Ruined
Last time I posted I had kept myself in a state of sissy denial for 8 days. Well on that day I had a long edging session, with each edge lasting longer and getting more intense and I was lost in sissy bliss. Unfortunately I misjudged my edge and gave my sissy clittie one stroke too much and found myself sailing over the edge. The orgasmic abyss lasted for what felt like forever and I tried with everything I had to push it back and not spurt out all the cummies I had saved up. I stared at my rigid clittie, hoping the orgasm would fade away and I could keep letting the pressure build, sending me deeper down the sissy rabbit hole. However, my hope turned to despair as the white, creamy sissy cum started flowing out of my clittie. I was so upset, I ruined my orgasm mercilessly, but the deed was done. Despite ruining the orgasm and eating every drop of cum (yummy) the relief let my stupid boy brain return and chase off all the delicious sissy feelings. With the boy brain back in control, I was back to getting off once a day at least, never letting the pressure build up again. However I am back in denial again! All the travel and family visits over the holidays kept me from getting off regularly and the pressure built up enough to get me back into sissy mode! I'm starting day 8 of denial again and it feels amazing. In another day or two I am going to be fucking my sissy pussy every day trying to achieve an anal only orgasm and my goal is to not cum until I achieve it. I will keep you all posted. I'm sorry if this doesn't make much sense but I wanted to let you know that I was still out there and still a sissy...
