
But the feelings, no matter how hard he tried to push them down, kept coming up, along with the thoughts of holding you in his arms and kissing your soft lips...
He started to not mind those thoughts so much the more he thought about it. Maybe it would nice to hold your hand and whisper sweet nothings to you, in fact, maybe that would be the next best step in your relationship.
Mischa usually wasn't always quick to fall in love, but when he does, he falls hard.
He is always constantly craving your touch, especially in the moments when he can't have it like in class or when he's in his bedroom alone. He's a very touch-starved individual.
Mischa is always making an effort to learn and memorize everything about you, even to an unhealthy degree.
All he wants to do is kiss you, is that so much to ask for?
Mischa has no clue how you came to become friends with a guy like him, but he literally is so grateful for it. He loves you so much it hurts, and thinking of the fact that your paths may have never crossed is such a gut-wrenching thought process.
On the nights where he's missing you really bad, he'll literally just stay up all night scrolling through photos of you on his phone, wishing you were with him or that he could hear your voice.
And sometimes he even takes things a step further and decides to watch you sleep..., he just really needs to see you safe and near him.
Mischa is no stranger to bullies and he is not a stranger to beating said bullies up. He will be beating the crap out of anyone who even dares looks at you wrong, mark his words.
As cheesy as he knows it is, he writes secret admirer letters for you and stuffs them in your locker, most of which have a love poem written in Ukrainian. If you manage to decipher the letter, than be prepared because some of the things he writes about are incredibly disturbing...
Like, sometimes he wants to just murder someone because of how beautiful you are, his passion and love for you not being able to stay contained inside of him.
Ricky Potts:
One of the perks and downfalls of being in the St. Cassian chamber choir as someone who can't speak, is the fact that most of the time, the rest of the choir forgets he's there.
He could literally not be playing whatever instrument they stuck him with this time for the whole song, and Ocean will congratulate him on how well he did. It was a curse in the way that he always felt such an indescribable loneliness at times, but it was also a blessing in that he gets to do one of his favorite activities, people watch! Which was great to do with the rest of the choir since they were fascinating individuals.
And he never really expected this to change as Ocean had been failing for months to get anyone new to join the choir, so he just assumed this was it, this was the group he'd be stuck with before he graduated. Even if he was totally content with that, he definitely didn't mind having you sit next to him on some random whim of Ocean's, giving him a bit of company.
Although you both didn't talk much to begin with, he because he is unable to and you because of your anxiety, eventually you both picked up subtle ways to communicate without speaking or ASL. You both would give each other a certain look that could mean a variety of things or you'd both pick up on each other's body language and act accordingly.
Ricky does wish you'd talk to him at least a little bit, but this was fine to, he gets not everyone is the talkative type. Little did he know, though, that you wanted to be able to talk to him just as much as he did. Ricky seemed really sweet to you and you enjoyed how easily you both could read each other, it was nice, effortless acquaintanceship that you longed to turn into more. But to do that, you'd have to do the one thing that you really hated doing..., talking.
Despite wanting to be his friend, you sure as hell dragged your quiet acquaintance out... It took a very long time for you to get a word out to him without dying on the spot and even longer to be able to actually speak with him.
But when you did, Ricky was so happy for both of you. Even throughout all your stuttering, pauses, and awkward glances away, Ricky really did appreciate stepping out of your comfort zone to talk with him and his way of repaying you was to fill whatever awkward silences with his yapping.
Whether you know ASL or not, he will be talking about everything and anything. People usually don't give him the time of day, so you best believe Ricky has a lot to talk about with you. You don't mind though because it was either that or dealing with a silence that would surely only make your nerves worse..., so obviously you'd choose the former.
For Ricky, he's pretty much known since the day you first showed up to rehearsals that you had some anxiety, it was obvious to him in the way you'd glance around the room occasionally to see what others were doing before copying them, when you would fidget with your hands, and how you'd refuse to make eye contact with anyone. He's very aware of your anxiety and he always tries his best to be someone comforting for you, someone quiet and away from the chaos that is the choir.
Ricky once read that taking walks or just getting out into nature helps people who get overwhelmed really easily, so he pretty much incorporates that whenever he can into your schedules, which means you both usually walk together in peaceful silence during the weekend or after school.
He will not stop trying to get you into every movie franchise he loves, he wants to be able to talk about it with you, but it's really hard when he has to explain the lore 3 times over every single time he has a conversation about it with you.
Since you're stuck on the sidelines with him during choir, he will be trying to teach you some of the instruments they use. Granted, he definitely doesn't know how to play all of them, but he is a very good teacher for the ones he does know!
Almost every sweater he owns will now be in your closet because Ricky just loves seeing you wear his clothes, specifically his sweaters because he thinks you look so cozy in them.
It's also nice to know that other guys can see you wearing things of his and know that you guys are close, even if it's not in the way they think. :)
He likes to draw you for his warmup sketches for no particular reason other than he just likes to draw you. He doesn't show you most of them, but the ones he does show you, he will melt so fast at any praise you give him on them.
Ricky will be trying everything to help you manage your anxiety since he sees how hard it can be for Penny, so he wants to do his best to help you! He'll teach you new breathing exercises, help you find distractions, help you through the 333 rule, etc. Even if none of it works out, he definitely won't stop trying until he finds something that helps you.
If you ever need to like, hold his hand or something when you start to feel overwhelmed, trust that he is right there and his hand is ready to be held! He'll even let you squeeze it as tight as you need to.
Pretty much all of your hangouts will be in private since Ricky isn't too big on going out and junk, he just prefers to have you both in his room or in your room doing whatever. Another big reason though is because he wants to have you to himself.
Now, St. Cassian is a catholic school in a small town in the middle of nowhere Canada, which, as one can probably tell, isn't the most accepting place for people who the population perceives as different. And what they perceive as different, unfortunately includes one Uranium's only nonverbal disabled kid, Ricky.
Ricky's dealt with small amounts of bullying before, mostly in terms of him being neglected and left out by the other kids purposefully, but usually none of the kids at St. Cassian bothered him that much. That was until he was "graced" with the presence of his newest bully, Max Warner.
For god knows what reason, Max was hellbent on making Ricky's life a living hell, be it him tripping Ricky in the hallways, messing with his AAC device, or writing nasty stuff about him on his locker, Max seemed to not be able to get enough of Ricky's suffering. Ricky, being the pacifist he is, wasn't gonna fight him about it necessarily, but he did make sure to tell teachers and the school counselors about it so Max could hopefully get into some kind of trouble. Which he did, but even then Max would just continue on like nothing happened and it was seriously starting to really irk Ricky...
But the most he thought he was able to do was vent out his frustrations to you and continue hammering the teacher about it, he knew no one else was gonna stand up to Max about this since everyone else pretty much ignored his existence and the few who don't, like the choir, didn't know about Max's tyraid. You were the only one who did know.
Never would he have expected you to do anything about it though.
On the tragic day of another bullying attempt by Max, you and Ricky were walking down the hallway that led to the choir room, which was thankfully mostly empty due to it being after school. You both were chatting like normal, not at all expecting Max to just appear behind you both out of nowhere and to grab Ricky by the collar, causing him to lose his balance a bit. It was something Ricky had gotten quite used to, evident by the exhausted, defeated look upon his face as Max just started spouting all sorts of horrible things about him.
You weren't used to this though and watching someone treat Ricky like that, despite the inner panic you were feeling, made a large wave of anger pass through you. No one should be treated like that, especially not Ricky, someone you care so much about and would never want to see hurt.
Listening to Max just go on and on, mocking Ricky and his disability..., there came a point where you just couldn't take it anymore. You couldn't stand to stand aside like everyone else has done in the past, you couldn't stand to watch such a pathetic individual torment your friend.
You could barely process what you had done in those next 10 seconds, other than your fist hurting like hell, and you rushing Ricky out of the hallways and into the choir room. It was only after you both made it and you had the chance to breathe where you could look down at your fist and see the blood on it, the way you got it rushing back to you. You punched Max square in the face. You punched him so hard that his nose started to bleed and a sickening crunch was heard whenever your fist made contact with his face.
You could barely believe you did that... and neither could Ricky.
He would have never in a million years guessed that you were gonna punch someone for him, it was so incredibly surreal... And he loved it. The moment was still playing fresh in his mind, but he would play it 10 times over just to see you care so much about him that you protected him when he couldn't do it himself. His heart was racing so fast and even if he's sure Max will have his head for this, he can't find it in himself to care.
Because he loves you.
He loves you so much.
Remember how I said that if you ever feel overwhelmed, he'd let you hold his hand? Well, now he holds your hand every chance he gets, even if you aren't overwhelmed at all.
Ricky will be getting into everything you are into, no questions asked. Do you like a certain show? He loves that show too! Is there a certain food place you like? What do you know, that's his favorite place as well! Do you collect something? Well good news, because he collects it to and you can have his collection!
Please marry him-
Ricky has been interested in a lot of things in his 17 years on this Earth and one of those things just so happened to be, flowers. Meaning he does know about Floriography and he loves to gift you flowers with specific meanings. His favorites being, Aster (Symbol of love), Baby's breath (Everlasting Love), pink Carnations (I’ll never forget you), and a lot more. If you ever catch on though, he'd probably pretend that he had no idea or say that he meant it in a platonic sense-
You've known about Zolar for a while now, but Ricky gets so excited when you bring it up or if you remember the small details he's shared with you about it, it gets him so happy because he likes to know that you actually care and listen to him.
Ricky might not want to do too much in the case of his bullies, but when it comes to your bullies, it's a totally different story. The fact that anyone tries to bully is reason enough in his book that they don't deserve any semblance of peace or kindness, and he will do anything in his power to get them off your back, and I mean anything.
Ricky, for some reason, likes to smell like you. It's something he knows he's probably picked up from his cats, but he likes it because it's like he's telling other people he's yours and you're his.
He is always so tempted to kiss you in every single moment, but mostly when you are asleep. He thinks you look so adorable and unaware when you sleep..., he really can't resist you sometimes.
He considers every hang out you guys have as a date, even the ones where you both aren't doing anything but just laying next to each other's side. He doesn't care if you both didn't agree it was a date or something, he knows you love him so that makes this a date. Obviously.
Penny Lamb:
You know how most people tend to make friends with those similar to them? Be it that they have the same habits as you, they act the same way as you, they dress the same way, or anything else, people make friends by those they can find a connection with.
And that theory was exactly the one Ezra Lamb had thought of when he made up his mind on introducing you to his sister, Penny.
For some context, you had met Ezra on one of your late night strolls through the park. It definitely wasn't a ceremonious meeting as you quickly learned the reason he was there was because he was selling medication to some college kids, but for some reason you both felt compelled to talk to each other. He seemed to be very well versed when dealing with your anxiety as you learned the more times you both bumped into each other. Apparently it's because, as he mentions to you when you ask him about it, his sister dealt with the same thing.
Well, one thing led to another and you two became friends despite your very different personalities. Ezra, of course, eventually wanted to introduce you to his sister. To him, you were both quite similar in that you were the same age, you were both girls, and you both had crippiling anxiety. And going back to his theory from earlier, it just made sense to him that you both would be good friends.
That's what led you to where you were now, in Penny and Ezra's shared bedroom with you in Penny awkwardly shaking hands as Ezra introduces you to each other before leaving the room so you both can "get to know each other."
Yeah, you both didn't do anything of the sort, in fact, you both didn't speak a single word to each other the whole time you were there. It was a lot more awkward than you expected and without having Ezra there to mediate or anything, you both were just too anxious to make a move which really sucks, because Penny's heard a lot about you from Ezra and she really wanted this to work out...
But alas, it didn't and you went home about an hour or two later without a friend gained. You kind of just assumed that would be the end of your interactions, maybe you'd see each other once in a blue moon, considering Uranium isn't all that big and you both went to the same school together, but that was all you really anticipated to happen.
Of course, at that moment you didn't realize how pushy Ezra can be when he's made up his mind about something. See he heard from Penny that you two didn't end up talking much..., or rather at all, which didn't surprise him very much, but he had already made up his mind that your friendship was going to happen, and he doesn't change his mind that easily.
Cue Ezra basically coaching Penny through a conversation with you, plus the added benefit of you joining the choir, and that's how you got Penny nervously coming up to you after one choir practice and just lore dumping on you about lions. Normally, Penny would have never agreed to this, but as stated before, Ezra was pushy and Penny did think you both could be good friends... So she stepped out of her comfort zone to talk to you.
It was pretty confusing for you since she didn't seem all that talkative when you first met her, not to mention you had no clue Ezra was that keen on you guys getting along, but after about the third or fourth time she's done it, you got used to it and eventually got comfortable around her enough to add in a few words of your own which she was ecstatic about.
You both ended up realizing how similar you were and it was really nice to have someone you could connect with about anxiety and how much it affects your life. You kind of wish you met her sooner actually, she understands how you tick a lot more than the rest of the choir can and that's extremely helpful when your anxiety starts getting to the point where you like, can't breathe, or you feel like you're on the verge of a panic attack.
Ezra was right, it's good to have a friend who just gets you like Penny does.
Penny is really good at helping you manage your anxiety, but hers... not so much. For whatever reason, she just cannot handle it by herself and she always ends up trying to convince herself that she's fine, even when she's not... Please help her through it because she's not gonna be able to do it herself-
Penny loves to gift you random trinkets and doodads, meaning you will have a lot of random rocks and small knickknacks she finds from the forest and garage sales, respectively.
Whenever you guys text, Penny either writes some of the most formal text messages you'll ever receive or utter nonsense that requires a Sherlock Holmes to decipher, it all really depends on her mood.
Penny will be subtly trying to get you into Johnny Moon (she isn't subtle at all), and it's like, even if you aren't a fan, you have to respect the effort.
As you guys grow as friends, Penny just gets such strong feelings of wanting to protect you even if she doesn't know from what... She just knows that if anyone puts their hands on you, they are gonna be way more than sorry.
A habit you've gained from hanging out with Penny so much is that sometimes when there are awkward silences between you and someone else, you'll just info dump like her to fill the space. You didn't even notice you started doing it until you did it around Penny and she pointed it out to you-
Penny knows like, every breathing exercise in the book, and it honestly is her favorite trick in helping her calm down since it forces her to focus on her breathing rather than whatever is making her anxious. She'll definitely teach you all of them as well if you want, though with you, she kind of prefers taking you somewhere secluded to calm you down there so it's just you two instead of you two and a ton of other people.
Please let her ramble about why she thinks certain characters have anxiety or why certain characters are really bad representations of people with anxiety, she needs to get it off her chest and you're the only one who'll understand! :(
Penny waited for a minute before introducing you to her one other friend, Tammy, since she knows Tammy can be kind of a lot sometimes... When you guys do meet and you get to know each other better, trust that Tammy adores you!
So, it's embarrassing for Penny to talk about since she has a bit of a bad track record when it comes to her crushes, but for a while now, Penny has been feeling a certain way about you. She wouldn't exactly call it love yet, but she can't help but smile so brightly whenever you are near her and her hands get all sweaty when you are holding them..., it may not be love yet, but she wholeheartedly loves having you with her.
...
It wasn't love yet, but it sure is love now.
Penny's love for you really started during a sleepover you two were having. It was really late at night, about 2 AM, and Penny could tell you were about to pass out from the way your eyes could barely manage to stay open as you watched the movie currently playing on her television.
