under corsican stars,

“Deliberately now, smashed a figurine of an ox for the next note, then a milkmaid, then Saturday's Child-orgy of shrapnel filled the air, divine harmonies my head.”

[zmeess]

sword and shield

tip jar!

[ruporas]

sleep a little longer (id in alt)

[mandrake-arya]

There's nothing to see there Olly just fell asleep

[wolfythewitch]

Little spark

[sirree]

so tired! so sad! watching everyone live the simple ideal dream and here i am, no closer to anything and fighting off loneliness every turn of the way. somedays i love how my life isn't a perfect cookie cutter one and somedays i wish i could've just been a normal basic bitch who didn't try to rock the boat with their existence

[sirree]

a friend of mine saw me disengaging from a conversation this morning and texted me about it after and I immediately burst into tears because this is reality! I can't hear as well as I want to and unfortunately this is how my life will be shaped from now on.

offhandedly the topic came up the day before and I didn't know how to say well if I was hard of hearing and I was in a social setting, I'd be pretty fucking miffed sitting there being unable to engage in a conversation or the world thinking lipreading is an exact, easy science.

between life being a bag of dicks i think the fear of isolating from society as a result of being hard of hearing is just terrifying to contend with. and I'm tired! tired!

[say0ranarts]

3.5🌸

[sirree]

x

there's this local sharing about being 35 up and single and man. man. it's real. I've learned to be so content with my solitude. I bumped into my prof at a friend's wedding and he asked what's new. idk how to respond to that. nothing is new. yet everything is new. I'm still in the same stage of life, struggling through the system and trying to carve my own place to live in a land scarce country. I've jumped a bunch of companies and struggling with the uncertainty. I have an amazing support system of friends. friends beyond the past 4 years are a little hazy these days because we're low maintenance. I'm not any closer to being married than I was before. life doesn't have crazy updates the way I wish they could be.

this weekend I craved the company of someone who would give me undivided attention. or could celebrate the little ups and downs that life has been tossing my way. everyone is off being a main character in their own lives, and it makes me think how nice it would be to be indulged without feeling like I'm imposing on friends who have their own lives outside of me.

there are days these moments come and pass. gotta let it roll off my back, pick myself up and be content with the chaos of my life.

[userparamore]

CONCLAVE (2024) + LETTERBOXD REVIEWS

[jps-lotus-fan-85]

@zweizimtsterne

[fairweathermyth]

BLACK DOVES 1.01 ⌁ To Love Then + 1.04 ⌁ Go Bang Time

[chevs-and-spiders]

sometimes u just need a fancy essek 

[mafuyuh]

THE BOY AND THE HERON (2023) | Teaser Trailer dir. Hayao Miyazaki (Studio Ghibli)

[yuramoonbow]

the god of death, the god of art

[elivanto]

OUR FLAG MEANS DEATH 2.07 MAN ON FIRE

[sirree]

watched past lives and it was freeing. i've let myself be a hae sung for the past 3? 4? years and it was the closure i needed to resolve for myself. i think about texting the nora of my life and going "hey. this reminded me a lot of what we had." but what would that serve? why dredge up a memory that is best left a memory?

against my better instincts, a few days later i downloaded an app and tried. made a conscious effort to try. to hold conversation, to enjoy the company of strangers, to put myself out there in the world. it's scary. still is. terrified of what happens when i put my asexuality out there, too. it's all uncomfortable to navigate. but i used to say that if i wasn't uncomfortable, i wasn't learning. and maybe that's the same here. i want to say at least i've tried.

[crucifiix]

[maskedchip]

[surpriseimbored]

Next wizard I will fixate on