27th oct. Sunday morning.
I can hear squirrels in the trees above me talking to one another. The
trees are about 10 yrds from one another and there is a squirrel in
each. The sound they make is a little similar to crows but quieter.
There is also a lot of communication between little song birds. Twittering.
The squirrel knows I am here.
I try copying their sound. Its hard. I think I annoy them in the
process and they retreat further away.
I get a headache. It comes suddenly. I ask my body where the origin of
this head ache came from. I am drawn to by belly. The head ache goes
away.
I hear an alarm call in the SE. Its a blackbird.
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Things go quiet for a while. I close my eyes. I listen. My mind
wanders. I pretend that my deeper worries and troubles are like the
clouds. I let the wind blow them away ...
I open my eyes. I think of my dark and light mirrors. I cry. Again. I
can't remember the last day when I didn't cry.
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I see a dog running along the path at the bottom. I don't see any
owner. My alertness always sharpens when I see a dog because I don't
want them to give my secret spot away to people.
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I become aware of what sounds like foot steps behind me. I think I am
imagining it. I become aware of the sound of the road and the cars on
it. I am intensely aware of the wind. An aeroplane goes overhead. And
another.
I see leaves drifting down around me. Fluttering down to the ground. I
hear them pitterpatter as they land, falling as gentle as snowflakes.
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I see the same dog run back along the path. Again no sign of the owner.
A bird in the SE has started chirping. I'm not sure what this sound is
or means. Its a repetative sound, it doesn't sound distressed, but
maybe slightly worried- like its calling out for something, or seeking
and answer to its call.
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I hear calls from behind. A lady. Calling after something.
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The weather to me is the external embodiment of emotion. The wind is
anger, restlessness, irritation, the wind is desire. With each proud
gust helping the trees to let go of what needs to be let go of, so
that they can start afresh when the time is ready.