You two were already sitting side-by-side and holding hands, but that's not what made Penny's heart start skipping beats, no, it was when, not only a few minutes later, your head hit her shoulder and started to nuzzle into her neck. She knows you were only doing it because you were about to fall asleep, but that made her so incredibly flustered that she went still for a good 30 minutes, trying not to breathe too hard that you would move away.
Having you be so comfortable around her that you would get so touchy just made her fall hard from the brink she was once on..., she can't believe she's saying it, but she loves you.
The first thing Penny does when she finds out that she likes you is to increase the amount of gifts she gives you by tenfold, she finds it's one of the only ways she can show her interest in you without exploding on the spot.
If you ever want to, she would be more than happy to have you hold her face while you do her makeup. :)
Penny isn't the greatest when dealing with bullies, but she'll try a lot harder for you! She always makes sure to ask you before she does anything though since she doesn't want to cross your boundaries or anything.
She somehow convinced you to let her kiss you on the forehead or cheek every once in a while. She will always say it's platonic, but she does not mean that one bit-
Penny practically makes you stay over at her house every night and if you can't, then believe me when I say that she'll be getting into your house one way or another. (She probably somehow has keys to your house or she gets through your window in the least elegant fashion possible.)
She loves you so much that she can't even describe it in words, which she has tried as evidenced by all the letters under her bed. It's so difficult to describe how her bones feel like they are crumpling every time you look at her or how her body feels like it's gonna cave in on itself with every little touch... Seriously, you make her so sick and she cannot get enough of it. It would be impossible for her to let you go.
She isn't really the type to get jealous, but having to share you with the rest of the choir, because they all might kill each other if they don't, is extremely hard for her as she just wants to keep you all to herself.
She wonders if you like her room enough to want to stay there for a while...
Constance Blackwood:
You don't think you have ever walked so fast in your life as you did today...
Bullies aren't anything new to you, being the anxious person you are, you've dealt with your fair share of awful people before. But in the past, at least you had somewhere to run away to, a sanctuary where no one could mock you or get to you. However, you moved. Now you are in Uranium with a whole new group of bullies and no place to run off to.
Hearing their insults and mocking tones from behind you, your pace kept growing as you held onto your backpack straps tightly. You had no idea where you were going at this point, all you wanted was to be away from them. You had been at this for a while now, and you were so over it..., you didn't want to potentially lead them to your house, so where were you to go?
Finally lifting your head off the ground, eyes scanning the area around you, your eyes get caught on a small cafe down the block labeled, "Blackwood Cafe." With no other place to go and the cafe seemingly like your best option at the moment, you hurriedly dashed over and went inside. Closing the door behind you as you catch your breath, you glance over the cozy cafe you're now in, silently admiring the cute pastel colors and warm interior.
Thankfully, there were a few people already in there, you just know it would be incredibly awkward if you were the only one, and you had also luckily had some cash on you, giving you a reason to stay here while your bullies hopefully left you alone. You went up to the counter, ordered, and got seated, but even if you were safe in here and able to just breathe for a second, you actually had no idea if your bullies would leave you alone when you inevitably have to leave... What if they just waited till you walked out to jump you? What if they come inside and no one stops them from dragging you out??
God, you hated your anxiety... You can feel your heart pounding and your hands shaking even if nothing was happening, you could only hope no one would notice.
And no one did! ...Except for one girl, Constance Blackwood.
Constance had always been one to observe the cafe's patrons while they enjoyed their treats, it's a habit she picks up from her dad who is always looking to make sure their customers were having a good time. So, it should come as no surprise that she would notice and observe you too. Except instead of seeing a content face or a calm demeanor, she saw your anxiety-ridden one, one that immediately made her frown with concern.
She knows she has no right stepping into a stranger's business, but you aren't really a stranger to her. She can see your slightly disheveled St. Cassian uniform and she recognizes you from the choir so... doesn't that give her a bit of a reason to ask what's wrong? Constance quickly grabs a muffin and tells her parents she's gonna go on a quick break before walking over to your booth in the corner, much to your confusion. "Uhm, hey! I don't know if you remember, but I'm Constance Blackwood, we met in choir the other day. I just wanted to come over and ask if you were okay since you seem a little..., uh, down?"
Little did Constance know though that those few simple words would change things forever.
You tried your best to fend her off at the start, shakily explaining that you're fine and there was nothing to worry about, but her warm and caring words made it hard to keep pretending everything was fine... So, even if you still weren't sure about it, you decided to tell her what was wrong. You both ended up talking for hours, even past closing, as Constance comforted you and you ended up moving on to other topics to lighten up. Even if it was a surprising encounter to say the least, you're really glad Constance came over and asked if you were okay, it was nice to know someone cared...
Once it started getting late, she took you home just in case your bullies were still there, which they thankfully weren't, and you both parted ways for the night.
For the night.
Of course the bullying didn't magically stop after that, so you found yourself at the Blackwood Cafe more and more often. Eventually it even became an everyday thing. You truly did feel bad about this at the start since you didn't want to be a bother, but Constance always reassured you that you weren't and she enjoyed your company. She means that too, you are a lot easier to talk with compared to Ocean or Penny, and she finds herself always having a smile when she thinks of your conversations later that night.
Really, it wasn't surprising at all that you two would become friends with how often you spent time together, and Constance couldn't be happier about it. Even if the people in Uranium were awful, she was happy she could be friends with someone who wasn't. :)
Constance may not know every trick when dealing with anxiety, but she's a very good listener and will let you ramble as much as you need while being so incredibly supportive.
It doesn't matter how long you've been friends for, Constance quite literally trusts you with her life.
Sometimes when she is feeling a little silly, she'll invite you to her house in the middle of the night to do some late night baking. It's basically her therapy and why not share it with her new favorite person?
Her little brother is obsessed with you and Constance has zero clue why- Like, anytime you're over, he'll try to monopolize all your time and he is always asking about you. Constance doesn't know if she should be jealous of you or of him.
Constance tends to people watch, but she doesn't just watch anyone, she likes to watch you in particular... a lot.
Like, anytime you are around, a lot.
She also talks about you a ton, leading her parents or her friends to have to shut her up so she'll talk about something different- She's glad they do to, because's she sure she can talk about you for hours and she's not sure how deep and dark her thoughts on you can go...
She loves having you try on her glasses, she thinks it's so cute.
If Constance is ever the one feeling anxious, you'll likely be the first person she goes to in order to calm down. This is mainly because she knows you know how to deal with it but also because she finds your presence calming.
You're also welcome to do the same with her! It could quite literally be the dead of night, but if you need her, she'll be there for you.
They might be a little outdated, but Constance likes to make mixtapes for you with a bunch of songs that either remind her of you or songs she thinks you'll like. She might put a few ABBA songs in there too for good measure. :)
Falling in love (She noticed Ocean stealing you away from her and she got super jealous, where she soon realized her feelings.)
Constance gets that you are a busy person and that you can't be near her all the time, she really does, she understands that you have other friends to tend to that aren't just her.
So why is it that she feels so gross watching people like Ocean and Ricky steal you away from her? Why is it that she feels such an overwhelming urge to scream as Noel fixes your hair, or when Penny holds your hand, or when Mischa is constantly stealing your attention from her?? What is it that makes her so... so..., jealous?
She has no idea, she really doesn't. These are both of your friends she's talking about, she has no reason to be jealous of them! They all just want the best for you and you deserve to be loved and cared for. Yet, it's like she's walking on Legos every time you aren't paying attention to her.
These were the thoughts that plagued Constance's mind for days on end, even months. She wasn't sure why she was feeling this way, but god did she hate it. It was easy to see something was bothering her as well with how she would go straight into her room after school and pace around anxiously, her mind filled with thoughts no one can see. And truthfully, her parents were starting to get worried... This wasn't like their wonderful girl at all and they hated seeing her so conflicted.
So, being the one pair of decent parents in Uranium, they stop her on her way to her room one day and ask what's wrong. Constance was extremely reluctant to talk about it at first because, what do two adults who've been around much longer than she has know about jealousy? But they were pushy and she relented, telling them everything about the jealous and how she likes having your attention on her, getting it all out.
The laughing they did after that made Constance beyond frustrated-
Through tears in their eyes and the laughs, they had to explain what she was experiencing was likely a crush. That made everything click for Constance, who couldn't help stare at her floor in embarrassment and realization...
She loves you...
"Oh..."
Constance gets lowkey kind of nervous when she's around you now since she doesn't want her crush to be too obvious..., eventually the anxiety will melt and she can be herself around you, but for the first few minutes every time she sees you, she just feels so awkward.
She will be making sure you are well hydrated and fed, and you are gonna like it! She loves you too much to watch you waste away!!
Please let her have movie nights with you, she wants to watch all of your favorite movies and have you ramble about them to her. :'(
She loves squishing your cheeks.
She may or may not be stalking your social media so she can know what you are up to all the time....
Constance doesn't know if she should be grateful or not that her parents pointed out that she likes you because now her jealousy has basically tripled and it's only getting worse by the second. She wholeheartedly wants to just punt people whenever they interrupt her time with you.
You have bullies? Well not anymore, she is not letting anyone be disrespectful to you in or out of her presence. She always somehow finds out if someone is spouting nasty things about you and she will be doing something about it.
A/N: I'm struggling, guys... I have no clue why it takes me so long to finish requests, but I swear I'm working on them! :'(
Hii, I was wondering if you could write a Mischa Bachinski x gn!reader fic where they're on a choir field trip and they're jokingly flirting with each other and one thing leads to another and they're making out, then one of the other choir members (preferably Noel or Ocean) walks in on them to tell them that they have to go somewhere?
Sorry that that was such a long request with little to no details
☁️Mischa x Reader: Caught Making Out☁️
Hello! No need to apologize, I just hope this fic is to your liking. ^^;
You and Mischa Bachinski definitely had a... special kind of relationship.
In the most technical sense of the word, you two weren't dating. There was never a moment where you two looked into each other's eyes and whispered those sacred words, "I love you."
But you both were a little too close to be just friends..., that much was evident with the several longing gazes, playful words, and bright smiles, which all only seemed to grow as the days passed on. Mischa was fun, exciting, and so incredibly passionate in everything he does. Although you two never crossed that boundary between friends and lovers, it would be quite easy to mistake you two as such with how lovingly he speaks of you. Every word is filled with so much adoration and love that it almost becomes too much to bear, saccharine in the best of ways.
So of course, with this strange, yet oddly comfortable relationship you both found yourselves in, it isn't at all uncommon to see you two mercilessly flirting with one another. Nor, was it uncommon for you two to make a sort of competition out of it.
You and Mischa are sat in the deteriorating leather seats of Constance's parent's minivan, the off-grey coloring a testament to how old the vehicle likely was. The van's metal doors shielded you both from the chilly fall air that flowed outside, its harsh bite even colder due to how early it was, 7:30 AM to be exact.
There was only one reason you two would be out here this early and that was that it was time for yet another choir performance, something Mischa was clearly not that enthused about. Really, who would want to get up this early in the cold to go sing to some old people at the nursery home?
...Okay, maybe Ocean, but she doesn't count.
It was only you two in the van as the rest talked outside about god knows what, it could be about Noel forgetting his sheet music even though we all know he just lost it because he didn't want to perform or it could be Ocean giving some monologue on staying positive and doing your very best, whatever it was, they were taking forever to get into the freaking van.
An exhausted sigh escapes your lips at the scenario you were stuck in, your eyes drifting away from the skies beyond the window to your favorite Ukrainian, Mischa Bachinski. Suddenly, as you watch him scrolling mindlessly on his phone, a thought pops up in your brain, one that has the potential to hopefully cure the seemingly neverending boredom you are feeling at the moment.
You lean in a little closer to him, a smirk tugging on your lips. "Oh, Mischa~" The words came out in a singsongy tone causing the boy's eyebrow to raise as he directed his attention from his phone to you, his hand subconsciously flipping the phone over so the screen faces in thigh. "Yes?" Mischa was undoubtedly a little confused about why you have that cute stupid grin on your face, but there wasn't much he could do other than just play along for now.
Fully aware of his confusion, you lean in a little more to say, "Have I ever told you that you have pretty eyes?" There was no ounce of shame or embarrassment in your voice as you spoke, the sudden compliment making Mischa's eyes widen slightly in surprise before his neutral expression slowly twisted into an amused one. He knows what you are doing here and although he definitely doesn't mind it, he isn't gonna let you go so easily.
This means war.
Mischa makes no effort to lean away despite how close you are, yet he doesn't lean in either. It's almost like he's daring you to come closer. "Really? Have I told you that I adore the way your hair shines in the sun?" To which you reply with, "I don't believe so..., but there's no way I haven't at least told you once that you're way too attractive for your own good." The tension that was growing between you two was palpable, only growing more with each flirty remark you would throw each other's way.
Deciding to poke the bear, so to speak, your body shifts ever so slightly closer to Mischa, your hand inching towards his in a teasing manner. This new change in position leaves Mischa to narrow his eyes slightly, "...Are you asking me to hold your hand or something?" You tilt your head coyly in response, making Mischa roll his eyes with mirth. "Do you want to hold my hand?" "You know I don't mind holding it and you if that's what you're asking for, кохана (my love)." Your hand inches closer and closer to his, your eyes not tearing away from his for a second... Well, that last part wasn't true, your eyes definitely were focused on one other thing, which was the soft pair of pink lips that lay on his face.
It would be so easy to just lean in a little closer and kiss him, dessolving all the tension that just sprang up from your little war into a heartfelt, passionate kiss.
All you'd have to do is lean in.
...
Mischa, as if thinking the same thing you were, starts leaning in as you do, his hand finally engufling yours as your fingers entagle one another. His eyes stare so longingly into yours as the fire you started is so desprately asking to be tended to, to keep banking it until you can't anymore.
Yet just as your lips were almost touching his, the sounds of the choir slowly opening the van doors caused you both to jump back to your respective seats. It seems everyone was ready to head out to Uranium's one nursing home as Constance takes the wheel, Ocean in the passenger seat, Ricky and Noel sitting side by side in the second row, and leaving you and Mischa in the back.
And as much you wanted to keep going, despite what you know was common manners, you also really didn't want to get scolded by Ocean today and were sure Mischa didn't either.
So you two settle for glancing in each others directions once in a while, the grin you both had never leaving your faces.
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Honestly, with how close everything in Uranium is to each other, you really wonder if you needed to drive to the nursing home at all or if walking could've got you there just fine...
It really didn't take long for the van to stop at an ancient-looking nursing home, which was surprisingly still allowed to operate despite its rundown appearance.
Ocean quickly ushered everyone out of their seats and into the nursing home, muttering something about being late even though Constance assured her you had made it on time. Everyone did make it in though, going over to the small area they had cleared out for your performance, and you all were just mingling as you awaited the elders.
You and Mischa were off to the side, like usual, though this time, Mischa seemed to have something up his sleeve...
Apparently, not having had enough of your flirting earlier, Mischa suddenly comments out of the blue, "You look like a dweeb." His words, although sounding like an insult, were said in a playful tone so it was hard to mistake it as such. You roll your eyes and shoot back, "And you look like a dork." Gaining a snort from Mischa who lightly bumped his shoulder into you. "It's all for you babe," The word babe made your face scrunch up, the fake way he said getting a kick out of you as well, your hand moving to your mouth to hide your giggling.
However, as soon as your hand started going up to cover your smile, Mischa's expression dropped slightly. The Ukrainian gently took your hand away from your face, a small frown on his lips but a smirk still tugging upward on it. He mumbles to you, "Don't do that..." Confused and slightly concerned at this turn in behavior, you ask, "Uhm, why?" Your voice dropped its playful act as it grew slightly serious.
