my diary

[skinniewhore]

breakfast — monster (10)

lunch — monster (10)

dinner — 8 pieces spicy sushi (180)

total: 200

had a bad day at work today. i’m not even hungry. i’m going to go to sleep. i’m tired

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yesterday 1/4/21

breakfast — monster (10)

lunch — monster (10), spicy crab roll sushi (180)

dinner — crunchwrap supreme (530)

total: 730

hung out with a friend & didn’t get home til late so i went to sleep almost as soon as i got home. i ended up losing another pound. :)

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was at a plateau for a couple days which was rly discouraging, especially when i’m not eating a lot. i went out with a friend last night & pigged out, woke up & weighed myself & i ended up losing weight. :)

[skinniewhore]

breakfast — oatmeal on toast (280)

lunch — chicken noodle soup (220)

dinner — pizza lunchable (260)

total — 760

i’m really hungry today. it was a stressful day at work but when i got off i dyed my hair & pierced my nose lol. i have a “date” tmrw so i won’t be able to track any calories but hopefully i don’t eat too much

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don’t forget to hydrate urself & take a multivitamin. love u guys <3

[skinniewhore]

breakfast — monster (10)

lunch — clam chowder soup (210)

dinner — two grilled cheeses (300)

total: 520

wasn’t very hungry today. going out on a “date” on sunday so i’m scared to eat but i don’t want to seem rude or uninterested by not eating. ugh

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i’m not happy

[skinniewhore]

breakfast — two bagel thins (220), hard boiled egg (60)

lunch — eight pieces spicy sushi (180), monster (10)

dinner — two flour tortillas (160), refried beans (160), parmesan (5)

total: 795

i wasn’t going to eat today but since i didn’t gain any weight from my binge yesterday, i decided against it. but i’m having a pretty bad day today. i’m rly tired from not eating enough calories, which is making me very irritable & snappy. i keep telling myself this is only temporary. i won’t have to do this forever, just until i’m skinny. it’s worth it....i hope.

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uhm so i binged last night. ate like four white chocolate macadamia nut granola bars.....but i weighed myself this morning after putting new batteries in my scale & i’ve gone from 166.0 to 162.2 ?!? i think my scale was giving me the wrong number bc of the low battery but at the same time I DONT WANT TO BELIEVE IT

update: talked to my dad. scale is right. holy fuck.

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whenever i binge, i always feel like i’ve failed. i told myself to not eat & i couldn’t even complete that. fuck.

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i got high. i might binge. fuck.

[skinniewhore]

breakfast — two bagel thins (220), boiled egg (60)

lunch — eight pieces spicy sushi (180), monster (10)

dinner — two flour tortillas (160), refried beans (90), parmesan cheese (7)

total: 717

didn’t rly feel like eating today bc i didn’t have much of an appetite since my bf & i broke up but this is just going to give me the motivation i need to lose weight

update: ate a macadamia nut granola bar (260) total: 977

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three of my coworkers & both of my parents told me that i look like i’m losing weight. god, that makes me feel so good.

[skinniewhore]

breakfast — 2 bagel thins (220), hard boiled egg (60), monster (10)

lunch — chicken noodle soup (130), two cheesy garlic breadsticks (180)

dinner — two flour tortilla bowls (160), refried beans (160), parmesan cheese (5)

total: 905

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chewed & spit out some chocolate. i feel rly gross now. wish i didn’t do it but glad the craving of the taste of chocolate is gone.

[skinniewhore]

breakfast — hot apple cider (15), bagel w/ no calorie spray butter (230)

lunch — veg soup (190), two cheesy garlic breadsticks (180)

dinner — pasta zero (90), pasta sauce (90), parmesan cheese (20)

total: 815

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last night i had a dream that i ate *so* much food & felt extremely guilty for it. oh i am so fucking relieved to wake up & realize it was only a dream.

weighed myself this morning, i’ve lost two pounds.