sinking

kind of a vent blog black | she/her | tw: depression/ed

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dear god the only thing i want in life is to be feminine for someone to look at me and they see how dainty and pretty i am like someone who needs to be protected and loved and held. and for some reason in my head the only way i'll be close to getting that is to be skinny, and it might not happen even then bc black women are so masculinized so that just makes it even harder. ALL I WANTTT IS TO BE LOVEDDDD😔

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Hi this is an introduction post ig or something i'm not really sure many ppl will see this anyway bc tumblr is kinda dead now but anyway, i am a soon to be 18 yr old currently in high school, i struggle with depression (undiagnosed currently, but very obvious) and binge ed. i am ridden with insecurity and angst, like a teenager should be i guess and i've held it all in but now i guess i'm gonna use this as an outlet since i don't have a physical diary to write in atm. shameful yes i know. i have a name but i am not sure i want to say it here yet but i doesn't matter if anyway. i'll be venting here and reblogging a bunch of shit, and yeah that's ab it. 😀