However, that turns out to be unwarrented as Mischa, being as sly as ever, replies with, "The world needs to be graced with a smile as beautiful as yours." The corniness of it all made you groan, acting frustrated, though the way your face lights up gives you away. You shake your head at him, pulling away from his grasp. "...That was so cheesy, never say that again you dork." You were kind of serious about that too, you weren't sure how many more cheesy pick-up lines you could take before you would have to kiss his stupid face. Mischa, not believing your words for one second, is quick to once again grab your hand. "Come on! This is flirting in Canada, no? Cheesy and corny?" He's seen a few romance movies set here and in the States and this is just the kind of flirting that they do, which usually isn't his cup of tea at all but he can't say no to getting a chance at teasing you. You're adorable when you're annoyed at him. Reciprocating his touches, you squeeze his hands tighter and sigh, "No, that's just you being you, loverboy." As always when you speak to him, a grin makes its way to Mishca's features. "Whatever you say Мила (Sweetheart)."
As you two stared at each other for a moment, eyes locking in a look of fondness, both of your attention was soon taken over by the sound of footsteps, which while looking over to where the sound was, happened to be the group of elders you were performing for. With a small breath, you let go of Mischa's hand to get into your place, as did Mischa.
Hopefully, this performance goes well... If you had to be here, might as well have a good time doing it, right?
As the empty seats in front of you were quickly filled to the brim with all different types of people, Constance stepped up and started speaking, "Hello everyone! ...Uhm, we are the St. Cassian High School chamber choir and we are here to perform a song written by-"
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In an act of mercy placed onto you by some god above, the performance finally ended after a good 30-45 minutes! You were immensely glad it was over..., you weren't even sure if any of those people had blinked the whole performance through but you were sure that they could not care less that you guys were there. You guessed that old people so close to death probably had a lot more things to worry about than a group of teenagers singing with zero enthusiasm for them at 8 AM, but you digress.
Packing was pretty easy and you soon made your way to the nursing home lobby where now Ocean was chatting with the receptionist despite Noel's obviously annoyed expression and attempts to drag her out of there. You were practically dragging your feet from the area of the performance to the lobby, your bag feeling heavy in your hands. You had only stopped from hearing a soft chuckle beside you, which when you looked up to see who it was, it turned out to be from Mischa.
Rolling your eyes at him from finding your exhaustion amusing, you groan out, "I am so glad that's over..., I don't think I could've stood another moment of those dead-eyed stares in the crowd." You're sure you'll have trouble sleeping tonight just remembering how dead those people looked... Mischa seemed to agree as well, his face lighting up slightly as he nodded, "That's what I'm saying!"
Straightening your back, your hand reaches up to rub the back of your neck. "I mean, I guess it could've ended up worse, but I still would've preferred to spend my Saturday morning doing anything else." This throwaway comment, despite not it being your intention to, interested Mischa in a way you knew was trouble... He tilts his head, crossing his arms as he asks, "Yeah, like what?" You've been playing this game all day though, meaning you knew exactly what he was trying to pull here and you knew you had to beat him to it before he goes off yapping something embarrassing again.
"Oh you know..., sleeping in, reading a good book, scrolling on my phone, texting this one handsome guy I happen to know very well..." Elongating the last few words to show your intent, Mischa played off of your words with, "Well of course, he would be emotionally devastated if you didn't." He places his left hand on his chest where his heart is, an amused look on his face all the while. Shrugging off his fake hurt, you placed a hand on his shoulder and smiled. "I'm sure he would be."
A silence was then put between you both for a moment as Mischa thought of something to say, his heart for some reason beating a little more quickly like it has been every time he's been around you today. He swears he might get a heart attack from you being all touchy like this... Taking a deep breath to slow his rapid heartbeats, he speaks earnestly, a big contrast to the playful atmosphere you two had created by flirting all day.
"...I think he would be glad that today happened though." Your head tilts in small surprise at the shift in his tone, though you swiftly reply with, "Oh really? Why's that?" A genuine curiosity lies in your tone as you wonder the reason for this mood shift, one that you can only hope to mean good things.
Mischa just shrugs, a genuine, heartfelt smile replacing his usual smirk as he drops the "he" mentions. "Because I got to spend time today with my favorite person on the planet." Like his words, his hand gently moves up from his side to your hair as he runs his fingers through it, pushing some behind your ear endearingly. It was safe to say you were definitely a little shocked at the sudden sweetness coming from him, though that only made butterflies soar through you as you made a small hum of acknowledgment, your body leaning over to be closer to his. "Hm..., well, I suppose then that I also wouldn't mind doing this over and over if it meant I got to spend more time with you." You try to match his fond words with your own, hoping that it makes him feel the tremendous adoration you carry for him. He deserves it after all.
And maybe he did feel it as he nods his head slowly, his fingers never once stop twirling your locks into coils. Trying to bring some light back into the conversation, Mischa chuckles, "Good because have you looked at the choir calendar lately?" That question brings you out of your sappy mood and into one of growing dread. You mutter back, "...No, but now I'm kind of afraid to."
The male shakes his head, "It was scarring."
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After Ocean somehow took a good 20 minutes talking with the receptionist and two other elderly patients who walked by, Noel finally got her to come with everyone else to the van. This was quite unfortunate timing as you and Mischa both needed to use the restroom at this point...
You could hear the frustration in Noel's voice as he said, "Be quick, I don't want to wait out here more than I already had to."
At first, it really wasn't anything special, you both ran off to the nursing home bathrooms and did what you needed to. It really was just gonna be a short trip!
...
But then when you came out, saw Mischa, and noticed you both had a moment alone...
Well, all the flirting and lingering touches that happened today just kind of made you both come to your breaking point.
Like, you couldn't keep your hands off of each other as you slipped into the girl's restroom while you both practically ate each other's faces off kind of breaking point.
Mischa had hurriedly closed the door behind you both before his hands made their way to your waist, slowly inching their way under your uniform shirt. A small gasp escapes your lips from his bold actions, your body moving with his as you moved back until you hit the ledge of the sinks.
Your hands desperately shoot up to run through his hair, tugging as gently as you can while directing him through the kiss. This was probably the most passionate kiss you've ever had with the boy..., the rest of your small pecks couldn't even compare to what you were feeling at this moment as his rough lips collided with yours.
Both of your breaths had turned ragged at this point as his teeth started to lightly nibble on your bottom lip, begging for access as you made soft groans that were music to his ears. Even if you could playfully deny him a little longer, you were far too pent up to even do that... You were sure he was too with how his tongue immediately darts out of his mouth and into yours as soon as you let him.
This was so different from what you're used to, yet you didn't mind...
In fact, you were living for the fire that was building inside of you every minute his hands slowly inched up your body, his calloused fingers making you shiver as they got higher and higher up. The way the butterflies in your chest grew tenfold, the neediness he exhibited, and the love you felt for him were all things you didn't think you would ever grow tired of.
God, you loved him so much...
Mischa, of course, loved you just as much if not so much more. From your eyes, your hair, the way you talk, the things you like, everything you were was just so magical to him. You were everything he could ever dream of and the fact that he gets to touch and kiss you like this, to have his lips trail down from your lips to your neck and hear the wonderful noises that come out as a result makes him feel like the luckiest man in the whole world.
And he was sure he was.
Not just anyone gets to hold you like this, so closely that you can hear how fast his heart was beating for you. He is so grateful you let him be with you like this... You were his and he was yours.
As the fire inside of you both continued to grow with every kiss and touch you two shared, what you both had failed to notice in the midst of your passionate makeout session was a certain red-head walking in only to have her jaw dropped to the floor because of the scene playing out in front of her...
When it feels like it just started, your makeout was just as quickly ended by none other than Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg who started to berate you two in sheer disbelief. "What do you two think you're doing!? Doing such inappropriate acts in a nursing home for crying out loud!! You should be ashamed of yourselves!" She speedwalks over to you two and rips you off one another with a strength you didn't know she possessed and didn't get a chance to question as she immediately starts to go into a tirade on how despicable your actions were.
She also apparently wasn't the only one searching for you two as Noel soon came in, presumably after hearing Ocean start shouting about inappropriate behavior and something else about celibacy.
With a hand covering his eyes, this was the women's restroom after all and he wasn't a perv, Noel slowly walks in and asks, "What on god's green Earth are you shrieking about Ocean?" To which Ocean forces herself to stop her speech for a moment, whip her head around to face Noel, and say, "These two were making out!" before going back to her speech. That statement had caught Noel completely off guard as he dropped his hand to face you with a look of sheer disgust and his words were not much different as he mumbled, "In the nursing home bathrooms..., really???"
Truly, you had to be so lucky Noel liked the two of you because if he didn't, he definitely would've let you continue to be berated by Ocean for doing something so strange. But alas, he also wanted to get home before his shift started.
Walking up to you three, Noel puts his hand on Ocean's shoulder and starts to push her away from you and Mischa and outside of the bathroom. The redhead almost started to complain before eventually just giving an annoyed huff as she rips herself away from Noel, walking out herself. "...I can walk you know." You can hear her voice ring out as Noel motions you both to walk out with him, "Let's just get out of here..., it's actually freezing."
Standing still for a moment, you and Mischa just share a look before walking out alongside Noel, thankful you both at least live another day without having to feel the full extent of Ocean's wrath...
A/N: Sorry if this is bad- I realized immediately as I started writing this that I do not know how to flirt so my words are probably really corny... My bad. ^^;
P.S. Sorry if any of the Ukrainian is incorrect, whenever I need to use a Ukrainian phrase I just peruse around Google for a bit before I find one I think fits, but if it's wrong please feel free to tell me so I can fix it!
Being the new student of a highly prestigious academy known for schooling ultimate students sounds wonderful on paper, right? You get to meet so many new people who are all the very best at what they do and just by being associated, you get some recognition on top of that! Super amazing, no complaints, 10/10!!
Yeah, well, that's just a flat-out lie. Of course, being in such a prestigious school was great and all, but it was extremely expensive to get in as just a regular student and being compared to the ultimate all the time wasn't great...
But what can you do? You do have friends in the Reserve Course and you get decent grades, so at least it isn't all bad.
In fact, one of your friends happened to be a guy named Hajime Hinata who knew this one girl in the Main Course, who knew this guy, who knew this guy, who knew this guy, etc. The point was, that all of this eventually led to you meeting a short, brown-haired guy named TeruTeru Hanamura, the Ultimate Chef.
Your official meeting was during a school event, the one time when most Main Course and Reserve Course students actually got along. You were sitting on a bench, waiting for some friends to finish grabbing whatever they wanted to eat, when Hajime happened to come up to you. He apologized for disturbing you but then introduced you to TeruTeru, explaining that he had asked to meet you.
The moment he began speaking though..., let's just say, even people who are normally very sex-positive would be in disgust at his lack of manners.
Sure, he was friendly enough and you can tell from the brief conversation you were able to have with him, before excusing yourself due to all his sexual comments, he is extremely passionate about what he does.
...But god, is it hard to get past his weird exterior when the first thing he says to you is, "The name is TeruTeru Hanamura. Normally I'd shake your hand but..., mind if I touch somewhere else instead?" You can guess where that went when you and Hajime just awkwardly laughed it off, an intense feeling of discomfort rising in you as you already knew exactly what kind of guy you were dealing with.
But that was only your first meeting and even though you tried your best to remain distant with him, hoping he'd get the message to just leave you alone, he unfortunately didn't...
In fact, any time he got the chance to, TeruTeru would visit you and the cycle of discomfort would just repeat itself.
He'd say hi, things would be fine for a minute as he asked you the usual polite question of how your day was going and if classes were being rough to you as well, and then he'd say some innuendo, making you uncomfortable, and you'd end the conversation as quickly as possible.
It seemed like the more he was getting comfortable, the more open he would be with his lewd words and advances. You weren't even sure if he meant any of them, but that didn't stop you from ending the visit quicker and quicker each time he came over from the Main Course.
At some point, you even started to just avoid him... You really didn't want to deal with the weird sexual comments he was giving you and despite how decent he can be at times, like when he gifted you some delicious sugar cookies one time, it still wasn't worth the discomfort for you.
Of course though, as you distanced yourself more and more, eventually avoiding TeruTeru altogether, he did eventually notice your lack of presence as well.
Now, TeruTeru is aware he can be bad at picking up social cues most of the time (literally all of the time-) so he can really only assume he did something wrong to warrant this kind of reaction from you, he just doesn't know what that is...
He's been friendly, hasn't he? He gives you baked goods all of the time, you have some good conversations, and he really enjoys your company! In a lot of ways, you're different from the Main Course students, you actually understand and don't disregard his talent, unlike the others. Sure, the other kids might say his cooking tastes good, which he already knows, but you go in-depth with it and he really likes that, you appreciate the art of cooking!
Even though you both haven't known each other for a long time, that is the reason he keeps actively seeking you out. He's got to know what he did wrong..., so he goes to the one mutual friend you both have, Hajime.
Hajime can only really give the biggest sigh whenever he hears of TeruTeru's problem, mainly as he feels it's extremely obvious what the issue is but also because he can tell TeruTeru does take a special interest in you compared to everyone else he mercilessly flirts with. Hajime also being your friend, knows of your sexuality and the repulsion to nsfw content that gives you, but he knows better than to just out you like that, so he basically just gives TeruTeru the cliff notes without outing you.
"Is it not obvious? They're avoiding you because of how inappropriate you are, Teru. That's why most people avoid you, but they in particular are not a fan of it." A simple and concise explanation that even dense people like TeruTeru or his underclassmen(?) Hifumi Yamada.
When Hajime says he's never seen someone look like they had such a moment of clarity, he means it.
TeruTeru has never once really questioned the things he says or does, especially his more questionable decisions. He just never thought about it...
If it wasn't obvious, TeruTeru, despite his rural background, tries so hard to build his persona under the guise of being from the city. Every chef he's seen on TV or in magazines may have started somewhere humble, but their big break was in the city, unlike him. I mean, wouldn't it be silly to stay in a small, rural town no one's ever heard of when you have far greater and more prosperous opportunities in the city? In fact, if he's telling the whole truth, he would much rather just have been born there... People would actually take him seriously as a chef. There would be no accent to make fun of or mannerisms to mock. He would be where he always dreamed of being. Not in some backwater town.
So, in an effort to make people take him and his passion seriously, he disguised the worst part of himself and said he was from Minato and Aoyama. He covered his accent and tried to copy the mannerisms of people from the city, mainly by movies, TV, magazine interviews, etc. Of course, this was what made him pick up his lewd behavior in the first place as most of the content he viewed to gain new mannerisms wasn't shy when it came to being explicit and while the people in his town sugarcoated a lot of the explicit things they said, they also didn't care to correct his behavior either.
As much as he wants to excuse all his behavior though, TeruTeru knew deep down that he still did it even when he should have known better... He knew he needed to at the very least apologize because even if his behavior was once atrocious, he at the very least had decency.
It took a good few weeks before TeruTeru started to approach you again, which you were thankful for as you could only hope your life would start to go back to normal.
You were of course wrong when he came up to you after school, a frown on his face as no mention of anything NSFW came out of him, but at least this time he took you off guard in a good way.
He takes a breath, his shorter stature looking up at you in the most apologetic way he could muster, and he soon speaks, "I know I'm probably the last person you want to talk with right now, which is okay, but, I needed to let you know I'm sorry..." His voice was quiet and you could hear slight traces of his country accent slipping out before he quickly reeled it back in.
