okay so this has been a long time in coming so i’m just gonna write and log back off. you’ve probably noticed that I’ve hardly been on since the new school year, and now I’m making it official: I’m quitting tumblr.
This website is fucked up and I’ve got to go. People here, people I used to be friends with and have fun talking to, it isn’t possible to talk with any of them, it isn’t possible to hold a single conversation with them. They’re so intensely focused on SJW issues, issues that don’t fucking matter in real life, and can’t get out of that mindset. They’re impossible to have fun with, they’re offended by everything, this hivemind of a website fucked with and brainwashed people who i used to think were really smart. I’m not immune to it either. When I used tumblr actively, a few hours a day, I’d go watch the news, go to school, talk with my parents, and i’d be constantly offended and short tempered and i wouldn’t listen to people and I constantly argued with anything. I read into shit that didn’t mean anything but ignored anything that was actually relevant because it made me **uncomfortable**. Since i’ve gotten off and stopped using it, I feel like I can think clearly. Sometimes I see some Tumblr Vitriol on twitter or wherever and I clearly see the bullshit and not get caught up in it.
The next problem is this website is addictive, like i mentioned above, I used to spend at least a few hours a day on here. I wouldn’t do homework or walk my dog or play guitar, cause I was on here. I’d be on here so often, it got really hard to socialize and talk to other people, outside of a few friends, I would have anxiety attacks if I had to talk to other people. Now that I’m in 11th grade, and that shit has to stop. I don’t have time to waste and I’ve got to stay on top of homework, i’ve got responsibilities and family and real life friends. My friends and I, we help each other in school, we work out after school, and joke around like real friends do, without being offended. As much as I appreciate my internet friends, I need real life connections. I need to talk to my friends in between classes, I need to spend weekends with my girlfriend, I need to be close to my family. I’m no epitome of social grace, i’m still pretty fucking awkward and introverted, but since i’ve gotten off, and forced myself to socialize, it got easier and less stressful. I can make phone calls, go to the store, talk to strangers when I need to, and feel confident, or at least not terrible. Sometimes I even strike up conversation with people if I feel really good
All-in-all, I feel happier since i’ve gotten off. Sure, i miss the memes and keeping up with pop culture, but it isn’t really worth it anymore. Getting off tumblr is the best thing I could reccomend to anyone. i won’t be deleting this blog but i won’t ever be logging on.
This is a shitty broken website, populated largely by shitty people. Good-bye.
I will be occasionally posting on my photography blog here
i use other social media fairly often
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