dying for your sins

casshern / android / male / ? / ? [ apart of mardo { #suit s-1 w/ some people } sinfulcasshern. if u wanna talk to me @albed0_ ]

[danger-cat]

Casshern Sins

[dante-must--die]

[sinfulcasshern]

drowning beauty.

thalassia. a beautiful place he thought. a place that would soon fall to ruin, just like his planet did. he loved the city and even the outskirts where no one dared to adventure it was still beautiful. the trees were barely alive, the monsters tore through the land like it was nothing and .. it seemed to be .. the only thing that the greatest of the great thalassia had to provide couldn't break. people like casshern couldn't die, the people who brought him here were gracious enough to grant him his immortality( much to his demise ). he didn't want to be immortal, he didnt want to live. he was a miserable person underneath all the faux smiles and it was amazing how many people could believe that he was so docile. his feet pushed him to stand aswell as his hand used to balance his weight( if there was any, he hadn't eaten in a couple of weeks, not that it was needed. yknow, mechanics and what not. ). he examined the cliff and stared over it, seeing the roaring waves crash against the mounting rocks there he cocked his head to one side and looked up at the sky. "..i wonder what it'd be like to see the other side..." then started to head in the direction of the gate that everyone was ordered to stay away from. this was the only stronghold that thalassia had to offer to keep the creatures out, this was the line drawn between peace and reality. and the harsh reality was that theyre all practically just waiting for when the gates drop and they're all killed. .. death.

"hah."

a bitter laugh left his lips as he ran his fingers over the wood and then the steal that reinforced it, blue eyes flickered and brown locks covered his face. he turned his back to it and headed down to the shore, he never really realized that rin had a point. there was beauty in even the most dangerous of things, that's what she liked about him wasn't it? she thought he was beautiful... "rin," he muttered past pale lips. feet slowly leaving the hot sand and sunk to his knees letting the water hit them. his fingers stretched out and pushed against the sand, watching the water slowly make its way to the hand prints he made and fill them up with water then wash over it with the sand that was melded with the salt water. "maybe..." he mumbled and started to walk into the water, the weight suddenly pushing against him and the waves that came from way out were suddenly trying to push him back but he continued as if it were nothing. "rin.. lyuze, rin," he said, almost like a chant. the truth of the matter was being in thalassia was great and all but that didn't make his loneliness any better. he missed lyuze, he missed her and wanted to talk to her. he wanted to play with rin and tell her how proud of her he was, that the world was better now. but everything drowned him all at once, "drowning.." he laughed at the thought but not vocally, inwardly he laughed at himself. "maybe," just maybe..

the water started to circle around his head and he was no longer walking he was just sinking. he stopped moving his legs, arms, he just let his body sink and hopefully hit the ocean floor. this won't kill him, obviously, but the thought usually satisfies him.

",,..,,,..." his lips moved but nothing came out, the words were mouthed but not said. sleep tight, beautiful prince.

[sinfulcasshern]

"it's so nice out today, oh.. we're getting more and more new peope, i've barely talked to those here right now and i apologize for that.. i'm a selfish person..."

[sinfulcasshern]

friendships never die [atlus/casshern]

[heliatlus-archive-blog-deactiva]

“Oh—!” Atlus almost completely toppled over, and he would have too, if not for Casshern’s arm hooked around his. He regained himself, taking a quick deep breath and blinking a few times. “C-Casshern? Oh! Hello…”

"It’s good to see you!" He’d been on his way home from work, actually. There wasn’t much else on his mind or to-do list. "Of course, I would love to spend some time together." He smiled. "Do you want to go get some coffee?"

[sinfulcasshern]

"where were you coming from, atlus?" despite his voice being quiet he seemed to give off some displays of excitement to see a friend. he was slightly fidgety, though his facial expression was still as expressionless as usual his aura was pretty friendly, friendlier even.

"coffee..?" he scrunched his nose. would it even be okay for him to drink coffee? "..maybeee..."

[heyjuddrefrain]

"Dunno. They might. One of these days."

"That sounds pretty violent. Do you feel bad about it?"

[sinfulcasshern]

"it was....."

"i ... the humanely thing to say is yes, yes i do but i dont at the same time. feelings arent what i was made for to have,"

[sinfulcasshern]

"whats so bad about friday the thirteenth? i think this is a great day like any other, its a nice cool night and everyone seems to be lively and with their friends." oh casshern. you silly robot.

[heyjuddrefrain]

Amusement painted over his features, crinkling his nose and curling his lips. The concern in Casshern’s tone elicited nothing but pride from Sean. He knew how to play the metaphorical game of reputation-building to his advantage. So long as he could bluff his way to the top, no one would dare to ask him to prove his claims. Right?

"All these examples and not enough time. It’s kind of a shame, don’t you think? Once I become a grandpa, I won’t even know where to start."