Now really, if this were anyone else, you would've likely just said you'll think about it and moved on, but strangely enough, it was really hard to say that so disingenuously when he was being the complete opposite of that. You knew it was probably better to just reject him but...
"Okay..., just don't do it again." A sigh escapes your lips as you know the future you was probably kicking yourself looking back at all of this. "Let's try this again."
TeruTeru almost jumped for joy at your acceptance, every word you said pulling a weight off his shoulders that he didn't even notice was there. This time was going to be different, he was going to be better! And that isn't something he takes lightly.
After agreeing to start your relationship over, TeruTeru was unexpectedly and yet also expectedly pleasant to be around. As mentioned before, there were times when his passion for cooking would take over the topic of conversation and you got to see who he was past all the inappropriate remarks, but it always turned sour as he eventually caught himself and started shooting more lewd comments at you.
Thankfully, you get to see the good side of him this time. He was honestly a lot harder working and caring than you initially gave him credit for, and even if he didn't talk about her often, it was sweet to hear that he cares so much about his mom from the few times he's spoken about her.
TeruTeru was undoubtedly starting to find himself getting more and more interested in you as well. When you both first met, he was only really interested in you because of your looks and what he then perceived to be your "hard to get" personality, but now he can't deny he feels intrigued by you. From your personality to the things you like, to your background, he finds himself grinning as he replays your conversations in his head over and over.
It's weird for him to admit, but he likes actually getting to know you past the shallow level that he knows everyone else on. It was also nice to know you were willing to get to know him past that too.
Everyone in the Main Course is honestly super confused about why TeruTeru of all people uses whatever spare time he can to go to where the Reserve Course students are, only to come back, grinning like a moron. Anytime they question him on it, mainly Mahiru as, knowing TeruTeru like she knows him, she can really only assume he's going over there to prey on people, TeruTeru will just give some vague answer. He does this because he rather not have everyone question him about you the moment he brings you up...
A surprising thing you've learned about TeruTeru is that he is surprisingly very into pop culture, you can literally name any celebrity and he will be able to give you a whole biography about them, no questions asked.
Does TeruTeru sometimes slip up around you? Of course, he's human and when you've been doing something for so long and it's so integrated into your mannerisms, you're bound to slip up every now and then. He really tries not to make any inappropriate comments about you or anyone else, but when he does slip up, he apologizes profusely.
You have no need to worry about packing a lunch anymore because TeruTeru will be providing that for you! He isn't the ultimate chef for no reason either, you are gonna be eating good.
TeruTeru feels like he should've suspected this change in him to happen eventually. You're pretty, smart, and so patient..., it's really no wonder that he would soon start to fall in love with you.
In fact, maybe he's been in love with you for a long time and he's just never had the guts to notice.
And that thought terrifies him.
He has never been one to easily fall in love, he's obviously found people of all types attractive, but he's never gotten so close to someone where he can seriously imagine a future with them...
Not to mention how you both got off on the wrong foot, and he really doesn't want to destroy the trust he's built with you all over these feelings. Because, sure he loves you, but his feelings will never matter more to him than seeing you happy.
He doesn't care how long he has to hide it, as long as you are safe and happy, all the effort will be worth it.
Even if his heart is breaking every second he doesn't confess.
Pretty much every time you are around, TeruTeru feels like he's walking on eggshells as he tries to not let you notice how infatuated he is with you. It really isn't hard to notice this either with the way he stumbles over his words and the way the air has an awkward tension in it when he visits. You were starting to wonder if you had done something wrong..., he was acting like this for a reason right? You just didn't know what that could be.
The more TeruTeru tries to hide his feelings, the more this awkward tango drags on with him steering the conversation to anything but himself, his body uncomfortably shuffling as he seems weirdly distracted.
Hell, when the feelings just wouldn't stop making his life miserable, TeruTeru even tried to distance himself from you. It definitely didn't work, but he was really out of options... He wasn't going to tell you and even if he did, why would you ever want to date someone like him anyway? He knows for a fact he is not the most conventionally attractive and there are way smarter, funnier, and more caring people out there who would love to have you as theirs.
He wasn't meant for you.
...
To see one of your best friends acting so strangely around you and even purposefully distancing themself from you was not exactly fun... You'd just wish he would tell you what was wrong instead of bottling it up so things could go back to normal! He usually is a pretty confident person, so for him to be doing all of this meant it had to be something important and honestly, you were getting a little anxious yourself the more you waited for him to come out with it.
Okay, maybe not even a little anxious, the more time passed and the less and less you saw him, the more anxious you got. You really were starting to get to the point where you couldn't take the waiting any longer..., so you knew you would have to ask him directly.
It was during lunchtime on one of the few days he would let himself visit you, though his behavior still remained stiff and awkward as he tried to not focus on how your smile made butterflies soar through his chest... You two talked for a bit, you doing most of the conversation, before eventually the conversation goes stale like it usually does nowadays. You can't stop a nervous sigh from leaving you as you make eye contact with him, quietly gathering all of your courage to finally ask the question you had a feeling he knew you were gonna ask.
"So..., what's been up with you recently? Did I do something because I feel you have just been avoiding me?" To which, TeruTeru also gives his own sigh back. "...Do you really want me to tell you?" He asks, eyes clinging to the ground below as tries to will himself to be anywhere except where he is right now. As gently as you could, you grab his hand, "Of course I do, you shouldn't have to hide anything from your friends and especially not from me."
A silence fills the air after you speak, the suspense building inside of you both, though for completely different reasons. Whenever he speaks again, his voice is quiet, like he wishes if he says it quiet enough you won't hear him. "I just..., I love you."
You did hear him though.
And he definitely heard you when you replied with, "Oh..., well, I love you too."
He also made you repeat that like five times after though, just because at the moment he was so filled with disbelief that he really thought his mind was playing tricks on him. Like, that at any moment he would wake up and all of this would be another dream.
He's really glad it isn't though, the warmth of your embrace is something no dream can replicate.
Now that TeruTeru is completely comfortable around you, whenever you two are alone, he'll allow himself to speak in his natural accent. He is also a lot more open about his past and his family life.
He is unbelievably happy when you mention that you would love to go visit his mom soon.
His nickname for you would vary since he likes to have some variety with it, but his favorite is probably something food-related, like, moonpie, muffin, peach, etc.
He never did care, nor will he ever care that you don't have some ultimate talent. He knows some people can be jerks about it, but he really can't find it in him to care about something as pathetic as that when you are already so incredible. To him, you are the best at whatever you decide to do, no contest.
TeruTeru, despite how confident he seems, does have moments where he can be insecure. He's no stranger to being looked down upon because of his upbringing or his looks, he's very aware he's not gonna appear on some fashion magazine anytime soon. That doesn't mean it doesn't hurt though..., having people making snide remarks about his height and weight...
Please just give him a hug or kiss whenever he's having rough days. :(
Whenever you feel comfortable coming out to him, per or post-relationship, TeruTeru is immediately pretty laid back about it. He's never been one for labels personally, but he also definitely isn't straight. You won't have to worry, he is 100% supportive of you! And if anyone tries to invalidate you or is generally just giving you hell for something you can't control, rest assured he will not let them down easily.
You're his partner, meaning he is never gonna let anyone mess with you like that, he loves you way too much for that.
A/N: I wish TeruTeru was used more than to be the joke character, I feel like he has a lot of potential to be really compelling.
Can I request something about isshika midarai from danganronpa 0?.. (It's my first time to request something but I think just female reader x isshiki if you can! Can be smut or normal one I don't care 🔥)
Hello, super sorry for this, but I won't be able to fulfill this request as I have not seen Danganronpa 0 and I do not wish to give you a poorly made post about a character I know nothing about.
Hey I was wondering if I could request and Ricky Potts x fem!reader where the reader is his crush/bff (also in the choir maybe) and she’s a cat for for Halloween, can have nsfw elements but nothing too crazy. Thanks
☁️Ricky Potts x Reader: Reader is a cat for Halloween☁️
Ricky Potts has known you for a long time, like, ever since childhood.
Not only have you two known each other for a while, but you've also been friends for just as long. Ricky still has no idea how even managed to obtain a friend like you, but he definitely isn't complaining! You're the one person in his life who listens to all of his well-thought-out fantasies, the one person who even bothers to ask for his opinion on things, the one person who sees him past his disability. All of that is something even his parents can't do at times, so he deeply cherishes your friendship.
You were his best friend and he would have it no other way.
...
Well, that's not the complete truth, there is one other way that he would have it.
You see, lately, Ricky has been pondering a strange, yet intriguing thought. That being you two in a relationship.
At first, it was just an innocent wondering, you two do get mistaken for a couple a lot when you go out, so naturally he's curious about what a relationship with you would entail. It started off with him wondering how your hand would feel in his if it would be soft or more calloused, then he would wonder about the cheesy, yet romantic nicknames he'd give to you, and then he wondered how your lips would feel on his-
Before long, something was painfully obvious to Ricky as these enticing thoughts became all the more common.
He has a crush on his best friend.
He has a crush on you.
Now, Ricky has had crushes before, and all of those ended up disappearing quick enough when he thought of the logistics of it all. Most people don't even acknowledge his existence so it's kind of easy for his crush to just dissipate after that thought. So, he thought it would be the same for you. He just needed to push his feelings down, think about how he would never have a chance with you, and think would go smoothly. Hopefully.
With a plan set into action, Ricky only had one more thing to worry about and that was that Halloween was just around the corner!
Halloween has never been Ricky's favorite holiday out of the bunch since he really can't walk for long periods of time and even if he does like the candy, most of the people giving out the candy are older people with incredibly bad taste. Don't get him wrong though, he 100% sees the appeal and aside from trick-or-treating he does enjoy it, but it was definitely a big bummer for him as a kid.
All of this is to say that he usually doesn't have any plans for Halloween, the only thing he really does is watch scary movies at his house with you and that's kind of off the table since anytime he's near you he gets butterflies...
But this Halloween was different as courtesy of Ocean and Constance, they had planned a small get-together for the choir to celebrate Halloween together. Everyone in the choir, along with a plus one if they so choose, was invited, which included Ricky and his plus one of you.
Honestly, Ricky was pretty excited to go. Even if him and the choir actually trying to make things work as friends is a recent development, it was still nice to be thought of and actually invited to something for a change.
(Not gonna lie, he's always hoped this moment would come so he could reject the invite just for the satisfaction, but he really wanted to go so-)
Halloween could not have come faster, every day leading up to it just made Ricky more and more excited, especially after listening to Constance and Ocean plan all the activities they were gonna do.
You can bet that whenever the day of Halloween finally came, Ricky was 100% ready to take on the day.
He had been planning his costume the second he got the invite, mainly because Ocean said it was a requirement, and to him at least, it was perfect. The costume he had chosen to go with was Data from Star Trek! One of his favorite side characters from the franchise and one that he had dreamed of dressing up as ever since Ricky saw him in "Star Trek: The Next Generation."
Was it a bit dorky? Yes. Is that gonna stop him from living out his fantasies? Hell no.
Ricky, probably due to his previously mentioned excitement, was the first one at Ocean and Constance's get-together aside from Ocean and Constance themselves. Constance was dressed as Emily from Emily in Paris and Ocean as Belle from Beauty and The Beast. It didn't take long though for the others to start pouring in, Noel, who finally committed to being Lola Lola from The Blue Angel, then Mischa who technically didn't have a costume but was allowed to borrow a Mario costume from Constance, Penny who was Dorothy from The Wizard of Oz, and finally, you.
And boy, was he not expecting what your costume was going to be... He really felt like the world was just tormenting him with this one.
You got to Constance's house not too long after Mischa and Noel got there, Ricky was sitting on the couch, listening to Constance as she was retelling a story from a previous Halloween in her childhood. He hears someone knock on the door and Ocean quickly shuffles over to go get it, her voice ringing out in a greeting as the newcomer is welcomed in.
Ricky, who finally decides to tune out of Constance's story for a moment to check on who came in, was immediately welcomed to the sight of you in your cat costume...
He felt like his heart was about to break out of his chest with how fast it was beating, his palms grew sweaty, and he had an undeniable blush on his cheeks.
Ricky usually is a pretty confident person, but seeing you in your costume made him feel a little silly in his...
Once everyone had welcomed you in, you made your way over to the couch to sit with him, greeting him like everything was fine and you weren't looking even more attractive than usual. It was moments like these where he's glad he can't speak because if he did, he's sure you would hear how utterly nervous he was as his hands sign, "You're finally here..., your costume is nice." Which is secretly code for, "You look so pretty and I'm going to explode if you get even one more inch near me-"
Thankfully, now that everyone was there, Ocean quickly took charge of the conversation so the festivities could begin. Ricky's sure if he was allowed to talk to you anymore in that moment, he would say a lot of things he would regret...
It was also probably because you were both good friends that Ricky spent most of the night avoiding you, sometimes intentionally and other times not. He just really doesn't want his stupid feelings getting in the way of a friendship he adores so much, especially if that means potentially losing you.
So, as the night dragged on with horror movies, trivia, games, and all the like, Ricky had pretty much not spoken more than a few words to you since you got there. You, of course, were pretty concerned for him as he's never outright avoided you before and it wasn't exactly hard to tell something was wrong with him. Yet, no matter what you did, Ricky would budge and instead would pivot over to whatever activity the group was doing at the moment.
It was lowkey kind of frustrating..., all you wanted was to fix whatever it was you did wrong and get your best friend back! :'(
Yet, things continued like that for the rest of the night, unfortunately. It didn't help that with everyone else there, it was kind of hard to get a private moment with Ricky but thankfully as the party came to a close and you saw Ricky step outside for a moment, you finally got your chance!
After excusing yourself from the party, saying that you were gonna go check on Ricky, you make your way out the backdoor and onto the Blackwood's back porch. Ricky was pretty easy to spot as he sits on the stairs leading down to the yard beyond you and him, his crutches placed beside him.
Carefully, you make your way to him, sitting down on the stairs right next to him, just like you had done when you first got to Constance's house. He gives a weak smile, redness coming back to his cheeks as he signs, "Hey, everyone's a little too chaotic for you too, huh?" His face gave away that he was joking, though he knew you weren't out here for that.
"...Did I do something wrong?" You ask, frowning as Ricky's eyes widen and he shakes his head. His hands quickly signed, "No! You did nothing at all, why would you think that?" To which, you sighed and replied with, "I think you know Richard Potts, you've been avoiding me this whole party. If I didn't do anything wrong, then what's up? Why do you keep avoiding me??"
...That was a hard question for Ricky, not because he didn't know the answer, but because answering it would mean doing the one thing he was trying to not do this whole time.
He would have to tell you how he felt.
You've been friends for so long and realistically, he knows he can tell you anything that's on his mind. But this..., this was just another thing entirely.
Ricky brushes his thoughts off again, turning to face you to spout out another excuse on why he's been so distant all night, but then he sees your face. He sees your pretty eyes, the way your hair frames your face so perfectly, those gorgeous lips of yours... It's so unbelievably cheesy, but the sight of you just makes his throat close up for a minute, especially with you so close to him.
He instinctively averts his eyes, hoping you don't notice how flushed he's become even if he's sure you do, his hands forming into fists as he tries to distract himself from the sight of you.
Ricky did eventually sign something, though it was not the excuse that he had once prepared...
"...God, I love you so much."
His hands freeze up as soon as they finish signing, surprise on both of your faces at the sudden declaration.
