~Skhigh~

25~Pisces~born a Carolina girl~

[fangirl-in-a-world-full-of-books]

“I hope she’ll be a fool – that’s the best thing a girl can be in this world, a beautiful little fool.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

[remanence-of-love]

[latibule-e-deactivated20231012]

— Chelsea Wolfe, from “Sick.”

[destv-sky]

[skhighshine]

Aaannd ya bitch is back. Just fir the fun stuff tho.

[perfectquote]

“I am so afraid of disappointing the people I love, I often forget that I am someone I love too. And I need kindness just as much as I believe the people I love do.”

— Nikita Gill

[skhighshine]

You will not kill yourself.

??

[duncethepartyraft]

I think I'm scared. It's always one thing to have these thoughts and plan everything out carefully, guaranteed death, but its another to actually go through with it. I think I'm scared because if I fail then I'm fucked and I'm not sure what to do but I also dont want to do nothing because I'm scared of tomorrow. So I feel stuck I guess.. on one side I feel like saying fuck it and going for the attempt but on the other side im too scared of the consequences but also dont want to see another day.

[skhighshine]

So of course something came up and I wasn't able to follow through. I do see the message and I appreciate it.

The sad part is, I have tried and failed previously I'm Mt life. And I always remember the reassurance of nit having to plan life out. And of course because I was dumb I am now in yet another shithole situation where my life, money, soul is being drained into someone who has litterally at the point paraded the side bitch around in front of all while still using me like a safety net. And alas of course I am unable to leave. So now do we understand. Not only am I living this life on constant repeat but its so fucking shameful. I am so ashamed to be here. I don't want this life and I'm moving on.

[fightingthosedemons-deactivated]

[a-sad-girls-world-deactivated20]

that kind of anxiety that's not a panic attack but just a constantly racing heart and the feeling that you did something wrong or that something isn't right is just plain awful

[poems-and-word]

Poems & Words

[frostklamm]

every day ever after

[jocdaily]

Jungleland (2019)

[skins-generation-two-deactivate]

wow

[kayascodeliaro]

“From the moment I saw you, I knew it’d be the closest I’d get to being… close. I didn’t know what to do with that feeling. Happiness… But they know now and they’re hungry. Really fucking hungry! Because, for as long as I know, they’ve been chasing me. And now they’re ready, now they’re strong enough to break through. And I can’t fight them. I used to be able to when I was strong but… you’ve made me weak.” Skins UK (2007-2013)

[skhighshine]

I know and understand that people grow and change but its still so hard to wrap your head around why it was okay for someone to treat you one way and someone else completely different.

It seems like I always show up in peoples lives at the time that they are at their worst. And I get the shit end of every deal. And then later on after I get kicked to the ground for years by all these people, they go on with their lives and are great and all that shit and I get to deal with the fucking trauma they caused. I'm all for people being happy and I would never wish the things people have done to me on others. But what did I do ti deserve that? Where's the "glow up" for all the shit I took from people.