“I am thankful that we crossed paths, because I was stuck in a shitty town, being faced with shitty struggles, and I found something that shouldn’t have even been in this place. Something bigger than this ugly town, something bigger than this little house, and something much, much bigger than me. And we were great, weren’t we? It was great, wasn’t it? The stars were always brighter when you were around, and the crickets were louder, and the air was fresher, and me, well I was happier. The happiest I could be, but everything started working against us. months went by, and all we could do was worry and argue and although the love wasn’t gone, you would have guessed it was. But it wasn’t, it was so strong. Strong enough to keep us both coming back even though we were completely miserable, and now I’m sitting here, sad, and happy, and confused, because the love of my life is in someone else’s arms. But maybe she’s more gentle, and you don’t have to worry about her letting go. You don’t have to worry about crazy feelings and changing emotions. You don’t have to worry about anything you did with me, because she isn’t someone you have to tame. She isn’t wild, and she isn’t dramatic, and she isn’t raw. The only thing we have in common is our blonde hair, and even hers is lighter. All I can say is I’m sorry. But I can’t do anything about it, I can’t lighten up. I am wild and I am dramatic and I am raw. And someone someday will love that. The way my hair frizzes in the morning. the way I get passionate about little things. The way my emotions drive me in certain directions and the way I give so much affection. Because though you saw these things as flaws, this person is going to see it as something they’ve spent years searching for. But still, don’t think I will forget about you. Who could forget someone who brought all four seasons to someone at once. The warmth, the cold, the beautiful, the ugly. You brought me everything, you made me feel alive.”
— I wrote this a few months ago but never posted it so (via drinkt0forget)
