A Whisker Away
I watched the anime movie, "A Whisker Away" today.. I loved it so much, but I don't know if it made me really happy or really bummed.. I think the main character reminds me a lot of myself when I was young.. So eager to please everyone though I was certain nobody wanted me around.. smile through the pain, that's what I always thought was best.. I've changed a lot since then, but one thing has remained the same. I want to disappear. Nothing good ever comes of me.. I break everything I touch.. I'm unyieldingly violent and salty.. And me simply being myself is what drives everyone away. I'm terrified of adulthood swiftly approaching. I'm a shut in.. I despise People, and socialization makes me gag.. but I long for a connection like the one between Hinode sunrise and Muge.. I first watched the movie and thought I was simping for Hinode sunrise.. but I don't think so. I usually go for characters like Bakugou and Isaac Foster.. I think what really appeals to me about Hinode is the connection between him and Muge.. The fact that I feel like he could love me if I turned into a cat like Muge did.. I'm a reluctant hopeless romantic, and it seems there's no changing it.. My constant wish to escape the mundane.. to escape my problems.. I think that's what draws me to it.. It's a really amazing movie and I liked it a lot.. But my childhood trauma wasn't ready to unpack all this.. ^^; I'm SirenBites, and this is the very start of my blog.