He quickly started to backtrack, hoping that by some miracle you never saw what he signed and this whole situation was nothing more than a dream. "Oh no, I'm so sorry! I really didn't mean to sign that and I know you don't like me like that-" But before he could continue rambling, he was taken off guard by none other than you as your lips gently latch onto his.
Never in a million years would he have assumed this was going to happen, never would he have been so cocky to assume you were actually going to kiss him after that embarrassing blunder. It was happening though..., he was kissing his best friend and the one crush that never left him.
It was magical.
He almost didn't want your lips to leave his as the kiss ended, his hand grabbing yours while his eyes remained wide. It was clear he had a lot of questions, yet they were all answered as you spoke up, "I love you too."
A/N: Ricky is simultaneously so me and a character I would 100% marry. I have no clue how anyone could've ignored him in the canon universe, he's just a silly guy with cat-girl fantasies. :(
Hi, may I request yandere rtc choir x toko fukawa! reader?
☁️Yandere Choir x Toko Fukawa!Reader🌧️
⚠️WARNING: General Yandere content, written with a fem reader in mind but no gender is explicitly stated, and potentially some Toko Fukawa bashing- Sorry, I just find it hard not to mention some of her bad qualities at the beginning. :'(⚠️
Ocean O’Connell Rosenberg:
"S-Shoo! How many times do I have to tell you to leave me alone!? I-Is it so amusing to see such an u-ugly girl cry, huh?"
Those words, along with a few others Ocean couldn't make out from around the corner filled the empty hallway after school. As she peered around the corner, Ocean couldn't help but roll her eyes at the scene in front of her. Seriously? Another bullying incident?? Look, she gets it. It must be hard not to be as successful as her, but come on, there are so many better ways to spend your time than harassing people!
So, as the model student she is, she struts over to the lot with a click of her tongue to sort it out. As soon as the group of bullies noticed Ocean coming over, they were quick to hurry along, not wanting to deal with whatever lecture they knew was waiting for them. Believe her, she really wanted to go after them too, but she was in a rush already since she needed to get to choir after she helped you out.
Ocean turns towards you, ready to scold you for god knows what before you cut her off with a rather... interesting comment. "Fighting with students on campus is strictly prohibited!-" "What, a-are you here to mess with me too?? O-Or are you some kind of w-weirdo who thinks helping me from some bullies w-will get me to make out with you o-or something!?"
...Yeah, Ocean felt her jaw drop a bit from that, feeling so confused and offended that you would even think that about her. She quickly retorts with, "What!? No, I was just trying to help you out because I'm a good person!" To which you responded, "Sure..., I-I bet you just did that so I'll owe you something! D-Don't try to d-deny it!!"
Your conversation very quickly escalated after that with Ocean trying to prove her innocence and you not believing her in the slightest. Seriously, it took a good 15 minutes of you two going back and forth with this before you finally relented and said, "God, f-fine, thanks for getting rid of them... J-Just don't expect me t-to give you something for it, g-got that!?" That was enough for Ocean to move on with her day gloating that she had done yet another good deed.
After this initial meeting, Ocean would bump into you occasionally, most of those meetings ending up like the first one. To say you were a lot was the understatement of the century and that's coming from Ocean... From how insecure you were to the awful assumptions you would throw at her, normal people would take this as a sign to just leave you alone.
But as is obvious, this is Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg we are talking about and there was something about you that deeply interested her. In fact, it was so interesting that Ocean from the day she met you gained yet another purpose in her school life, to fix you.
The first way she was gonna do that was by getting you to join the choir! Who doesn't want to add more extra-curriculars to their school lives? It looks great for colleges and gives Ocean more of a reason to talk to you! ...Which she already does a lot now by how often she goes up to you to try and convince you to join the choir.
Through her constant pestering, she even learned some more things about you! Like, that you had a pet stink bug named Kameko which Ocean can't help but find cute but also extremely weird.
She also knows of your extreme phobia of blood, the dark, and ghosts. You also had a habit of mentioning someone else, a girl who clearly gives you great distress, but you always backpedal before Ocean can get any more information. She has tried before to push you to talk about it, but you are very good at deflecting it.
Occasionally, she'd also get snippets of your writing, which Ocean can't help but envy... She's never met anyone with as much skill in literature as you and as much as she wishes she had that, reading whatever snippets you allow her to always manages to leave her in awe.
She honestly can't say she regrets trying to get you into the choir, it's the reason she's become close acquaintances with you after all. However, the more she gets to know you past all the extremities in the front you put up to protect yourself, the more she has a deep-seated urge inside of her that wants to know you more and spend more time with you...
And luckily for her, you couldn't take any more of her nagging and finally joined the choir, much to your initial displeasure.
Ocean was beyond ecstatic to see you walk into the choir room during one of their practices, knowing she had gotten to you. From then on, you and Ocean were pretty much attached to the hip with the excuse from Ocean being that, "As the lead singer of the choir, it is my duty to help you settle in!" Deep down, you knew that couldn't have been the whole truth, but as much as you expressed that thought to Ocean, she didn't budge.
It wasn't all bad though, Ocean was one of the better people to stick beside as her strong-willed nature could stand against whatever your insecurities made you feel about her. Plus, it's nice to have someone with similar intellect to talk to about literature.
With both of your firey personalities, you do get into some actual arguments sometimes, but after you both take time to cool off, you come running back to each other eventually.
Whenever you two become friends, all of the bullying you experience pretty much stops. With Ocean hanging around you all the time, it's hard for anyone to even get a word in when she goes off at them for even looking at you wrong. Despite how often she tends to push people down (she's getting better,) she is also very protective of her friends.
She's tried to get you to join her and Constance for sleepovers before, but you usually refuse for whatever arbitrary reason you can come up with like something self-deprecating or something about how you don't have time for it. If she ever does get you to join them though, she will be the 2nd best person to do it (the first being Constance) with as she is on top of whatever you need to have the night be enjoyable. She will literally bring a night light so you don't have to sleep in the dark, novels for you to read, and whatever else she can think of to keep you happy.
Ocean goes to you a lot for book recommendations since she reads a lot, most books she ends up tearing through and finishing in like, a day.
Ocean had really never thought your phobia of blood would ever come up after that one-off mention when she first learned about it. You guys were in school after all, it wasn't like blood was bound to be everywhere in St. Cassian, so when she gave herself a paper cut, she didn't think anything of it. In fact, she honestly forgot about it, just mentally cursing at herself as the cut stung on her finger...
And then she met her.
Genocide Jack.
As soon as she heard your body hit the ground before you quickly stood back up, your eyes turning red, and your personality doing a complete 180, Ocean knew she was in for a lot more than she signed up for. Genocide Jack was very different, she was so much more outgoing and uncouth than you, and her personality and violent outbursts baffled Ocean.
Ocean had to admit, Genocide Jack scared her a lot... It took her a good minute to accept what was happening in the first place and that she was talking to your alter, but to have said alter literally flat out say to her face that she murders "cute boys..." Ocean really thought her parent's weed must have gotten to her at this point.
You did sneeze at some point when Ocean was mid-freak out, returning back to your old self. As soon as you saw the look on her face, you knew what happened and that you had a lot of explaining to do.
Was Ocean any less scared of Jack after you explained everything? No. Was she less confused? Barely. Was she at least glad to know how she could prevent getting Jack aggravated at her? Yep.
Ocean has always been a bragger, why wouldn't she be when she is by far the most accomplished in all of Uranium? But that trait gets 100x worse when you are around. She gloats and inflates her self-esteem a lot, mainly because she wants to impress you. She just needs to have you think highly of her like how she thinks highly of you.
But don't worry too much about it either, because she will hype you up just as much if not even more than she does herself. You are obviously so much more intelligent and mature than everyone else in St. Cassian and you should know it! Really, you two are the only ones who are on the same level, that's why you need her and she needs you.
Now, you may be wondering about how Ocean fell in love with someone like you? After all, you are both very opposite in your personalities and beliefs.
The answer to that is... Ocean doesn't quite know.
There was just suddenly one day where when she looked at you, her heart started racing. Her hands started to grow sweaty as she glanced at your hands ever so often, wanting nothing more than to hold them. It was like a switch was flipped and instead of just wanting to be your best friend, she wanted to be so much more than that.
For a while, she almost blames you for it... There's just no way she's in love with a girl, or even in love at all! You had to have done something to make her feel this way, surely!! ...It took a while to admit to herself that, that wasn't the case and she just really liked you.
She likes you so much that you consume pretty much all of her waking thoughts and her dreams which is strangely okay with her. It's totally normal, nothing to be concerned about! Everyone imagines their crush becoming so co-dependent to them that they can't even look at other people, very normal indeed.
Remember how you used to deny having sleepovers with Ocean and Constance? Well, say goodbye to that because you will be having so many sleepovers with Ocean (just her) that she does not allow you to skip out on. In all honestly, she just always wants to be near you which is why she drags you to her house every day after school to spend even more time with her, It's not like her parents even notice she's there.
...Have I mentioned that she may have stolen a pair of scissors or two when you sleep? Because she has and she keeps them in the box under her bed that's filled with a ton of other things of yours.
Ocean treats you so well, like, she makes your bed, does your laundry, helps you study, whatever she can do to help you, she does.
No matter how many times you get a bit insecure and berate her for something, she literally sticks to you like a leech. She knows you don't actually mean it and she would rather die than get really mad at you.
Ocean also eventually learns to co-exist with Jack because you know, she's your alter and she isn't going away any time soon. It does definitely take a while for them to get along, but once Jack officially stops murdering people and becomes softer to Ocean, they are fine.
No matter what you say, she really thinks you are pretty. She loves your hair and clothing, all of it.
Ocean would probably die if you wrote a novel about her, like, she'd be so flustered and giddy at the same time. She'd have so many copies of the book and show it off any chance she gets.
What can she say, your love for her is now immortalized forever. :)
Noel Gruber:
Most days that Noel had to work at Taco Bell were unbelievably boring. In fact, Noel would say that a good 95% of his shifts have been completely uneventful, the other 5% being the rare few shifts where either a fight broke out or something interesting was happening in some other store at the mall. It's not necessarily bad per se, but it does make Noel drag his feet when getting ready for work since he knows it won't be anything special.
Today was going to be just like any other day in Uranium, plain and boring. Really, why must graduation be so far away... All he wishes to do in this life is move to France, must that be so difficult?
This mindset plagued Noel as he walked through the mall, the Taco Bell he works at just in sight. His lips spill out a sigh as he approaches his work sooner and sooner, only for him to be stopped by yelling.
"Are you Toko Fukawa!?" "Oh my god, she is! You know, I just love your book, "So Lingers The Ocean!"" "Will you please sign my copy of, "Blue Thread from the Scarred Mountains?""
Noel had no idea there was a celebrity in town... Around here, you'd think that would be the news of the century. He turns to see what the commotion is about, wondering if he saw the person's face then maybe he'd recognize some of their works, but as he pushes his way through the ever-growing crowd of people he is met with the face of some high schooler. Noel's brows quickly furrowed, confusion immediately settling in.
...Who was this? He thought maybe seeing her face would help remind him, but he still had no clue who this supposed celebrity was. What he can tell is that she is a high school girl who is getting harassed by her own fans, and the frustrated and uncomfortable look on her face is blatantly telling him that she does not want to be in this situation. Now, this isn't anywhere near his problem to deal with, he knows he should just get a move on and get to work.
But he had to admit this was interesting and he did feel bad that she was being harrassed like this... So, he did the one thing he knew to do at this point and he grabbed her wrist to quickly drag her away from the paparazzi. It took a few twists and turns for them to finally lose the fans, but Noel eventually got them to a more private spot.
You immediately ripped your wrist out of his grip, Noel taking a deep breath after the unexpected exercise. "Sorry, I just thought you needed to get away-" "W-Why did you drag me here you p-pervert!? W-What kind of s-sick fantasies do you have!?!?" You cut him off, a distrustful look on your face as you back away from him. Noel couldn't even get a word in as you kept coming at him with obscene accusations, all of which he tried to keep denying before you accused him of something else. He felt like you were just going in circles at this point...
After a good 5 minutes, he was finally able to say, "Look, I didn't take you here to do anything weird with you, all I was trying to do was help someone who looked uncomfortable. My bad for having morals I guess, now if you'll excuse I'm late for work." At this point, he was kind of done with the conversation and just wanted to go to work. (Which he literally never wants to do so-) And as he left you there, now very annoyed that his one attempt to be nice to an absolute stranger went horribly, he did hear you say something but it was too muffled for him to hear or care. He just went along with his day like usual..., albeit, now late.
His day was pretty tame after that, once the paparazzi left, the mall was pretty quiet aside from some older couples. He even got cut early for a change, so at least there was that.
He finished taking off his uniform in the mall restrooms and was on his way out the mall doors before he heard a, "W-Wait!" Only to turn around and see you walking up to him. He was honestly just gonna leave you there, done with your shenanigans for the day, but you quickly stopped him as you apologized for acting the way you did. Granted, you did it in a roundabout fashion and were still being a bit rude, but it was nonetheless different than what he thought you were gonna say. Noel just shrugged and said, "Whatever, it's not a big deal," before finally leaving, feeling slightly better about you and the day as a whole.
From then on, you'd occasionally visit Noel at his job in the mall. It was a bit weird for both of you but you both also never mentioned it. He also saw you walking around school and you two talked a bit more there.
Noel wasn't going to lie to himself, he knew you were pretty extreme to be around, but when you've been around people like Mischa and Ocean for more than a few hours, you learn to grow accustomed to the most eccentric of people.
Plus, when you weren't so hung up on him secretly wishing you the worst for something he didn't even know he did, he can see how intelligent you actually are which is a rarity in Uranium.
You were actually the one who decided to become friends with Noel but believe you, it was a very spur-of-the-moment decision.
See, Noel had been raving about a book that had apparently inspired his all-time favorite movie, The Blue Angel. The only issue was that said book, Professor Unrat, wasn't going to be coming to Uranium any time soon—nothing ever did. Yet, did that stop Noel from talking your ear off about it? If anything, it encouraged him.
He had wanted that book so badly..., so because you were totally tired of hearing him yap about it (Not because you care about him, what-), you used your liberties of being a well-known author to get your hands on one. It was exceedingly difficult to get one to Uranium, but somehow, someway, you managed to get your hands on one and it was even signed by the book's late author.
Whenever the book finally reached Noel's hands, it was after choir practice and he was walking you home. After you stammered through your totally not fake reasoning on why you got him such a gift, Noel immediately bombarded you with questions and thank yous like his life depended on it. He meant it too, he had been wanting this book for so long and he never even thought you actually listened to his rants about it... It was quite literally the most thoughtful gift he had gotten in a long time.
Though, as Noel kept pressing for your reasoning on why you went out of your way to get him said book, you flusteredly shut him up with, "W-Whatever..., this is just something f-friends do for one another, right? S-So stop bothering me about i-it!" You really hadn't even meant to call you both friends, it just fell out as you desperately tried to defend yourself from Noel's growing curiosity. Yet he didn't mention it, nor did you bring it up again so..., so it could only be assumed that it was true. You both were friends.
It was only natural that after you got your hands on that book, Noel would grow pretty curious about your talent. After all, even if he's never heard of you, to be able to get a signed copy of Professor Unrat was quite the feat.
