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Can I be this person forever?

Spring has yet to sweep through, the frost still setting into my brittle and aging bones.. I find my heart full of love. The one I once wept hundreds upon thousands of tears for has finally returned my affections.. The hole in my gut remains even still, and as he promises to bring forth his love to me this coming spring, my deep unsettlement has only grown.

I used to take pride in being the disdainful and bitter friend. I had found such peace among the pain, the chaos, the anger. And yet he has the audacity to fill my very soul with honey, with sugar, with love.

It sickens me so, how I can find myself smiling at any given moment because thoughts of his laugh have seeped into my skull, and the quiet whispers of thoughts of our future become much harder to ignore..

In the past, I've been little more than an obstacle. An argumentative, hot blooded bitch with an answer for everything.. and I miss it.. alas, he's made me sweet.. approachable, even. But is it me..?

Can I be this person.. forever?

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So I would become a star for you, Forever floating in the endless blue. Maybe then you would see me, maybe then you would hear. Everything I do, I do for you, my dear. I think that maybe, if I'm a star.. Perhaps I can remind you how special you are. You've never looked at me like you've looked at the sky. I know what I look like, so there's no question why. So I'll take off my shoes, and I'll step off the ledge. Know that is isn't your rejection that pushed me to the edge, This is no tragic story, I promise it could be worse. My soul above the clouds, my body in a hearse. I do this for you, dear. To bring you a smile. To finally see you happy, if just for a while.. And so, I guess I'll trade bleeding for burning. And you'll be happy, though my world has stopped turning. I'll watch over you every night.. Seeing you safe will be such a delight. No more tears, and no more sorrow. There'll be a new star in the sky before tomorrow. One more cut... Yes, I think this will do. Even as I bleed out, all I can think of is you.

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If you're like me, you'll one day notice that all of your friends love you..

But none of them like you.

For some people, that may be a lonely feeling.. but not for me. I relish in my general unlikeability.. I've never strived to please others. If someone genuinely cares for me knowing who I really am without sugar coating my thoughts, I think that makes me pretty lucky.. Being myself and loved for it. Or despite it.. either way, doesn't it prove that you're really worth it..?

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I feel very strongly.. That if you know someone named Ashton...

You need to punch them.

Right now.

As hard as you can.

+10 points if he has long hair.

Enjoy- SirenBites

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A Whisker Away

I watched the anime movie, "A Whisker Away" today.. I loved it so much, but I don't know if it made me really happy or really bummed.. I think the main character reminds me a lot of myself when I was young.. So eager to please everyone though I was certain nobody wanted me around.. smile through the pain, that's what I always thought was best.. I've changed a lot since then, but one thing has remained the same. I want to disappear. Nothing good ever comes of me.. I break everything I touch.. I'm unyieldingly violent and salty.. And me simply being myself is what drives everyone away. I'm terrified of adulthood swiftly approaching. I'm a shut in.. I despise People, and socialization makes me gag.. but I long for a connection like the one between Hinode sunrise and Muge.. I first watched the movie and thought I was simping for Hinode sunrise.. but I don't think so. I usually go for characters like Bakugou and Isaac Foster.. I think what really appeals to me about Hinode is the connection between him and Muge.. The fact that I feel like he could love me if I turned into a cat like Muge did.. I'm a reluctant hopeless romantic, and it seems there's no changing it.. My constant wish to escape the mundane.. to escape my problems.. I think that's what draws me to it.. It's a really amazing movie and I liked it a lot.. But my childhood trauma wasn't ready to unpack all this.. ^^; I'm SirenBites, and this is the very start of my blog.