[sinfulcasshern]

he takes everything one says too literal,so you may want to rethink that. "you have kids? are they going to have kids? youd probably scare them with your stories, sean," he shuffles about then crinkles his nose. "well im not a busy person, i wouldnt mind hearing some, i wont judge.."

"i once ripped open a person's entire bodily wires out infront of a small childbot... hah..." faux smile.

[sinfulcasshern]

friendships never die [atlus/casshern]

"...! atlus..." soft yell coming from the sideline and at almost a blazing speed he nearly tackled the raven down, he zipped through the crowd of people and practically hooked his arm around of atlus' and nearly lifting him off the ground. being taller then him by a couple of inches he let go of the other's arm and stood back, smiling at him despite looking slightly off.

seriously though if it weren't for how fast casshern could be he would be noticed. he was noticed anyways for how oddly he fashioned around. seriously, that neck collar could kill a man. "sorry a..h...! i was just...excited to see a friend is all," the last time they talked he didn't remember it but he knew that it was left off on a.. dead note. he didn't want to be remembered like that either.

"and i hadn't talked to you for some time now, so...i figured, we could, if you're not doing anything..." smiles very faintly.

[heyjuddrefrain]

"Ohoho, and there it is. The million dollar question. Have I ever done illegal things in order to survive. Well! I think it’s better for the both of us if I don’t answer that question. Just let the notion ferment for a while. It makes for a better story when you lack the facts."

[sinfulcasshern]

"...uh." sweats nervously, well not literally no he doesn't sweat. but you get the idea of anxiety that just shot up his spine, "you sound like you have hundreds of tales to tell someone, depending on who you trust,  suppose," exact opposite with casshern. he has no reputation, he has nothing to uphold, no pride, nothing.

[heyjuddrefrain]

"You mean… do humans become more self-centered when their livelihoods are threatened? Yup."

"Don’t mention it. You can call me Sean. Write it down so you remember it."

[sinfulcasshern]

"have you ever had to do something like that? i cant imagine what's that like..." casshern doesn't have to eat actually. he'll get the feeling of hunger but he could go on without eating, again, not human already.

[heyjuddrefrain]

"Humans aren’t exactly model citizens. Drive a man to starvation and he’ll snap like a dog."

"Ahem. Well, if you’re so afraid of hurting people, it’s a good idea to keep to yourself. Right? But that only begets feelings of loneliness. Listen, I don’t think a guy like you has much to worry about. At least you’ve good intent."

[sinfulcasshern]

"i think i met soeone like that once, i didnt think it was normal to eat sand lizards but.. the world i livd in was ruined and...he had no other means of survival.. do all.. humans do that when life is crumbling before them and theres no other way...?"

"hey, i dont think i ever got you name...maybe. but you're a nice man too, thankyou, that.. that eased my conscious alittle...

[aquaflora]

"What?"

[sinfulcasshern]

"excuse me?"

[heyjuddrefrain]

"There’s a first time for everything. I know what it’s like, having to keep your guard up, but this place seems relatively calm to me."

"Not quite. The only monsters I ever had to deal with were other people. —well, it’s more complicated than that, but I shouldn’t say too much."

[sinfulcasshern]

"other people? oh.. im sorry i shouldnt ask too many questions.."

"its not that i have my guard up, i'm just scared ill.. harm people.."

[youmustbekirijoking-deactivated]

Happy Birthday to Me [casshern]

[youmustbekirijoking-deactivated]

She shrugged her shoulders. Being alone on her birthday wasn’t new at all to her. Her father wasn’t always there for her, and that was normal. What confused her was why someone she just met would care. “I don’t see why you’d be so concerned. It’s hardly an issue.”

And then he left, then promptly came back to ask for her drink preference. “Oh…hm. Perhaps a strawberry daiquiri? And treat yourself to whatever you’d like; I can cover it.”

[sinfulcasshern]

"i figured it was only polite to ask.." and then he was off to go get her her drink. all the while waiting he drummed his fingers against the counter. dropping the coins on the wood and thanked the bartender when he returned, turning on his heel and returned to the table. sitting on the stool he handed it to her with a very faint smile, "i.. probably said it before but, happy birthday if it means much."

[sinfulcasshern]

ill do something in return [open]

blinks and just kindve walks on into the park, places thin fingers to his stomach and gently taps them against of his stomach. did he even have any money on him? he spotted someone and quietly walked over to them, almost walking on air it seemed since he didnt make much of a sound. upon approaching them he placed his hand to their shoulder and tilted his head, fluffy brown locks tilting out of his face one side and covering the other. "may i request something? this is strange really, it wouldnt surprise me if you said no, but can i trouble you for something to eat?"

[zealouswilder]

"Cold? Are you nuts? I’m boiling like a lobster over here!"

[sinfulcasshern]

"it doesn't feel cold to me--" pauses briefly then tilts head. "you're a lobster?"