You weren't shy about showing off your talents either, despite how insecure you can get, this was the one thing you were proud of, that you knew was worth all the constant praise it got. After letting Noel read a few of your works, he was honestly completely dumbfounded he hadn't heard of you before. Your writing was nothing to scoff at and as a romance novel enjoyer, it was safe to say for him that these were immediately going into his collection when he got home!
Yes, your writing is that good, and yes he will constantly ask if he can read the WIPs you have.
One thing with Noel is that he has the most roundabout way of making you feel not insecure about yourself. Like, any time you start feeling bad or start beating yourself up over something, he will say, "Do you think I'd seriously hang out with you if you were really that bad? Get a grip, how badly do you think of me?" Basically, you are gonna have to be forced to see how great you are because if not, that means you are insulting his best friend, which believe him, you don't want to do.
Noel's love language is words of affirmation, so as much as he's fine with tolerating whatever insult you or others throw his way, please throw him a bone every once in a while and compliment him, he needs it...
In turn, whatever your love language is, Noel will be sure to accommodate that every once in a while. He might deny that he was doing it because he knows you like it at first, but know deep down he does think about you and tries to be good to you.
Now, when Noel finally decides he's ready to come out to you, he kind of has trouble deciding how to do it. I mean, coming out is never easy, but it's especially hard when it's coming out to someone who you truly cherish and care about.
So, that's why like the coward he unfortunately has to admit he's being at this moment... He decides the best way to tell you and to not potentially get his feelings hurt so fast is to write you a letter. Maybe if you hate him after then you can at least appreciate the penmanship or something.
It took a good weekend for him to finish the letter as he wanted it to be clear, concise, and as perfect as it could be. The next Monday morning, he slips it into your locker and practically runs off as he tries to find someplace away from you as quickly as possible, again, just in case things go South. Whenever you got to school, saw, and read the letter... you just knew you had to find Noel immediately.
You looked everywhere you could think of to find him, from the library to the courtyard, to the cafeteria, yet he wasn't anywhere to be found. It took up almost all of your time before classes to find him in his favorite hiding spot he decided to share with you, under the stairs by the math classes. You were smart, so he knew you would find him here eventually but no matter how long he had to prepare for what you were about to say next was enough time to prepare him for a possible friendship breakup...
But the relief he felt when you hurriedly spouted out your acceptance of him, followed by a brief hug was far enough to make all that anxiety worth it. He knows it was silly to think you of all people wouldn't accept him for something like this, but his fears get to him sometimes.
He really is just glad it turned out okay.
Little did Noel know though, was that you both weren't done here for you had a secret you wanted to share with him too. With Noel coming out, something was telling you that you needed him to know about her, that he needed to be told the truth if you both wanted this friendship to last.
That's how Noel met Genocide Jack, otherwise known as just, Jack.
Although at the moment, you didn't allow your murderous alter to come out, afraid of what she might do and say to Noel, you were able to give Noel a pretty good idea of who she was. Jack was a psychotic killer who, in your own words, was absolutely insane.
The more and more Noel learned of Jack, the more he felt just bad for you... Sure, it was a little unsettling to know that your alter was in fact a serial killer, but she wasn't you. You shouldn't have grown through all that you've gone through, you shouldn't have to deal with knowing that your alter goes out and murders a bunch of men, you shouldn't have to deal with the utter guilt and awful feelings of it all. You deserved so much more than that. You were just a child.
...
You won't have to worry anymore, Noel isn't gonna let you worry. If there's one good thing in Uranium, it's you. You are the only good thing in Uranium and the only good thing in his life, believe him, he needs you. So from now on, don't worry about bullies, your parents, the guilt, or anything else, he wants to see you happy. If he has to break a few noses to achieve that, then so be it.
Noel wasn't going to leave your side ever again.
He actually means that too, because he will not be leaving you alone. If you thought you were clingy, Noel is 100x worse than that.
Not gonna lie, I can imagine discovering Monique was quite the experience for you.
Noel had let you read some of his poetry, most of them being from the perspective of Monique, though he never clarified that. He just said that it was written from the perspective of a character he made up. He was hoping you wouldn't notice how deeply personal the writing was or the occasionally sexual undertones they carry..., which was really stupid considering you are the ultimate writing prodigy.
Of course, you found out about Monique. It was exactly difficult as you kept pressing Noel on all the weird details and themes of each piece, eventually making the truth spill out of him. He was a little embarrassed when you found out, but it's not like you were judging him too harshly so he got over it pretty quickly.
If you ever get tired of going to Ocean for writing critiques, then Noel is gonna be your second-best bet. He isn't as skilled in writing as you but he is a great beta-reader for your more romance-heavy books.
That also gives him a chance to brag to other people that he gets to read your books before they go out the public. :)
Now, Noel knows you, there will probably be a day when you see a man you like and no matter how terribly he treats you, you keep going after him anyway... And as much as Noel hates that possibility, he knows you crave romance so deeply that you'll put up with it.
Although nothing is certain for now, just know he will be breaking whatever relationship you find yourself into as soon as possible. Those people are only there to hurt you and he'll be damned before he lets that happen.
You only deserve the best and he's the only one that can give it to you.
You're family now after all and he won't let you go.
Mischa Bachinski:
There are some days when life just feels like it's repeating itself, a weird deja vu that often makes you feel too powerless to stop it.
Lately, that's the exact feeling Mischa has been having. He gets up, goes to school, goes "home," avoids his foster parents, texts Talia, sleeps, and then it repeats. Maybe he's been spending too much time in his room, but life just felt so bland and unexciting... At least if he were in Ukraine, he'd have Talia there to comfort him.
But alas, life is cruel. He can only communicate with her through the numerous texting sessions they have, never truly being able to see and feel the girl he calls the love of his life. As he walks home from school, texting Talia once more, Mischa is prepared for another boring, repetitive day. He was ready for the daily life cycle to repeat for another day.
That was before he was unceremoniously knocked into, leaving him to stumble back while the person who bumped into him fell to the ground. Mischa made a silent groan to himself as he quickly brushed off the sudden event, he wanted things to be different, yes, but this was not exactly what he had in mind... As he looks to the culprit of the interruption of his walk home, ready to tell them off for being so careless, he is instead met with your harsh words.
"H-Hey, can't you look where you're g-going!? God, is everyone here t-this stupid?" As soon as those words hit his ears, he felt his jaw clench as anger bubbled up inside of him. Immediately, Mischa shoots back, "First off, you were the one who bumped into me, and secondly, you can't be saying anything, you act just as arrogant as everyone else in this stupid town." As soon as those words left his mouth, you were quick to retort him, the conversation soon turning into a full-fledged argument. One that went on for a good 10 minutes before being interrupted by a call from Talia where Mischa finally just rolled his eyes and walked away.
Safe to say his first impression of you was anything but great..., literally finding out you went to his school the next day just made him more upset about the random argument you two had yesterday, and don't even get him started about finding out you also joined the choir! It's like life was punishing him for daring to call it boring by making him deal with someone like you.
Seriously, he found the way you were constantly defensive about everything incredibly irritating.
Not to mention how you would almost always bash the people around you from your assumptions that they had bad intentions, even if they gave you zero reason to think that...
He's quite literally begging for life to go back to normal, he cannot take this-
The only thing he is even semi-willing to give you credit for is that you are undeniably smart. From the short time he's known you, you've made it clear from how easily you can decipher meanings in songs and solve general problems just how intelligent you are...
And as much as you annoy him, he will admit through gritted teeth that you are kind of cute. Talia is better though.
You weren't exactly too fond of Mischa either, despite him being visually what you envisioned for the partner of your fairytale romance to be, he was crude and like how Mischa felt, his first impression left a lot to be desired from you.
You both were stubborn people who could only begrudgingly compliment each other on a really good day..., which is what made you standing up for him equally confusing and unexpectedly nice.
We all know how Ocean can be, there are days where she really is not as bad as she seems and there are days where she is the most insufferable person on the planet.
Today it was the ladder.
All day, Ocean had been really just getting on everyone's nerves with her constant critiques, especially Mischa. Maybe it was just because his one respite in the form of talking to Talia was slipping away from him recently or maybe it was just because his hatred for Canada just seemed to be growing more by the day, but whatever it was, Mischa wasn't having any of Ocean's nagging today.
Really, nobody was, but as Ocean corrected his pronunciation for the umpteenth time, Mischa felt the final strings of his resolve snipping away inside of him, ready to just go off and finally get Ocean to stop for even just a moment. Before he could do that though, his fingers already pinching the bridge of his nose as he tried to tune Ocean out, someone else finally spoke up against her. That person of course is you.
He wasn't going to lie, he wasn't expecting you of all people to say something, maybe Noel, but definitely not you. Despite your stuttering, you were extremely eloquent and had no trouble at all in turning Ocean's ego down a few notches. Whenever you finally finished, Ocean even needed to leave the room for a few minutes while Constance rushed after her. Even Mischa had to admit that side of you was mad wicked awesome. >:)
You weren't exactly friends right after that, but it did show Mischa that you weren't as bad as everyone else here and you weren't as arrogant and selfish as he once thought out to be.
Plus, as you two did end up talking more, you ended up becoming friends! A weird combo that no one else thought was possible but ended up working out.
Mischa is kind of iffy on your talent, he does think it's neat and enjoys reading some of your works (especially if you write them in Ukranian,) but he also isn't too into the kind of literature you write. He just isn't too into romance novels as he prefers something more grittier, but if you do ask him to read something of yours, he will do it.
He will also definitely ask for your advice when making his songs, even if it's not your thing, and it has actually helped his rapping career so much. I'm not even joking, his raps are actually half-listenable now.
You two still do get into fights from time to time but even in some of your bigger arguments, you two are weirdly drawn to each other and one of you ends up apologizing in the end.
He is always extremely careful with you when it comes to your phobias since he'd just hate for you to feel scared or uncomfortable around him.
Mischa will be making you watch all the Saw movies, which are unnegotiable, he will, however, let you pick apart whatever plot holes you see in them as an exchange. Rest assured though, he will be fighting you on every single hole you point out unless he's proven very wrong.
As you are one of Mischa's only friends, he pretty much tells you everything which includes Talia. Now, you obviously haven't spoken to Talia and you are pretty sure she only knows you exist through a few mentions from Mischa, but you were extremely suspicious of her when Mischa first told you about her. However, any time you brought it, Mischa would shut you down real quick, making it clear that Talia was not going to be something debatable if you wanted to keep your friendship intact.
So, you didn't, no matter how much it irked you when Mischa would complain about Talia growing more and more distant as of late, you kept your mouth shut about it (surprisingly.)
But then came the breakup.
You were going over to Mischa's house, like usual on the weekends since your house was strictly forbidden. Once your feet reached the porch of his home, you texted him that you were there and were ready to wait for him to eventually retrieve you and bring you down to his room. Mischa was oddly quick today though and the look on his face as he dragged you down to the basement made you know that something was up.
With the door being shut with a click from Mischa, he finally started to speak, his words rambled and his tone distressed. "Natalia broke up with me, please tell me what I did wrong! I need to fix this-" It took a few seconds for you to register what he was saying as he kept rambling, the news making you feel rather conflicted... On one hand, you really wanted to just rub it in that you were right and do an I told you so thing, but on the other, you did feel bad for Mischa. Like, come on, you would kill to have a guy so passionate and devoted to you, how could she throw something like that away?
So, against your better judgment, you made a sigh and guided him away from the door to his bed so he could sit down for a minute, his mouth shut as he stopped rambling but his face was so full of defeat...
After a while of just helping him calm down, you finally got the full story of what happened. Apparently, Talia had broken up with him the night prior as she, in her own words, had "found someone else." Mischa was hurt and you were at a loss since you had never been in a relationship before..., the most you knew to do at the moment was awkwardly rub circles into the palm of his hand as you tried to explain that there was nothing he could really do to fix this. She wasn't in love with him anymore and there was nothing he could do to change that, he couldn't force the girl to love him.
She found someone else to fulfill her needs and as much as it sucks, he needed to be okay with that.
Mischa took a long time to recover from the hurt that Talia had left him.
He gave so much for her, she was literally his everything and now she was gone. She was gone because he couldn't give her what she needed...
In some ways, your words did give him some perspective, but he really just needed time to spring back from the relationship. Truthfully, it was nice to have you by his side as he recovered though. You with your interesting quirks and flowery literature. In his eyes, you were like a lone candle when all the power went out, his one light and warmth in such a dark, lonely world.
It was comforting to know that there was someone else he could rely on..., someone else he could give his love to.
Platonically.
Obviously.
Moving along to a completely different topic, Mischa now has another thing to worry about and that is making sure he is never in the presence of Genocide Jack!
Very early on in your friendship, you would mention Jack without ever explicitly stating her name or saying anything about her, you would just say things like, "S-She just drives me c-crazy!" or "There's no way I'd ever let her come out ever again." Of course, he'd question you on it, but you would almost always refuse to answer no matter how insistent he was with it. He really hated being so pushy with it, but he couldn't just let someone mess with his friend this badly! He sees how terrified of her you are, please just let him help you!! :(
So, you eventually let up and did. Unintentionally, but you still did let him see the person who was bothering you so much...
Genocide Jack, the girl who's been causing you so much misery, was apparently your alter..., which was a rather confusing thing for Mischa to learn. He knows of people with DID and has even met a few people with it, but he never once suspected you would have it due to you never once mentioning it. Nor would he have suspected your alter to be a serial killer.
Back to how he met Jack, Mischa was once again pushing to find out who was causing you so much trouble as he wanted to help you, no one should ever dare to cause his friend so much distress! You were getting a little irritated by his questions and were being defensive about the whole thing, you never wanted him to find out about her... And yet, somehow, someway, you happened to have spot blood, you sneezed, and it all went downhill from there.
The person Mischa was greeted with was so different from you, as soon as Mischa asked if you were okay after seeing you freeze up for a second, he was met with the loud and boisterous Genocide Jack. At first, he was incredibly concerned with your dramatic personality shift and the way Jack so openly fawned over him but Jack quickly enlightened him as to who she was and what was happening. She was your alter ego and apparently someone who seemed very keen on using her scissors on him...
Thankfully, you managed to take control again before something seriously bad happened, but you knew as soon as you saw his face that you had a lot of explaining to do.
Mischa is pretty understanding about the whole thing and reassures you that Jack's murders are not your fault. As you two talk things out and he learns more about how you learned about your DID and what caused it, Mischa really can't help but feel so hurt for you...
He really hopes you know that he cares so much about you.
After learning about Jack and your past, Mischa grows incredibly protective over you, he doesn't even try to hide it. He wants you to feel safe and comfortable and other people, especially other men, will only hurt you.
Mischa has a bad habit of being convinced you are going to leave him every time you are away from him for too long... He knows it's stupid, but after what happened with Talia, he really doesn't want to take any chances with you. That's probably the reason he always feels the need to be so clingy with you.
His thoughts are so unintentionally filled with you, like, everything he does always ends up having him thinking about you in some way.
Mischa falls in love with you hard and fast.
The first time he ever noticed just how intense his feelings for you were was when you two were at some carnival in Uranium. It was evening and Noel had convinced everyone to go on the Ferris wheel as the last ride of the day, to which everyone was too tired to argue with him. You and Mischa got together in one of the carts, sitting across from one another, and eventually, the cart started going up.
A comfortable silence filled the air as you both just enjoyed the sunset and each other's company. As a cool breeze rushes by you both, the cart making it to the top of the Ferris wheel, Mischa glances at you and...
God, you are breathtaking.
