SkinnyBoyCole

Icon * Writing Blog * Skeptical Wiccan A narcissist writes here.

[skinnyboycole]

I guess someone else agrees with me.

[skinnyboycole]

I was fucking working on a drawing on Goggles and some asshole erased it before I could take a screenshot or anything.

You people are the worst fucks in the world. 

[cosmic-storm]

~ W.B. Yeats

[skinnyboycole]

I really want to start writing again, but there's a mental block.  It's just completely taken over.  No muse, no hope.

[skinnyboycole]

When I was younger, I was totally all for abandoning the house at any time to go out.  Coffee pot on?  Something in the oven?  Neh, I need to eat burgers for hours with my friends at the McD's.

Now that I'm older, I could be sitting in my car and suddenly I begin to worry that my completely capable husband might burn himself cooking because the oil will EXPLODE.

[skinnyboycole]

Welp, I've started losing followers, and no more anon messages.  I guess my fire is gone online too. 

[shawnbyonkey]

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David Bowie - All the Madmen

[i-m-achloe]

I’m friends with the monster That’s under my bed Get along with the voices inside of my head You’re trying to save me Stop holding your breath And you think I’m crazy Yeah, you think I’m crazy.

[skinnyboycole]

I hate it when I feel this way.  I have a million thoughts and emotions running around in my head, like a tornado.  Yet when I sit down to try and sort them out, they all become one singular lump in my chest. 

But the worst part is the way you tell me this is "normal" for someone like me -- that you've seen it a "million times." 

I don't care if I'm unique or not, but I'd like to think that you're seeing me as a person and not a statistic.

[skinnyboycole]

I think the worst part about growing up is the dawning realization that if you'd only been born in a different time, or a different place, you'd be an entirely different person.

It fucks you up.

[jeanssenpai-blog]

repeat after me

eridan doesn’t love buckets

buckets scare them

buckets aren’t cool

eridan isn’t forever alone

eridan isn’t weak

eridan loved feferi in the begining

eridans jealousy got to him

[aquarian-emissary]

bless you

[cerulean-aries]

addendum: eridan is a fucking badass

[dirkxcaliborn]

Eridan didn’t kill feferi or sollux out of “jealousy”

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- Feferi tried to kill Eridan and Eridan acted in self defense

- Sollux started the fight at the lab

[skinnyboycole]

Eridan is about as much of a "fucking badass" as I am.  He's a 13-year-old egotistical narcissist who plotted the genocide of his friends and people multiple times, and then whined when they didn't want to hang out with him. 

He didn't kill Sollux at all.  He didn't kill Feferi out of jealousy, but also not out of self-defense.  It isn't self-defense when you start the fight, which leads to the final point:  

SOLLUX DIDN'T START THE FIGHT.  

Sollux and Feferi were talking when Eridan marched in and announced that he was going to switch sides and that he wanted Feferi to join him.  Feferi, the other seadweller, because he was -- again -- plotting the genocide of the land dwellers.

Imagine Hitler walking into a Jewish bar and finding that one pureblood German girl he had a crush on to tell her he was going to set up the concentration camps.  Now we have Sollux -- the Jew she's flirting with -- who has a choice to make: quietly presume Hitler is just joking around despite all signs pointing to otherwise -- and Hitler's rather disturbing tendency towards violent racism and elitism -- or try to save his friends.

Sollux's reaction to the situation was logical.  He was pulling a gun on Hitler in desperation.  SOLLUX WAS ACTING IN SELF-DEFENSE, but also in defense of all of his friends whose lives were now in danger because of Eridan's imminent betrayal.  Because Sollux had dueled Eridan previously, he thought he had an accurate idea of how strong Eridan was.  He was wrong. 

When Feferi saw Eridan burn out the eyes of her lover and confidant, she interrupted them.  FEFERI WAS ACTING IN SELF-DEFENSE and also to try and save Sollux. 

And then Eridan turned around and straight-up murdered the only hope for Trolls reproduction because he'd murdered his last chance for Seadwellers when he killed the only other one, and had been planning the genocide of the landdwellers since his introduction page.

So no, Eridan is not a badass.  He is a little Hitler; Voldemort.  He is not innocent baby whose life was ruined by Sollux.  He straight up made his own fate with his shitty personality and homicidal complex.  He is only a victim of his own boiling hatred.

[urbanfuck-deactivated20130112]

my mother must be so proud of her lazy, rebellious, anxiety-ridden, depressed, gay child

[skinnyboycole]

And for those who are interested: I'm probably not going to be online a lot.  I'm trying to keep my mind occupied, because right now it's very easy to fall to the dark side. 

I don't think things will be okay.

[skinnyboycole]

I guess it's sweet that he's grown from uncomfortable silence and awkward "no homo" hugs to genuine interest, but goddammit man!! There is a Google and you can use it!

[skinnyboycole]

So I'm helping my sister out around the house and her boytoy has decided that he's going to try and relate to me on "a man's level" by basically asking me every stupid question he comes up with right there:

Do gay men really like penis or is it all about the butts?

Is there anyone you'd go straight for?

If a woman had a big vagina and it looked like a butt, would you fuck her?

If you dated a transman, would you do it up the butt or...?

[skinnyboycole]

Yeah, I'm gonna stay with my sister again for a while. 

[skinnyboycole]

But besides all that, I can't get out of bed most of the time, let alone care for a child! Or a cat!  Is he going to quit his job -- our sole income -- to become a house daddy?  Or are we going to use what limited free money we have -- a.k.a our emergency savings -- to hire a nanny?  Why the fuck are we having this conversation at all?