He doesn't know how he never realized it sooner, but with the wind gently making your hair sway, the sun illuminating your form, and a serene expression on your face... You just looked heavenly.
His heart rate picked up, racing through speeds he never knew it could go to. It was there he realized he loved you, far more than he loved anyone else before.
You were just perfect for him.
He feels conflicted about teaching you Ukrainian sometimes, just because as nice as it would be for you to speak his native language, he also likes to call you кохана (my love) and for you to not know what it means.
If you ever call yourself ugly or insitutate you are, Mischa is gonna put a stop to that real quick. To him, you are far from that, and anyone who even tries to call you that will be dealt with, trust him on that.
You are so beautiful in his eyes.
Mischa will be treating your pet stinkbug, Kameko, with the utmost respect. If you love it, what right does he have to be anything other than nice and respectful towards it? Plus, he can see how much it means to you and he would never want to hurt your feelings because of something petty.
He will never say it out loud, but he really wants to run his hands through your hair.
He honestly really loves being able to bond with you over your family issues, not only because it's nice getting it off his chest, but because that means you rely on him. ...Sometimes he even hopes that you'll have a bad day with your family so he can hold you in his arms and comfort you.
Mischa knows this thought might be a tad delusional, but sometimes when he reads your romance books, he can't help but feel like they were written with him in mind. The thought makes his heart beat so quickly and he really wishes it's true.
Even if you don't write your books with him in mind, he is certainly writing his songs with you in mind. Every lyric, melody, beat, etc., is written with you in mind.
Not like he can get you off his mind anyway.
Ricky Potts:
Constance Blackwood would probably have to say she is the number one fan of your books, like, she's read every single one and has consumed every piece of media she has available to her.
And while Ricky Potts isn't as big of a fan as she is, Ricky was definitely enthralled when she introduced him to your romance novels. The writing in them was brilliant and every word just drew him in to read more and more, he really did love your books. He loved them so much, that a lot of his own works are inspired by yours.
Although he doesn't think he can call himself that much of a superfan knowing people like Constance are out there, he definitely was excited to see that you were doing a book signing in Uranium. How lucky was he!
He and Constance made sure to be the first people in line for the signing, which unfortunately was a bit empty considering most of the people in Uranium were older people who didn't enjoy new-age romance novels like yours. Thankfully though, because of the lack of people at your signing, Ricky didn't have to suffer too much from standing for such a long period of time.
He and Constance got up to the signing booth pretty quickly, both of them excitedly saying hi and you took the books they had and signed them. Normally, Ricky would feel a little bad from holding up the line by asking a question, but this was honestly a one-in-a-lifetime chance for him, rarely anyone goes to Uranium, so he might as well ask something. That something is, "What made you decide to do a signing in Uranium?" The robotic voice of his AAC device asks.
As stated before, Uranium isn't exactly the most popular spot for book signings or for much in general. Ricky had to admit he was really curious about why you chose this place at all instead of somewhere like Vancouver or Montreal. Your response though, had him incredibly shocked. "...I-I'm moving here, there's no way I'd b-be here otherwise." First of all, ouch... but also unfortunately true. Secondly, you are moving here!? If Ricky could be jumping for joy, he would.
As Constance hurriedly apologized to the line behind them and to you, rushing Ricky past the signing booth so they would be out of the way, Ricky couldn't help but have a big grin on his face. One of his favorite authors will be moving here and likely will be in the same school as him as he knows you both are the same age, how neat is that! :D
Also, you didn't ignore his question or anything, which was pretty cool. :')
Ricky was over the moon for the next few days as you moved in and he saw you walking around school. He never got the chance to talk to you for a while after you moved in, but he was pretty giddy to get to know you as a person and not just as an author.
Before that time though, he was content in just observing you for now.
What surprised him most about you definitely had to be how opposite your personality and looks were. He rarely, if ever, actually judges a book by its cover (I feel like that can be a pun-) but you'd have to admit, you looked a lot more timid than you actually were. Sure, you stuttered like how he knew and would expect you to, but you were a lot more brash than he initially thought of you as.
You also tended to be pretty defensive about almost everything. Ricky can't say he minds though, honestly, finding out about this side of you was really interesting! Plus, have you seen the choir? He definitely has no room to judge when they are his friends.
The first time Ricky really got to talk to you for more than a few seconds was during some school event you were both supposed to help out for. Ricky was quite surprised he so coincidentally got chosen to help out alongside you, but he definitely wasn't complaining. If fate had that kind of plan for him, then so be it.
He made his way through the door to the counselor's office and was met with you standing alone, presumably waiting for the counselor to show up so you'd both know what to start doing. You looked back, seeing Ricky make his way through the door with a wobbly smile, giving a small wave whenever he made it to the spot next to you. You actually started the conversation before Ricky got to, your voice holding a questioning tone as it hung in the air. "Were you at my book signing the other day?" To which Ricky cheerfully nodded, glad and slightly shocked you remembered him, and he grabbed out his AAC device to respond. "Yes, I am. This is a little late, but, welcome to Uranium."
You and Ricky talked for a bit before the counselor finally came in and gave you both a checklist of things to complete before the evening. You both introduced yourselves, although you technically didn't have to, and Ricky gave you the gist of how things work in Uranium. Of course, as the afternoon went on with you two chatting as you worked, you both got to know each other a little better.
Admittedly, there were a few moments where you'd be less than pleasant company by insulting him or sometimes getting so impatient that you'd skip past whatever he was going to say with his AAC device, but it was clear to Ricky that none of it was anything more hurtful than basic insults meant to throw him off from wanting to talk to you. And although it did hurt, he felt compelled to move past it and keep talking to you, which was eventually rewarded as the insults did eventually stop even when you got defensive or insecure.
He wasn't even sure why he kept going, maybe it was a philosophy of his or a weird interest he had, whatever the reason, it was safe to say you both became fonder of each other that day. In fact, after that, you both quickly became friends!
Ricky obviously already knew you were an amazing author, but to find out that you are literally known as the ultimate writing prodigy was something else entirely.
Seriously, it's like everything he learns about you is so much more compelling than the last.
And yes, he will subtly try to convince you to write stories about Zolar and if you don't get it, he will not so subtly beg you. He just knows his adventures will sound so much more amazing in your words!
Ricky really does love your academic style, he thinks it suits you well.
Look, no matter how clingy you are, he will still love being your friend since he can also be pretty clingy. When you only have maybe 7 people you can talk to and only two of them will listen to you about Zolar, you are gonna take all the attention you can get.
Plus, you are just really awesomesauce. :)
Look, he knows that others may find it annoying, but he kind of likes it when you get all cocky about your artistic works. You deserve to be proud of yourself, even if you do get a little too prideful with it. He will hype you up!
He will go to you with writing ideas all the time. Say goodbye to writer's block because, with the wild ideas Ricky's pitching to you, you will never have to worry about it again.
Just know that whenever Ricky spaces out, it's either about Zolar or ways to keep you from leaving him.
It's a weird phobia he has.
So, as the writer that you are, you are bound to end up keeping a journal or two. It's good practice to just write your thoughts down from time to time!
And as the curious boy Ricky is...
He went through it.
Look, he knows it's supposed to be a private, personal thing of yours, but that's what makes it all the more forbiddenly exciting, that he isn't meant to be looking in there. As he reads some mundane entries of your thoughts or about your day, all the which he gushed over you while reading, he finally came to a particularly intriguing page.
On the said page were a lot of references to feeling guilty over something and even disgusted over "her" hurting people. That page and a few more entries, all describing a certain person who was causing you so much trouble and grief made Ricky's eye twitch in aggravation. He wasn't irritated at you, he doesn't even think that's possible now, no, he was irritated at the person who dared to cause someone he adored so much trouble. Just who do they think they are messing with you like this?
You are just too great for your own good.
Ricky knew he had to act quickly after learning about this awful vermin, he didn't want to keep letting you suffer at the hands of this person. But he also knew he couldn't exactly tell you he was snooping through your personal journal..., he knows exactly how you'd react and he doesn't want to make you feel awful about yourself.
It was a pretty complicated situation, one that took a good few moons to solve, but he eventually came up with an idea. He would come clean but in the most roundabout way possible, one where you wouldn't know he went digging through your journal and he could still get some information on the person.
After sitting you down in his room on a particularly nice Saturday morning, he finally popped the question to you. His face was full of worry as his hands steadily signed to you, "Has something been going on with you? ...Has someone been messing with you?"
Of course, you didn't come out and say it initially, you weren't that kind of person, it honestly took a lot of time, pushing, and reassuring to even get a peep out of you. Whenever you did start explaining it, the fact that you have an alter named Genocide Jack who was a serial killer, Ricky could stop the shock from appearing on his face. In no world or story would he ever have imagined this scenario to come up, especially not with you of all people.
As you kept explaining, a pit of anxiety formed in your chest as Ricky looked lost for words the more you went on. For the first time in a long time, Ricky had nothing to say, no words to explain the thoughts that were rummaging through his head. A long, tense silence filled the air between you and Ricky, Ricky deep in thought as he tried to think of what to say. He wanted to comfort you so badly, to say anything to you so you wouldn't have to feel so worried and alone in this situation.
His mind kept being blank before he took a big breath and moved carefully towards you for a hug. After which, he signed with all the love and care he could muster, "Sorry for bringing it up, I'm always here if you need to talk you know. I don't mind helping you get in touch with a therapist either, I know I can't substitute a professional or anything like that. Just..., whatever you need, I am here to give it to you." He could only hope that was the right thing to say, he doesn't know what he would do if he lost you...
And by the way you shakily replied with, "T-Thanks...," He assumes he did alright.
From what you told him about Jack though, he's gonna make sure he stays away if she ever takes over..., for his own safety.
Ricky felt like his adoration for you was obvious, really, it's not like he ever tried to hide it from you before. There's no reason to, he wants you to know how much he cares about you.
The thing is though, that he also thought his love for you was pretty obvious. Again, he never bothered hiding it since he's sure you feel the same way, right? Like, you never let anyone get as close to you as he's gotten, that has to mean something write?
...You love him right?
He loves you a lot.
Ricky fell in love with you the moment he saw you..., is what he would say, but he more accurately fell in love with you during your first ever sleepover together. He was undeniably pretty giddy the whole day even before you got to his house since this was your first sleepover with him, he wanted it to be perfect.
And, it kind of was. When you got there, you both did all your typical sleepover stuff of playing games, eating junk food, and even playing with his cats for a bit. The last thing that was on his bucket list for the night was to watch a few movies, an obvious sleepover staple he knew you two had to do. So, there you both were sitting on his couch with blankets and pillows comfortably lying around you two. About halfway through the movie, he feels your head fall on his shoulder, something Ricky tries to ignore due to his own internal freakout for a brief moment before he finally wills himself to look at you...
...
That moment will forever be cemented in his mind because you looked so at peace, in a way you never ever do when you are awake. You were at peace because of him.
He fell so hard for you that night.
Truthfully, one of Ricky's favorite things to do is mess with you. Not in a mean-spirited way, of course, just small pranks here and there.
Ricky definitely has a plush in his room that you and him won from some carnival and named that he now treats like his son.
Please yap to him and let him yap to you, it's his favorite activity and that's saying a lot since that title used to belong to him spacing out and daydreaming about Zolar.
So, Ricky does have a tendency to cyberstalk you... like, a lot. He even somehow knows of your secret account you post anonymous ramblings on.
Not only does he cyberstalk you though, but he also cyberstalks everyone close to you. He wants to make sure you're safe and no one around you is a bad influence! (Who needs that many friends anyway when you have him?)
He will often stay up late at night just rereading your books over and over again, a lovesick grin on his face every time he looks at the signature that you signed on the front page.
You literally make it impossible for him to do anything other than think about you, so don't be surprised if he one day can't take it and acts out on his urges.
Penny Lamb:
Penny really would have loved to meet you in any other way, she really would have...
It's just that, meeting in the counselor's office to do her weekly therapy session was not where she expected to see someone as gorgeous as you also waiting for Dr. Prattle. Not to mention, she really wasn't emotionally ready to make any conversation as she had to deal with the usual group of girls trying to mess with her as she came in.
The point is that this wasn't exactly the best place or time to talk to you.
So you guys didn't talk. At all.
Which in retrospect is perfectly normal, but Penny just felt so awkward sitting next to you with no one else in the office, not speaking a word even though it's clear she wanted to talk to you. Thankfully Dr. Prattle called her into his office soon after (literally the only time she's ever wanted to actually see him,) and Penny, albeit a little sad about it, was pretty sure she wouldn't have to be alone with you again. Good for her anxiety, but not so great for her getting the chance to talk to you again...
You win some you lose some.
But of course, as most things go in Penny's life, her wishes were not respected and you were still in fact there at the counselor's office the next week. As soon as Penny walked through the doors and her eyes saw you, she knew that last week wasn't a one-time thing... She knew that those long awkward silences as she waited for Dr. Prattle to get her weren't going away any time soon... Great.
She quickly shook off the thought to go sit down and not linger by the doorway for too long, getting a bit of deja vu as it was the motions of last week played out before her again, the same clock ticks, the same fluorescent lights, the same you... Taking a breath, a few words slipped out of Penny's mouth that neither you nor her were expecting. "So..., what are you in for?" As soon as Penny said it, she felt like dying on the inside from how much she was cringing...
It seemed like you weren't too thrilled by her lackluster communication skills either as you replied with, "N-None of your business... Y-You think I'm that weird that I'm in h-here for therapy or something, huh?!" To which the situation only escalated as Penny tried to explain what she meant through her fast-paced words and anxious smile. "No! That's not what I meant at all, It's just that I saw you in here last week and I wondering if you were in here for a specific reason or if you just came in here to be away from everyone else-" Penny kept rambling on as you would keep shooting things back at her, making her trying to keep overcompensating so you hopefully wouldn't think she hates you for no good reason.
Even when Dr. Prattle called her up, Penny would still mutter a few sorries in your direction before the door shut behind her. That wasn't the last of it either, because for some reason every single time she went in and saw you, she'd say yet another cringy thing and you would unfortunately, more often than not, become self-deprecating.
Really, the only thing keeping her going in this strange relationship of yours was those rare days where the conversation didn't immediately escalate and she actually got to know you a little bit. For Penny, that was the main reason she kept trying to talk to you, at first it was to just clear the long, tense silences that filled the air every week, but it slowly transformed into her wanting to actually know you. She doesn't have many friends and she knows what it's like to deal with preconceived notions and anxiety which is why she really wants to push past your walls.
Because if she can do that, she won't have to deal with it alone anymore.
Penny tells a lot about you to Ezra, as she does with pretty much everything, and while he isn't totally keen on you treating Penny so harshly, he'd be lying if he said he wasn't interested in you as well.
What can they both say? Most people in Uranium are either really bland old people or bullies, neither of which really catches their attention.
Penny has thought about bringing you a gift on several occasions, but she always chickens out last minute since she has no idea what you like...
Like, she knows you like writing and movies but you give so little information about yourself (probably because you aren't that willing to open up to her,) that she can't think of anything.
...
She really is trying here. :(
Despite Penny's normally anxious nature, this was one thing she was really stubborn about, that being becoming your friend. Perhaps it all goes back to her ex-love, Johnny Moon, but whenever she finds someone she likes or is rometly interested in, she can't help but really want to get closer to them! Plus, with the way you let your walls down sometimes and give her tiny crumbs of info about you, it's hard not to want to push some more.
So, when Penny walked into the counselor's office just like every other week, she wasn't expecting much to change. The only thing that was kind of different was the fact that she had a book with her this time titled, "The Family From The Day Before Yesterday," an interesting story she's sure you would enjoy! Going through the motions of sitting down next to you, stumbling through conversation as she eventually brings up the book, Penny was halfway through explaining it before you interrupted.
"Y-You don't have to explain to me my own book, you know? I k-know it's great, I w-wrote it." "...Wait really?" "D-Do you just not look at the flap that tells y-you the author's information? O-Or am I just that ugly that you couldn't d-dare look at it?!-"
Penny was certainly surprised to find that you wrote TFFTDBY (long acronym), but in her defense, your name wasn't on the front and your information was on the back flap which she wouldn't have seen since she hadn't finished the book yet!
Pushing that aside, however, Penny was actually able to connect with you on something so, huzzah! Pretty much as soon as you noticed the wide grin on her face and stopped your rant to ask her what was up, she immediately started to ask questions about the book and your writing process, all of which you happily indulged in.
Every week after that, she would bring in that book or a new one of yours she started reading to discuss it, finally being able to talk to you and be able to hold a normal conversation like Penny's been wanting. You too also felt yourself growing fond of Penny's company, even if you'd never admit it. You've met a lot of fans over the years but Penny's enthusiasm felt different..., it was genuine and it gave a weird tingling feeling that you couldn't ignore.
Her presence almost became a nice comfort in the cold, small town of Uranium.
Plus, you weren't going to complain about someone gushing about your writing to you.
Once you guys start hanging out more outside of the counselor's office, Penny will not so subtly beg you to watch her choir performances as she deems them very boring but having you there will make them at least a little more fun. While you usually refuse, the few times you do go, you can see Penny's face light up every time she spots you in the crowd.
Look, you may have teased her for carrying around a doll several times, but that hasn't stopped you from helping Penny form a collection with how many you gift her... It may not seem like it, but you do pay attention to what she likes.
Penny would have never guessed you were the type to own a stinkbug, but finding out you had one was so random yet fascinating to her.
You have gifted her matching friendship bracelets, yes it was corny, and no you will not be taking it off anytime soon.
To be fair, there are days when you can get snippy, but even on those days, you two eventually can reconcile.
Once Penny can get past her anxiety and she gets comfortable with someone, she can be a bit of an oversharer. Like, she tells you every single detail about her trip to see Johnny Moon and about the times she and Ezra visited Walmart. She tells you about pretty much everything in excruciating detail and she encourages you to do so too! ...Like, a lot.
Penny just feels like she talks about herself too often, which makes her feel really bad. So, she trys her hardest to get you to talk about yourself too, whether that be on how your day went or intricate details of your past, she wants to know it all. Plus, you can trust her, she would never want to hurt you! (She likes you way too much to do that.)
All you have to do is let go and rant about whatever is bothering you, easy as pie.
...
So, knowing you were going to have to get it out of the way sooner or later, you tell Penny about your darkest secret, something you've never told anyone before. You've never told anyone because you thought you would never be able to trust anyone, thankfully though, you were wrong about that.
Sitting on the edge of the bed in Penny's room, Ezra's presence absent, you spill about your alter, Jack.
As you lay out all your vulnerabilities at the moment, sparing no glance at Penny as your eyes were glued to the floor with an unconscious fear of rejection, Penny couldn't help herself but smile. She can't believe you would have ever thought that your alter would make her think negatively of you, it honestly makes her want to laugh a little.
She would never blame you for something you can't control, not to mention, who is she to judge you with all that she's done? She's just so happy you finally opened up to her. She would hate you keeping anything from her, especially something as important to you as this.
Before you can finish, Penny gently grabs your hand and tries to give the most comforting smile she can before saying, "You know you never have to worry about telling me these things right? I could never hate you." Although she's not as great with words as you are, she really hopes the few she can put together are enough to soothe you.
...If she ever does come across Jack though, she will be saying a few not-so-kind words to her for making your life so miserable.
Moving on, with Penny being the person she is, it really isn't so strange to her or probably anyone who knew her well enough that she knows that exact time and day when her feelings for you became a little more than friendly. How could she not keep track of something as important as her falling in love?
She may have grown up on a commune, but talks of love and fairytale romances were not uncommon at all for any girl there to hear of. Really, in the back of her mind, it was all she thought about, she was always wondering just when she would meet that special someone.
The point is, she fell in love with you the evening of July 4th.
It was a nice summer day in Uranium and you both were making some homemade pizzas from scratch, something Penny had never done before but was eager to try after having it on her bucket list for a while. The process was a bit messier than both of you had realized with flour practically everywhere, but at least both of the pizzas were in the oven! You and Penny were leaning against the counters, chatting about nothing and everything like always, before you made a comment that you can pretty much make a poem out of everything, something that deeply interests Penny.
So, with that challenge so teasingly dangling in front of her, of course, she dares you to come up with poems for various things like the fridge, the floor, the granite countertops, everything she can think of. You obviously excel at this and before long, you have made a poem for pretty much everything in the kitchen, the only thing that was left was Penny herself. Now, Penny didn't think too much of this as she just assumed the poem would be a short silly one like everything else had been, yet the words that were uttered from you next were far from that...
The poem you curated for her was heartfelt and as passionate as you'd let yourself be. It wasn't at all what Penny was expecting and yet..., that's when she knew.
That was the exact moment she felt her heart skip a beat, her face was warming, and her palms grew sweaty.
She knew she had fallen in love with you.
There was no way in hell she was gonna let you go either. She loved you so indescribably and with that poem..., surely you felt the same way. You had to, there was no other choice.
Penny is usually not that big on touching and in all honestly, neither were you, but there will be moments where she is the clingest person alive. She is very touched-starved.
As gifts, she will try to make poems and other short stories for you to enjoy. They definitely aren't the best, but you can tell they are full of love and care.
(She totally isn't projecting you both onto the main characters, what-)
As said before, she isn't the touchiest person, but please, please, please run your hands through her hair!! She adores it! :))
You are now required to go to all her choir performances, no questions asked. If it helps though, she will be more than thrilled to go to any event you have planned! She might even go even if you ask her not to...
She just wants to keep an eye on you is all.
Say goodbye to your bullies because they will not be seen again. :)
Same with anyone who even remotely tries to flirt with you, because that's not gonna happen on Penny's watch.
Constance Blackwood:
Constance truly couldn't believe this day had finally come, really, it felt like a dream!
She had been reading your books for so long now and you're by far her favorite author. Your words are just so articulate and you are able to bring her to tears with just a few words..., not just anyone is able to do that, you know.
So, as is obvious, the event Constance is so excited about is you coming to Uranium for a book signing!! Even now, as she and Ricky wait in the relatively short line outside the library, it feels so surreal. Who would've thought someone like you was coming to Uranium of all places? Uranium is far from a popular place so it does seem a little strange, but she was definitely not going to complain.
It didn't take long to reach you, yet every step Constance took made her giddy and anxious simultaneously. As they got closer and closer to you, she couldn't tell if she was about to throw up or squeal from the whirlwind of emotions she was feeling... Then of course she got up to you and the nerves really started kicking in.
All her nerves would let her do at the moment was anxiously say hi, ramble on for a minute about how big of a fan she was, get her favorite book signed, and then leave. That was all she could handle at the moment, otherwise, she might just explode-
Which she almost did because even after she somehow smoothly broke past her anxiousness and did the whole song and dance of getting her book signed, Ricky just had to ask what you were in Uranium for. And yeah, Constance was curious, but having to talk to you any longer than she was planning to be making her nerves shoot up. As Ricky's AAC device speaks out his question, Ricky oblivious to Constance trying to inch them along, your response almost made Constance freeze up immediately.
...You were gonna stay in Uranium? For real?? Her favorite author of all time was going to live in her city and go to the same school as her???
Her nerves could not compete with the sheer amount of joy she was feeling at the moment as she and Ricky left the line, the widest grin on both of their faces. She knew right then and there that she was going to try her hardest to be your friend because, when do you ever get another opportunity like this? Plus, she's sure Ocean wouldn't mind a new face in the choir with all the recruitment she's constantly doing!
And the rest is history! Ocean was immediately on board with the idea and somehow Ocean was able to get you to join the choir.
Now that Constance can get to know you better, she will be the first to admit that you aren't the most secure person, which is totally okay! She had to also admit though that it was kind of surprising considering she's kind of put you on a pedestal as her favorite author, so she really can't fathom why you would even feel insecure.
She also doesn't get why you don't think her friendly gestures are genuine!! It makes her so sad to hear you be so suspicious of her motives when all she wants to do is talk to you. Thankfully, you did let up after a while and you eventually don't call her every bad name in the book anymore just for saying hi, but it was pretty startling for a minute.
Some might think that after she got to know the real you (or at least as much as she can know about you from being acquaintances,) that Constance's view of you would change to a more negative one. After all, everyone says to not meet your heroes, right? Well, for Constance, that assumption would be incredibly wrong. She's dealt with her fair share of awful people in Uranium and online, but the difference between you and them was what made her want to keep pursuing a friendship with you.
That difference being that you have the ability to change and she is wants to see that. Sure, the people she previously have met and had exhibited the same cold, rude responses that you are currently could also change, but she knows that something about you is different. She wants to see you grow into the good person she knows you are deep down.
Plus, with how much your words have changed her life, she can at least do this for you. :)
Constance usually loathes being called nice, because..., seriously? "The nicest girl in town"?? It just feels like a pity title because no one could come up with anything better.
But is she complaining when that title is the reason you choose to come to her when the rest of the choir is being too much? The title that lets her bond with you and lets her get closer to you? Oh, definitely not, this might seriously be the only occasion when her niceness really gets to shine.
While the rest of the choir is off doing their usual shenanigans, being loud and chaotic as usual, you and Constance hang back and chat. A nice break that eventually goes from just hanging out because everyone else is too chaotic, to you both hanging out because you are friends. Constance is like the shade under a tree that protects you from the grueling sun.
She wants to keep it that way.
Now, believe Constance when she says she is the biggest fan of your works because she 100% is.
So whenever you explain to her your ultimate talent, that of being the ultimate writing prodigy, Constance is not surprised at all. She might be a little taken aback that someone can be called an ultimate for that (since writing is very subjective,) but after shaking off that initial surprise, she is spouting on about how much sense that makes and praising your writing like there's no tomorrow.
If you ever need an ego boost, go to her because she will give you one times 10!
No one would have ever guessed you both work well at being friends, probably due to how different your personalities are, but somehow you two just balance each other out.
Did I mention that are your go-to person when you pull all-nighters? Constance is 100% a night owl so she will be awake and ready with a coffee and pastry in hand if you need it.
You are not the greatest at giving compliments, that's a fact you have come to live with and that Constance understands, so the few Constance can manage to make out of you get her so giddy. Especially begrudgingly reassure her that she has qualities other than being nice, it's nice to hear that in general but it means so much coming from you.
A hobby Constance has seemed to pick of up recently because she's been around you so much, is writing. Not just any writing though, she really likes writing letters.
To you.
She has written countless letters to you, none of which will ever see the light of day, all about things she likes about you in excruciating detail. And yes, most of them can get a little... creepy.
Constance also has a habit of tracing her fingers over the rim of your used coffee cups..., it makes her feel closer to you in a way that makes her heart race and face get hot.
For the record, Constance had put together the pieces that you had potentially dangerous alter long before you ever told her anything. Do you think she knows so much about you by just not doing her research? Of course, she knows bits and pieces of your alter that she was able to find online or wiggle out of you.
Nothing could have prepared her for meeting that alter of yours though.
It was during one of your late-night coffee runs to Constance's house, which she always happily obliged to. You both were hanging around the kitchen, waiting for the coffee pot to brew, and chatting like always. It was a calm, cool night, no reason for either of you to suspect the wild events that were soon to take place...
Constance had decided to cut up some fruit for the two of you after explaining you needed something healthy to balance out the coffee you were about to have. She laid some strawberries on the cutting board after washing them, the knife slicing threw them with ease. She must not have been paying enough attention or her lack of sleep was finally catching up to her, because in the midst of talking, Constance accidentally cut herself.
It wasn't a big cut or anything, but it did start bleeding and caused Constance to reel back with a small hiss in pain. She turns to you, hiding her hand behind her back as he is acutely aware of your phobia, but before she can ask to grab the first aid kit..., the damage has already been done.
You stumbled back before passing out, causing Constance to call out your name in shock and concern, rushing over to you to catch you before you hit the tile. As she held onto you, shaking you lightly to try and wake you up, you eventually arose from your unconscious state.
...Except that it wasn't you, it was Jack.
And to say the sudden switch in your personality wasn't surprising would be a lie. Jack quickly jumped up and was already up to her usual shenanigans while introducing herself, being incredibly vulgar but at least giving Constance an explanation as well...
It took a while for you to switch back, like, a good three hours. Constance did get to know Jack a little in that time and although Jack does scare her, she had to admit she was kind of funny-
You didn't even need to go through the effort of explaining everything as Jack did it for you, and even if Constance would be willing to lend an ear if you needed someone to talk to, she gets it if you don't want to.
So, you know how Constance is your biggest fan and you know how most people have a celebrity crush?
You can guess where I'm going with this...
Constance, for whatever reason, had a pretty big celebrity crush on you for a while. It started out as just some silly crush that she was sure was never going to happen, after all, she had zero chance of leaving Uranium and you sure as hell weren't gonna just magically appear here. So, she just settled for giddily watching clips of you and maybe writing some really bad self-insert fanfiction... (Does this count as a fourth wall break?)
And yet, somehow, someway, the gods finally decided to toss her a bone in the form of having you literally move to Uranium, and that made her crush on you so much worse. She initially just tried to keep her thoughts and actions toward you strictly platonic, after all, you totally weren't gonna end up being the person of her dreams right?
...Right??
...
Yeah, the universe was back to torturing her.
She fell for you and she fell for you hard, like, she thinks about you at every possible moment she can. It was kind of embarrassing...
But what can she say, you have some really captivating eyes. (Ones that she hopes will only look at her and no one else.)
Constance can be a bit clingy and she knows it. She pretty much follows you everywhere and will not give you much alone time, if any at all.
Look though, as much as she loves you and knows you aren't the careless type, she will be in fact confiscating your scissors whether you like it or not.
Hold her hand. Pretty please.
You guys definitely have certain shows and movies you watch together and only together. Even if you do complain from time to time that the books are better, you have to admit it's a nice activity that you look forward to a lot.
So..., Constance tells her family pretty much everything she can about you, so much so that they pretty much think you two are dating even if you aren't. Will Constance ever correct them? Nope.
Constance for sure has a fanpage dedicated to you, one where she can spend even more of her time dedicated to you by talking with others who like you as well! (No one else can match her devotion to you though.)
Remember the letters mentioned previously? Yeah, those are a whole lot creepier once Constance finally admits to herself that she likes you.
A/N: I FINALLY FINISHED THIS, YAY! :D
By the way, for everyone, I have closed my requests, if you weren't aware. I did it mainly so I could finish up the requests I do have and also so I could write some original stuff for a change, lol.
P.S. I know I didn't mention much of Toko's backstory here, for which I apologize. If you would like me to write about it, please feel free to request it whenever I open up my ask box again!
I cannot even begin to explain how much joy creating content for this Tumblr brings me, it's so nice to get my writing out there and to meet so many others who love the fandoms I'm in just as much as I do.
Thank you so much to everyone who has interacted with my content, either through reblogs, likes, or whatever, it truly does mean the world to me.
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